I’d have bloody well told Hugo where to go! – 17th February 2000

Thursday 17th I didn’t see much of Jake again today. I did find out that Hugo told Sarah that Jake thought my Valentine’s present to him was sweet. Good!

I actually spoke to Hugo myself at lunch. He annoyed me a bit though by telling me that there was no need to keep asking if Jake liked me. I haven’t asked him that at all as far as I know. Then he started going on about me and Jake both being too shy. We can’t help that! If he wasn’t his best mate, I’d have bloody well told Hugo where to go!

He did tell me other, more interesting stuff though. He said that if I ever had to buy Jake a present I should get him something to do with Beetle cars cos he’s obsessed and would be dead pleased according to Hugo.

He also told me that Jake had overheard his parents saying how he’d started going into college earlier since he’d been going out with me and he yelled from the top of the stairs, “Do you want to talk a bit louder?!”

I’ve had texts off Jake tonight too. I started it off again by telling him something that was said today. I put, “HI! SARAH + JULIAN DECIDED THAT IF I GET CAUGHT IN AN AVALANCHE, THEY’RE GONNA SHARE U. SHE WANTS YOUR FRONT HALF + HE WANTS THE BACK!! I’D WORRY! LOVE U, TESS xxx”.

His reply was, “I’M NOT GONNA WORRY COS U AREN’T GONNA GET STUCK IN AN AVALANCE! (THAT WOULD BE JUST MY LUCK!) WHY DOES SARAH WANT PART OF ME? NOW GET PACKING!! LOVE U 2. JAKE xxx”.

I replied, “I AM PACKING (U SOUND LIKE MY MUM)! DIDN’T ASK WHY SARAH WANTED U. MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE! DIDN’T THINK. I COULD HAVE SOME COMPETITION THERE! OR WHAT ABOUT JULIAN?!? LOVE T xx”.

Then he said, “NAAHH! YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE FOR ME, NOT THAT I’M HOMOPHOBIC OR DON’T ENJOY THE THOUGHT OF A THREESOME WITH SARAH + HUGO… HONEST! NOW GET PACKING! HUGS N KISSES xx”.

I replied, “OH I SEE, SO THAT’S WHAT YOU’LL B GETTING UP 2 WHEN I’M NOT HERE TMW NIGHT!!! R U GOING OUT ANYWHERE? I’M SO FED UP. I CAN’T FIND HALF THE STUFF I’M MEANT 2 B TAKING! xx : )”.

His next message to me said, “NO I’M NOT DOING ANYTHING TMW NIGHT APART FROM PACKING + THINKING OF U STUCK ON THAT COACH. ANYWAY ALL MY MONEY IS IN FRANCS, NOT MUCH USE HERE xx”.

Later on, I sent him one saying, “FINISHED PACKING! I BET I’VE 4GOTTEN SOMETHING! JUST HAD A PANICKED MESSAGE FROM SARAH COZ HUGO RANG + SAID HE LOVED HER. U THINK HE’S BEING SERIOUS? HE’S ONLY SEEN HER ONCE!”

Then I got this message from his phone, “BOO, I WANT U NOW BABY YEAH!!! FROM MASON!” + then an apology from Jake saying, “SORRY THAT WAS MASON – WE’RE AT WORK! I THINK THE PROBLEM IS THAT HE’S NOT SEEN HER SINCE + DOESN’T WANT TO LOSE HER – AS FOR LOVE, IT’S PROBABLY MORE LIKE LUST! LOVE x”.

I reckon it’s the same with Jake. Mind you, he’s only actually mentioned love in texts so I suppose it’s a bit different.

I’m going skiing tomorrow! YEAHHH!!! I’m going to really miss Jake though.

Bye!

 

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I can’t concentrate on anything at the moment! – 13th February 2000

Sunday 13th I’m probably going to fail my A Levels because of Jake! I can’t concentrate on anything at the moment! I’ve had so much work this weekend and I’ve not finished any of it!

I had a Swing Band concert at the Royal Northern College of Music this afternoon. It was really boring. Charlie Wilson came and sat next to me on the coach on the way back and every so often asked me a question about Jake, like had I been in his car yet?

I’ve had messaged from Hugo Pratt today. The first said, “HI TESS. HAVE U SPOKEN 2 JAKE LATELY? I’M NOT BOTHERED ABOUT THIS FLOYD BECAUSE I KNOW SARAH WANTS ME MORE + I REALLY LIKE HER SO MUCH.” Then I got another straight after saying, “HI AGAIN. I THINK U + JAKE MAKE A LOVELY COUPLE WELL SUITED TO EACH OTHER, WHAT DO U THINK OF ME + SARAH, WE’RE GOING OUT YIPEEEE!”

I think she and Floyd would’ve made a better couple but I didn’t tell Hugo that. I just said they made a great couple or something. I suppose the situation’s better though because Sarah and I are good mates and so are Jake and Hugo.

I also had a phone call from Hugo this evening. He didn’t say much (other than about Sarah) except that Jake really likes me and wants to go further with me but is too shy. Well, I’m glad he’s too shy for the time being then!

I got another message from Hugo then saying, “HI TESS HOW R U? I SPOKE 2 JAKE. HE REALLY DOES LIKE U A LOT. SO HEY WHAT R U DOING?”

Not long ago tonight, I got a message from Jake. He said, “HI IT’S ME, HAVE U GOT A FREE PERIOD TOMORROW MORNING OR DO U HAVE SPORTS STUDIES?? I CAN’T REMEMBER! SEE YOU IN THE MORNING!! LOVE YOU LOADS JAKE xxx :)”. I sent him a reply saying I hadn’t got a free 1st and I put “LOADSA LOVE TESS xxx 🙂 xxx” at the end because he’s put stuff like that.

I’m absolutely dreading tomorrow! I’m worried about giving him his present, I’m worried about what he’s got me and I’m worried about what I tell my parents when I get in!! HELP!!!

Bye!

I’m going to end up really, really liking him – 6th February 2000

Sunday 6th My sister spoke to Jacqueline again today and she had more to tell me about Jake. She said that a while back, some girl in their year called Leah Moore had asked Jake to meet (snog) her. Samantha Breck told him not to do it and he said, “I won’t. Do you think I’m stupid? I don’t want to ruin my chances with Tess.”

Also, Samantha asked him if he knew me or if he’d ever spoken to me and he must have told her we didn’t really speak and she said to Jac that he just can’t stop looking at me or something!

I really can’t believe all this! I had no idea he liked me. Mind you, he probably doesn’t now after I got drunk on Friday!

That was the good stuff but Abby also told me he’s going off to be a ski instructor in Canada for a year when he’s done his A Levels. That’s not very far off. I can predict now that I’m going to end up really, really liking him and then ending up getting hurt. I can’t worry about that now though. I’m better off taking each day as it comes.

AAARRGGHHH!!! College tomorrow!

BYE!

The Love Web of Doom – 2nd February 2000

Wednesday 2nd It’s James Douglas’s (or Dougie, as he’s more commonly known) birthday today but I forgot. I was going to get a card for him from the petrol station when I skived Biology (because they got the locusts out. AARRGGHH!!) but I got side-tracked doing ‘The Love Web of Doom’ on the whiteboard in our common room with Cat so, in the end, I forgot again! I just wished him happy birthday instead.

The Love Web of Doom (as it was named by Gethin) is just a daft thing we’ve been doing in free periods when we’re bored. We write a name and then draw lines from that person to link them to other people who they fancy or have snogged and then the same for those other people. We filled the whole board.

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There was a link from me to this lad called Nathan (who I snogged) and from him to Emma also (because she’s snogged him too) and at break we caught Patrick Campbell changing Nathan’s name to his own. Stuart Hobbs told us that it’s because he wishes Emma and I fancy him!

I sent another text to Reevesy today out of pure boredom. It said, “HELLO! I’M BORED SO I THOUGHT I’D JUST TEXT U. ROSES R RED, MY COAT IS BLACK, I WANT U 2 HAVE ME, FLAT ON MY BACK!! TEXT ME BACK I CAN’T STAND THE BOREDOM! TESS xxx” I got one back saying, “OK! BUT U BETTER GIVE A GOOD RIDE!”

After I got that, the thought of Reevesy totally repulsed me so I sent him one back saying, “I’M SORRY! I DIDN’T SEND THAT LAST MESSAGE. IT’S TRUE I’M BORED THOUGH COS I’M STUCK IN A LESSON. I’D BETTER GO B4 TEACHER SEES ME DOING THIS! FEEL FREE TO TEXT ME. xx” A while layer I got a rather odd message from his phone saying, “KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY LOVER. HE’S MINE BITCH!” Hmmm… it’s got to have been one of his mates because I doubt he’s got a girlfriend!!

BYE!

I’m a bit worried that he thinks I actually fancy him – 1st February 2000

Tuesday 1st Hayley told me this morning that, on the phone to Andy last night, their conversation had got onto their mates. First he asked her which of his mates she’d like if he wasn’t around and then she asked him the same question. Apparently he said, “That one you’re always with is nice.” She asked if he meant me and he said he did. That was quite a nice start to the day!

I received a text from Zoe this morning which said, “WILL U DO ME A FAVOUR? IT’S REVENGE AGAINST REEVESY!” I sent her one back asking why and what exactly she wanted me to do. She replied, “JUST WIND HIM UP! HE’S BEEN SUCH A BASTARD 2 ME! JUST SAY U LIKE HIM OR SOMETHING.”

I nearly didn’t do anything because I thought it’d be a bit mean but then I got bored in a free lesson so I texted him. I didn’t put anything serious though. I said, “HELLO! JUST THOUGHT I’D TEXT U + DECLARE MY UNDYING LOVE 4 U! ROSES R RED, MY UNDERWEAR’S BLUE, I’D TAKE IT OFF, JUST 4 U!! LOVE TESS xxx”. I didn’t expect a reaction but I got one. He sent me a text back saying, “YEH, LUV U 2”.

I got bored again after lunch so I phoned his phone to see if it was switched on then I’d know if he could get more messages. I forgot to do 141 before dialling his number though so it wasn’t anonymous. I got a text later saying, “I’M IN LESSONS + CAN’T TALK RING ME AT 1. REEVESY”. When I didn’t ring at 1:00 he sent a text saying, “FONE ME” so now I’m a bit worried that he thinks I actually fancy him. Believe me, I don’t!

This evening, the whole family and Rosie (our Scottie dog) went to visit my Grandma S. to check she could work her new fire. It’s Amir’s birthday today (he’s 17) so while I was there I sent him a text saying, “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (DON’T WORRY, I’M NOT STALKING U! LIZZIE TOLD ME.) HAVE FUN! LUV TESS xxx”. Later, I got one back saying, “CHEERS!” I don’t know why but it made me smile. [I fancied him, that’s why.] I suppose I didn’t think he’d answer but he did.

BYE!

I’ve reached my full potential – 28th January 2000

Friday 28th I was informed by Hayley and Lizzie at college today that at bowling, as I bent over to bowl, Stuart Hobbs said, “She’s got a nice arse!” Also, Freda is said to have agreed with him! She probably did because she’s been pretending (we think!) that she fancies me for a while now! Why did it have to be Stuart who said that? He’s a geek! Just my luck! [I was desperate for geek attention a few days before!]

I went to the cinema tonight with Lizzie, Cat, Hayley, Emma, Gethin and Big Paul. We went to see the film ‘Stigmata’. It was a bit weird but quite good. Afterwards, Emma, Gethin, Big Paul and I went back to Emma’s village. Gethin went home but the rest of us went in The Plough for a drink. Emma and Big Paul are sort of a couple so I was actually quite glad when Stuart and Brian Short turned up.

We got talking about Valentine’s Day and somehow got onto the subject of Patrick Campbell. I was then told by Stuart that Patrick used to ‘have a thing’ for me and was always saying that I had really nice eyes.

Later on, a large crowd arrived from The Dog which included my sister. She’s going to be embarrassed tomorrow because she started talking to Pallav, Jez and Robert (who are in my year) and then telling them all she fancies Powell Manning who they’re mates with. Ha ha ha!!! It serves her right for getting drunk!

BYE!

P.S. Just remembered – Emma was saying how my hair looked nice and she said that this American lad, Davis Nolan, agreed. She said he’s been saying for ages that I had serious potential to look good and now I’ve reached my full potential. Nice of him to say so [hmmm], it’s just a shame he’s not someone I fancy as usual!

Totally unnecessary and totally pathetic! – 13th December 1999

Monday 13th The weekend has not put a stop to Hayley’s pathetic attempts to wind me up. This morning she was giving out Xmas cards very obviously by yelling the person’s name and stating that she had a card for them before flinging it across the room. Many came in my direction, some of which hit me followed by the comment, “Ha ha!! That was a good throw!” from the Twisted Bitch herself but none of them were for me. She didn’t give Lizzie one either. Sad cow!

Even though she’s not given me a card, I’m giving her one because otherwise it’ll only be an excuse to slag me off. If I didn’t then she’d make sure everyone knew about it whereas the fact she didn’t give me one will probably go unnoticed because I’m not going to make a big fuss about it.

She also had a dig at Lizzie in a room full of people today as well. A lot of people suspect that Gethin might fancy Lizzie so today Gethin said, “I don’t fancy you Lizzie.” Hayley heard this and yelled, “Oh well, Lizzie thinks everybody fancies her!” That was totally unnecessary and totally pathetic!

I managed to block the SIM card on Lizzie’s phone today by trying to guess the pin number one too many times. She was pissed off to start with but, unlike Hayley, was back to normal with me about 10 mins later. And people wonder why I’m better mates with Lizzie than Hayley! I was worrying about the phone all day because I thought she might not get it sorted but thankfully she did.

I saw the gorgeous Riley tonight. I’ve not seen him for ages because his family moved to a different area of his village but he was at the infants Xmas party at the primary school tonight. I went along to help my mum sort the kids out and he went to watch his brother who’s in my mum’s class. Riley’s still fit as ever!

I sent Brett a message today to do with the Zoe situation. It said, “HEARD ABOUT U + ZOE. SO MUCH 4 IT TAKING 18 MONTHS TO GET OVER LIZZIE! SO WHAT’S GOING ON? U SEEING HER OR WHAT? LUV TESS P.S. I DON’T REALLY CARE, I’M JUST BEING NOSEY!!”

I got one back from him later saying, “SHE TOLD ME IT’S GOOD THERAPY 2 MEET [snog] SOMEONE. IT JUST MADE IT WORSE. I STILL MISS LIZZIE EVEN MORE NOW BUT I CAN’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. MY LIFE IS FUCKED, I SHOULDN’T HAVE DONE IT.”

So I sent him another saying, “YOUR LIFE IS NOT FUCKED! IT’S ONLY LIZZIE 4 GOD’S SAKE! YOU’RE RIGHT, U CAN’T DO OWT BUT U’LL GET OVER IT. THERE’S PLENTY OF OTHER GIRLS ABOUT e.g. ZOE. U LIKE HER DON’T U?” That may have sounded a bit harsh but he needed telling. Poor lad, I do feel sorry for him.

BYE!