It’s about time someone lamped her one – 18th May 2001

Thursday 18th

I’VE OFFICIALLY LEFT COLLEGE!!!

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Well, for study leave anyway but it means no more lessons! Unfortunately, however, exams take over from next Wednesday onwards. Oh joy.

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Our head of college, Mr H, is also leaving that post and is just going to teach instead so before he arrive this morning, we filled his office with balloons, tied his car up with string and stuck posters of him up round college which Gethin had made by adapting a photo of him on the computer by, for example, giving him hair!

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We had one last assembly by which time many people were pretty pissed, before all leaving and going to The Coach & Horses.

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[Being pissed in assembly possibly had something to do with the bottle of absinthe we’d got hold of.]

We didn’t stay there long though cos Rob S said he would “do” Sarah if she was up for it and she got scared (I don’t blame her!) so we went to The Beech Tree instead.

I found out from Rachael Hollins today some news which I was quite pleased to hear. Recently, Hayley Pearson’s been being a complete bitch towards her for no particular reason (she’s just like that) and last night Rach was at McDonald’s while Hayley was there. Hayley started yelling at Rach, saying she had no right to be there and stuff cos they’ve got this ‘Medway Crew’ thing (a group of them sit on Medway Road where Carly Jennings lives who Freda fancies – SAD!!) which Rach isn’t involved with.

Rach was taking it from Hayley but Georgia Dean was telling Hayley to shut up. Hayley didn’t so Georgia turned round and punched her!! Nice one! Apparently Hayley unsuccessfully tried to him her back but ended up running and hiding in the car instead!

Rach, Georgia and Georgia’s dad then went round to Hayley’s to apologise but her mum wouldn’t let Rach in for some reason so who knows what lies Hayley told her parents about what happened cos Rach didn’t do anything. I feel really sorry for Rach actually cos she was making an effort to speak to Hayley today but Hayley shoved her out of the way.I mean, there might well be another side to it all that I haven’t heard but if Hayley’s involved, I very much doubt it. I know exactly how pathetic she can be which is why I am no longer friends with her. It’s about time someone lamped her one actually! Well done, Georgia!! 🙂 Most people from college ended up in The Beech and Jake came to join us too eventually.

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This evening we went into Warrington to continue our celebrations! We started off in Edison’s then moved to Churchill’s and then Tiger Too before ending up in Mr Smith’s.I painted Denny’s face and when I got my mirror out to show him, I noticed it was broken. Oh no! I don’t want any bad luck! Jake didn’t exactly make me feel better by telling me his mum broke a big mirror in France and then each year someone in the family died and then on the 7th year she did.

That’s awful but surely it would’ve happened anyway? I suppose people never know. If a bad thing happens after you break a mirror/walk under a ladder etc., anything bad that happens you relate back to that but if it happened anyway, you wouldn’t think anything about why it happened, I suppose. Well, not as much anyway.

During the time we were in Smith’s I spent more of it sat on the chairs with everyone’s bags and Jake because he won’t even dance. At one point, this girl with longish red hair scraped back into a ponytail with huge loop earrings came and sat down by us. Her mate was dancing next to her.

I thought it was a bit off so I took in what she looked like. She put her drink on the table and started fiddling about with her hands behind her back. I thought she must just have been trying to sort her knickers out by when she stood up, I noticed a rectangular lump on her side.When I looked back at the seat, Emma Thornley’s bag was where the girl had been sat. I checked it and, as suspected, it was open. All that was in it was her phone and camera. I went to get Emma from the dancefloor, just to check if she had her purse with her. She didn’t and came and checked her bag. There was nothing else gone.

Emma wandered off and dragged me with her. She told me to point out the girl and I spotted her at the bar. Emma stupidly (but also drunkenly!) went up to her and actually asked if she’d nicked her purse! However, her mate got all threatening so we both legged it to one of the bouncers.

We told him what had happened and he made me walk in front of him and point the girl out if I saw her. She’d gone from the bar so I told him what she looked like and he saw her going into the toilets. He went in and got her and I ran back to Emma. The woman bouncer searched the girl but didn’t find the purse on her. She must’ve given it to her mate.Unfortunately they couldn’t chuck the ginger bitch out so Emma and I started wetting ourselves that we were going to get battered. The bouncer said that at the 1st sign of trouble to get him and he’d make sure she was thrown out straight away. We weren’t totally convinced that we’d survive the night though so we did what he said and checked the toilets and office for an empty purse before getting Jake and leaving.

The next problem we had was that the ticket for Emma’s coat was in her purse. The bouncer went and got the manager who got the cloakroom lady to find Emma’s coat. Luckily she did.Emma did said that she’d rather her purse had been stolen than her phone because it only had £15 in it and her debit card and she said she’s only got about £2 in her account!

When Jake and I got back to my house, I suddenly discovered that he was really quite pissed! I went upstairs to tell Mum I was home and by the time I went back in the kitchen, he’d managed to spill a glass of water and spread butter EVERYWHERE in an attempt at making toast! When I asked what he’s been doing he just swayed and giggled at me!

Hugo rang Jake at one point but because he was incapable of answering his phone, I ended up speaking to Hugo. I’ve not done that for a while but he was actually quite nice to me! However, I’m sure he took pleasure in telling me that Jake’s brother said he’s glad I’ve left college so he doesn’t have to look at my ugly face anymore. Charming! Twat.

Ha ha!! Hugo said he wants me and Jake to go out one day with him and his girlfriend thing, Katie. I think not! I might be able to cope with talking on the phone but actually seeing him in the flesh again might be a bit too much!

Ahh, during the time Jake spent coating the kitchen in butter and lying flat out on the dining room floor, he told me that I’m beautiful and that he loves me. 🙂 That makes up nicely for his brother’s statement to Hugo.

Bye!

Like some sort of pimp – 29th March 2001

Thursday 29th
1 week to go!!! 🙂

Sarah offered Cat £50 today for a loan of Mr L! Cat refused so Sarah said she’d have her £70 instead! I think she was joking but Cat wouldn’t let her anyway cos she said that’d make her like some sort of pimp!

It was funny in Sports Studies today. There’s this girl in the year below me called Kyla Hague who thinks she’s hard (and probably is!), is a bit on the large side and has panda-style eye make-up. Basically, she’s a bit scary! She’s alright towards me and my friends cos she hangs round in our common room but everyone is really wary of getting on the wrong side of her cos she’s got a bit of a psycho streak!

Anyway, she’s been trying to organise a Stars In Their Eyes concert thing to raise money for Kosovan children or something and she wants the teachers to do it, including Mr P-K, my really fit Sports Studies teacher. Graham Baxter asked him in the lesson whether Kyla had found him cos she’d been looking for him and Mr P-K turned round with a look of fear in his eyes and started telling us how he’d spent all week trying to keep away from her but every time he turns round, she’s there! He said she’s like some sort of scary shadow and that there’s something very dodgy about her! To top it off, Graham informed us that she’s known as Meatloaf to him and his mates cos she’s definitely got a look of him!

It was just so funny cos Kyla’s been making out that she and Mr P-K are like best mates at the moment but going by what he said, that’s complete bollocks!

We’ve got this calendar in our common room and it’s got all sort of stuff written on it that we’ve added over the last year or so, so it’s kind of good really. BUT Mr H took his Theatre Studies group in there to do a lesson (and chucked us out) and then he ripped down our calendar cos his class found it “offensive”! Twat!

It’s all silly bitches like Carly Jennings and Amber Watson in that class who think they’re so much better than us. It was so annoying! When they got out of our room, Gethin stole our calendar back out of Mr H’s office and put it back up. 🙂 He also discovered a huge lump of chewing gum stuck to the carpet in our room which wasn’t there before they had a lesson in there so Gethin complained to Mr H about it. I hope he bollocks them all!

Ahh, Mr B (my Geography teacher) is so cute! His wife’s just had a baby and he keeps telling us about baby Joe sneezing and things. It’s just so sweet cos he gets all soppy about him!

Jake rang at about 8:50pm. He said things went okay this morning cos he didn’t have to do any teaching. He said he will come to Norway with me in search of lemmings cos I really want to see some after we did about them in my Biology lesson! He told me that it had been a misunderstanding in a text message that caused Rob (his roommate) to rush to the phone while Jake was emailing me. His girlfriend hadn’t dumped him.

Abby told me this morning that she’s doing her purple belt at kickboxing next week. I was telling Jake about it and got a bit upset cos I want to do it as well and not have tingly body parts. He said he really wanted to give me a hug and that he loves me. 🙂

Bye!

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I was so flustered and embarrassed – 15th March 2001

Thursday 15th
3 weeks to go!

I was a bit insulted today when I read the email Jake sent me today. It’s the way he kept saying how awful that photo was! I didn’t think it was that bad, you see, so I said Cat could scan it and send it to him if she really wanted to. It’s not the best picture ever but it’s not THAT bad. It’s just close up, that’s all!

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I’ve seen worse photos of me than that one! Mind you, when I went into his Hotmail inbox and check out the email with the picture, it had turned out to be huge so I suppose that didn’t help!

I had a really crap Biology lesson today. I’d only done half the homework and what I had done was wrong because I’d been looking at the wrong page in the text book. We spent most of the lesson going through the homework so whenever Mr S asked me a question, I either didn’t know the answer or got it wrong.

He then told me that he wanted to see me after the lesson and everybody heard him so I was really embarrassed by that! I was already embarrassed by the fact I couldn’t answer anything and I could see everyone thinking I must be thick or something! Brainbox Cat then started trying to ‘help’ me by finding the right page and plonking it in front of me but that just showed me up even more! I just hate being the centre of attention in class!

At break, I stayed behind and blagged my way through a reason as to why I hadn’t done the homework properly. Mr S seemed to believe me but by then I was so flustered and embarrassed and annoyed at myself that I burst into tears as soon as I got out of the room. I managed to compose myself again pretty quickly though, ready to face the questions in the common room about what’d happened and stuff!

Jake rang at about 4:40pm today. We talked about uni mostly cos I sent off my final decision today. I put down the Environmental Science with Geography sandwich course at Huddersfield Uni as my firm choice and declined the rest. I asked Jake whether he’s going to put down mixed or single sex accommodation when he has to choose. He says he’s going to ask Matt Carrera (his mate that’s already there) what he thinks is best but is thinking he’s probably going to put all lads. I’m not sure. Lads could be a bit of a pain to live with (but so can girls!) but all girls could get bitchy! I’ll decide nearer the time.

We’re halfway down the hill now! Only a quarter of the time left to go until he comes home!

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Bye!

Today’s emails →

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He’s such a gimp! – 9th March 2001

Friday 9th
3 weeks + 6 days to go!

Donna went down to the history department today to confront Mr L about lying. He’s been telling Cat nothing ever went on with Donna and vice versa! He’s such a gimp! He could’ve got away with doing stuff with just one of them but how could you not realise how risky it is to go for them both?! They were bound to find out about each other.

Anyway, Donna showed him the email that Cat printed off for her. He still didn’t admit to anything. Instead, he told Donna that Cat’s a “twisted psycho”! Erm… I don’t think Cat the twisted one somehow!

Cat went to speak to Mr L later on and again he went on about how hurt and betrayed HE felt!! Their argument was interrupted though by people walking into the history office where they were.

I felt really sorry for Lizzie and Karen today. They got the results back from the last lot of Maths exams they did. They both got 2 Us and an N. So basically they failed them all. They both had to leave their Maths lesson cos they were so upset. The head of Maths wanted to speak to them about what to do but I think they needed to calm down first.

The problem is that Karen wants to do Medicine and Lizzie wants to do Sports Therapy at uni and they both need quite high points. They could’ve made up for Maths with General Studies but neither of their courses accept that. Karen did plan out what she’d do if it all went wrong a while ago but Lizzie hasn’t got a clue.

We did The Run tonight. There were a few of our year and LOADS of College 1s. I spoke to Lizzie and Karen and they’ve sorted out what they’re going to do about Maths. Karen’s decided to try really hard and stick with the A Level cos she’s been told that she could get a grade if she knuckles down. Lizzie however has decided to drop down to AS Level which is the safer option. She said she should be able to get some points with that rather than none if she carried on at A Level.

Tonight was okay apart from when Freda pulled a stool out from under me in The Grey Hen. It was quite funny….. until the pain set in! I’d banged my head and left elbow on a chair and landed on my coccyx. I then started worrying that a jolt like that could make my legs/arm go numb again if that’s what caused it in the first place. I got into the toilets out of everybody’s way and just burst into tears. Sarah followed me in and so did a few others. They comforted me for a bit and said how stupid Freda can be sometimes. She did something similar to Karen the other day at college. Stupid cow!

I recovered pretty quickly, finished what was left of my drink (the rest went down Freda! Ha ha ha!!!) and moved on to The Mossland. The pub quiz was on there and my ex-stalker, Paul Nutt, was participating in it. A pub quiz doesn’t quite suit his image of a complete freak though so I thought it was quite amusing!

Floyd ended up snogging Nell (a lesbian). Now this, nobody quite understood! It’s the only other girl Floyd’s ever been with apart from Cat and he likes lesbians so I suppose it was quite good for him! It was a bit odd though! It wasn’t even one kiss either, they were all over each other all night! Strange!

Sarah tried very hard to get a snog out of the night but was unfortunately unsuccessful. She tried Marcus Eden (cos we heard Hayley fancies him but he’d be wasted on her!), Drew Lawley and Ben Jones but none of them seem interested. Knowing her luck, they’re probably all gay!

I really hope Jake can come home early. I really need him back! I miss him sooooo much!

Bye!

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He’s being a complete nasty bastard – 7th & 8th March 2001

Wednesday 7th
4 weeks + 1 days to go!

Donna Sharpe is cooperating with Cat about Mr L now. Cat’s explained about how he’s being a complete nasty bastard towards her and I think she showed Donna the emails he’s sent her to prove it. Donna wants a copy of an email so she can go to history, yell at him and use it as evidence that he’s a liar!

Jake phoned at about 4:40pm today. His dad’s arrived in Banff now so I think he’s going to skip skiing and spend the day with him. Jake told me that his dad met Emma while she was seeing his brother and that he thought she was nice. That then led to the subject of his brother telling me his dad didn’t like me.

Jake got all bothered and said that his dad wouldn’t have said it cos he’s harmless and not like that. He also reminded me that his brother slagged me off to his mate Hugo a while back too. I’d forgotten about that. Great! So if it’s true then both his dad and brother don’t particularly like me.

At least his sister stuck up for me when his dad found out about what his bro said! She yelled at her bro, saying it was a really mean thing to say! 🙂

The snow’s still melting cos it’s really warming up there apparently! 🙂 He’s spoken to his dad about coming home a week early and his dad says that’s okay! I hope he does! A week doesn’t sound that much but it’d be nice to see him sooner rather than later!

Bye!

Thursday 8th
4 weeks to go!

Jake rang at about 4:30pm today. He warned me that if I don’t get an email from him tonight then it’s because he’s stuck at Lake Louise. I’m not allowed to worry! He’s skiing as normal but is meeting his dad afterwards so won’t be getting his usual bus back. Instead, he’s going to be getting the last bus back to Banff so if he misses that or his dad’s got the times wrong then he’s stuck there!

He told me it’s still warming up where he is so the snow’s continuing to melt. He said he still wants to come home early so he’s going to check the airline’s website to see if there are any earlier flights back to Heathrow that have got a spare seat for him. 🙂 He thinks he’ll book it if there are any! 🙂

I really do hope he can come home earlier cos then I’ve only got 3 weeks to wait now! He kept telling me not to get my hopes up just in case it doesn’t happen but it’s difficult not to because I really, really want/need to see him!

Bye!

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Thursday’s emails →

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He jacked off in front of her in the history cupboard! – 3rd March 2001

Saturday 3rd
4 weeks + 5 days to go!

Cat phoned me today cos she’s worrying about the Mr L thing cos she’s had some emails from him saying how HE feels hurt and betrayed and stuff cos he reckons she told people on the ski trip that he jacked off in front of her in the history cupboard!

She was okay once she’d been reassured that he’s the one that’s going to get the bollocking if this all gets out, not her. She sent him a nasty email back! 🙂

Oh wow! My mum brought some Playmobil home from her primary school today so I could put all the stickers on and stuff. It’s sooo cool! She’s got a big yellow digger, a truck, a compactor and a Portaloo with all the little builders and stuff! Hee hee! 🙂

Jake phoned me at about 7:15pm. He said he’s still enjoying his first aid course thing. He was only on a 15 minute break from it when he phoned so he couldn’t talk for long. He told me that they’re rearranging the ski groups on Monday so he’s hoping he won’t be put in a group with 2 boring older blokes like he was before! He said they’re really swotty and suck up to the instructors cos they want to get good. I thought the whole point was to get good but I suppose that doesn’t mean you have to suck up!

Bye!

Telling “lies” about him and college girls – 26th February 2001

Monday 26th
5 weeks + 3 days to go!

I had to go back to college again today. All the ski trip people were going on about skiing. Declan filled Cat and me in on the whole Mr L thing though!

Jacqueline and Kim had been talking in the toilets about Mr L getting off with college students. Mrs L was in one of the cubicles and even though Jac was telling Kim to shut up, Kim carried on talking. Mrs L came out, called them silly little whores and asked if they got off on gossip and stuff, before going and reporting them to the teachers.

Meanwhile, Jac and Kim had wandered back to their friends (which included my sister) so when Mr L found them, he yelled at them all. He was calling them all sorts of names and even threatened to get them expelled. He kept saying how they could ruin his life and career by telling “lies” about him and college girls.

Later on, he sent Declan to his room (he’d been part of the group he yelled at) but Declan sneaked back into the bar. Mr L caught him drinking tequila slammers and told him to go to Mr C’s (the headteacher) office with his parents on Monday morning. He couldn’t have been serious cos Mr L would’ve had to explain everything to Mr C, so Declan ignored the threat.

Kim was made to apologise to Mr L, even though they both knew full well how true everything Kim said is! Mr L was saying how hurt he was and was apparently nearly crying. Prick!

Even Mr P-K (his mate) has fallen out with him, saying he’s been digging his own grave. He must suspect there’s some truth in it at least. Miss P thinks it’s all a load of “bullshit”, as do most other people.

Mrs L yelled at Mr L. Ha ha ha!!!

This has the potential to get very interesting now everyone’s back in school!

Jake didn’t ring me at 4pm. I started to worry because after last night he promised he wouldn’t do it again. I hate the feeling I get when he doesn’t phone. It’s horrible! I had to revise for my Biology exams tomorrow but I couldn’t concentrate at all.

I worry myself into a total state and it’s so horrible. I couldn’t stop crying like last night. It’s partly worry but partly annoyance for making me feel like that. I also get kind of annoyed with myself for getting like I do but I can’t help it. I do try to think positive and calm down but there’s always that awful feeling of dread in my stomach. I just don’t know what I’d do if something did happen to him but then it’s the not knowing that makes me feel so bad.

Anyway, I decided I couldn’t just sit about worrying cos I’d get no revision done so I phoned the number for his hotel from my mobile cos I had loads of credit. I didn’t think it’d work but it did. I just asked the woman if she could put me through to room 207 and she did. It only rang twice though then went silent then cut off. I tried a second time and the same thing happened.

At about 5:15pm I tried for a 3rd time. This time (to my surprise!) it worked. It was his roommate Rob who answered the phone but I had to ask who it was cos I wasn’t sure! I asked if Jake was there and he called him over. I really wasn’t expecting him to be there cos he said he was skiing. I didn’t want him to think I’d been worrying cos by this time I felt stupid for doing so and getting all worked up. I lied and said I was just ringing on the off-chance he’d be there to tell him not to ring (if he hadn’t already) cos I wasn’t going to be home for another half hour!

He said he had only just got up. He asked if I’d phoned twice before and I said I had and he explained that they tried to answer it but it probably wasn’t working cos during a food fight last night, a drink got spilt on it or something.

By the time I’d put the phone down I felt really stupid for worrying cos him not getting up was one of the things I’d been trying to convince myself of. I was also annoyed with him for putting me through that for a 2nd night running. I mean, I know I can’t expect him to ring me every day but when he stresses he will and wants to then doesn’t, that’s when I worry cos it’s not like him to break his word!

Jake phoned me back at about 6:40pm. He apologised for not phoning when he said and told me he didn’t know no-one was going skiing today. He told me he’ll ring at about 4:45pm tomorrow and that if one day he doesn’t ring at 4:30ish (before he gets the bus), he’ll ring between 7 & 8pm from Lake Louise when he has lunch.

The thing is, now he’s not rung a few times when he said he will, maybe I won’t worry as much if that happens in the future. Hopefully I won’t have to find out though! I don’t like having to worry and I do try hard not to cos Mum and people keep saying I’m pathetic but if someone you care about is so far away, wouldn’t you worry too in the same situation?

Bye!

P.S. I’ve had a slight throbbing feeling in my legs again like I did a while ago and on my left foot some of my toes and the ball of my foot feel a bit numb.

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