Am I ever going to get another snog off him??! – 9th & 10th March 2000

Thursday 9th I still can’t believe I’m going out with Jake Taylor!!! I like him soooo much now! I saw quite a bit of him today at lunch and stuff and he stopped for a while after college because we were shifting the careers stuff out of our common room. He went before me because he had to go to the dentist but I got a snog. They get better! I tried to stop it because I thought someone was coming in the room but he didn’t let me by leaning in as I tried to pull away. That was really nice for some reason. I suppose it’s because he wanted to carry on even if someone else had come in!

He smells really nice too. Sarah agrees! We were walking up the stairs in college today and we both got a whiff of what he wears and looked at each other. We didn’t even have to say anything, it was weird how we both just knew the other one was thinking, “I can smell Jake”! It’s Issy Myaki Miyake (I don’t know how you spell it) he told me. I’ve heard of that before because my sister always used to go on about how much she loved the smell. He says it’s his dad’s.

I got another message ending, “LOVE YOU xxxxx ; )” tonight. It made my stomach do that nice warm thing when I read it!

For future reference, Hugo Pratt’s home phone number is 01565 ******. Jake told me in the message because I’d asked what it was as an excuse so he’d send me a message back.


Friday 10th I’ve now developed aching eyes and a bad headache. Brilliant – this cold just gets better and better – NOT!!!

Went to see this Battle of the Bands thing at school tonight with Jake. It was pretty crap and I didn’t get any physical contact whatsoever off Jake all the way through. We went to The Coach afterwards and he held my hand, put his hand on my leg and stomach and leaned on me at various points in the evening but that’s as far as it went. Therefore I am extremely pissed off! All I got was a quick peck on the lips goodbye when I got out of the car because he was giving some lad a lift home. Grrr!! I won’t see him all weekend and nothing ever happens in college because there’s always loads of people about.

Am I ever going to get another snog off him??!



I want to know what reasons!! – 5th March 2000

Sunday 5th I woke up this morning and looked at my phone to see ‘1 missed call’ and ‘message received’ on the screen. I don’t know who the call was from or when whoever it was phoned because it must have been anonymous and they didn’t leave a message. Hayley, Freda and I had some like that on the way home last night and Hayley thinks it’s Andy and his mates because he’s got our 3 numbers so it was probably him again.

The message was from Jake and it said, “SORRY, I’VE JUST GOT UP + READ YOUR MESSAGE – IT’S OK, I DON’T THINK YOU CAN EXPLAIN WHY WHEN YOU LIKE SOMEONE THAT MUCH – I COULDN’T. THERE’S 2 MANY DIFFERENT REASONS – LUV U x”. Okay, fair enough, I’m glad he understands but now I want to know what reasons!! He sent that message at 11:14 – glad I’m not the only one who gets up so late!

Went to see Malcolm Mattesson, an Environmental Consultant that my dad knows, this afternoon about what’s going on with the indoor ski centre they’re meant to be building somewhere near Wigan (yeah!!) because I’m doing about it for my Geography project. It was quite interesting actually. Jake did about a leisure centre or something for his.

I had a message from Jake before. He didn’t say much other than that he was bored but I got, “LOTS + LOTS OF LOVE JAKE xxxxx ; )” at the end. I liked the little winking face at the end! (In the texts, the faces are actually sideways because they’re made up of brackets and stuff.)

This cold of mine isn’t getting better. My whole face aches (Mum said it must be my sinuses) and I went deaf in both ears before. It’s back to just deaf in one again now so I feel unbalanced again! It’s horrible!! Mum wants me to go to the doctor but he’ll stick one of those things down my ear and it hurt loads last time so I don’t want to go. I’m being soft!!


Just cos! – 4th March 2000

Saturday 4th I had a phone call from Emma this afternoon asking if I knew where Jake and Niall went because she’d said they could stay at her house last night but her mum’d kicked up a fuss and wouldn’t let them. She said her mum had liked Jake and has said he was gorgeous and had spoken to her very nicely!

I sent him a message asking where he went and I got a reply stretching over 3 messages. He said, “EMMA IS MAD! SHE GOT ME TO DROP THEM OFF + THEN LOCKED THE GATE SO I COULDN’T DRIVE HOME – THEN HAD AN ARGUMENT WITH HER MUM + TOLD US TO SLEEP IN THE CARAVAN!”



I went to LA Bowl tonight. I’ve not been for a while so I thought I might not get quite as bored. I was wrong! Even with Jake there it was boring. We just spent hours stood about waiting for a lane and, even after we’d got one and finished the game, we were stood about again waiting for a lift home. I wouldn’t go on the dodgems because I didn’t fancy being battered about when I’d got a headache and stuff already so I think Jake must have thought I’m a bit boring too.

As we were waiting to leave the place, I asked Sarah why she liked Gethin. She didn’t say anything except, “Just cos!” then she asked, “Well why do you like him?” pointing at Jake so I replied, “Just cos!” just to be awkward cos she didn’t answer me either.

I only got one kiss off him which was outside as we were going but it didn’t last long because some cocky little bloke walked past saying, “Is that even legal?!” and then all my mates were in cars waiting for me so I was a bit disappointed that I didn’t get a good snog.

As I neared home, I realised that when I’d answered “Just cos!” to Sarah’s question, it must have sounded awful to Jake so at about 12:30 am (when I just got in), I texted him saying, “SOMEONE’S JUST POINTED OUT THAT IT SOUNDED REALLY AWFUL WHEN SARAH ASKED ME WHY I LIKED U + I SAID JUST COS. I’M SORRY OF IT DID!! LOVE YOU xxx”. I didn’t get a reply but it’s late now.


A nice hug and a peck on the cheek – 2nd March 2000

Thursday 2nd I had a nice message to read this morning. It said, “GOOD MORNING! ARE YOU GOING IN? HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON : ) LOVE YOU xXx”. As you may have guessed, it was from Jake.

I did go into college today, even though I’m still feeling pretty rough. I just kept drugging myself up with aspirin and throat sweets! Jake came to find me at break and he sat in the corner of the common room with me. When the bell went, he very sensibly said, “I won’t give you a kiss, I’ll just hug you instead.” He had his nice cuddly Quiksilver fleece on too.


The fleece.

So, this packet →


from the tissues I’ve been using today seemed very appropriate! So, me being me, I’ve stuck it in! (I love that picture!)

Jake also came with me and Cat at lunch to try and find out info about Alex. Jake then told us, after we’d asked everyone from skiing, that his mate Ian who he knows from Venture Scouts (what the hell are they??!!) played rugby in Bolton and therefore might know Alex. It turns out he doesn’t but Cat’s been having text conversations with Ian instead who was at Amanda Bryan’s party but no-one knows who he is either except, obviously, Jake.

After school (when I got a nice hug and a peck on the cheek off Jake) he sent me a message (Jake this is) saying Robbie’d remembered Alex’s surname is Cranwell. I got another later saying Katie knows his middle name. That message was signed off with “LOVE YOU xXx” as well. Aaah, I love it when he puts that!

I got another even later saying that Janine said she liked me and Cat after all. We hadn’t been sure at skiing, you see.

Tonight, I got a phone call off Jake. He was at work and rang to warn me that Mason had sent me a dirty message. He just wanted me to know it wasn’t from him. The text only said, “I WANT YOU BABY, AFTER I’VE HAD A HAND SHANK” though.


Zoe says she’s getting married!!! – 29th February 2000

Tuesday 29th I remembered today that Jake had admitted to being a Manchester City fan on Sunday night. Oh well, at least he’s not following the Scouse lot or anything!

Cat was talking to Jake’s mate Jenny in their Art lesson today. She told Cat that, in Paris, Jake was sat clutching his phone all evening saying stuff like, “Tess usually rings at this time. Why isn’t she ringing me?” or something. That’s good to hear because I wasn’t sure that he’d have wanted me to keep phoning him.

Jake also told me on Sunday that in Paris, Sadie Harding had tried it on with him and snogged Aled. She’s got a boyfriend too – slag!! Anyway, I got Abby to question her today on it all. I believe Jake that nothing happened but I wanted to see what she had to say about it because, before I went to Pre Loup, I’d jokingly told her to keep an eye on him for me.

After school, I asked Abby what Sadie had said and she told me that she had snogged Aled (I didn’t care about that part) and that her boyfriend doesn’t know (for future reference, her boyfriend’s Kingsley Stevens!) and that she’d slept with Jake in his bed. So, Abby then of course walked off, leaving me worrying all through Swing Band!

I found her again afterwards and asked for details and she told me that Sadie had just slept in the same bed as him and some people thought they were cuddling up but weren’t. I was relieved to hear that!

I sent Jake a message though, just to check his reaction. I said, “HELLO! WHAT’S THIS I HEAR ABOUT U SLEEPING WITH SADIE HARDING??! SARAH’S NOW DECIDED THAT SHE DOESN’T REGRET DUMPING HUGO + CAT GOT ALEX’S NUMBER! LOVE TESS x”. I got a message back from him explaining that Aled and someone called Kelly had also been in the same bed because his was broken and that nothing happened.

I sent one back just to let him know I knew saying, “I KNOW, U DIDN’T HAVE 2 EXPLAIN! WHAT U UP 2? I’M HAVING SO MUCH FUN DOING MY GRASS ESSAY FOR BIO!! (YAWN!) SEE U ON THURS : ( LOTS OF LOVE TESS xxxxx”. (He’s not in tomorrow because he’s going to Plymouth for something.)


I sent him an apology for scaring him and asked what he’s doing this weekend. He signed of his next message, “LOTS OF HUGS N KISSES LOVE J : ) xxx” and I finished the one after that (about not fancying going to Manchester with Freda and co.) quite simply, “LOVE U xxx”. It’s the end of his messages that I like best!

Zoe says she’s getting married!!! She also says she wants me, Rochelle, Bridget and her sisters to be bridesmaids! I’m in shock! We’re not allowed to say anything yet cos her mum doesn’t know. She’ll go mad!! She’s only seen this guy once and met him on the internet. It’s got to be dodgy!


P.S. I got a really nice snog off Jake before last lesson. I can’t write down how much I like him! It’s quite scary actually!

I never thought of lads using lip balm but Jake does. He left his and his wallet at Brian’s on Sunday.

At lunch, I was just beginning to think we were just going to sit there with no physical contact but then he kept shifting his chair closer to me and eventually put his hand on my leg. Every time I let go of his hand, he put it back on my leg and it always made my stomach do that weird (but nice) sinking thing!

A passionate reunion!! – 28th February 2000

Monday 28th I went round to Brian Hobbs’s house last night because a few of my mates were having a get-together. Jake got the night off work so he could come with me. I got a text saying, “I’VE JUST LEGGED IT TO THE PUB TO BEG THE LANDLORD TO GIVE ME THE NIGHT OFF. LOVE JAKE xxx”. I’m glad he did because it was quite a good night.

My mum asked who was going and when I mentioned Jake she asked if he was the one who gave me the rose. When I said he was, she asked if I was going out with him. I sort of shrugged and squirmed a bit and she said, “Is it just early days yet?” It was so cringing!!

We got to Brian’s and just drank and chatted. Hugo phoned me and started going on about Jake and some girl called Claire who he’d been rolling round on the floor with at some party a while ago when he’d been really drunk. Apparently it looked like they were doing more than kissing but weren’t. She’s meant to be ugly and he was very, very drunk.

Hayley phoned Hugo later and started yelling down then phone at him about stuff. He then fell out with Jake who says he doesn’t care. He had ‘a word’ with Hugo which Hayley overheard. He was telling Hugo that he’d better stop telling me stuff about other girls. Maybe he’s got some dark secrets or something! I’m worried again now!

We started talking about Canada and he said I have to go and visit him. I pointed out that 5 months was a long time and he said that he might only be out there for 3 now. Good!

As it got later, the lights went out and I ended up in Brian’s bed with Jake. There was everyone else in the room too though! We just snogged all night. My lips are really sore this morning because he was on top of me and couldn’t hold himself up properly. He wasn’t as gentle as usual but I didn’t really care! It was just a passionate reunion!!

I somehow got onto the subject of becoming a prostitute when I go to Holland but then Jake told me I was too pretty. 🙂 He also told me I had a nice complexion and nice hair. Hope my skin stays nice now I’m off the tablets.

We couldn’t do much other than kiss when the others were in the room, although I’m not sure we would’ve done even if we’d have been alone. He’s a bit shy but I suppose it’s better than being pushy. He did end up with his hand in my bra and he had his shirt off though. Gethin was going round with a camera so I hope he didn’t get any really dodgy ones! [Almost…]


Either all the passion or my really bad ski tan appears to have shocked The Simpsons.

Jake kept hugging me really tightly as well. That was dead nice.

We left at about 2:15 am in a taxi. We were pretty silent but it wasn’t awkward. He just held my hand tighter and tighter as I got closer to home.

I don’t think I’ve ever liked anyone this much before.


P.S. Something’s been bugging me all day because I don’t know if it actually happened last night or if it was a really vivid dream. I moved my hand from underneath me and brushed over the flies on his trousers. He then jerked away from kissing me and sat up and said something a bit dodgy (but not bad). The more I think about it, the more I think it must’ve been a dream because surely he wouldn’t have announced it in a room full of people, whether they were asleep or not! It’s really annoying me because I really don’t know if it happened or not!

Glandular fever which he caught off a hooker! – 24th February 2000

Thursday 24th This was the best day of skiing so far!! I didn’t fall over once and we were bombing it down the mountain. Leather Steve said it was good to see me at the front with the lads.

In the morning, Robbie wanted a photo of me but I didn’t want him to take one because Jake would see it if it was bad. He tried again later saying, “But Jake’ll want one of you!”

We had a test in the afternoon lesson. I got the silver badge (we couldn’t get higher than that in our group).

I’ve decided that Ivor Ward on his snowboard is definitely pretty damn fine!

In the evening, with it being out last night, I got a bit pissed on Alex’s vodka (he didn’t know!) and I was in Mr L (Phwoar!!) and Mr C’s room with Cat, Katie and Janine. I was moaning about my hair and Mr L said it looks nice down cos it looks really natural. I’m going to wear it down more often. He also likes my Fila fleece. Well, I want his blue Quiksilver one. We should’ve swapped!

Fila fleece

[The Fila fleece.]

The evening was awful. Robbie’s mates nicked his hair gel or something and he must have got annoyed because, at tea, Aiden Fallon said to him, “It’s just hair gel, it’s not like your mum’s died or anything!” unknowing of the actual situation. Robbie got upset and Mrs K came and spoke to me and went on about how I’ll have to do a lot of supporting and stuff. This made me think and then I couldn’t stop crying.

It’s really worried me now. It’s also the fact that Jake’s not even told me but he’s told Hayley. I don’t know what to think of that. He probably thinks I’d be scared off. I don’t think he realises that I know.

Happy hour in some pub but I still wasn’t very happy. I was telling Ivor about the Maggotboy story because he knows Aled but Declan Churchill said it looked like I was chatting him up and vice versa. If I was single, that could quite possibly have been the case but I’m not so it wasn’t.

I was still pissed off at the disco. This was the ticket we needed to get in →


Alex got mobbed by girls, Robbie got upset again but ended up snogging someone (we think) and I nearly got upset again.

I phoned Jake before all the Robbie stuff at tea happened. He said he still had a sore throat and that it was glandular fever which he caught off a hooker! He’d better have been joking!! He also mentioned something about me seducing Aled. Worried!