Could’ve been embarrassing if he’d have walked straight in! – 13th & 14th September 2000

Wednesday 13th Gethin attempted to speak to me today but I pretty much ignored him cos I’m still pissed off. I went to Jake’s during the day in my frees to get out of the way before I hit Gethin and so we could sort out stuff for London.

We went to McDonald’s for lunch (again!) and Hayley was in there with Georgia. She told me that in their RE lesson, Sarah had been saying that she agrees with me in the argument but wants to stick with Gethin cos she doesn’t want to get on the wrong side of him (or something). Pathetic! I do feel a bit guilty about not seeing Sarah in college as much but if I didn’t see Jake, that’d be just as bad, if not worse.

Gethin sent me some apology messages after college and even followed me into the toilets but he kept asking if he could still come to the Trafford Centre tomorrow night so I think that’s all he’s really bothered about – getting some shopping!! I didn’t forgive him but I might soon. It depends how much he annoys me!

I went back to Jake’s tonight and we sat in his room and the usual happened but his dad came home and wanted to speak to him! Could’ve been embarrassing if he’d have walked straight in!

Bye!

Thursday 14th I was still really annoyed with Gethin for most of today but then I went home before lunch cos I felt really ill cos I’ve got a bad cold and cough. We still went to the Trafford Centre though so I sort of had to get on with Gethin and I’m gradually beginning to get over it!

I didn’t buy much, just a belly chain thing to go round the top of my trousers for when I go out and a pair of fleecy pants from Eisenegger. Nothing much interesting happened at all. Jake just dropped me straight off at home after.

I did get a few nice messages this evening though. He said, “YOU HAVE A TENDENCY TO FALL ASLEEP AND I CAN’T SLEEP COS I’M WAITING FOR YOU TO SEND ME A MSG BACK! : ) GLAD FLOYD’S COMING TO LONDON TOO! YOU SHOULD BE IN MY BED NOW. IT’S NOT FAIR! UUH! I LOVE YOU TOO… FAR TOO MUCH TO ONLY SEE YOU FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS A DAY! NIGHT TIMES ARE A WASTE – I COULD BE WITH YOU! WELL… I CAN DREAM! x”.

Then later, we were still on the subject of London and he said, “WELL BEING IN THE SAME BUILDING AS YOU IS A LITTLE BIT BETTER THAN THIS! I’M SLEEPING ON MY BLANKET THINGY AND IT’S V. WEIRD COS WHERE YOU SEWED OUR INITIALS IN, THE HEART IS RIGHT WHERE MY HEAD IS! : ) OHH I WANT YOU HERE NOW! IT’S NOT THE SAME LYING HERE WITHOUT YOU! LOVE YOU LOADS! xJx”.

(I found a sewing kit that he’d got free on the cruise shop so when I was round at his house the other night, I sewed a button and TS+JT onto his blanket cos I got bored!)

Later still, he sent me a message saying, “NO – YOU’VE ENTERED COLLEGE 2 NOW – WHERE NOBODY HAS A SOCIAL LIFE… WHICH MEANS NO PARTIES! : ( WE’LL HAVE TO WAIT AT LEAST 4 YEARS BEFORE I GET TO SHARE A BED WITH YOU! : ( OR WE COULD JUST LIVE IN MY TENT AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER! LOVE xJx”.

Bye!

 

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He was slagging me off no end. Bastard! – 11th & 12th September 2000

Monday 11th Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre tonight after college cos I handed my biology coursework in so I’ve not got as much work. We went to the cinema to see Scary Movie which was pretty good.

Afterwards, we just came straight home which disappointed me slightly but then he parked the car on the church car park next door where we stayed for quite a while. We talked mostly (he did begin 3 but stopped) about stuff.

He said he wants to skip a couple of years so we can live together. He also said he wouldn’t mind living in a tent if we had to! I mentioned the post office here in my village then he said we should put our pennies together and buy a post office in Scotland! Hmmm!

Bye!

Tuesday 12th Gethin is such a twat!!! I went out of college at 3rd lesson with Jake cos I was free but we came back at lunch to see if anyone wanted a trip to McDonald’s. Gethin, Sarah and Hayley came with us. Hayley’s fine at the moment and isn’t annoying me as much, Sarah seems a bit off with me but I think it might be cos I’ve not been around as much and she’s been left with Hayley, and Gethin’s just being a right moody little bastard!

He didn’t eat anything (and neither did Sarah actually) when we got there so I asked why he’d bothered coming when someone else could’ve done instead. Hayley and Sarah told me later that, when he’d got out of the car afterwards, he was slagging me off no end. Bastard!

Then this evening, I got a message from Sarah that was meant for Gethin and it included the words, “I dunno what’s wrong with Tess – maybe she’s stressed about London” (Jake and I are trying to organise a trip to London at half term and I can’t get straight answers out of anyone!) so they were obviously talking about me.

Then, I got a message from Jake saying Gethin had been slagging us both off to his brother, saying how we’re going to end up with no mates if we’re together all the time. This is very reminiscent of what he said to me over the phone a while back and what he said to Hugo. I told Gethin then that I wasn’t going to put up with it again so I sent him a few messages. They’re on this bit of paper cos I wrote it down before I sent anything so I could get everything in that I wanted to say. →

(The last message on the back is one Jake sent on Monday. I forget to write it in here!)

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Gethin sent me a few messages back saying that it was an “over exaggerated insult” and that he’d “put it down to stress and gossip” and then that “in the unlikely event of you ever needing me, you know where I am”. He is sooo cheesy! He should write cheesy soap opera scripts!!

He then asked if our friendship was over but I ignored him! Ha ha!!!

Jake’s far from pleased with Gethin either but I don’t think he’ll do much about it.

Bye!

I’ve got to smile more or I’ll get sacked – 9th & 10th September 2000

Saturday 9th I saw Jake during the day today. He came round here and we stayed in my room for most of the time. The usual happened and it wasn’t a one way thing for once!

Had to go to work tonight but it wasn’t too bad cos it was really busy. Gemma told me that Jake’s very good looking! 🙂 I know!!

Gethin’s pissing me off! He told everyone that he thinks Jake’s gay and that he wears nail varnish. He also keeps telling me that Martin the manager told him to tell me that I’ve got to smile more or I’ll get sacked when the area manager comes in. He also asked Jake last night if the reason he hadn’t said much was because he was “under the thumb”! Bastard!

I reckon I’m gonna get sacked actually cos I told that Sandra woman I can’t work next Saturday (there’s a Huddersfield open day and I’ve been planning on going with Mum and Dad for ages cos they want to see the place) and she was really off with me. She definitely wasn’t pleased!

The thing is, I’ve only been there a couple of weeks and if I quit or get sacked now, I’ll feel like a right failure and I’ll be the only one of my mates without a job. I’m confused and can’t think straight though!

Bye!

Sunday 10th When I finished work today, Jake came to get me cos we planned to go and get a Chinese for our tea. He brought his brother and sister in the car with him and we ended up in a queue at the petrol station at The Dog roundabout for about 30 minutes cos of this whole petrol price thing. I think it was one of the few round here that had any left.

We eventually go to the Chinese, by which time Jake was getting really pissed off cos he thought Robbie and Clara were being embarrassing but I just found them funny. While we were eating, Clara started telling me about Jake making horrible coughing noises when he brushes his teeth and he got really, really pissed off, told me it’s cos he chokes on toothpaste and dragged me upstairs out of their way! We just kissed and stuff but that was about it. He seems to know what he’s doing a bit more now. Perhaps he’s been reading up on it!

Bye!

He wants to kidnap me – 6th to 8th September 2000

Wednesday 6th I saw Jake after college today and we both ended up really depressed cos we don’t see each other as much as we’d like to. He told me that even his dad commented that we see less of each other.

We were sat in his car and I was trying to fix a wool thing in it but I was unsuccessful and he told me I’d never make a good mum if I can’t knit! I’m not planning on becoming one just yet! He also decided that he wants to kidnap me and run away to Scotland and live on an island in a tent in a field! Hmmm, I don’t think he’s thought that through!

I got my orange belt (finally!) at kickboxing tonight! J

Ooh, just found some more texts from Jake yesterday. He said, “AAH! : ) YOUR MESSAGES ARE SO SWEET – I’M GONNA START HUGGING MY PHONE SOON! YEH ONE DAY! THAT WOULD BE SO NICE! : ) I COULD HAVE YOU ALL TO MYSELF ALL NIGHT WITH LOTS OF HUGS/CUDDLES… (AND STUFF!!!) I SUPPOSE IF WE DIDN’T GET UPSET OR MISERABLE THEN WE WOULDN’T LOVE EACH OTHER AS MUCH AS WE DO! SO IT’S A GOOD THING! x”. The “one day” bit was in response to me saying maybe one day we could live together (which was in response to one he sent yesterday).

Bye!

Thursday 7th Boring day! I saw Jake briefly after college but then I had to work. It was really quiet and I’ve decided I hate it again.

Bye!

Friday 8th Did ‘The Run’ tonight. [A pub crawl through my village and the next one.] We didn’t actually go in all the pubs along the road but we were going to. We went in The Dog then The Cosy Jack and then The Green Dragon (aarrgghh!!) to get Gethin. We then walked back to the next village cos Hayley said we could go to hers (I think she fancied our Geordie friend, Geordie Chris, who’s down) but Jake and I got depressed again and walked slowly.

I’m seriously considering quitting at The Dragon cos I’ve not got time to do my coursework and see Jake, plus I’m exhausted all the time. I don’t know what to do!

Bye!

“I COULD LIVE DOWN THE SIDE OF YOUR BED!” – 4th & 5th September 2000

Monday 4th I got some nice messages from Jake last night saying, “I’M SOOO HAPPY! BEING APART FOR 2 WEEKS THEN SEEING YOU IS SOOO NICE! JUST PROVES TO MYSELF THAT I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! DIDN’T WANT TO LEAVE YOU! NOT FAIR! BUT THEN BEING AWAY FROM YOU IS EVEN MORE UNFAIR! I LOVE YOU… NOW AND ALWAYS!!! : ) xxx JAKE xxx”.

Jake came round today and it was really nice. We went to get our usual ham salad sandwiches from the shop down the road and walked Mollie. Then later we just lay on my bed and talked and then the usual happened.

When he’d gone home I got some messages saying, “MMM! WELL I DON’T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING IN THE DAY NOW SO I COULD LIVE DOWN THE SIDE OF YOUR BED! WISH WE COULD JUST RUN AWAY AND BE TOGETHER! x”.

Then later I got, “I KNOW! THAT’S WHY I’M SOOO HAPPY! COS I CAN’T SEE MYSELF WITH ANYONE ELSE! YOU MAKE ME LAUGH AND I THINK WE’RE REALLY GOOD FOR EACH OTHER! LOTS OF LOVE! : ) Jx”.

Ohh, he’s so nice!!

Bye!

Tuesday 5th Went back to college today and I don’t like my new timetable! All my frees (nearly) are in the middle of the day.

I saw Jake over lunchtime and we went for a walk and then to McDonald’s and then back to my house. He told me he’s got an interview at The Beech Tree pub which means if he gets a 2nd job I’ll see him even less. 😦

I had nice messages tonight too. They said, “AAAHH! : ( I WANT TO GIVE YOU A BIG HUG AND A CUDDLE! DON’T LIKE YOU BEING SAD! WISH WE LIVED TOGETHER – THEN I COULD HAVE ALL NIGHT WITH YOU! I HATE THIS! IN SOME WAYS IT’S WORSE THAN BEING ON HOLIDAY COS IT’S SOOO ANNOYING THAT YOU’RE ONLY 10 MINS AWAY BUT WE CAN’T SEE EACH OTHER! : ( LOTS OF LOVE! (TRY TOUCHING YOUR NOSE – THAT USUALLY MAKES YOU SMILE WHEN I DO IT AND YOU LOOK REALLY CUTE TOO!!!) LOVE YOU LOTS!!! : ) xxx JAKE xxx”.

Bye!

 

He’d probably end up regretting it – 3rd September 2000

Sunday 3rd I went round to Jake’s house today. There was no-one else in so we just sat and watched MTV and cuddled and kissed etc. Some other stuff too. We didn’t have that long cos I was working tonight.

It was actually alright at work tonight. There’s this girl called Gemma who’s my age who was working tonight and she seems really nice. I just talked to her when there wasn’t much to do. She only works in the holidays though cos she goes to stage school in London.

I’ve had a few messages from Jake tonight. He said something like he doesn’t want uni to split us up so I asked him if he wants me to go to Huddersfield too. He said, “WHEN I’M ALONE I START THINKING ABOUT STUFF LIKE THAT! YOU KNOW I’M PARANOID! I WOULD LIKE IT IF YOU WERE AT HUDDERSFIELD TOO! WHEN I’M AWAY FROM YOU I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU SO I WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO CONCENTRATE! I JUST DON’T WANT US TO DRIFT APART THROUGH BEING BUSY WITH WORK ETC! THAT WOULD BE HORRIBLE! LOVE xJx”.

I told him that we shouldn’t drift apart and he said, “I HOPE THAT’S THE CASE! I KNOW WE’VE GOT LIVES TO LEAD BUT YOU’VE GOTTA BE HAPPY – AND I’M NOT GONNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! I MAY SOUND SOFT BUT I LOVE YOU AND I DON’T WANT THAT TO CHANGE! IT’S STUPID BUT I’M BEGINNING TO NOT WANT TO GO TO UNI AT ALL! ALL I CARE ABOUT IS YOU! xJx”.

That’s really flattering but I hate to think I’d change his mind about going to uni. I’d feel so guilty cos he’d probably end up regretting it. He’s probably just tired or something!

Bye!

 

I was so pleased and happy to see him! – 2nd September 2000

Saturday 2nd Hah! I’ve just noticed I’ve missed out a couple of pages at the end of August!

My shift at work today wasn’t too bad but it seemed to last forever! It was really frustrating cos I knew Jake was home but I couldn’t see him until 8pm. I was sooo glad when I finished!

He’s got his mum’s Polo now so he picked me up and we went to the cinema at the Trafford Centre. I was so pleased and happy to see him! We ended up seeing Snatch which turned out to be really good!

Afterwards, we just sat in the Orient bit eating Phish Food ice cream and cuddling and kissing which carried on when we were in the car park! I just love him so much and I hate being without him which is why it’s so good now he’s back!

We exchanged presents tonight too. I gave him his fairy in a jar and he gave me 2 photos of him (one in a bow tie etc.!) and a light up pen!

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He gave me my 2nd postcard too!

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I got a message from him on my phone when I got home too. It said, “I’M SOOO HAPPY! BEING APART FOR 2 WEEKS THEN SEEING YOU IS SOOO NICE! JUST PROVES TO MYSELF THAT I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! DIDN’T WANT TO LEAVE YOU! NOT FAIR! BUT THEN BEING AWAY FROM YOU IS EVEN MORE UNFAIR! I LOVE YOU… NOW AND ALWAYS!!! : ) xxx JAKE xxx”.

Oh, he’s sooo sweet!

Bye!