What does he expect?! – 20th April 2001

Thursday 20th A group of us did The Run tonight. It was all okay until Jake was talking to some of his year in The Woodman and the rest of us waited outside. Cat suggested hiding round the corner for a laugh but Jake didn’t find it very funny. He sat on a bench and when I tried to apologise, he shoved me out of the way. I was actually quite embarrassed cos he did it in front of everyone and I nearly fell over. He didn’t push me hard, I was just a bit pissed!

So, we both ended up sulking and didn’t speak. When we got to The Grey Hen, he just got up and left cos we still hadn’t said anything. I felt guilty then so I got Cat to ring him to find out where he was. He said he was walking home so I spoke to him and told him not to be so stupid and come back. He did and we sat by the old station while everyone else went in The Mossland.

We talked for a bit and apologised about the hiding and pushing thing but I could tell there was something else wrong. Eventually he told me that I care too much about what my friends think and that tonight I seemed more concerned with them than him. He said it’s not the same as before he went.

What does he expect?! I made new set of friends while he was away in the form of College 1s. I explained to him that I’m just trying to keep everyone happy but I’ve obviously not got the right balance between him and friends cos he felt neglected. If I paid more attention to him though, my mates would go all moody on me. I don’t want that either. I thought I was managing okay but he obviously feels my attention for him in lacking somewhat.

I got upset and explained I didn’t do it deliberately (apparently I was doing it before we fell out). He then got upset too cos he’d upset me! That meant we made up though. 🙂 He said he hates falling out but it’s really nice when we make up afterwards! I agree!

Bye!

I don’t think Mum was too keen on them – 19th April 2001

Wednesday 19th I went to Manchester with Cat today and I bought my really cool trainers! 🙂 They look something like this:

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I think that’s a fairly good likeness! Yes, I’m proud of those pictures! 🙂 I don’t think Mum was too keen on them when I was wearing them before but I think they’re great! They’re really bright and really comfy!

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[The only picture I can find of me wearing the horrible trainers. I was at Noss Head Lighthouse in Caithness where, thankfully, very few people will have witnessed them.]

I really wish I had more money cos I saw so many nice clothes too. Most were in the O’Neill and Quiksilver shops, in which case they were VERY expensive!

We trekked round all day trying to find Cat a bloody hooded jacket with a zip but we didn’t find one until Gap which was the last place we went in. I was pretty fed up by then.

We missed a train home so we had to get one to Warrington so the bloke made us pay an extra £1.15! Rip off!! Cat’s mum was going to pick us up but ran out of petrol so we had to get the bus home. It reminded me very much of Tuesday!

We went in Affleck’s Palace while we were in Manchester. It’s so good in there! I’ve walked past it before but it looked scary so I never went in but I like it now!

Bye!

She shot us some filthy looks and carried on – 18th April 2001

Tuesday 18th I had a driving lesson today. It went okay other than when I went backwards first when doing a 3-point turn!

I also got this letter from Michael Amhurst this morning. →

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Bye!

[My looooong draft reply was in the same envelope…]

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I hope she wasn’t there. Grrr! – 16th & 17th April 2001

Monday 16th I went to Manchester on the train with Jake today. He got 2 packs of photos back from Canada and we had a minor fall out cos I went all “funny” with him when he got the photos out. I couldn’t help it! He had photos of girls dressed up as cowgirls and stuff which didn’t help but I was just generally feeling left out for some reason.

He got upset in the middle of St Ann’s Square so we ended up making up cos we both felt guilty. He said he’d rather be here with me and that Charlie and Abbi were just nice to him and were the only ones who talked to him about me. I got a wave of jealousy to begin with cos I should’ve been the one talking to him (not about me, obviously!) but now I just want to know what was said!

Jake bought 2 shirts and a pair of short things and I saw the best trainers ever in Shellys! I want them sooo badly but they’re £50. They were so cool! [They weren’t.]

Bye!

Tuesday 17th I went to the Trafford Centre with Jake today to see Bridget Jones’s Diary at the cinema. Sarah and Cat were meant to come too but Sarah let us down at the last minute so Cat didn’t want to come on her own with us. The film was really good but not quite true to the book. I suppose they couldn’t get everything in the film though.

We managed to find Sarah a birthday present too and a card so that was handy cos we probably won’t get another chance to get her anything before next week now.

We got the bus back to the train station near Jake’s BUT the bus didn’t actually stop there cos nobody else was getting off and we didn’t press the buzzer! There were no stops until Warrington after that so we had to get off there. I rang my mum but she made us get the bus home.

Jake got off early to go to The Beech Tree with Ventures. I wasn’t very pleased at that (but I let him) cos I found out from him today that Hannah R fancies/used to fancy him. I hope she wasn’t there. Grrr!

I keep having funny far away/dizzy moments like I did when I was ill again. I had them at the cinema and whilst trying to sleep last night. Weird!

Bye!

What Hugo said was bollocks – 14th & 15th April 2001

Saturday 14th Jake came round today. We got into the subject of his family not liking me and he said it isn’t true and we both got upset over it. He made out that it was my fault anyway for not making an effort to speak to them. How can I when whenever I go to his house, his dad’s at work, his sister’s at the stables and his brother’s shut in his room? Even when I did speak to his dad, Jake always dragged me away or shut his bedroom door for fear of his dad saying something embarrassing to me.

He also told me that bastard Hugo said I come across as being rude and ignorant towards people. That’s just because last time I saw Hugo, I wasn’t exactly being nice to him but it was with good reason seeing as he’d slagged both me and Sarah off just before. Twat!

Jake did say that what Hugo said was bollocks though. Still, all that hasn’t exactly boosted my confidence.

Bye!

Sunday 15th Jake came round to mine again today. I gave him back scratches and stuff and he told me I’m very good at it! He kept called me his little Easter bunny today too! Ha ha ha!!

When Jake went home this evening, I overheard Mum and Dad talking about how I never go to his house and how we spent 8 hours in my room today. I got upset and asked why they said it and explained about Jake’s dad and brother not particularly liking me. They told me not to go O.T.T. and said I’m in a different sort of relationship to Abby and so to stop taking things they say about her on board. They said they understand me not wanting to go to Jake’s house though.

I made up with Mum. She said stuff about being middle aged and got upset. She told me I’m a very caring person really and that Jake’s lovely. She said me and her are both too sensitive and very alike which is why we get upset so easily.

Bye!

NO THANKS! – 11th to 13th April 2001

Wednesday 11th I went in to wake Jake up first thing this morning. I like being able to do that! He kept saying he wanted to be in Barcelona. So do I!

Jake said in a text tonight that my Miffy pyjamas are “sooo sexy”! 🙂 He also said that I go even more cute and cuddly when I’m sleepy!

Bye!

Thursday 12th Michael Amhurst came down today. We both met up at Sarah’s house and had a look at some photos before going to McDonald’s for lunch. Jake met us there cos he stayed over at Hugo’s last night and went to Manchester with him this morning before getting the train to us.

I’m glad I got to see him cos (other than getting hugs and kisses and stuff!), I got to see the Beetle. It’s so shiny! I wish he could still drive it cos it was so good cruising around in it last summer!

Michael had a hospital appointment for something in Manchester so he dropped me and Jake off at my house on the way and then Sarah at her house.

Jake and I spent the rest of the day cuddling. Mmm!

Bye!

Friday 13th Connor, Abby and I all went to Alton Towers in Connor’s car today. We got up really early and were there by 10am. It took us a while to get there cos he kept missing turns and stuff but we got there eventually. We had to go through disinfectant when we got there cos of foot + mouth and we saw signs saying that it was an infected area. It’s horrible.

It was quite quiet at Alton Towers actually, considering it’s the Easter holidays. We went on a load of rides, most of them more than once cos the queues were fairly short. It turned out to be a really good day out actually, other than me getting the usual soaking on the River Rapids!

Jake, Lizzie and I went round to Floyd’s tonight cos everyone else was either on a gay night out in Manchester or being boring and staying in. We bought a bottle of 20/20 stuff [no.5 on this list of things we drank] and played the Truth or Dare game. I didn’t find out much about Jake but he said he was beginning to get suspicious about what I used to get up to for some reason. He did say he’d choose me over S Club Hannah in a cowgirl outfit though!

We were talking about Cat asking Floyd to wank himself off in front of her and Jake said he’d only do that for me! NO THANKS! He also said “wicked” when he thought Cat masturbated for Floyd! He’d heard it wrong!

Bye!

Beady eyes and pirate-style features – 10th April 2001

Tuesday 10th Jake was going back and forth a bit today. He came to my house at about 11am but had to go to the dentist at about 2pm and so left and then came back again about an hour later! Pointless really but never mind!

He said that he wanted to me to sleep in the spare bed with him tonight when we get back from town. If it wasn’t for my family being in nearby rooms then there’s have been no stopping me!

He had a read of his emails today while I was there. One was from Skiing Rob which included the sentence, “Give Tess a good boning from me” (nice!) and another was from Skiing Abbi asking if he’d had a big snog from me and if I’d washed my hands after going to the pathology lab! (That was a Biology trip that we didn’t end up going on.)

Connor gave us a lift into town tonight cos it was raining and we’d have had to wait for a bus otherwise. Sarah and Karen were already in Edison’s when we got there and (very obviously!) pointed out to me that that stupid twat Furry Adam Reynolds was there too! He freaks me out sooo much with his staring, beady eyes and pirate-style features! Creep! Yuk!!

Suzie, Cat and Lizzie arrived soon after us and Sarah announced to us that she’s now discovered the female orgasm is not a myth! We all cheered and clapped so I had to explain to Jake what was going on. I thought he’d just nod and be discreet about it but, oh no, he turned round and laughed hysterically, pointing straight at her. I apologised to Sarah for telling him and kicked him in the shins. She was pissed though and had heard that Maz might be in town too so she didn’t care! Then I spotted Maz coming down the steps. I pointed him out to Jake and we both rushed to tell Sarah. She went all dramatic, looking like she was going to cry (but didn’t).

Out in Warrington

[Cat, Jake & I out in town.]

I was talking to Jake afterwards and he said that Sarah would make a good girlfriend cos you wouldn’t have to worry about satisfying her cos she didn’t think it was possible! I told Sarah to cheer her up and it seemed to work! It’s a bit late now though!!

Jake went to the bar at one point so I was just sat talking to my mates when Robert Osborne came and said hi. He used to be in my form but went to a different college and I have to say he’s very, very fit now!

A few seconds after he’d gone, I got tapped on the shoulder by some strange lad who waffled on at me, trying to get me to agree to go with [snog] with the lad stood next to him. Luckily Jake came back at that point!

We all trooped to Smith’s next and I ended up sat down with Jake all the time we were there cos he doesn’t do dancing. I’m glad I didn’t have to go and dance with my mates though cos even on my way to the toilet I got felt up by creepy blokes! Yuk yuk!!

Maz came over to me and Jake at one point to say hi. He asked how Sarah was and stuff before going to find her. Unfortunately he did and they got snogging again. That’ll bugger her mind up even more now. He asked her to go home with him but she didn’t cos Karen dragged her away.

Karen had been dancing on her own, Suzie and Lizzie had found lads, and Sarah was with Maz which left Cat on her own. Cat was (quite fairly!) pissed off cos she wanted to leave but couldn’t find Suzie who had the ticket for her coat. Without it the people in the cloakroom wouldn’t give it back so we spent ages searching for her. Eventually we spotted them outside with Cat’s coat so we managed to get a taxi home eventually.

When I got home, Jake got into my bed and stayed there for a while and cuddled for a bit and stuff. I was worried my family might wake up or something and come and see if I was home. I’m going to have to do more stuff sooner or later though! He went and slept in the spare room in the end.

Bye!