Friday 28^th  I had a really boring day today. Jonas didn’t reply to last night’s text for ages but he eventually did saying he’ll get a train to Warrington Central that should arrive at 6pm. That cheered me up a bit anyway. He’s apparently got no signal at his mum’s which is why he doesn’t reply for ages.

Rhian threw a party tonight. Well, it began as a small gathering but more and more people turned up. It started off fine but as all her stupid 15 year old friends drank more alcohol they started really pissing me off. Their tolerance for alcohol obviously hadn’t developed yet. [I was a seasoned, sophisticated student drinker by now, remember.]

It was a lad called Adrian who annoyed me most, closely followed by Mike (who everyone seems to worship cos he set up supermike.com online so they can all chat – or fall out with your mate Amanda in Rhian’s case). They were sat in Rhian’s room with some other lad having a “serious conversation” and I interrupted by walking in to get my phone. They weren’t too please and kept telling me to get out but all my stuff was in there so I didn’t see why I should. Plus I was kind of enjoying winding them up by sitting on my bed and texting people.

However, Adrian leapt over Rhian’s bed and came right up to my face and yelled at me. I was not going to be bossed around my some pissed little lad so I yelled back. He and Mike then started taking the piss out of English people even though, as I later found out, Adrian’s English himself and was apparently wearing an England shirt at the party. Gimp! I really wanted to smack him one but I opted for “fuck off” and “drop dead” in the end cos I didn’t think Auntie S would be too thrilled with bits of Adrian all over her house.

Adrian then started yelling some date at me (which everyone around him was saying he’d got wrong) and yelling whether I knew what happened last time someone said “drop dead”. Apparently it was when 3 lads were killed in a car when it went over the cliff but how was I meant to know that? He was just using it to try and make me feel guilty and apologise and stuff.

Mum later asked who he was cos he’d been talking to her and she found him really irritating. Ha ha ha!! 🙂 It wasn’t just me then!

While Adrian was yelling at me, Rhian tried to stop us fighting and in the process got “rugby tackled” by some lad called Piffles or something. She lay on the floor wheezing and squealing and saying she’d hurt her back. Manson was running round panicking and Adrian told everyone to give him space and he tried to give her mouth to mouth while she was obviously still conscious and breathing. Tosser.

Okay, maybe she did hurt her back but she landed on a mattress and sat down on it rather than being rugby tackled onto it. I found myself being a total bitch to her cos I was annoyed already and thought she was faking it for attention. Auntie S and Abby didn’t really believe her either but they played along unlike me so I’m not exactly Rhian’s favourite person right now.

Other stuff happened during the evening too. Some lad called Duncan decided he fancied me and picked me up and carried me out of Rhian’s room when I was interrupting her and Manson. He also patted the floor next to him, trying to get me to sit there but I didn’t. He was sweet but Jonas is so worth not snogging anyone else for. Duncan was 17 but didn’t look it. Mind you, people kept thinking I was younger than Abby and someone even said I looked 14!

I started telling people how good uni is and joking about becoming a weather girl. On their way home, 3 lads made me sign their arms with eyeliner, just in case I become famous!

I also shared a fag with Abby, hanging out of Rhian’s window (she found a pack) but, ugh, I won’t be doing it again in a hurry.

Bye!

Sunday 23^rd  My family and I travelled up to Stirling today. It started snowing at home just before we left but there was none at all in Scotland.

I sent Jonas a text when I was a bit drunk. I think I said I wanted a cuddle cos he replied, “What’s with all the big and little letters? Here’s a big HUGGLE. x” I had a few more messages from him too saying he was at his auntie’s and then, “U only sent 2 txts when u were drunk. Ur picture is above my bed for all to see + say how bonne you are! : ) dogs through the window? Cool! x” The bit about dogs was in reply to me telling him we had to sneak Mollie into the Travelodge through the window. When he said ‘bonne’, does he mean ‘bonnie’? Hope so! 🙂

Bye!

Monday 24^th  I was right, I think. I had a message off Jonas today saying, “Bonne – pretty in Scottish: my mum uses it a lot. Xmas 2mw. Oh r u excited? Still up 4 New Year yep; have to give me details and stuff! : ) x”

I say a sign for Forres where Jonas used to live. It’s 22 miles from where I was sat in Tesco car park in Inverness. I had more texts from Jonas saying he was getting pissed with the cousin he’s going to snog. I’d be joking before he went about not snogging his cousins so I’m assuming he was joking too! I’m a bit worried anyway. He could get pissed and go out and do stuff with people. He’s bound to have stalkers cos he’s so niiiiice and I don’t know what he’s really doing. Ugh, got to stop thinking!

We finally got to Wick this evening. Abby and I went with our cousin Rhian to deliver Christmas presents to her mates. We then went to Midnight Mass with Auntie S, Uncle G and our little cousin Tom. Other little cousin, Minnie, stayed at home. I wasn’t in the best of moods cos Abby and Rhian were being all chummy and going on about how they want to go to Glasgow Uni together and excluding me. Then when I was in church, I found myself really close to tears cos it reminded me of Grandma L’s funeral. That was the last time I’d been there.

After Midnight Mass, we all went round to the minister’s house. It was full of old people so we went and watched Mission Impossible 2 in his son Matthew’s room.

Bye!

Thursday 20^th to Friday 21^st  I finally got my Maths coursework done today with help from Jen and Vicky’s work. I’m so pleased to get it out of the way.

I went round to Jonas’s this evening. We watched TV and then went to bed. It was absolutely freezing in his house so we had to keep each other warm. Stuff happened.

We had fights with cold stuff like keys and deodorant cans and Jonas said he wanted to stay in his bed with me forever. 🙂 He also asked if I get “grotty” when I’m on my period totally out of the blue. I said I don’t really and he explained his mum and sister get really moody.

Jonas also said, “Ooh, there’s a naked girly in my bed!” and asked if I wanted to join him in the shower. I didn’t. While I was getting dressed in bed (it was still freezing this morning), Jonas played his guitar at me. He’s pretty good.

Bye!

P.S. IT’S SNOWING!!! 🙂

Friday 21^st to Saturday 22^nd  Jonas stayed over at mine. We lay and watched TV on my bed for most of the evening. Jonas said something to me like “Are you gonna do a spit roast?” I wasn’t entirely sure what he meant and he wouldn’t tell me. He then asked me if I fancied “the sexy girl on the pic” and pointed to a photo of me. 🙂

He decided he wanted to take a photo off my wall of me so he would remember what I looked like over Christmas and so he could show his mum and sister. I reluctantly gave him one of me, Marc and Layla in school uniform. Jonas said he’s got a “big hairy conscience” so he wouldn’t snog anyone else at Christmas even if they pinned him up against a wall.

Jonas had to get the bus fairly early this morning so he could catch his train. We said not to snog anyone to each other and he told me to keep in touch. He said he’ll hopefully see me at New Year too. 🙂 I hope so! We had a really nice snog and then he went. He told me he’s going to put my photo above his bed. Arrghh!!

Mum and Dad came to get me and I went home this afternoon. I did The Run [a pub crawl] with a few people this evening which was good. I gained a “No smoking area” sign from The Green Dragon. I think I was in view of the security camera but I’m going to Scotland tomorrow so they’ll have to wait if they want it back.

Bye!

Wednesday 19^th (continued)  Jonas came to visit me AGAIN tonight but I don’t mind cos it’s cold at his house and I like seeing him. We were just lying on my bed and I said something daft while watching TV and he started laughing. I told him to stop laughing at me and he said, “I’m not laughing at you, I love ya!”

I didn’t know what to say so I just giggled at him. I don’t think he meant it cos it was just casually dropped in but it was sweet and I couldn’t stop smiling anyway.

Things progressed properly tonight and I ended up sleeping with him (as in sex – I don’t know why people say ‘sleeping with’ cos that’s hardly what you do). We just started tickling each other and then snogging and he sat up and took my trousers off, then my top, then my knickers and socks, then his top and jeans, then my bra then his boxers all in a fairly short space of time. It was dark which would explain why he said “very nice” when looking at my body.

It wasn’t very nice at all. He was way too fast and I very nearly told him to calm down but I thought he might get offended or annoyed or something. I wasn’t particularly enjoying myself for I stopped him. He asked if I was tired and I just agreed. He then went to have a shower and I found myself bursting into tears.

It was partly out of disappointment cos it was a bit crap (I hope Jonas never reads this!), partly cos I thought the reason it was crap was cos we’d rushed into it, but mainly cos I’m worried he’ll go off me now if he thinks it was crap as well.

When he got out of the shower I was okay again and we just cuddled. He said, “Well that was a first. No-ones ever done that to me before.” I thought, “Done what?” He asked me again how many lads I’d slept with but I still wouldn’t tell him. I asked how many girls he’d slept with (just to see if he gave the same answer) and he said, “It’s irrelevant anyway. No girl’s every made me ‘go’ or whatever you call it.” He then said, “You’re magic”. Yey!! 🙂 He then wanted to know how privileged he is to have such a “sought after” girl. I didn’t really think I was! I thought I was the lucky one getting him.

Anyway, all that made me feel much better and I don’t mind what we did quite so much anymore.

Bye!

Tuesday 18^th to Wednesday 19^th  Jonas came round to mine again tonight and stopped over. He’s not very well and overdosed on Lemsip I think! He saw my lab coat and asked if it was a doctor’s uniform which then made him ask immediately if I had a nurse’s uniform. School uniform’s the best I can do I’m afraid!

Things progressed ever so slightly tonight. He had his hand in my bra. We started kissing and then Jonas kind of leapt up onto his knees and kissed me more. I think he wanted to go all the way, or that’s the impression I got, so I stopped it mainly cos I had to be up in 3 hours but also because it seems to be too soon and a big jump from doing nothing to doing it all in one go. I did kind of want to do it though at the same time cos it feels like I’ve known him a lot longer than 3 weeks.

I apologised anyway and he said, “What for?” and he was the one that pointed out I had to get up early anyway just as he seemed to be getting going. I told him I hated Chemistry (my early lecture tomorrow) and he agreed he did too!

Later on we banged heads and I said it nearly knocked me out. Jonas then said he could’ve had his “wicked way” with me if I had been!

I didn’t end up going to Chemistry after all in the morning. Jonas said I looked all “thinky” when I woke up. I was. I do want stuff to happen but is it too soon? I waited nearly a year with Jake and we stayed together for ages. I suppose everyone’s different though and it’s not like me and Jake are still together.

Jonas then sneezed on a photo of Jake so maybe that’s a sign that I shouldn’t worry about it all so much!

I apologised to Jake about calling him gay in a text and he forgave me and said to have a nice Christmas. I don’t feel as mean about it now

Jonas texted me too saying he wanted to eat, sleep, get better and then come and “ravage” me. Ok!

Bye!