He’s such a gimp! – 9th March 2001

Friday 9th
3 weeks + 6 days to go!

Donna went down to the history department today to confront Mr L about lying. He’s been telling Cat nothing ever went on with Donna and vice versa! He’s such a gimp! He could’ve got away with doing stuff with just one of them but how could you not realise how risky it is to go for them both?! They were bound to find out about each other.

Anyway, Donna showed him the email that Cat printed off for her. He still didn’t admit to anything. Instead, he told Donna that Cat’s a “twisted psycho”! Erm… I don’t think Cat the twisted one somehow!

Cat went to speak to Mr L later on and again he went on about how hurt and betrayed HE felt!! Their argument was interrupted though by people walking into the history office where they were.

I felt really sorry for Lizzie and Karen today. They got the results back from the last lot of Maths exams they did. They both got 2 Us and an N. So basically they failed them all. They both had to leave their Maths lesson cos they were so upset. The head of Maths wanted to speak to them about what to do but I think they needed to calm down first.

The problem is that Karen wants to do Medicine and Lizzie wants to do Sports Therapy at uni and they both need quite high points. They could’ve made up for Maths with General Studies but neither of their courses accept that. Karen did plan out what she’d do if it all went wrong a while ago but Lizzie hasn’t got a clue.

We did The Run tonight. There were a few of our year and LOADS of College 1s. I spoke to Lizzie and Karen and they’ve sorted out what they’re going to do about Maths. Karen’s decided to try really hard and stick with the A Level cos she’s been told that she could get a grade if she knuckles down. Lizzie however has decided to drop down to AS Level which is the safer option. She said she should be able to get some points with that rather than none if she carried on at A Level.

Tonight was okay apart from when Freda pulled a stool out from under me in The Grey Hen. It was quite funny….. until the pain set in! I’d banged my head and left elbow on a chair and landed on my coccyx. I then started worrying that a jolt like that could make my legs/arm go numb again if that’s what caused it in the first place. I got into the toilets out of everybody’s way and just burst into tears. Sarah followed me in and so did a few others. They comforted me for a bit and said how stupid Freda can be sometimes. She did something similar to Karen the other day at college. Stupid cow!

I recovered pretty quickly, finished what was left of my drink (the rest went down Freda! Ha ha ha!!!) and moved on to The Mossland. The pub quiz was on there and my ex-stalker, Paul Nutt, was participating in it. A pub quiz doesn’t quite suit his image of a complete freak though so I thought it was quite amusing!

Floyd ended up snogging Nell (a lesbian). Now this, nobody quite understood! It’s the only other girl Floyd’s ever been with apart from Cat and he likes lesbians so I suppose it was quite good for him! It was a bit odd though! It wasn’t even one kiss either, they were all over each other all night! Strange!

Sarah tried very hard to get a snog out of the night but was unfortunately unsuccessful. She tried Marcus Eden (cos we heard Hayley fancies him but he’d be wasted on her!), Drew Lawley and Ben Jones but none of them seem interested. Knowing her luck, they’re probably all gay!

I really hope Jake can come home early. I really need him back! I miss him sooooo much!

Bye!

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He’s being a complete nasty bastard – 7th & 8th March 2001

Wednesday 7th
4 weeks + 1 days to go!

Donna Sharpe is cooperating with Cat about Mr L now. Cat’s explained about how he’s being a complete nasty bastard towards her and I think she showed Donna the emails he’s sent her to prove it. Donna wants a copy of an email so she can go to history, yell at him and use it as evidence that he’s a liar!

Jake phoned at about 4:40pm today. His dad’s arrived in Banff now so I think he’s going to skip skiing and spend the day with him. Jake told me that his dad met Emma while she was seeing his brother and that he thought she was nice. That then led to the subject of his brother telling me his dad didn’t like me.

Jake got all bothered and said that his dad wouldn’t have said it cos he’s harmless and not like that. He also reminded me that his brother slagged me off to his mate Hugo a while back too. I’d forgotten about that. Great! So if it’s true then both his dad and brother don’t particularly like me.

At least his sister stuck up for me when his dad found out about what his bro said! She yelled at her bro, saying it was a really mean thing to say! 🙂

The snow’s still melting cos it’s really warming up there apparently! 🙂 He’s spoken to his dad about coming home a week early and his dad says that’s okay! I hope he does! A week doesn’t sound that much but it’d be nice to see him sooner rather than later!

Bye!

Thursday 8th
4 weeks to go!

Jake rang at about 4:30pm today. He warned me that if I don’t get an email from him tonight then it’s because he’s stuck at Lake Louise. I’m not allowed to worry! He’s skiing as normal but is meeting his dad afterwards so won’t be getting his usual bus back. Instead, he’s going to be getting the last bus back to Banff so if he misses that or his dad’s got the times wrong then he’s stuck there!

He told me it’s still warming up where he is so the snow’s continuing to melt. He said he still wants to come home early so he’s going to check the airline’s website to see if there are any earlier flights back to Heathrow that have got a spare seat for him. 🙂 He thinks he’ll book it if there are any! 🙂

I really do hope he can come home earlier cos then I’ve only got 3 weeks to wait now! He kept telling me not to get my hopes up just in case it doesn’t happen but it’s difficult not to because I really, really want/need to see him!

Bye!

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It’s Valentine’s Day and I’m all alone – 14th February 2001

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It’s Valentine’s Day and I’m all alone 😦 Well, I might as well be anyway!

I had an open day at Sheffield Uni today so Mum came with me and we went on the train. It was okay but a bit boring as usual. That’s the last one I’m going to now. I’m not going to Hull cos you have to sort a tour out yourself and I’m not that bothered about seeing it anyway.

Some nice student lads took us round the department but I wasn’t really paying much attention cos I could see the dry ski slope out of the windows and I really want to go skiing!

Jake didn’t ring me tonight cos I wouldn’t have been back in time and he was shadowing a lesson anyway.

Bye!

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He’s bloody well learning to snowboard – 5th February 2001

Monday 5th
8 weeks + 3 days to go!

I managed to avoid Robbie today. I did see him but didn’t look him in the eye cos I have no idea how annoyed he is with me.

After college, Jake’s dad turned up at our house. He just dropped off a book for me about Barcelona but he stayed for a drink with Mum, Dad and me in the kitchen, talking about his trip to Peru and stuff. I didn’t know he was going to call round. Maybe he feels guilty and is trying to make up for it or something!

Jake phoned at about 7:40pm. I thought he’d been shadowing an instructor all morning but it turns out he’d been snowboarding instead. He said the people who could snowboard had to teach the people who couldn’t, including him. I am extremely pissed off cos that’s dashed all my hopes of being able to ski OR snowboard with him now he can do both. It’s just not fair!

He promised me he wouldn’t do any boarding so we could both learn together because neither of us could do it. It’s just ruined it now. I love skiing and unless I want to be completely shown up by him then I can’t do that with him (and I can’t afford to go on my own and have no friends who can do it) and now he’s bloody well learning to snowboard too so he’s gonna have a head start in that too.

In fact, his exact words in an email I got on Fri 26th Jan were: “We’ll both learn to snowboard together!!! 😦 I’m not touching a board while I’m here cos the chance of killing myself increases by about 3 times!!!” I’m just so disappointed cos I really did want to do that, especially with him.

Sarah and I (plus a few others) were thinking of going and having boarding lessons at Sheffield and I didn’t tell Jake cos I thought he might get lessons himself to catch up with me. If I go now then he’s going to think I’m just doing it to copy him! 😦 I suppose I should still do it but I liked the thought of being able to do something cool that he couldn’t. Now I can’t.

I’ve been considering sending a 2nd mail to him tonight telling him all this and asking him why he hung up so quickly tonight on the phone without saying he loves me or anything but I don’t know if I should cos last time I told him how I was feeling, he got all funny with me. I think I’ll just leave it and hope he phones tomorrow night then I can tell him then instead.

Bye!

P.S. I just mailed Jake again! I tried to be nice! Hotmail seemed to be playing up a bit so I hope he can read them and send one back alright! 😦

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I’m probably never going to want to go to his house again – 3rd February 2001

Saturday 3rd
8 weeks + 5 days to go!

Normally the weekend days go pretty slowly but today’s gone quite fast for a change. I was in town with my mum for a while though, taking stuff to the charity shop and getting holiday brochures for Barcelona. I only managed to get one with it in it though but there’s quite a big section. Ooh, I’m getting excited already!

I’ve remembered some more stuff about last night. Robbie started asking me where I was going to go to uni and I said I wasn’t sure cos I didn’t know why he was asking. Then he told me he thinks I should go to Huddersfield with Jake! That was quite nice to hear actually. Also, he said that the letter he’d read from Jake to me was really quite sweet but then I found out that other people like Declan and Rory have heard about it. I don’t like the thought of Robbie telling all his mates about it all! 😦

I was on the phone to Jake for quite a while tonight, talking about what his brother had said to me about his dad. I was even more bothered about it after I’d spoken to him cos he pointed out a few things. He said that if it’s true then I’m probably never going to want to go to his house again, just in case his dad’s there and that it could be awkward if we’re together for a good while longer. He’s right!

Jake also said that he’d hate it if my parents didn’t like him and that he wouldn’t be as bothered if we weren’t in a serious relationship but we are so it’d be better if his dad liked me. We still can’t think what I’ve done to make him dislike me though. 😦

Jake said he’s going to be really annoyed if what we’ve been told his dad said is true cos there’s no proper reason for it as far as we know. If it’s to do with the fact that Jake’s not at home as much as he used to be because of me then he’s going to be even more annoyed cos he found out from his brother that when his dad went to Milan the other week, it wasn’t a business trip like Jake thought, he apparently went with some woman headteacher.

He said he was going to ring his dad after he’d spoken to me so now I’ve got to wait until I get an email tomorrow to find out if I really am not liked!

Bye!

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Halfway up the hill – 1st February 2001

Thursday 1st
9 weeks to go!

It was boring at college again today and then I had to walk home and it was absolutely freezing!

It’s a good job I set off walking cos I might have missed Jake’s phone call if I’d waited for a lift from Mum. He explained to me about the conversation he’d mentioned in his email about relationships. He said they just asked him how long we’d been going out and then this guy said he’s been separated from a long term girlfriend when he went to uni so they only got to see each other at the weekends. Apparently they didn’t split up because of it.

I then suggested that I went somewhere other than Huddersfield Uni but Jake said he wouldn’t want that. 🙂 Good! Neither would I!

Then we got talking about Barcelona. I haven’t got round to looking for accommodation yet and Jake said he’s not got much time to do it. So, because I was a bit pissed off I suggested we just don’t bother going. He didn’t like the idea and started saying he’ll find the time to sort it out. We both really want to go so we finally agreed that if one of us finds somewhere we’ll let the other one know about it so we can check it out and decide either yes/no/maybe!

I do wish he was here because half the fun of a holiday is planning it so you can look forward to it but I want us to be able to do that together. I really hate him not being here. I love him too much for this!

Sarah pointed out a good way of thinking about how long Jake’s gone for. I told her that he’s been gone 3 weeks now and that’s quarter of the time he’ll be gone altogether. A quarter didn’t really sound much to me but Sarah said to think of it as being halfway up the hill!

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It sounds (and looks) better, doesn’t it?!

Bye!

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It’s probably going to cost me a bomb to send! – 31st January 2001

Wednesday 31st
9 weeks + 1 days to go!

I went into Warrington with Sarah, Lizzie and Cat after college today cos I needed to find something for Jake for Valentine’s Day.

On the bus on the way there, I had the feeling that I probably wouldn’t be able to find anything but I did. For Valentine’s Day, I got him a Purple Ronnie card, an ‘I need a hug’ bear with a blue nose and a chocolate Bang On The Door lolly saying ‘Kiss’ on it.

Then I saw a couple of other things which I’m going to send too cos we’ve been going out a year. I bought him a Boots milk lip balm cos he like mine and a Jessie the Cowgirl doll (out of Toy Story 2) cos I know he likes cowgirls!

I was just beginning to think he wasn’t going to phone when he did at about 7:35pm. He told me he’d had to ski to warm up first which is why he didn’t phone at 7pm like he said he would. He didn’t really have much to say so we just gave each other clues about what we’d bought for one another!

He said he hoped I hadn’t bought him a really big teddy or anything and that worried me a bit cos I have bought him a little one plus a doll! Oh well, he’ll have to make do! He’d better appreciate it cos it’s probably going to cost me a bomb to send!

Bye!

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