I hope she wasn’t there. Grrr! – 16th & 17th April 2001

Monday 16th I went to Manchester on the train with Jake today. He got 2 packs of photos back from Canada and we had a minor fall out cos I went all “funny” with him when he got the photos out. I couldn’t help it! He had photos of girls dressed up as cowgirls and stuff which didn’t help but I was just generally feeling left out for some reason.

He got upset in the middle of St Ann’s Square so we ended up making up cos we both felt guilty. He said he’d rather be here with me and that Charlie and Abbi were just nice to him and were the only ones who talked to him about me. I got a wave of jealousy to begin with cos I should’ve been the one talking to him (not about me, obviously!) but now I just want to know what was said!

Jake bought 2 shirts and a pair of short things and I saw the best trainers ever in Shellys! I want them sooo badly but they’re £50. They were so cool! [They weren’t.]

Bye!

Tuesday 17th I went to the Trafford Centre with Jake today to see Bridget Jones’s Diary at the cinema. Sarah and Cat were meant to come too but Sarah let us down at the last minute so Cat didn’t want to come on her own with us. The film was really good but not quite true to the book. I suppose they couldn’t get everything in the film though.

We managed to find Sarah a birthday present too and a card so that was handy cos we probably won’t get another chance to get her anything before next week now.

We got the bus back to the train station near Jake’s BUT the bus didn’t actually stop there cos nobody else was getting off and we didn’t press the buzzer! There were no stops until Warrington after that so we had to get off there. I rang my mum but she made us get the bus home.

Jake got off early to go to The Beech Tree with Ventures. I wasn’t very pleased at that (but I let him) cos I found out from him today that Hannah R fancies/used to fancy him. I hope she wasn’t there. Grrr!

I keep having funny far away/dizzy moments like I did when I was ill again. I had them at the cinema and whilst trying to sleep last night. Weird!

Bye!

What Hugo said was bollocks – 14th & 15th April 2001

Saturday 14th Jake came round today. We got into the subject of his family not liking me and he said it isn’t true and we both got upset over it. He made out that it was my fault anyway for not making an effort to speak to them. How can I when whenever I go to his house, his dad’s at work, his sister’s at the stables and his brother’s shut in his room? Even when I did speak to his dad, Jake always dragged me away or shut his bedroom door for fear of his dad saying something embarrassing to me.

He also told me that bastard Hugo said I come across as being rude and ignorant towards people. That’s just because last time I saw Hugo, I wasn’t exactly being nice to him but it was with good reason seeing as he’d slagged both me and Sarah off just before. Twat!

Jake did say that what Hugo said was bollocks though. Still, all that hasn’t exactly boosted my confidence.

Bye!

Sunday 15th Jake came round to mine again today. I gave him back scratches and stuff and he told me I’m very good at it! He kept called me his little Easter bunny today too! Ha ha ha!!

When Jake went home this evening, I overheard Mum and Dad talking about how I never go to his house and how we spent 8 hours in my room today. I got upset and asked why they said it and explained about Jake’s dad and brother not particularly liking me. They told me not to go O.T.T. and said I’m in a different sort of relationship to Abby and so to stop taking things they say about her on board. They said they understand me not wanting to go to Jake’s house though.

I made up with Mum. She said stuff about being middle aged and got upset. She told me I’m a very caring person really and that Jake’s lovely. She said me and her are both too sensitive and very alike which is why we get upset so easily.

Bye!

Beady eyes and pirate-style features – 10th April 2001

Tuesday 10th Jake was going back and forth a bit today. He came to my house at about 11am but had to go to the dentist at about 2pm and so left and then came back again about an hour later! Pointless really but never mind!

He said that he wanted to me to sleep in the spare bed with him tonight when we get back from town. If it wasn’t for my family being in nearby rooms then there’s have been no stopping me!

He had a read of his emails today while I was there. One was from Skiing Rob which included the sentence, “Give Tess a good boning from me” (nice!) and another was from Skiing Abbi asking if he’d had a big snog from me and if I’d washed my hands after going to the pathology lab! (That was a Biology trip that we didn’t end up going on.)

Connor gave us a lift into town tonight cos it was raining and we’d have had to wait for a bus otherwise. Sarah and Karen were already in Edison’s when we got there and (very obviously!) pointed out to me that that stupid twat Furry Adam Reynolds was there too! He freaks me out sooo much with his staring, beady eyes and pirate-style features! Creep! Yuk!!

Suzie, Cat and Lizzie arrived soon after us and Sarah announced to us that she’s now discovered the female orgasm is not a myth! We all cheered and clapped so I had to explain to Jake what was going on. I thought he’d just nod and be discreet about it but, oh no, he turned round and laughed hysterically, pointing straight at her. I apologised to Sarah for telling him and kicked him in the shins. She was pissed though and had heard that Maz might be in town too so she didn’t care! Then I spotted Maz coming down the steps. I pointed him out to Jake and we both rushed to tell Sarah. She went all dramatic, looking like she was going to cry (but didn’t).

Out in Warrington

[Cat, Jake & I out in town.]

I was talking to Jake afterwards and he said that Sarah would make a good girlfriend cos you wouldn’t have to worry about satisfying her cos she didn’t think it was possible! I told Sarah to cheer her up and it seemed to work! It’s a bit late now though!!

Jake went to the bar at one point so I was just sat talking to my mates when Robert Osborne came and said hi. He used to be in my form but went to a different college and I have to say he’s very, very fit now!

A few seconds after he’d gone, I got tapped on the shoulder by some strange lad who waffled on at me, trying to get me to agree to go with [snog] with the lad stood next to him. Luckily Jake came back at that point!

We all trooped to Smith’s next and I ended up sat down with Jake all the time we were there cos he doesn’t do dancing. I’m glad I didn’t have to go and dance with my mates though cos even on my way to the toilet I got felt up by creepy blokes! Yuk yuk!!

Maz came over to me and Jake at one point to say hi. He asked how Sarah was and stuff before going to find her. Unfortunately he did and they got snogging again. That’ll bugger her mind up even more now. He asked her to go home with him but she didn’t cos Karen dragged her away.

Karen had been dancing on her own, Suzie and Lizzie had found lads, and Sarah was with Maz which left Cat on her own. Cat was (quite fairly!) pissed off cos she wanted to leave but couldn’t find Suzie who had the ticket for her coat. Without it the people in the cloakroom wouldn’t give it back so we spent ages searching for her. Eventually we spotted them outside with Cat’s coat so we managed to get a taxi home eventually.

When I got home, Jake got into my bed and stayed there for a while and cuddled for a bit and stuff. I was worried my family might wake up or something and come and see if I was home. I’m going to have to do more stuff sooner or later though! He went and slept in the spare room in the end.

Bye!

He’d still like me if I ate too many Yorkie bars – 8th & 9th April 2001

Sunday 8th I had a driving lesson this afternoon. It was okay I suppose. I had to do a lot of reversing which was a bit boring after a while actually! My instructor did say that I’ve made good progress with everything so far which I’m pleased about.

Jake came round at about 4:30pm but we didn’t really do much. We just lay about and cuddled a lot and watched TV. He kept telling me how much he loves me again. 🙂

Bye!

Monday 9th Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre today. It was really nice being back there with him cos that’s where we spent our last evening together before he went. We found me some new pyjamas with Miffy on them in La Senza. Jake helped me choose. We then went for a drink in Starbucks before going to watch Traffic at the cinema. The film was a bit crap so we kept each other occupied instead!

Jake informed me that he’d still like me if I ate too many Yorkie bars and got fat but wouldn’t like me quite as much as he does now! He said he likes the way I look now which is why he’s always staring at me! 🙂

We came back to my house afterwards and we just cuddled and talked. Jake ended up getting upset when I told him how I sometimes feel left out when he goes on about his skiing friends. We made up again though with a big hug!

Bye!

See you tomorrow – 5th April 2001

Thursday 5th
0 days to go!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

Yey!!! The 12 weeks since Jake left is up! He’s due home tomorrow!!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 I can’t wait to see him!

He told me that he’d phone at about 5pm today so when he hadn’t rung by 6:15pm, I decided to phone him instead cos I was bored of waiting round for a call. The bloke on the other end put me through to his room but then came back on the line saying that the phone in that room was being used. I decided to leave it cos Jake might have been on to his Dad or something. It got to about 6:55pm and he still hadn’t phoned so I rang his hotel again. This time, a woman put me through to his room, let it ring for a while then told me all the rooms were empty so they could be cleaned. She asked if I wanted to leave a message just in case Jake walked by but I didn’t.

Jake finally phoned me at about 7:10pm. He said he’d had to rush about and get out of the room so it could be cleaned. He doesn’t know why the phone was engaged though. I asked if we could go to Alton Towers at some point in the summer and he said I could go when he meets up with ski people if I want. That’s what I wanted him to say really! 🙂 He said he might go back to Banff after uni one day but not without me. He said I could get a job at the resort cos there’s loads of stuff to do. He said we’ll both have to do something when we finish uni. I hope we’re still together then! He told me he wasn’t interested in the cowgirls he mentioned in his email! I’m very glad to head that!

He kept getting all squeaky and excited when we talked about him coming home. He said he really wants a hug. So do I!

He said he can’t remember what he’s said to Rob about me. He said they just talked when they were reading emails and stuff. Rob sounds really sweet! Jake said he puts his girlfriend’s perfume on his pillow every night and that she’s sent him a bottle of homemade bubblebath but Jake broke it accidentally. Ahh!

Jake also said that his mate Dan would be a good match for Cat cos he’s sort of quiet and intelligent. That’s handy cos I intended to matchmake then if they were ever together anyway! He said he will teach me and Cat to improve our skiing if we want. We’ll see!

He said he’ll be sitting with Tom, James and Rob on the plane if he gets a choice and they’re going to play drinking games with water to pass the time!

Ahh, he said he’s actually missed Gethin! He reckons it’s cos there was nobody even a bit like him in Banff. They were all too masculine! Gethin just isn’t!

We both said, “See you tomorrow” like we’ve been wanting to do for ages! That sounds really good!

Jake said he’d text me when his phone worked at the airport but he hasn’t done yet. I hope he gets back home alright. I really can’t wait to see him!

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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Swearing and dancing on the tables – 3rd April 2001

Tuesday 3rd
2 days to go!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

I didn’t have an email from Jake when I checked this morning but I was quite proud of myself when I didn’t worry too much! He’s said that he probably would send me one to tell me whether he’d passed or not but he didn’t.

I did begin to worry about Jake when he hadn’t phoned at 5:20 pm but he rang about 5 minutes later than that. He said he passed his assessment (and so did everyone except 2 of the older guys) and has now got a Ski Pro passport or something so he can get jobs as an instructor if he wants. He said he doesn’t intend to use it though cos he doesn’t want to leave me again.

He said they all got chucked out of a bar thing for swearing and dancing on the tables (he didn’t do that!) and then got bollocked for messing about after doing their torchlight descent in the daylight! He explained that he didn’t email me cos he went back to his room and fell asleep! He didn’t end up going out last night, even though most people did.

I think I worried him by talking about the email I sent him last night and not sounding very happy when he chirpily mentioned coming home. I don’t know why I didn’t get all excited really, I just wasn’t in the mood and I’ve got all these niggling little worries in the back of my mind. He told me he loves me 3 times after I didn’t sound happy which cheered me up a bit! 🙂

He said he’s waited 3 months to see me and so he does want to come home. He said he would never have arranged it all in the first place if he’d been with me before I did anything about it and would’ve got a job or something instead. He says he won’t get bored when he gets home cos he’s getting bored of it there anyway. We’ll see!

I got really pissed off (and then upset out of annoyance!) before cos I’d just typed out a really long email to Jake and then I somehow managed to delete it just as I was about to send it! I sent him another one once I’d calmed down!

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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He went all squeaky and excited – 1st April 2001

Sunday 1st
4 days to go!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

Not a lot happened today. I spent most of the day being so bored that I actually did some of my homework!

Jake phoned at about 7:45pm today. He said in his email that the clocks go forward for him today (I thought it was only Britain that did that!) which is why he phoned a bit earlier. He didn’t have very long to talk to me though. He said his skiing’s still going okay. He went all squeaky and excited when we were talking about him coming home which was nice to hear, and he says he can’t wait!

He also told me that he saw the northern lights. He said he and whoever he was with didn’t know what it was so they asked someone. He said it doesn’t happen there very often. It’s not fair! I’ve always wanted to see that and I haven’t! He’s not that bothered about it and he gets to!

Oh well, maybe one day.

Bye!

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