I hope she wasn’t there. Grrr! – 16th & 17th April 2001

Monday 16th I went to Manchester on the train with Jake today. He got 2 packs of photos back from Canada and we had a minor fall out cos I went all “funny” with him when he got the photos out. I couldn’t help it! He had photos of girls dressed up as cowgirls and stuff which didn’t help but I was just generally feeling left out for some reason.

He got upset in the middle of St Ann’s Square so we ended up making up cos we both felt guilty. He said he’d rather be here with me and that Charlie and Abbi were just nice to him and were the only ones who talked to him about me. I got a wave of jealousy to begin with cos I should’ve been the one talking to him (not about me, obviously!) but now I just want to know what was said!

Jake bought 2 shirts and a pair of short things and I saw the best trainers ever in Shellys! I want them sooo badly but they’re £50. They were so cool! [They weren’t.]

Bye!

Tuesday 17th I went to the Trafford Centre with Jake today to see Bridget Jones’s Diary at the cinema. Sarah and Cat were meant to come too but Sarah let us down at the last minute so Cat didn’t want to come on her own with us. The film was really good but not quite true to the book. I suppose they couldn’t get everything in the film though.

We managed to find Sarah a birthday present too and a card so that was handy cos we probably won’t get another chance to get her anything before next week now.

We got the bus back to the train station near Jake’s BUT the bus didn’t actually stop there cos nobody else was getting off and we didn’t press the buzzer! There were no stops until Warrington after that so we had to get off there. I rang my mum but she made us get the bus home.

Jake got off early to go to The Beech Tree with Ventures. I wasn’t very pleased at that (but I let him) cos I found out from him today that Hannah R fancies/used to fancy him. I hope she wasn’t there. Grrr!

I keep having funny far away/dizzy moments like I did when I was ill again. I had them at the cinema and whilst trying to sleep last night. Weird!

Bye!

What Hugo said was bollocks – 14th & 15th April 2001

Saturday 14th Jake came round today. We got into the subject of his family not liking me and he said it isn’t true and we both got upset over it. He made out that it was my fault anyway for not making an effort to speak to them. How can I when whenever I go to his house, his dad’s at work, his sister’s at the stables and his brother’s shut in his room? Even when I did speak to his dad, Jake always dragged me away or shut his bedroom door for fear of his dad saying something embarrassing to me.

He also told me that bastard Hugo said I come across as being rude and ignorant towards people. That’s just because last time I saw Hugo, I wasn’t exactly being nice to him but it was with good reason seeing as he’d slagged both me and Sarah off just before. Twat!

Jake did say that what Hugo said was bollocks though. Still, all that hasn’t exactly boosted my confidence.

Bye!

Sunday 15th Jake came round to mine again today. I gave him back scratches and stuff and he told me I’m very good at it! He kept called me his little Easter bunny today too! Ha ha ha!!

When Jake went home this evening, I overheard Mum and Dad talking about how I never go to his house and how we spent 8 hours in my room today. I got upset and asked why they said it and explained about Jake’s dad and brother not particularly liking me. They told me not to go O.T.T. and said I’m in a different sort of relationship to Abby and so to stop taking things they say about her on board. They said they understand me not wanting to go to Jake’s house though.

I made up with Mum. She said stuff about being middle aged and got upset. She told me I’m a very caring person really and that Jake’s lovely. She said me and her are both too sensitive and very alike which is why we get upset so easily.

Bye!

NO THANKS! – 11th to 13th April 2001

Wednesday 11th I went in to wake Jake up first thing this morning. I like being able to do that! He kept saying he wanted to be in Barcelona. So do I!

Jake said in a text tonight that my Miffy pyjamas are “sooo sexy”! 🙂 He also said that I go even more cute and cuddly when I’m sleepy!

Bye!

Thursday 12th Michael Amhurst came down today. We both met up at Sarah’s house and had a look at some photos before going to McDonald’s for lunch. Jake met us there cos he stayed over at Hugo’s last night and went to Manchester with him this morning before getting the train to us.

I’m glad I got to see him cos (other than getting hugs and kisses and stuff!), I got to see the Beetle. It’s so shiny! I wish he could still drive it cos it was so good cruising around in it last summer!

Michael had a hospital appointment for something in Manchester so he dropped me and Jake off at my house on the way and then Sarah at her house.

Jake and I spent the rest of the day cuddling. Mmm!

Bye!

Friday 13th Connor, Abby and I all went to Alton Towers in Connor’s car today. We got up really early and were there by 10am. It took us a while to get there cos he kept missing turns and stuff but we got there eventually. We had to go through disinfectant when we got there cos of foot + mouth and we saw signs saying that it was an infected area. It’s horrible.

It was quite quiet at Alton Towers actually, considering it’s the Easter holidays. We went on a load of rides, most of them more than once cos the queues were fairly short. It turned out to be a really good day out actually, other than me getting the usual soaking on the River Rapids!

Jake, Lizzie and I went round to Floyd’s tonight cos everyone else was either on a gay night out in Manchester or being boring and staying in. We bought a bottle of 20/20 stuff [no.5 on this list of things we drank] and played the Truth or Dare game. I didn’t find out much about Jake but he said he was beginning to get suspicious about what I used to get up to for some reason. He did say he’d choose me over S Club Hannah in a cowgirl outfit though!

We were talking about Cat asking Floyd to wank himself off in front of her and Jake said he’d only do that for me! NO THANKS! He also said “wicked” when he thought Cat masturbated for Floyd! He’d heard it wrong!

Bye!

Beady eyes and pirate-style features – 10th April 2001

Tuesday 10th Jake was going back and forth a bit today. He came to my house at about 11am but had to go to the dentist at about 2pm and so left and then came back again about an hour later! Pointless really but never mind!

He said that he wanted to me to sleep in the spare bed with him tonight when we get back from town. If it wasn’t for my family being in nearby rooms then there’s have been no stopping me!

He had a read of his emails today while I was there. One was from Skiing Rob which included the sentence, “Give Tess a good boning from me” (nice!) and another was from Skiing Abbi asking if he’d had a big snog from me and if I’d washed my hands after going to the pathology lab! (That was a Biology trip that we didn’t end up going on.)

Connor gave us a lift into town tonight cos it was raining and we’d have had to wait for a bus otherwise. Sarah and Karen were already in Edison’s when we got there and (very obviously!) pointed out to me that that stupid twat Furry Adam Reynolds was there too! He freaks me out sooo much with his staring, beady eyes and pirate-style features! Creep! Yuk!!

Suzie, Cat and Lizzie arrived soon after us and Sarah announced to us that she’s now discovered the female orgasm is not a myth! We all cheered and clapped so I had to explain to Jake what was going on. I thought he’d just nod and be discreet about it but, oh no, he turned round and laughed hysterically, pointing straight at her. I apologised to Sarah for telling him and kicked him in the shins. She was pissed though and had heard that Maz might be in town too so she didn’t care! Then I spotted Maz coming down the steps. I pointed him out to Jake and we both rushed to tell Sarah. She went all dramatic, looking like she was going to cry (but didn’t).

Out in Warrington

[Cat, Jake & I out in town.]

I was talking to Jake afterwards and he said that Sarah would make a good girlfriend cos you wouldn’t have to worry about satisfying her cos she didn’t think it was possible! I told Sarah to cheer her up and it seemed to work! It’s a bit late now though!!

Jake went to the bar at one point so I was just sat talking to my mates when Robert Osborne came and said hi. He used to be in my form but went to a different college and I have to say he’s very, very fit now!

A few seconds after he’d gone, I got tapped on the shoulder by some strange lad who waffled on at me, trying to get me to agree to go with [snog] with the lad stood next to him. Luckily Jake came back at that point!

We all trooped to Smith’s next and I ended up sat down with Jake all the time we were there cos he doesn’t do dancing. I’m glad I didn’t have to go and dance with my mates though cos even on my way to the toilet I got felt up by creepy blokes! Yuk yuk!!

Maz came over to me and Jake at one point to say hi. He asked how Sarah was and stuff before going to find her. Unfortunately he did and they got snogging again. That’ll bugger her mind up even more now. He asked her to go home with him but she didn’t cos Karen dragged her away.

Karen had been dancing on her own, Suzie and Lizzie had found lads, and Sarah was with Maz which left Cat on her own. Cat was (quite fairly!) pissed off cos she wanted to leave but couldn’t find Suzie who had the ticket for her coat. Without it the people in the cloakroom wouldn’t give it back so we spent ages searching for her. Eventually we spotted them outside with Cat’s coat so we managed to get a taxi home eventually.

When I got home, Jake got into my bed and stayed there for a while and cuddled for a bit and stuff. I was worried my family might wake up or something and come and see if I was home. I’m going to have to do more stuff sooner or later though! He went and slept in the spare room in the end.

Bye!

He’d still like me if I ate too many Yorkie bars – 8th & 9th April 2001

Sunday 8th I had a driving lesson this afternoon. It was okay I suppose. I had to do a lot of reversing which was a bit boring after a while actually! My instructor did say that I’ve made good progress with everything so far which I’m pleased about.

Jake came round at about 4:30pm but we didn’t really do much. We just lay about and cuddled a lot and watched TV. He kept telling me how much he loves me again. 🙂

Bye!

Monday 9th Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre today. It was really nice being back there with him cos that’s where we spent our last evening together before he went. We found me some new pyjamas with Miffy on them in La Senza. Jake helped me choose. We then went for a drink in Starbucks before going to watch Traffic at the cinema. The film was a bit crap so we kept each other occupied instead!

Jake informed me that he’d still like me if I ate too many Yorkie bars and got fat but wouldn’t like me quite as much as he does now! He said he likes the way I look now which is why he’s always staring at me! 🙂

We came back to my house afterwards and we just cuddled and talked. Jake ended up getting upset when I told him how I sometimes feel left out when he goes on about his skiing friends. We made up again though with a big hug!

Bye!

A 17 year old fuckwit like Hugo – 7th April 2001

Saturday 7th Jake came round at about 2pm today. We didn’t really do much, we just lay about on my bed pretty much all day. We were looking at holiday brochures and stuff and he said we’ve got to go to loads of nice places together. He was constantly telling me he loves me again 🙂 (I don’t mind!) and he couldn’t stop touching me and kissing me which was really nice.

Tess & Jake reunited

[Reunion selfie in my room.]

His mate, Hugo, rang at one point. He really is a pain in the arse! He never shuts up and drones on about really boring things like the plug sockets in his room! He slagged me off really badly before Jake went away so I’ve taken quite a dislike to the sad twat! Hugo’s obviously madly obsessed with Jake cos he just won’t leave him alone and we reckon it’s a jealousy thing that made him not like me cos they used to see quite a lot of each other before I came along, I think.

Anyway, I don’t know whether he’s had a bang on the head or what but Hugo suggested to Jake that he and I go out for dinner with him and his girlfriend, Katie. She must be a desperate cow cos she’s in her 20s and is going out with a 17 year old fuckwit like Hugo. He met her on a cruise last summer and they’re both loaded but both a bit thick, I think. He had to go to some special boarding school and she’s a beauty therapist or something.

When Jake told me what Hugo suggested, my first reaction was to yell, “Yeh right!!” and laugh hysterically but then when I thought about it, I realised that dinner with Hugo and his girlfriend would be the perfect opportunity to give Hugo his present. Ha ha!! (Evil laughter!) The present is a book entitled, “How Did I Begin?” and it all starts with a “special cuddle” between a mummy and daddy… blah blah… etc.! I’m sure you get the picture! Sarah and bought Hugo that cos he once asked Jake, “Where d’you put it, Jake?” when they were talking about “stuff” one night! Jake’s refused to even go to dinner, never mind let me present Hugo with his book!

Jake told me that in Canada, he and his mates were talking about people sleeping with each other and he jokingly used the term “special cuddle”. All the others found it really funny and apparently it got used quite a lot afterwards!

He gave me my present today. It’s a necklace thing with a few beads on it. He says you can only get them in Banff. It’s quite nice actually.

I did 3 to him and he kept undoing my bra and kissing me everywhere. He says I’ve got a really nice back! He brushed my hair too which nearly sent me to sleep! He kept saying I was cute and calling me ‘Miss Tessa Jane Simpson’! I don’t know why but it makes me smile cos it’s sweet!

He wants me to get my tummy button pierced. He said he really likes it cos it looks nice and even said he’ll pay for me to do it. I do want to, I have done for a while, but I don’t like pain or infection so I’m not too sure if I actually will!

Every time the phone rang today I expected it to be Jake for a split second, even when I was with him! It was weird!

Bye!

We had a bit of a passionate session! – 6th April 2001

Friday 6th

HE’S BACK!!!!! 🙂

I woke up to a message on my phone from Jake this morning. He sent it at 11:49pm last night (just after I’d gone to bed) from Calgary airport saying that he’d missed his phone, that he’s missed me more and that he loves me. 🙂

I accidentally left my phone at home when I went to college but I needed it cos Mum was going to ring to tell me when she could pick me up so I skived 2nd lesson (Maths General Studies) and walked home to get it. I got a bit of Biology coursework done and then checked Teletext for Jake’s flight. It was meant to land at 10:35am but Teletext said it had landed at 10:47am. I was just pleased to see it had landed!

I went back to college, went to Biology and then helped Cat sort out people’s passports for the History trip to Russia. I saw Mr P-K’s and he looked so different but still quite fit! I saw Miss P’s too. She looked a bit more female than she does now cos she had longer hair!

Jake texted me again at about 2:30pm to say he was on his way home in the car. I was pleased to read that too.

All day I’d been getting little waves of excitement when I’d remembered I could see him tonight. The day really dragged though. He said he’d come to my house at about 6:30pm so I went home from college early cos I had a free period last thing and started to get ready cos I didn’t want to still be in the shower or anything when he arrived!

I was just in the middle of watching The Simpsons on TV when I saw his dad’s car pull up at the end of our drive. I saw Jake in the passenger seat and couldn’t stop grinning! I wasn’t sure whether I should rush to the front door or wait until he knocked.

I saw him run up the drive (it was raining) so I ran to the front door. He knocked twice just as I got there and I let him in. I’d been running through in my head all day what I’d do when I first saw him but anything I came up with I forgot when I was actually with him.

We just stood in the hall and hugged each other really hard. He said he loved me so I said I loved him too and we carried on hugging. It was weird (but nice!) kissing him for the first time too cos I couldn’t stop smiling!

It was all really weird actually! I kept having to poke him and stuff to check he was really here! He looks pretty much exactly the same as he did before he went. He was even wearing his jeans and sheep fleece like he did before.

Any daft little worries I’d had before completely disappeared once I was actually with him. He kept saying, “I love you” and I believe him cos of the way he kept touching me everywhere and kept kissing me and stuff cos I was exactly the same with him and I do love him.

We eventually moved from the hall into the front room cos he wanted to see Mollie. She seemed pleased to see him but I still got more attention from him that she did. I was sat on the sofa and he was behind it, still hugging and kissing me so I moved Mollie so he could sit down. We sat cuddling on the sofa for a bit before we went into my room so I could sort my bag out and stuff. It’s sooo good having him back! 🙂

Connor gave us a lift to The Dog, stopping off at the Chinese for Jake to get chips and then we sat in the car eating them. We saw Cat and everyone going out of The Dog so we got out of the car. Jake gave Cat a big hug and then they went on to The Woodman. Jake wanted to go in The Dog so we went in for one drink before catching the others up.

We didn’t stay there long cos all the College 1s were being annoying so we moved to The Cosy Jack. I don’t think Jake let go of me once in there! He was talking to the other people but hugging me. 🙂 He was telling Cat about skiing Dan and how he always smiles and he was known as Radiant Dan cos once someone asked how he was and he said he was “radiant”! Cat likes the sound of him! So do I actually but not in a fanciable way cos I’ve got Jake back now! 🙂 🙂 🙂

We moved to The Grey Hen when we finished out drinks and Jake and I stopped off for a nice long kiss on the way. Mmm! We had to sit on the floor in there cos there weren’t enough chairs but I didn’t mind cos we were sort of hidden. By then, Jake had told me I was beautiful and was constantly whispering or mouthing “I love you” at me so I said it back cos it’s true. It’s nice to keep hearing it from him. 🙂

 

Tess & Jake

[Here we are, reunited on the floor of the pub.]

He told me that everyone had been asking if I’d be at Heathrow airport cos they wanted to see me, and Charlie and Abbi wanted to say hi. He said me and Cat can go to Alton Towers with them all so we can see them cos I kind of want to and she definitely does!

We went in The Mossland next but went when they stopped serving so we weren’t there long. Everyone else headed into the next village but Jake and I went back to my house instead. We were just sat in the kitchen and I was asking if there was anything he hadn’t told me about Canada (jokingly!) and he went all quiet.

I eventually got it out of him that there was some Canadian instructor called Sarah who took a liking to him. He said he didn’t know about it until Rob (who’d warned her off him) told him the next day that she’s been asking after him. He said it upset him and scared him at the time cos he didn’t like the thought of it all happening behind his back cos he though he’s made it clear to everyone that he wasn’t available.

He said he wanted to tell me but didn’t know how to say it and didn’t want to worry me. He’s right, I would’ve been worried and he said it happened recently so I’ll forgive him for not saying anything. He said nothing happened but I was annoyed and active like I didn’t believe him and he ended up getting upset about it. I had to calm down cos I felt really guilty for not believing him (I sort of did really) and getting him upset.

We made up and he made me lie on the floor in the dining room where we had a bit of a passionate session! We didn’t really do much other than kiss though.

He told me that it’s not just one thing that he likes about me and he said I’m just sexy! Hah!! He also said we’ll have to have a whole night together during these holidays. I agree!

I’m really, really glad he’s back now! 🙂 No more waiting for phone calls or worrying about cougars and stuff! 🙂

Bye!