He kept trying to give me love bites – 12th January 2002

Saturday 12th  Jonas came to stay at mine again tonight. He made me drink Lambrini (although I didn’t take much persuading) and then made me a collage of photos of me on my laptop. When we were lying in bed, Jonas said something like, “I wish I could stop thinking about you! I can’t get you out of my head!” 🙂 He then started asking about my fantasies again. I wouldn’t answer so he asked if I’ll tell him if we’re still together after 4 years or if we get married. I said I will. That then led onto him telling me his parents left school at 16, got married at 19 then had him year later.

After that, he started asking questions about periods. It’s not exactly my favourite topic of conversation but never mind. He said he doesn’t mind doing stuff even though I’m on and suggested putting a towel down cos he said Dave used to do that with his girlfriend. Yuck! I refused. He said he just wants to make me happy.

I changed the subject and asked if he’s likely to be gay. He said he isn’t cos he likes me so much and he wouldn’t react to me if he was. Fairy nuff!

He kept trying to give me love bites and when I asked why, he mumbled what sounded like “cos I love you” but when I asked what he said he told me “cos I want to bite you”. Hmm.

He kept cuddling and smiling at me and said he doesn’t want to sleep on his own. He also said, “God damn, you’re beautiful” and “You’re great”. He’s so lovely! 🙂

He printed off a picture of me in a Santa hat saying he’ll need it for when he doesn’t see me. He said I’m not bad at singing and I told him I’m on the pill but said it’s for stomach cramps, not the real reason (spots). He likes the way I look by the sounds of it so I don’t want him to go off me if he thinks I’m going to become hideously ugly. Hopefully he’s not that shallow but you never know and I don’t want to risk it. I also made it clear I don’t want to rely on the pill. He seemed to understand what I meant which is good.


He’ll probably burst – 11th January 2002

Friday 11th  Jonas stayed at mine tonight. We’re much more cuddly now than we used to be and I like it. I was cuddling him whilst stood up and then I moved and he wanted me back.

He told me that on his birthday he only spoke to me cos he was slightly tipsy which gave him a bit more confidence. He also said that he likes people more when he’s drunk (he wasn’t referring to when we met) and his emotions are 10 times what they normally are so he said if he gets drunk with me now he’ll probably burst cos he likes me so much anyway. 🙂 He also said, “You’re great!” out of nowhere. 🙂

He said he doesn’t cross the line to like people more than normal very often but he has with me. He told me I’m irresistible and wants to eat me too, along with saying I have a nice body. I don’t think I’ve ever had so many compliments in such a short space of time as the time I’ve been with him. 🙂

Jonas had an email from Russell saying I was looking fit on the pictures Sarah and Michael have put on the internet.

Jonas said he’s going to miss me when he can’t see me for 3 days when I’m doing exams. I’ll miss him too.


7 = threesome – 10th January 2002

Thursday 10th  I went to Jonas’s tonight cos he’s got E4 on a TV and I wanted to watch Friends and ER. We went in the basement bit to watch it and then something about Linkin Park afterwards. I’ve never been downstairs before. We cuddled on the sofa and he kept me warm.

After watching TV, we went upstairs and Jonas put some snowboarding game on his Playstation. He then said he was going to serenade me and played his guitar at me. I discovered he had a Formula 1 obsession too.

He’s put my photo on the wall and said everyone who’s seen it thought I was pretty but he said I’m prettier in real life. To that I said, “Aww! I like you!” and he said he liked me too, like really seriously as if he really meant it and wasn’t just saying so cos I did first. 🙂 He also said, “How come you’re so sexy?!” to me.

We had another long talk about more stuff when we were in bed. He told me how far he’s got with certain people. We used my system of ‘levels’ that I use with my mates so he could just say a number rather than actually tell me. The levels (or ‘bases’ as he calls them) are:

(My mates have further levels e.g. 6 = up the backside, 7 = threesome etc. but I didn’t mention those!)

Anyway, Jonas said he got to level 3 with some girl called Nicola cos she was naked on his bed but he only did 3 to her, not the other way round. He said when he was 9, some 11 year old girl and he showed each other their bits then lay on each other to try and make a baby. Hmmm!

Jonas asked me if I’d ever been in love. I said yes cos of Jake. He said he thought he had been with a girl called Rhian but wasn’t really. She dumped him after she got back off holiday after going out with him for a few weeks. He said he doesn’t really know what love is yet.

He then asked what my fantasy was. I wouldn’t tell him cos I genuinely couldn’t think but I managed to find out one of his. It was that he was in school and had a girl over a desk while everyone else was working and not noticing. Apparently that was from when he was much younger though. He asked what I liked (as in bed) cos he said he wants to please me but I couldn’t say. Hopefully he’ll work it out.

I asked Jonas if any girl has stood out from the rest. He said I do cos I’m his first proper relationship. He said Jake doesn’t bother him cos he’s laid back about stuff like that. I’m glad really. I also asked if I’d get a mention in conversations with future girlfriends. He said, “Nooo!” I think as in, “No, I don’t want to think about future girlfriends”, not that I wouldn’t get mentioned. I said he’s stuck with me for the time being and he said he doesn’t mind. He said he’d told himself he didn’t want a girlfriend before he met me but he did really cos he wanted someone to hug and stuff.

Later on, he suddenly came out with, “You’ve got really nice breasts” and asked what it feels like to squeeze them. I didn’t answer.

Jonas then tried to tie me up again and give me a lovebite but it didn’t really work.

We were more cuddly tonight than we ever have been before tonight. 🙂


I kept setting fire to things – 9th January 2002 (continued)

Wednesday 9th  Jonas came round to my flat again tonight. We watched TV, listened to music then went to bed. I kept tickling him so he managed to tie my wrists together with our watch straps to stop me and tickle me back. He tried to tie me up with my school tie but didn’t quite manage.

We talked a lot after that about all sorts of stuff. He told me that he thought I wasn’t interested when we met on his birthday. He said I wasn’t speaking much and didn’t make a move (neither did he) and I kept setting fire to things in an ashtray. He said he’d had a crap day until he met me and on his way home, Sid started going on about being the best man at his wedding. I don’t think that was related to me though.

We started talking about people we’ve been with in the past. He said he’s been dumped about 9 times but that’s including when he was little. He said the last person he snogged before me was about 4 and a half months ago. He was 26 and not at uni and she took advantage of his drunken state. He said he was dumped by a girl when he was 10 cos she snogged his best mate in the cloakroom cos Jonas wouldn’t snog her due to him not knowing how to. Ahh! He said he’d fancied her for ages too.

He told me he dumped the girl who he was with for about 3 months cos he never really liked her (she stalked him) and she was a bit tarty. She cried when he dumped her and so did he cos she was. That was the girl whose horoscope he found amusing and also the longest he’s ever been with someone so far. Apparently I’m not the 2nd longest relationship he’s had. He also dumped the girl from Crewe (Natasha who’s Dave’s mate) cos she lived too far away and she hardly spoke when sober.

He asked me questions too such as when, where and who I lost my virginity to. He thought for a minute it was to him cos I wouldn’t answer and was grinning. I told him eventually that it was Jake and also he was the last person I slept with so Jonas now knows my tally and all.

Jonas said his virginity loss was a very scary experience for him. It took me a while to get him to tell me but eventually I found out it happened about 2 weeks before he came to uni (he was 17) at his cousin’s party. Someone set him up with a girl cos they said he couldn’t go to uni a virgin. Anyway, the scary bit was that he started bleeding a lot. He said he was told that it sometimes happens to lads but he said he was very upset and cried and worried for ages afterwards.

He also said he doesn’t want to dump me. GOOD!! 🙂


“I’d just settled the bugger down!” – 7th to 9th January 2002

Monday 7th  I didn’t think Jonas wanted to see me tonight but he did. 🙂 We kissed a lot more than we used to which I liked. I went round to his and he told me as we were lying in bed that I looked a bit like a girl on one of his posters. I thought she was really pretty so I was flattered already but then he said I was prettier. 🙂

Jonas went out to the toilet then came back, snuggled up and said, “Damn you!” to me whilst grinning at me. I asked why and he said, “I’d just settled the bugger down!” Cool!

He told me I’m the first girl that’s been in the bed he’s got now. That’s good!


Tuesday 8th to Wednesday 9th  P. [period]

I was a bit worried on Tuesday cos I should’ve come on my period but didn’t. I’m never normally even a day late. Not that Jonas has ever given me a reason to worry really!

I came on my period in the morning much to my relief and then had to actually get up and out of bed fairly early to meet Jen at uni so we could get some Ecology + Pollution coursework done. We weren’t very successful in that though, as usual!


It’d be easier if everyone was bald – 2nd to 6th January 2002

Wednesday 2nd  I sneaked into the spare room this morning to see Jonas. He was stroking my legs and said “spiky”. Honestly, if he keeps making little comments I’m gonna have to stop him touching me or something!

He told me it cost him £31 to get here on the train but he said he doesn’t mind cos he wanted to come and see me. 🙂

We only snogged when we were at the station. I didn’t really want him to go. He’s put George on his bag with Tigger which is nice.

He was telling me when we were reading our horoscopes that he was once going to dump a girl and her horoscope was something along the lines of that. He said he found it quite amusing apparently.

Mmm Jonas! He’s sooo nice. He’s quite gentle with me too. He kissed me on the forehead and the shoulder and cuddled me a lot. Mmm!


Thursday 3rd  Boring. Nothing worth writing happened.


Friday 4th  Not a lot happened during today but I did The Run [pub crawl] with Cat, Denny, Isaac, Rocky, Neil, Ed and Emma tonight. We all got pissed and it was fun but nothing of major interest happened.


[Me and Denny on that pub crawl. I was probably on the phone to Jonas.]

Sunday 6th Nothing much happened again yesterday but I came back to Huddersfield again today.

I went round to Jonas’s this evening cos I couldn’t wait until tomorrow to see him. I was cold at one point so he said, “Gimme a hug”. He said it wouldn’t make much difference if I was bald cos I was saying how my hair was a mess and it’d be easier if everyone was bald. When I said, “Ugh!” as I caught my reflection in the mirror, Jonas said I’m gorgeous not ugly 🙂 then he tried taking photos of me but his camera thankfully wasn’t working. He wants to keep the picture of me in my school uniform now.

Speaking of that photo, I’ve just remembered he thought he’d left it at someone’s house cos when he was at home he showed ALL his relatives because they were curious. AARRGH!!

Jonas wanted to tie me up at one point and asked if he pinned me down and distracted me would it work. It didn’t. He also asked for a kiss. He got plenty!


He made me drink an entire bottle of Lambrini or two – 31st December 2001 to 1st January 2002

We got home from Scotland in time for New Year’s Eve which I was quite pleased about because I really wanted to see Jonas and I didn’t want to miss out on what all my friends were doing. Mum took me to the station to pick Jonas up at about 5:30pm. I was going to get the bus to save him being in a confined space (i.e. the car) with one of my parents but they weren’t all running. It wasn’t too bad though cos Mum didn’t say anything to embarrass me and neither did Jonas. When he saw me in the station he said, “Yey!” and then went to relieve his bladder behind some bins.

After drinking quite a bit at my house, Michael picked Jonas and me up and we all went round to Isaac’s house for a party. There are many blank bits but from what I do remember…

  • Cat and Karen snogged right in front of Jonas (much to his pleasure).
  • I snogged Jonas lots including when he was on the phone.
  • I spoke to some of his friends/family but haven’t got a clue what I said (Jason and Emma, whoever they are!)
  • Also possibly spoke to his sister.

It’s all Jonas’s fault I can’t remember stuff cos he made me drink an entire bottle of Lambrini or two by refusing to help me get through them.

Jonas had his new lip spike in. It’s not as scary as it sounds and it was actually quite nice kissing him without the ring for a change.

I gave Jonas his Christmas presents too. It was really freaky cos he’d got me a George out of Rainbow too! Except the one he gave me was smaller but I don’t mind. I wasn’t expecting anything.

At the party, Jonas kept talking to Zack Bain for some reason. I spoke to everyone although I can’t remember what about.

Isaac very kindly let Jonas and me have the sofa bed in his room cos he decided to stay in the living room. We went to bed when people had gone home or started falling asleep. Stuff happened. I don’t remember when I fell asleep but I still had no clothes on when I woke up. Jonas kept going under the covers to see too.

When we finally decided to move and see where everyone else was, we went into the living room to find Cat and Aled Brownlee snuggled up under a sleeping bag on the sofa. I later found out she snogged him. Hah! Now she can’t take the piss out of me for snogging him!

Michael and Sarah gave Jonas and me a lift back to mine. We fell asleep on my bed pretty much straight away. When I woke up, I went downstairs to find Auntie G and Grandma S and a proper Christmas dinner. My dad was also there, complete with mangled face. I found out he’d been walking home from the pub and had slipped on the ice and fallen over. He had his hands in his pockets too therefore he landed flat on his face and skidded for a bit. Ow!!

Also, a cupboard door in the kitchen had come off and my parents nearly set fire to the house whilst trying to light a fire.

My Grandma saw Jonas and said he seems very nice. 🙂


Kissed by a Seal on the Nose – 29th & 30th December 2001

Saturday 29th  Rhian wasn’t speaking to me this morning so while she was out of the room I checked her phone for nasty messages about me. All I found was one from Duncan asking for my number.

As today went on, Rhian gradually seemed to forgive me and told me about Duncan’s text. She gave him my number too. I’m glad she’s not pissed off with me anymore. I wouldn’t want to leave tomorrow with her hating me.

Rhian bought a movie soundtracks CD and Kissed by a Seal on the Nose (our version of Kiss from a Rose by Seal) made a comeback from when we were younger. It’s funny!



Sunday 30th  We got up fairly early this morning and said goodbye to everyone (and the snow) before setting off for Stirling.

I had a text from Jonas (but not in reply to mine) saying, “Hello, guess who’s coming 2 c u 2mw?? What u been doing? I’m visiting people with my dad and his girly! X” Yey!! I get to see him tomorrow. 🙂

Mum, so probably Dad too, knows about Jonas. She saw some photos and then I mentioned him coming tomorrow and she asked if I was seeing him. I said I was. I’m a bit scared of him coming as well as excited. I hope everyone likes him but then I don’t see why they wouldn’t. I like him! 🙂


He tried to give her mouth to mouth – 28th December 2001

Friday 28th  I had a really boring day today. Jonas didn’t reply to last night’s text for ages but he eventually did saying he’ll get a train to Warrington Central that should arrive at 6pm. That cheered me up a bit anyway. He’s apparently got no signal at his mum’s which is why he doesn’t reply for ages.

Rhian threw a party tonight. Well, it began as a small gathering but more and more people turned up. It started off fine but as all her stupid 15 year old friends drank more alcohol they started really pissing me off. Their tolerance for alcohol obviously hadn’t developed yet. [I was a seasoned, sophisticated student drinker by now, remember.]

It was a lad called Adrian who annoyed me most, closely followed by Mike (who everyone seems to worship cos he set up supermike.com online so they can all chat – or fall out with your mate Amanda in Rhian’s case). They were sat in Rhian’s room with some other lad having a “serious conversation” and I interrupted by walking in to get my phone. They weren’t too please and kept telling me to get out but all my stuff was in there so I didn’t see why I should. Plus I was kind of enjoying winding them up by sitting on my bed and texting people.

However, Adrian leapt over Rhian’s bed and came right up to my face and yelled at me. I was not going to be bossed around my some pissed little lad so I yelled back. He and Mike then started taking the piss out of English people even though, as I later found out, Adrian’s English himself and was apparently wearing an England shirt at the party. Gimp! I really wanted to smack him one but I opted for “fuck off” and “drop dead” in the end cos I didn’t think Auntie S would be too thrilled with bits of Adrian all over her house.

Adrian then started yelling some date at me (which everyone around him was saying he’d got wrong) and yelling whether I knew what happened last time someone said “drop dead”. Apparently it was when 3 lads were killed in a car when it went over the cliff but how was I meant to know that? He was just using it to try and make me feel guilty and apologise and stuff.

Mum later asked who he was cos he’d been talking to her and she found him really irritating. Ha ha ha!! 🙂 It wasn’t just me then!

While Adrian was yelling at me, Rhian tried to stop us fighting and in the process got “rugby tackled” by some lad called Piffles or something. She lay on the floor wheezing and squealing and saying she’d hurt her back. Manson was running round panicking and Adrian told everyone to give him space and he tried to give her mouth to mouth while she was obviously still conscious and breathing. Tosser.

Okay, maybe she did hurt her back but she landed on a mattress and sat down on it rather than being rugby tackled onto it. I found myself being a total bitch to her cos I was annoyed already and thought she was faking it for attention. Auntie S and Abby didn’t really believe her either but they played along unlike me so I’m not exactly Rhian’s favourite person right now.

Other stuff happened during the evening too. Some lad called Duncan decided he fancied me and picked me up and carried me out of Rhian’s room when I was interrupting her and Manson. He also patted the floor next to him, trying to get me to sit there but I didn’t. He was sweet but Jonas is so worth not snogging anyone else for. Duncan was 17 but didn’t look it. Mind you, people kept thinking I was younger than Abby and someone even said I looked 14!

I started telling people how good uni is and joking about becoming a weather girl. On their way home, 3 lads made me sign their arms with eyeliner, just in case I become famous!

I also shared a fag with Abby, hanging out of Rhian’s window (she found a pack) but, ugh, I won’t be doing it again in a hurry.


I bet he’s changed his mind – 26th & 27th December 2001

Wednesday 26th  I had a really good snowball fight in the road with Tom and his little mate Gordon. I had to stop eventually, even though I was winning, cos Gordon came up behind me and rubbed a snowball in my eye after lobbing it at close range. I really thought I’d gone blind at one point cos my eye was watering loads and I couldn’t open it. I was okay once I got in the house and warmed up a bit though.

I sent Jonas a text warning him I could get stuck in Scotland cos of the weather and he replied saying, “Noooo” and called me “weather girl”. Hee hee! 🙂 (I’ve been saying recently that I want to be a weather girl.) He also said “sister’s suck” and later explained that his is being stroppy cos she’s tired. He’s been playing pool I think he said.

Rhian, Abby and I went online this evening and Alistair Hanson (a lad who’s liked Rhian for ages) was on too. I managed to do a bit of matchmaking which was successful and got them set up together.


Thursday 27th  Abby, Rhian and I went cruising round the town in Hanson’s car this afternoon. He seems really sweet and nice. I bought some trainers in Wick and got Jonas a George from Rainbow for Christmas cos we were saying about George being gay once. It’s actually quite scary looking though!

Jonas texted me saying he got “pants” presents from his dad and asked why I put “hee hee!” at the end of my message about a Christmas pressie. I gave him details about New Year’s Eve but he hasn’t replied. I bet he’s changed his mind about wanting to see me. I hope not.