He took it all completely the wrong way – 25th January 2001

Thursday 25th
10 weeks to go!

I read Jake’s email almost as soon as I got up this morning cos I had an open day at Leeds Uni and so didn’t go to college. It really upset me to think that I upset him cos I really didn’t intend to do that! I just wanted to let him know how I felt last night, that’s all! It obviously backfired and he took it all completely the wrong way.

Leeds Uni isn’t bad at all but they want BCC for my grades and the accommodation’s not a patch on Hudderfield’s. It didn’t have the right feel about it either. Huddersfield did. I think cos it’s a bit smaller. It’s not a sandwich course either but a few students get to study either in Canada or do a year’s work placement. I’ll stick with Huddersfield for now, I think.

It took us ages to get home cos Dad spent an hour and a half looking for a McDonald’s then there were loads of traffic jams and then we stopped to visit Grandma S. She seemed okay! 🙂

When I did get in, some student from Central Lancashire phoned to ask if I had any questions about it. That would’ve been quite handy if I’d wanted to know anything. They must be doing it to everyone who’s applied cos I could hear other people in the background.

At about 7:45pm, I had the nice surprise of Jake phoning. Mum said he’d tried earlier but I wasn’t home. I was sooo pleased he phoned cos I’d been longing to speak to him all day to sort things out but I didn’t think I’d be able to. He said he found a phone where he’s skiing which he says is good for when I’m not in earlier for some reason. I said sorry for everything and he apologised too. It wasn’t a very long call but it was better than nothing and has made me feel a bit happier! 🙂

Bye!

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I shouldn’t be jealous of my own boyfriend – 24th January 2001

Wednesday 24th
10 weeks + 1 days to go!

I had a pretty boring day today so I spent most of my day either doing coursework in free lessons or on the internet looking at www.ifyouski.com cos Jake mentioned it in his email. It was a bit crap actually (Rob’s bit) and it took me ages to find!

I also looked up skiing in Sheffield cos I’ve decided I want to learn how to snowboard so I can do that if he wants to ski! Okay, I’m jealous that he’s going to be a really good skier and I won’t be! I know I shouldn’t be jealous of my own boyfriend and I can do things like kickboxing and read music but I love skiing!

I really want to go again one day but he’d be unbearable with telling me what to do and stuff so if I could snowboard then I could still go but he couldn’t tell me what to do cos he’s no expert! Mind you, knowing him he’ll do that as well!

Tess snowboarding

[Fast-forward a few years…]

When he phoned today, he told me that when he was eating his breakfast that Amazed song by Lonestar came on! [Vom.] It reminds him of me cos he says the words describe exactly how he feels about me! 🙂 It’s weird though cos the last 3 times I’ve been in McDonald’s it’s come on too!

Bye!

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They think they could be pregnant! – 23rd January 2001

Tuesday 23rd
10 weeks + 2 days to go!

I had a geography module exam this morning. I only started revising last night so I’m not entirely sure how well it went!

Karen and Rory are officially a couple too now! This College 2 girl and College 1 lad thing’s really catching on! He asked her out via text message last night. It’s quite sweet actually but all these people getting together doesn’t half rub in the fact that I’m alone for ages and have to stay that way!

I suppose I should be grateful that I’ve got a nice, fit boyfriend, even if he is in Canada (which isn’t much use to me right now!) cos some people haven’t got anyone! Seeing Lizzie and Declan all over each other all the time certainly doesn’t help though cos I’m missing being like that with someone. 😦

Mind you, I’m not the only one feeling a bit sorry for myself at the moment. Sarah’s still miserable about Maz and not getting any emails from him when she checks every 5 minutes.

Cat’s also miserable about Mr L [one of our teachers] too but then so’s Donna Sharpe. Cat and Donna actually spoke to each other today about him and discovered the truth. He’s been stringing them both along. It turns out that the reason why Donna spread a rumour about Cat sleeping with Mr L is because she heard that he’d been giving her lifts home so she put 2 + 2 together and came up with that cos that’s exactly what he’d been doing to her.

Donna and Cat now both know that Mr L’s been contacting the other one and if one wouldn’t go round to his house, he’d ask the other. It turns out that the day Cat said no, he asked Donna and she did go round and she did sleep with him.

They’re now both angry with him rather than each other and they’re now plotting revenge! I mean, they could just get him sacked but before they do anything that drastic, they intend to play a few games with him.

There’ve been 2 ideas so far:

  1. Both go to him separately and tell him that they think they could be pregnant! However, that wouldn’t have worked because Cat’s never slept with him.
  2. Act like they’re best mates around him so that he’ll be left wondering whether they know about each other! I think they’ll do that one!

I still can’t believe all this! You hear about it happening to other people but it’s weird when it’s in your school, involving one of your friends!

Both Cat and I are being haunted by skiing! We REALLY want to go but can’t! Everything at the moment seems to revolve around skiing! Mainly it’s cos of the school trip at half term which everyone seems to be going on. Then, everybody is not only talking about it but got all their equipment sent to school today. And:

  • My sister’s using something about the heights of ski resorts for her maths coursework.
  • The PG Tips advert has got one of the chimps coming back from a skiing holiday on it.
  • Ski competitions are on the TV all the time.
  • There are loads of adverts in the paper about it.

Worst of all is Jake who’s getting to ski for 3 months! I know I shouldn’t be jealous of my own boyfriend but I can’t help it!

One of the things Jake and I planned to do together in the future was to go skiing but if I went with him he’d just try and tell me what I should/shouldn’t be doing cos he’ll be dead good (well, I think he is anyway) but I really want to go skiing! It’s not fair!

I pretty much told him all that on the phone tonight (he probably thinks I’m pathetic now!) cos all I wanted was reassurance that he won’t be like that and I will be able to ski again. But no! He almost completely agreed with me, saying we’d only end up falling out cos he’ll be better than me and I won’t like it! Fine then!

He didn’t really have much else to say as usual but I got another “I love you” out of silence! 🙂

I’ve just been having a really long talk with Mum. It was quite good! We have them every so often and just talk about all sorts. She told me I’m very wise and there’s common sense in everything I say, like Dad apparently. I told her I don’t like people very much (I mean, I do but I just don’t like how people have to make everything so complicated!) and she said Dad’s always said that! She says the wise part runs in his side of the family cos my Grandma’s the same. Mum said I’m like her in other ways though.

She can be interesting to talk to when you get into a proper conversation. I just wish she wouldn’t put herself down so much cos she’s not as bad as she seems to think!

Bye!

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She’s wasting perfectly good chances with lads – 22nd January 2001

Monday 22nd
10 weeks + 3 days to go!

I saw 2 camels at lunchtime! It was very strange! Karen, Sarah, Lizzie, Freda and I were on our way to McDonald’s when we saw them on a patch of grass outside some offices! There was a big truck on the car park so perhaps their owners had stopped off to feed them or something. We drove past 4 times to check we weren’t seeing things!

My voice went almost completely today! I think it’s partly cos I was coughing and shouting at Sarah to get over Maz! He’s not got in contact with her for over 2 weeks but she reckons he will soon. I don’t! She’s wasting perfectly good chances with lads for someone she’s seen about 3 times!

Jake phoned quite early tonight and my voice was still funny but he said it sounds nice! We were on the phone for ages tonight but didn’t really say much! He kept telling me he’s missing me and he wants to come home but that really is difficult to believe.

I told him about College 1s being the latest fashion accessory and I told him that I want one (I was joking!) to keep me going! He didn’t like that idea! At one particularly depressing moment, we both went quiet and then I heard the words, “I love you” from him out of nowhere. It was sooo nice to hear! I really am missing him now! 😦

Bye!

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He’s worried I’m going to run off with someone – 21st January 2001

Sunday 21st
10 weeks + 4 days to go!

This diary’s getting a bit full with all these emails now! I’d only lose them otherwise and I don’t mind getting lots anyway!

I’ve spent another day getting nowhere with my Geography revision and Biology coursework again! Oh well, I’ll just have to fail! No, I don’t really want to do that! 😦

I was just beginning to think Jake wasn’t going to ring tonight but then he did at about 5:20. 🙂 He didn’t have much to tell me again other than it’s not snowed there (it did here this morning though!) and that it’s only -2oC when it should be -30oC at this time of year. He said it starts to warm up in February so with any luck all the snow will melt and he’ll have to come home! No that’s mean, he’d only be miserable anyway!

He also told me that one of the girls there had her drink spiked and she collapsed and then stopped breathing in the police car. Scary! He says she’s in hospital but she’s okay now.

He was saying that he misses me and stuff and that he doesn’t like me saying that I feel single. I think he’s worried I’m going to run off with someone cos apparently one of the girls there has been going out with someone for 2 years but has started something else with one of the lads there.

He told me that he and his roommate were discussing what they’d do if me or Rob’s girlfriend ran off with someone else. Charming!

I think I’ve got the cold he had before he went and he said he wishes was here cos I sound really sweet with a cold!

Bye!

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What if someone gets the wrong idea?! – 20th January 2001

Saturday 20th
10 weeks + 5 days to go!

I’ve spent most of today staring at either my Biology coursework or my Geography revision cos I just can’t do them! It’s not so much through not being able to concentrate, it’s more because I’ve gone a bit thick! I can’t get my head round any of it! 😦

I was very glad of the distraction when Jake phoned me this afternoon! We were on the phone for ages but didn’t seem to say all that much! I had more to tell him than he had to tell me. He seemed concerned about Sarah’s car crash and the fact that I’m getting sick of feeling single! I hope he doesn’t feel the same way. I really do need a cuddle and stuff and watching all my friend finding lads isn’t helping in the slightest.

I explained to him how I’d feel guilty doing anything with him in front of people now I’ve been reminded of what it feels like to be on your own. I think I worried him by saying that cos he probably thinks I’m going to keep well out of his way now. I wouldn’t be able to though! It’s when I keep seeing people like Lizzie and Declan kissing and cuddling and touching each other that I realise how much I miss Jake. I want him back!

This is actually worse than when I was single because then there was always the hope that something might happen with me and someone, and if it did, I could allow it. I can’t do that now, not that I want anyone else though. Plus there’s the fact that I didn’t really have the experience of being in a long term relationship before so I couldn’t miss something that I’d never had.

Jake told me that it’s his roommate’s 18th birthday tomorrow which means they’re probably all going to get very pissed! I really hope Jake doesn’t cos if he gets like he did on the last Friday before he left then he’ll probably go round hugging and kissing people! What if someone gets the wrong idea?! He’s be in no fit state to say no!

Bye

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Sick of having to watch other people snogging! – 19th January 2001

Friday 19th
10 weeks + 6 days to go!

Sarah, Floyd and I had a bit of a scare today. Sarah decided she’d drive us to McDonald’s for lunch but just before the TSB, she crashed the car. Another car in front was turning left and Sarah just didn’t stop in time. We were all okay and the bloke in the other car was fine about it because his car wasn’t damaged at all. Sarah’s, however, was a bit of a mess. There are bits of her car all over the road now! She just got really upset cos she thought her mum was going to kill her. She didn’t! She was more concerned about Sarah.

Tonight, a large group of us did The Run [a pub crawl] again. It was good, as usual! We all got a bit pissed and Karen and this lad called Rory out of College 1 got together, and Sarah and Drew (another College 1) almost got together but then he was sick and she started to feel guilty cos of Maz. I reckon something will happen sometime soon!

I mainly hung round with Cat and Suzie Bryan cos we didn’t want to go in The Green Dragon so we stayed in The Mossland for a bit longer to eat chips and lemon chicken from the Chinese. The chicken tasted and smelled like it’d been cooked in disinfectant but we were pissed and hungry so we ate it anyway!

Paul Nutt was in The Mossland too. He used to stalk me but he just sat in the corner looking creepy tonight!

We made it to The Coach and Horses, even though Suzie, Cat and I took a detour through a few fields including the school one cos we were feeling very single and were sick of having to watch other people snogging!

Cat got told tonight that Mr L asked some College 1 girl (Donna Sharpe) to go round to his house. He asked Cat too but she said no. He might be fit but he’s a proper bastard!

We all went back to Declan’s house afterwards. He lives at 74 Hall Drive and his house is sooo nice!

Run - Tess & Cat stuck in chair

[Cat and I stuck in a chair at Declan’s]

Bye!

P.S. I like the new group of friends that we’ve mixed with!

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