Rory ended up cuffed to a fence – 26th January 2001

Friday 26th
9 weeks + 6 days to go!

College was boring today this morning so I didn’t mind having to go to John Moore’s Uni later on, even if it was during my free periods. My Sports Studies group all had to go and use the library there for research to help with our coursework but, cos Miss P’s a thick bitch and forgot to check beforehand if she could take us, she left it too late and wasn’t allowed so we had to make our own way there. Rachael Hollins and Tanya Potter were driving but all we had to go by were some crappy directions that Miss P wrote down so we ended up getting completely lost!

When we finally found it, nobody really knew what sort of stuff we needed to research cos there was no teacher with us. We just made use of the rip-off photocopiers (7p per sheet!) and went to find a chippy and then came home!

Jake phoned me at the normal time (about 4:30ish) today but, again, didn’t really have much to tell me! I think I prefer that cos if he was going on for ages about what a good time he’s having then I’d just get really jealous and worry he won’t want to come home. Hang on, I’m doing that already!

A load of us did The Run [a pub crawl] again tonight and, again, it was quite good! I stuck with Cat and Suzie mainly, like I did last week cos everyone else seemed to be pairing off.

Karen looked like such a whore! She was wearing her dog collar (as in one from a pet shop, not the church kind!) and brought her whip and handcuffs too! Rory ended up cuffed to a fence with Karen cracking her whip near him!

Run - Karen in control

Other stuff happened but I’ve mentioned it all in the 2nd email to Jake. [See the emails after my daily ‘Bye!’]

Sarah was following Gethin round like a little sheep again. That worries me cos I don’t want her fancying him again just because she’s FINALLY decided to give up on Maz. She needs to find a lad who lives around here and who isn’t gay!

Cat needs to find a lad that’s a bit similar to our age and who isn’t a teacher!

I know all that’s easier said than done though! Good relationships always seem like something that happens to other people when you’re single too! Before I met Jake, I thought I was never going to find anyone and even now I still can’t quite believe that I did! I tell that to people like Sarah and Cat [yet they shockingly didn’t punch my smug little face] but they still think there’s no way it’ll happen to them. I hope it does!

I still don’t feel all that lucky at the moment cos Jake’s away but everyone keeps saying I should just be glad I’ve got someone, even if he’s not in the same country. I am really but it’s still in the back of my mind that something bad could happen to him and I’ll never see him again. I know that’s really negative but I can’t help it!

I miss him sooooo much!!!

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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I shouldn’t be jealous of my own boyfriend – 24th January 2001

Wednesday 24th
10 weeks + 1 days to go!

I had a pretty boring day today so I spent most of my day either doing coursework in free lessons or on the internet looking at www.ifyouski.com cos Jake mentioned it in his email. It was a bit crap actually (Rob’s bit) and it took me ages to find!

I also looked up skiing in Sheffield cos I’ve decided I want to learn how to snowboard so I can do that if he wants to ski! Okay, I’m jealous that he’s going to be a really good skier and I won’t be! I know I shouldn’t be jealous of my own boyfriend and I can do things like kickboxing and read music but I love skiing!

I really want to go again one day but he’d be unbearable with telling me what to do and stuff so if I could snowboard then I could still go but he couldn’t tell me what to do cos he’s no expert! Mind you, knowing him he’ll do that as well!

Tess snowboarding

[Fast-forward a few years…]

When he phoned today, he told me that when he was eating his breakfast that Amazed song by Lonestar came on! [Vom.] It reminds him of me cos he says the words describe exactly how he feels about me! 🙂 It’s weird though cos the last 3 times I’ve been in McDonald’s it’s come on too!

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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He’s worried I’m going to run off with someone – 21st January 2001

Sunday 21st
10 weeks + 4 days to go!

This diary’s getting a bit full with all these emails now! I’d only lose them otherwise and I don’t mind getting lots anyway!

I’ve spent another day getting nowhere with my Geography revision and Biology coursework again! Oh well, I’ll just have to fail! No, I don’t really want to do that! 😦

I was just beginning to think Jake wasn’t going to ring tonight but then he did at about 5:20. 🙂 He didn’t have much to tell me again other than it’s not snowed there (it did here this morning though!) and that it’s only -2oC when it should be -30oC at this time of year. He said it starts to warm up in February so with any luck all the snow will melt and he’ll have to come home! No that’s mean, he’d only be miserable anyway!

He also told me that one of the girls there had her drink spiked and she collapsed and then stopped breathing in the police car. Scary! He says she’s in hospital but she’s okay now.

He was saying that he misses me and stuff and that he doesn’t like me saying that I feel single. I think he’s worried I’m going to run off with someone cos apparently one of the girls there has been going out with someone for 2 years but has started something else with one of the lads there.

He told me that he and his roommate were discussing what they’d do if me or Rob’s girlfriend ran off with someone else. Charming!

I think I’ve got the cold he had before he went and he said he wishes was here cos I sound really sweet with a cold!

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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I could hear his mates whistling and stuff – 16th January 2001

Tuesday 16th
11 weeks + 2 days to go!

Not much has really happened at college today (as usual!) except everyone’s debating how long Lizzie and Declan are going to last because she’s going to meet some Paul lad she met at swimming in town on Friday night. It’s been arranged for a while but I think it’s really shady on Declan.

I’ve been talking to MiniTaylor a bit more recently and he was sat with us and Declan asked him if he was wearing his own clothes today. I think he’s nicking Jake’s!

Jake phoned me this evening again. It was about 5:00pm when he did so I was just beginning to get worried when he rang! He told me the course was fun and one of the girl looks like an 8 year old lad and the other one’s ill so I don’t need to worry!

He gave me the address and phone number of where he’s staying. It’s:

Room 207
Best Western Siding 29 Lodge
PO Box 1387
Banff
Alberta
TOL OCO

Tel: 0014037625575

I feel a bit better knowing that now!

I did tell him that he doesn’t have to phone or mail me if he’s got other stuff to do. He said he wants to but that if one day he doesn’t ring it might be because he’s got up late and might miss the bus if he phones or something. He said he’d ring my mobile and leave a message later on if something like that happened. I’m just scared of having to go through those awful feelings of dread again like I had to on Saturday.

I didn’t really mean that he doesn’t have to ring though! I mean, he doesn’t have to but I want him to! I could hear his mates whistling and stuff in the background which gave me the impression he should’ve been doing something else!

Bye!

P.S. Email from Jake →

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My reply →

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[I did briefly realise my yellow digger dream through work about 15 years later…]

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The shortarse cow! – 7th to 9th January 2001

Sunday 7th It was Jake’s dad’s birthday yesterday so Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre so he could get him a present!

He also bought Ronan Keating’s album cos he likes him (so do I) so he could record it onto minidisc and I could have the CD ‘til he comes home.

We also bought some keyrings that fit together but rather than a soppy heart or something, we got 2 bears on phones. They’re really nice. I think they’re those “Me to You” bears with the blue noses.

Me to You bear

[All that hoarding has come in (slightly) handy again.]

Bye!

Monday 8th It was Presentation Evening at school tonight when they give out the A-Level and GCSE certificates so Jake was there. I had to go too cos Swing Band were playing. It was sooo boring (as always!) but the guest speaker (Mr Guest!) was worse than the usual ones they get in. His speech was complete crap and Emma and I were just sat in hysterics all the way through. I noticed a lot of people in the audience snigger and stuff too, included my dad who was totally taking the piss!

Everyone went to The Coach afterwards for a well needed drink and everyone out of Jake’s year who knows he’s going on Thursday started saying goodbye to him. It was awful! We both had a bit of a cry about it afterwards.

Bye!

Tuesday 9th I’ve got one day left with Jake now before he leaves to go to Canada. It’s sooooo upsetting and we cried lots and lots when we saw each other.

That bitch of a teacher, Miss P, said that some deputy head will probably want a word with me and Emma about laughing last night! Hah, I think I’d have died of boredom otherwise! I bet she’s told him our names, the shortarse cow! (I REALLY don’t like her!)

When I saw Jake after college, we cried lots more cos we really don’t want to be split up. He told me it hurts a lot and he’s right!

Henry Rockwell told me other stuff that Hayley’s said about me. She said nastily, “We’ll all be seeing a lot more of Tessa now Jake is going!” and she overheard someone say that Jake wouldn’t touch Hayley with a barge pole but apparently she thinks I’ve manipulated him into thinking that! Twisted cow!

Bye!

An iron mark on the carpet and scally lads outside – 10th July 2000

Monday 10th This morning seemed to last for ages because the coach to take us Swing Band lot to London didn’t come until lunch so we had to do lessons. Hayley was still being a moody cow so I felt a bit sorry for Sarah when I had to leave her!

Keira Osborne, Emma Thornley, Christa East, Cat Elliot and I all claimed the back seat of the coach and had loads of room because we were by the emergency exit. The journey was really boring but I kept getting texts from Jake which helped ease the boredom every so often. Jake told me that he’s going to Florence tomorrow and should be in Prague on Friday. Then I did a quiz in someone’s Cosmopolitan magazine on my perfect holiday destination. Mine came out at Prague! How weird is that?!!

Cat sent Jake a quick message too saying she wished she was travelling around Europe and in his reply he told her that he’d happily swap with her cos he misses me! How sweet! 🙂

I sent him a message myself again later and told him not to chase any foreign girls or anything (I was only kidding) and he said, “HUH CHEEK – YOU KNOW I WOULDN’T EVER THINK ABOUT DOING ANYTHING LIKE THAT! : ( I’VE TOLD YOU BEFORE THAT I’M SENTIMENTAL! WE SHOULD BE IN THE SAME HOSTEL WE STAYED IN AT RADSTADT WITH SCHOOL.”

When we reached London, the coach driver took us all through the centre which was absolute torture for me cos there were so many signs with the word ‘Canada’ on them! We then took a wrong turning past Canada Water Station so I was reminded again of the fact Jake’s going off to be a ski instructor for 3 months! Then we went past Starbucks where we both go! 😦

I told Jake about it and he texted me back saying, “I TOLD YOU IT’S THE LITTLE THINGS… WHEN IN MCDONALD’S, FOR SOME REASON “TESS” WAS PRINTED ON THE SIDE OF BUS THAT WENT PAST! : ( V. UPSETTING! MISS YOU TOO!”

Then the realisation must have kicked in cos he then said, “WOW – SOOO WEIRD! THERE’S SO MUCH WEIRD STUFF GOING ON – NOT JUST NOW BUT ALL THAT STUFF WE LISTED IN THE DOG TOO! I’M NOT RELIGIOUS BUT SOMEONE UP THERE IS…” and then, “TRYING TO TELL US SOMETHING! WE’VE DEFINITELY GOT SOMETHING SPECIAL! TRY NOT TO GET TOO UPSET! THIS IS HORRIBLE BUT IT’LL BE OVER SOON! : ) LOVE xJx”.

When we arrived at Rotherhithe Youth Hostel we were all given our room keys. I was sharing with the people I’d been sat with on the coach plus Maeve Ackerley. The room was 219 and wasn’t too bad at all. We had an iron mark on the carpet and scally lads outside the window but the beds were cool! There were 2 sets of 3 and they were sort of all piled up. I got the top bunk on mine!

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The cool beds and our cool Swing Band attire.

We didn’t do much all evening. We were either in our rooms or at the bar. Henry Rockwell fancies Maeve quite a lot so he was in our room most of the time too!

I had some last night messages from Jake on the subject of Canada. He said he’d love me to go and see him while he’s there and I said I wish I could but I can’t really see it happening. Then he said, “I REALLY WANT YOU TO COME BUT IT’S A LONG TIME TIL I GO! IF THERE’S ANY WAY YOU COULD COME IN FEB HALF TERM THEN I’M TAKING YOU! YOU WOULDN’T HAVE TO STAY IN MY ROOM ALL OF THE TIME… JUST SOME OF IT!”

That would be so good cos I can’t possibly last 3 months without him and not go mad or something but it’d be expensive and I’ve got college and stuff. I suppose we’ll have to see.

Bye!

I was so relieved that he’s still alive! – 5th July 2000

Wednesday 5th 🙂 Okay, I’m a bit happier now that I was yesterday! The reason being that Jake sent me a message at 7:42 am explaining why he hasn’t been in touch. He told me, “HELLO! HAVEN’T BEEN ABLE TO TEXT U COS THERE R NO PLUG SOCKETS IN THE HOSTELS AND MY PHONE WAS DEAD! I’M PLUGGED IN IN A CAFÉ NOW! HOPE U GET WELL SOON!…” and then he said, “I’LL PHONE YOU TONIGHT! I’M TIRED – SLEPT ON A BEACH LAST NIGHT! AND I’M V. BURNT! LOVE YOU LOADS!!! xxx JAKE xxx”.

I was so relieved that he’s still alive! I then asked him if he got the message with Ed’s number on. He said, “YEH I GOT THAT MSG! – SORRY I’M LATE REPLYING – I HAVE TO KEEP TURNING MY PHONE OFF TO SAVE THE BATTERY! YEH – WE’RE SAT IN A CAFÉ ON THE GRAND PRIX CIRCUIT!…” then, “WE’VE JUST WALKED THE WHOLE CIRCUIT! ARE YOU STILL ILL? I’M SO BURNT! OW! LOVE xJx”.

The next message I sent was just asking if he’d got the messages Gethin sent him and he said, “YEH – TELL HIM I GOT EM BUT THE NETWORK I WAS ON WOULDN’T LET ME SENT ANY BACK! THESE DAYS SEEM SO LONG! – ONLY BEEN GONE 4 DAYS – SEEMS LIKE WEEKS! LOVE YOU! xxx”

The next message I got after I’d told him I was bored said, “I’M SAT WRITING YOUR FIRST OF MANY POSTCARDS! WHAT’S YOUR POSTCODE? WISH YOU WERE HERE NOW – IT’S SO NICE HERE AND I WANT TO SEE YOU!…”

Yeah, that’s right, just rub in the fact that you’re somewhere nice and I’m stuck here, why don’t you?!! Anyway, then he said, “KEEP SMELLING MY WATCH STRAP COS IT SMELLS SO NICE! : ) YOU’D BETTER GET WELL BEFORE VALKENBURG! ME n CHARLIE HAVE JUST FOUND IT ON A RAIL MAP! CAN’T WAIT! LOVE xJx”.

I then told him that I’d found out that Sarah’s mum wouldn’t have minded if we’d swapped beds on Friday and that Denny’s having an all night gathering and that Sarah’s very pissed off with Hayley for telling people stuff she’s read in Sarah’s diary. It spread over more than one message so Jake asked, “WHAT HAPPENED TO THE REST OF THAT MSG?? IF YOU WERE GONNA SAY WHAT I THOUGHT YOU WERE THEN WHY DIDN’T SHE SAY SO? CAN’T BELIEVE I HAD TO SLEEP WITH GETHIN! LOVE xJx”.

I sent him another telling him what it had said but he didn’t get that one either. I know cos he phoned at about 6:00 pm. He was telling me that they were going to go to a beach party but there’d been big bouncers with big dogs so they hadn’t bothered! They’re still being irritated by Charlie cos he’s not embarrassed to speak a foreign language to try and get them into a casino or onto a yacht! All he really told me was what they’ve been doing and how they’re going to Radstadt in Austria where we first went skiing.

Oh, I forgot to write down what Gethin told me Jake had been saying at Sarah’s on Friday. He said he wanted to end up married to me, that he only had eyes for me (that was linked to something about Canada) and that he covered his face with his hands (Gethin said he was close to tears!) and said he was going to miss me. There was other “lad stuff” but Gethin wouldn’t say what!

Bye!