I found a whole new thing to worry about. Geography. – 6th June 2001

Wednesday 6th Now I’ve got those 3 biology exams over with I was pretty pleased but this morning I found a whole new thing to worry about. Geography.

I was sorting out my geography folder and suddenly realised exactly how much I’m going to have to revise. The trouble is that between the time I was taught it and now, I’ve forgotten everything and therefore will have to revise all of it properly. What doesn’t help is the fact that I didn’t understand any of it in the first place! I’ve only got until next Friday to learn and understand it all, plus a Health & Disease topic for biology, the exam I have also got next Friday. I am so buggered!

Had to go to the dentist today but instead of dreading it (even though my teeth are fine), I actually didn’t mind going because it meant a break from panic revision.

I saw Jake this evening. We didn’t do much really because it’s started raining and there aren’t any buses that go anywhere interesting cheaply and the football was on. England beat Greece 2-0. Yey! The Greek team had loads of really good names though compared to our lot!

Hah! My sister’s boyfriend got his car back (after crashing it) today but it’s come back with the wrong registration number on the front. A 6 has been replaced by an 8 so it’s got to go back in to be changed tomorrow before Connor gets arrested or something!


It wasn’t too bad in isolation – 5th June 2001

Tuesday 5th I was actually quite pleasantly surprised by the Ecology & Physiology resit biology papers today but the Continuity of Life paper (which I haven’t got any form of grade in and need to) was a bit of a disaster. I revised it pretty hard but nothing from my notes seemed to fit in as the answers to the questions. Bollocks! I really need a grade.

I had bloody Cat sat next to me moaning cos she thought she’s going to get a B. Stupid cow! There’s the rest of us who’ll be ecstatic if we get a D and she’s going to probably throw herself off college of she doesn’t get the top grade! Grrr!

I only had Physiology this morning which was an hour and half long so I had to sit in isolation with Rachael Hollins for 2 and a half hours to stop us talking to people who had it in the afternoon. You’d have thought the exam board would realise people do resits and not put 4 biology exams in one afternoon.

It wasn’t too bad in isolation. We just sat and talked and slagged off twisted bitch Hayley and ate. It was a bit boring after a while though but at least I wasn’t on my own.

Yey! Robbie Taylor passed his driving test today with only 4 minor faults. That means they’re getting a car on Sunday.

I went in the new college block after my exam. It’s really hot and white and smells new. It’s really ugly from the outside but quite nice inside.

I met Jake at about 4:30 outside college and we walked back to my house. We didn’t do all that much except watch TV and cuddle. Mmm! 🙂


Crap, crap, crap! – 4th June 2001

Monday 4th AAARRGGHHH!!!!! I’ve got one day (ONE DAY!!!) to go until 3 biology exams. No actually, it’s not even a day because they’re all tomorrow. Crap, crap, crap! I know nothing! I’ve been staring at my notes but none of the info is sticking in my brain. This is not good.

My problem is that I don’t panic about exams (until the day before when my brain is void of all biology) so I don’t revise until the last minute. Shit. I’m never going to pass.

I’ve worked out that from the 4 modules I’ve already done (2 of which I’m resitting tomorrow), I’ve got  marks which means I’ve already got an N (i.e. I’ve got no grade but almost an E → N = Near miss). So, to get an E I need 28 marks out of the 2 modules I’ve not done yet. However, I really need a D or more to get the 14 points I need to get into uni but for a D I need 88 marks. Not going to happen.

If I get an E in biology, I could really do with a B in geography but to get that I need 114 marks from the modules this summer. Ha ha!! No chance!

Oh God! I’m going to end up getting stuck working in Little Chef or something with Mr L. Nooooooo!!!

Abby had a maths tutoring thing near Birchwood at 5:15pm so Mum dropped me, Mollie and Jake off for a walk round Risley Moss (I’ve not been there since I did orienteering at GCSE for P.E.!). We saw rabbits which Mollie took great pleasure in chasing and a jay. It was really nice actually cos there was nobody there. We went into the big tower bird hide thing and Mollie came too. I didn’t even realise the area of land it looks over existed. There aren’t many places round Birchwood now that don’t have rabbit warren-style housing estates and business parks on them actually.


[I was back at Risley Moss for a work day in February this year…]

Risley Moss

Hate biology. Brain gone numb. – 2nd & 3rd June 2001

Saturday 2nd Jake and I went to see Captain Corelli’s Mandolin at the Trafford Centre cinema this evening. It was a good film, I just don’t like seeing people getting shot/hanged cos it’s pretty realistic and I like to think (even though it’s not true) that things like that don’t happen cos it upsets me.

The worry of who we’ll be sharing a flat thing with at uni came up today. Well, actually it was more me worrying about who Jake’ll be sharing with really. He’s decided he doesn’t want to share with all lads which obviously means girls will be involved. It wouldn’t be as bad if he wasn’t so damn good looking but he is and girls ALWAYS fancy him.

I’m just so scared that one day he’ll find someone who he prefers to me and she likes him too. I trust him but I don’t trust other girls not to try anything on. I don’t like the thought of other girls liking him. I mean, even some of my mates have openly admitted that they either fancy or fancied him at some point.

He doesn’t really have to worry about lads queuing up for me though cos I don’t exactly stand out as much as he does.

Ugh, it’s ages away yet. I’ll worry about it nearer the time!


Sunday 3rd Ugh. Revision overload. Hate biology. Brain gone numb. Never going to get a grade.

I went to the pub with Jake, Connor and Abby tonight for a game of pool. We went to The George in Denny’s village so Denny and Nigel Groves were in there too. I talked to Denny for a bit then nearly fell asleep due to brain numbness.

I asked for a pint of diesel but instead I got a little glass of bright pink stuff with a slice of lemon and ice. Couldn’t be bothered complaining so I drank it. God knows what it was though!


I DO NOT trust all the tarty little College 1 girls – 24th May 2001

Thursday 24th I failed my 2nd exam this morning. It was General Studies again, only this time the paper had French, some strange comprehension thing on weather (which I should’ve known from Geography but didn’t), a choice of essay (I wrote one about “fragile Earth” or something), a case study about education and another section I think but I can’t remember what it was on.

There’s no way I could’ve passed it cos I didn’t know any of the answers and I couldn’t see Cat’s paper quite as well today, plus I ran out of time because there was so much to read through.

After the exam, a big group of us went and sat on the school field. The College 1s were behind a bush having a barbecue so we avoided them cos we could see Mr B marching over in their direction. They had to move it but we did see him emerge carrying a plate and I’m sure he was still chewing! Anyway, I am now severely sunburnt. Oww!!

Grrr!! Jake rang me before and told me that he’s going to Julia Dennis’s party tonight with Connor cos my sister’s going and Connor doesn’t want to turn up on his own. He promises they’re only staying for half an hour and then he and Connor are going to the pub.

I don’t like the idea of him going at all though. I trust him but I DO NOT trust all the tarty little College 1 girls who are going to be there. Half an hour is long enough for them to fling themselves at him. Plus they’ll probably take great delight in telling me that he was there and asking where I was and they might even gossip that maybe we’ve split up. Bitches! Hang on, that might not happen…. stop thinking, Tessa!

Still, I don’t want him to go. He always comes to parties and out with my mates with me but do I ever get invited anywhere with him? No! He doesn’t even want me to see Radiant Dan (from his Canada trip) when he meets up with him. I’m beginning to get a bit paranoid! Maybe I’m really embarrassing or something?!?

I’m annoyed with him now cos he says he’s definitely going to Julia’s.


Ahh, sweet… but I’m not replying! I’ll let him think I’m still annoyed for a while and maybe it’ll teach him not to piss off to any parties without me!


There was a solid section on maths (all of which I guessed) – 22nd & 23rd May 2001

Tuesday 22nd I did no revision today and saw Jake for a couple of hours before he went to Venture Scouts.


Wednesday 23rd Well, that’s my first exam failed. I had a General Studies paper this afternoon and it wasn’t much fun. I had to write 2 essays: one on tourism and how it has both advantages and disadvantages, and one on why the popularity of cinemas has increased.

Then there was a solid section on maths (all of which I guessed), a bit on X-rays which was kind of a comprehension exercise thing, and then a general knowledge part. I knew Louis Armstrong played the trumpet but that was about it. Actually, I had Cat sat next to me (she’s very clever!) so if she got the answers on the side of the table nearest to me right (it was multiple choice) then maybe I got a few more right. Hee hee! 🙂

Ugh, the College 1s have taken over E7 which was our common room. They’ve completely changed it by putting wheel trims and road signs they’ve found/stolen all over the place. However, when they all went and sat on the field at lunch, me and the rest of us that used to live in E7 got some paint and put our handprints on the wall. I put TS and a 🙂 next to my one.

Jake came to meet me after my exam and stayed at my house for a bit.


Trust me to have a thick week – 1st March 2001

Thursday 1st
5 weeks to go!

Well, I spent another 3 hours this afternoon failing 2 more Biology exams. 😦 Trust me to have a thick week when I’ve got exams! They were both really hard, I thought. The resit was again a bit harder and the problem is that I was only one mark from failing the first time round so I need to do much better. I’ll be extremely surprised if I have.

Jake phoned at about 7:05pm today cos he knew my exams went on quite late after college so I wouldn’t be home for 4:30pm. He told me that there’s a chance he might be coming home a week early because it’s not snowed much where he’s skiing and the weather’s beginning to warm up so what snow there is already could melt. He said that most other people would stay anyway and just not ski but he’d rather come home. 🙂 He told me that it would cost money to come home early but it’d probably be cheaper to come home than stay an extra week.

He’s started a first aid course tonight so he won’t be able to email me tonight or tomorrow night unfortunately.

I got a bit upset tonight cos I’ve begun to worry about this weird thing that made my arm and legs go numb. It’s just that I was trying to talk to Mum about it to get it off my chest but she just got annoyed with me and told me I was being daft worrying.

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