Trust me to have a thick week – 1st March 2001

Thursday 1st
5 weeks to go!

Well, I spent another 3 hours this afternoon failing 2 more Biology exams. 😦 Trust me to have a thick week when I’ve got exams! They were both really hard, I thought. The resit was again a bit harder and the problem is that I was only one mark from failing the first time round so I need to do much better. I’ll be extremely surprised if I have.

Jake phoned at about 7:05pm today cos he knew my exams went on quite late after college so I wouldn’t be home for 4:30pm. He told me that there’s a chance he might be coming home a week early because it’s not snowed much where he’s skiing and the weather’s beginning to warm up so what snow there is already could melt. He said that most other people would stay anyway and just not ski but he’d rather come home. 🙂 He told me that it would cost money to come home early but it’d probably be cheaper to come home than stay an extra week.

He’s started a first aid course tonight so he won’t be able to email me tonight or tomorrow night unfortunately.

I got a bit upset tonight cos I’ve begun to worry about this weird thing that made my arm and legs go numb. It’s just that I was trying to talk to Mum about it to get it off my chest but she just got annoyed with me and told me I was being daft worrying.

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Everyone has bleached their hair – 27th February 2001

Tuesday 27th
5 weeks + 2 days to go!

Well, I spent all of this morning failing 2 Biology exams. It wasn’t much fun. I’m extremely frustrated and annoyed with myself bout the first one (Ecology) cos I ran out of time just as I was answering a long question to which I knew the answer. I just felt like walking out and crying but I managed to control myself.

The second exam was a resit which I got a C on the first time round. It’s a good job cos there’s no way I’ve got a grade on that! I did get a bit upset afterwards but I got over it.

Jake rang at about 4:45pm, actually when he said he would! He told me everyone has bleached their hair and he’s considering it too! He said he’ll ring at 4:30ish-4:45pm tomorrow. We’ll see! I’ve got to remember to record on video the Australian Grand Prix for him.


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I’m going to fail so badly! – 15th June 2000

Thursday 15th Sarah and I went to the Trafford Centre again after Geography today. Our excuse was that it was “therapy” because we’ve been stressing about the next 2 exams that we’re going to fail tomorrow!

I was really looking for a dress for Alex’s party on Saturday but I couldn’t find one I liked so I ended up with another top from Bay. I also bought a Dingly Dangly Cow from S F Cody’s cos it’s really cute! It’s a baby’s toy really I think but I’m not bothered!

We saw Andy and his mate in HMV! We think they saw us cos they looked up when I pointed at them. I don’t think we’ll be telling Hayley cos she’d probably cry!

We also saw Ralph briefly. He just said hi.

Since I got home, I’ve been really worrying about these module exams tomorrow. Exams don’t normally bother me at all though. I just can’t take anything in and when I go back to look at it later, I’ve forgotten it all! I’m going to fail so badly!

Just to make my concentration levels decrease even more in the Geography exam tomorrow, Jake’s going to be in there too! I’ve totally had it! I might as well just not bother turning up!!


How the hell did I get a B in French? – 26th & 27th August 1999

Thursday 26th I’m so happy, relieved and shocked now I’ve finally got my results. I was really, really nervous this morning and when I got to school at about 10:00am, I was absolutely wetting myself. We all filed into the canteen where different tables were set up for different surname initials. I went to my one where Miss Ph and Mrs L were sat.

It took a while before my turn because there were forms to fill in but finally I sat down and got handed my results. There were 3 sheets of paper stapled together (because of the different exam boards). I couldn’t believe it when I looked through and I couldn’t stop smiling and I couldn’t concentrate on the questions asked so this form could be filled in. They just wanted to know where I was going next term and what subjects I was taking. I said Biology, Geography and Sports Studies because the grades I’ve got meant I could do the ones I wanted to.

These are the grades I got:

Science: double award – A
Science: double award – A [This was a combo of Physics, Chemistry and Biology and we got 2 grades for some reason.]
Food Tech – A
Business Studies – B (combined with Food Tech for a grade B overall)
English – B (speaking and listening)
English Literature – B
French – B
Geography – A
Physical Education – C
Art – A
Mathematics – B

I really can’t believe some of those grades! How the hell did I get a B in French [this question still stands] and an A in Science?! I’m so unbelievably pleased with those results. I’ve not stopped smiling all day!

I ran into the school car park to tell my mum and she said that’d been the longest wait she’d ever had but was so pleased when I showed her what I’ve got. We phoned Abby and she was pleased too but is now worried she won’t do as well next year (course she will!) and then drove round to where Dad’s working and told him. He said he’d just been talking to Mr B about it before I came. He was glad as well.

Most of my friends got what they wanted or better…

  • Hayley got one A and the rest Cs and Bs (well, she got a D in Business but it combined with Food Tech for a C)
  • Emma got one B and the rest As
  • Dougie got 9 A*s and the rest As (pretty good, hey?!)
  • Cat got 7 A*s and the rest As (good one again!)
  • Lizzie got mostly Bs and Cs with a couple of As and possibly a D (I can’t quite remember)

I know what quite a few other people got but I can’t be bothered writing it all down.

When I got home, Dougie phoned and asked me if I wanted to go to the cinema with him, Stuart Hobbs, Brian Short and Stuart’s sad older brother to see Austin Powers 2. They seemed to be all the people that were going and I’m not sure why they asked me, although he did say I could ask other people.

I didn’t end up going though because I went bowling instead with Freda, Lizzie, Cat, Poppy, Lucy, Karen and Hayley. It was quite good because we went on the dodgems and stuff too. When we were getting out shoes back, the bloke working there was messing about and kept giving me the wrong shoes. I don’t know why but he only did it to me and Lizzie.

Afterwards, we got the bus back to Poppy’s, bought a Chinese takeaway, ate chocolate cake and drank white wine (there was no champagne!).

I got this card from Hayley and her parents which I thought was really nice of them. ↓


When I got home this evening, I had to phone Auntie G and Auntie S so I did. I got congratulations off Auntie G and squeals from Wick! Auntie S said that she told me at the barbecue in Wick that she’d give me a fiver for ever A I got. That should make me £25 richer! I don’t remember her saying that but I’m not going to argue. Grandma S also said she’d give me some money. This is cool! I never knew passing exams had all these benefits!

I spoke to Rhian later on tonight because she’d been at MADD (Music, Art, Dance and Drama) earlier. I got more squeals off her but no news on Duncan unfortunately.

Anyway, I’m going to catch up on a bit of sleep now.


Friday 27th I’ve been bored for most of today because Mum and Abby went to Southport for a textiles project of Abby’s and Dad was at work.

I did get this card and a top present of Mum and Dad though for doing well in exams. ↓


They bought me a mobile phone. I have to say, I do feel a bit guilty because it must’ve been expensive but they kept telling me I deserved it. My parents are so cool!

I went to the cinema tonight with Freda, Hayley, Poppy, Lizzie, Sarah, Karen and Cat to see the South Park movie. It is so funny!! There’s a lot of swearing so Tom and Minnie had better not see it, even though they want to! We finally got to see what Kenny looks like and hear him speak briefly. He’s so cute! I don’t think I’ve ever heard so many people laugh in a cinema before.ugh in a cinema before.


I’ve probably failed them all – 25th August 1999

Wednesday 25th I met up with Keira, Emma, Patrick Campbell, Dougie and Stuart Hobbs at Warrington Bus Station this morning ready to go on a ‘mystery tour’ because we didn’t know where we were going to go. We were just going to jump on a train and go somewhere. I was actually late because I got the 10:10 bus instead of the 9:40 bus and, when Emma didn’t get on in her village, I got off, found a phone box and tried to phone Emma to see where she was but it was engaged so I stated walking home.

Mum drove past, stopped, picked me up and said they’d phoned saying they were waiting for me so she gave me a lift there. I ran to the bus station and eventually found them all, apologised, they laughed at me and we made our way to Warrington Central station. We looked down the list of places to go and chose Liverpool. We got on a train and went.

All we really did all day was wander round the Albert Dock, wander round the main shopping area and sit in McDonald’s, flicking a carton of tomato ketchup across the table to each other until it burst all over Stuart and Dougie.

We got this photo taken in a booth: (I am on it but very blurred!)


When we got bored of Liverpool, we came back to Warrington and went in McDonald’s. Then Dougie left because he had to go to work at that tennis centre thing so the rest of us went back to the bus station. The lads went home but Emma and I went back to Keira’s house for a bit.

The other 2 discussed Robert a lot and what Keira should find out for Emma (such as if he likes her) and I kind of groaned when ‘Better Off Alone’ came on the radio. They asked me why so I told them about Duncan although I didn’t go into too much details on what happened because I could feel myself going red.

I got in this evening and phoned Rhian to tell her that I gave the letter to Dougie today. (She wasn’t in but she rang back later.) I gave it to him at the bus station when I arrived and he took his time reading it. He wouldn’t show us so I think he took it seriously! He kept getting it out and reading it again all day. Then he started asking me questions about Rhian such as, “How old is she?” and “What does she look like?” I think I’ll have to show him a photo sometime.

Just before he went to work, I asked him if he had any messages for her and he said something like, “Tell her that as you’re giving her this message, I’m on my way up to Scotland so she’d better brace herself!” I think I’ve made his head enlarge rather considerably!

I get my GCSE exam results back tomorrow. I’m worried now. I was okay until about 9:00pm and then I got bored and began worrying. These are my predictions for how I’ve done:

English – C (if I’m lucky!)
Maths – D
Science – Fail
French – Fail
Geography – D
Food Tech and Business – Fail
P.E. – D
Art – C (if I’m lucky!)

I think that’s all the subjects. I might be pushing my luck a bit by saying I’ve got Cs and Ds. In reality, I’ve probably failed them all. Oh well, looks like I’ll be seeking employment as a bag packer in Tesco or something.

I’m really nervous now. I can see myself tomorrow finding out my results and being so bloody annoyed with myself because I know now I could’ve done better than I have. All the people around me will be satisfied at least because all my friends are clever. I’m not thick but when it came to the exams, I knew I’d not got a chance of getting the grades I should. I’d be happy if I got one A but I won’t have done. I don’t want to fail or get any Ds either but I’m bound to. I don’t think I’ll be getting too much sleep tonight.

These are my train tickets from today. I thought I may as well just stick them in. ↓


(I lied and said I was 15 to get half fare!)

I almost forgot, Rhian told me on the phone that she’d told Duncan he had to write to me and he said “Alright then” or something. I hope he does write back, I still really miss him. Rhian also said she’d got photos of Chin, Sanders (but he was hiding) and Ashley Ewart’s back so she’ll send them when she’s done more I think.

I’ll go away and panic now! AAARRGGHHH!!!


Maybe it’s just not meant to be! – 7th-11th June 1999

Monday 7th I had an English paper again today. It was that non-fictional stuff with the argue/persuade/instruct parts on it. It seemed okay and I wrote loads.

I’ve got the day off tomorrow though. Adam said he’s got a Tech exam in the morning so I’ve got to think about him! I probably will anyway, seeing as I can’t get the idea of going to Alton Towers to see him out of my head.

Part of me’s really wary and part of me’s really excited. The others (Lizzie, Cat and Hayley) who are coming seem cool with going on the train. Hayley’s got plenty of time to back out yet and no doubt she will. I’ve not told the others yet that I’ve never actually seen these lads before in my life and I’m not sure I will. I might wait until they can’t back out, like when we’re on the train!

Mind you, Hayley’ll probably tell them coz she won’t want to come with me but she won’t want the others to come either. She’s scared of going but also scared of missing out! Me too!!


Wednesday 9th I had my first French listening exam this morning. It was okay, well, as okay as French can be but I don’t think I did brilliantly. It was only 40 mins though. Then this afternoon I had my Maths exam. I’m so glad I took the intermediate paper and not the higher like the teachers wanted me to do. It was pretty easy although I’ve still got another paper to go yet.

It turns out that getting to Alton Towers on the train is more complicated than it first seemed. I’d have to get the train from here then change at Piccadilly and go on to Stoke or Uttoxeter. Apparently there’s only 3 buses from Stoke and at weird times and none from Uttoxeter so I dunno what Adam had in mind.

My mum checked all this out for me and she says she’ll see if there are any coaches running there from here too. My Dad offered to take us in a minibus but, other than the Adam factor, I’d feel guilty for making him hang about all day.

Maybe it’s just not meant to be!


Thursday 10th I had my first Science exam this morning. It was alright. The hard bits were really hard but the rest seemed okay. I only got 51% on the mock so that didn’t make me feel much better! I’ve got another paper yet though.

This afternoon I had the Food Tech exam. That seemed okay to me too but everyone else said they thought it was solid. That means I’ve probably done something wrong!!


Friday 11th I had my last English exam this morning and it seemed alright but French this afternoon was horrible. That’s done with too though now… and failed!!

Oscar Price asked Lizzie if she wanted to go to town tomorrow with him and his mates so she is and Sarah L and I are going with her.

I’m also going to the All Saints concert with those two, Freda, Karen and Zoe I think. That should be good and it’s in the evening. Different from going to the Sports Club anyway!


The only lad who likes me is Nutter – 13th January 1999

Wednesday 13th I’ve not had a very good day. The only good thing really was I got an A in Geography. I was the only one who got an A in the class which made me 3rd with 76.6% or summit because 2 people got A*s and guess who they were. Yes, Dougie and Ewan.

Okay, there’s quite a lot of bad stuff to tell you about now.

My Maths mark. I got 36% on one exam paper and 37% on the other. I’m not sure what grade that got but it’s not good, I know that much.

Then there was my P.E. lesson. It was hockey and I thought I was doing okay but, as usual, Miss Pinder decided to pick on me again by keeping telling me to “get involved”. I think it’s built up because she keeps catching me when I’m out of games like basketball and volleyball and she’s never watching when I do actually do summit good so now she’s always expecting me to make no effort and watches out for it.

I have noticed (and she said so herself) that Shauna Adams is also usually out of it but I think Pinder likes her coz she’s on school teams and stuff. I think Pinder’s convinced herself that I’m crap at P.E. but there are 4 girls and loads of lads in our group and we find it hard to keep up coz the lads are so selfish too.  They ignore me mostly so I do find it difficult sometimes to get involved if the rest of my team is excluding me. If I don’t have the ball, I can’t show the teachers what I can actually do.

Anyway, after the lesson, Pinder said, “Tess, can I just have a word?” She started asked me what was the matter and why I wasn’t getting involved and that my grade could drop even though my written work’s good. I couldn’t answer and say what I wanted to because, if I’d have opened my mouth to speak, I would have burst into tears. It was so humiliating and then, of course, everyone wanted to know what she’d said to me. I had to go into the toilets to calm myself down.

On top of all this, Emma and I discovered today that Lena’s having a sleepover for her birthday and we didn’t get invited. When Emma asked her about it, she told her it’d been cancelled but it hasn’t. We really feel like they’re all being a bit off with us but there’s no reason we can think of. I invited her to my birthday meal thingy so it can’t be that. Emma wouldn’t have been able to go anyway but that’s not the point and I could’ve done.

You see, that’s another thing I’m worried about because Emma’s going to Mr Smith’s with Davis and all his mates from wherever he lives. I’m not invited coz I’m not particularly friends with them and Emma and some Gavin lad are getting on pretty well, I think. Ewan’s going too.

Oh yeah, that’s another thing. Ewan fancies Alice Croft. He asked for her phone number. Abby says she doesn’t like him though. It’s so annoying.

The only lad who likes me is Nutter and I’m completely on my bill at the weekends with bad marks at school. Emma doesn’t make me feel much better with her new group of friends out of school (a part of her social life I’m not involved in. I thought I was her best mate) and a new lad just about every week. What am I going to do, hey?

My French oral exam was awful. I had no idea what the teacher was on about. I never want to do it again!


P.S. I’ve just found out that my cousin Rhian’s in hospital. Something happened to her back and she couldn’t walk so they carted her off from school in an ambulance. I’ll tell more if I find out more but she may have to see some specialist in Edinburgh or somewhere.