I know how much you like wearing my underwear – 12th & 13th February 2002

Tuesday 12th  Jonas stayed at mine again tonight. I noticed him looking at me and he said he was looking at how beautiful I am and thinking, “Oh man…” (in a good way) 🙂 . I also got lots of nice cuddles off him and he told me he likes me waffling on about stuff. He can’t really complain though cos he does it too!

I started feeling a bit sick and dizzy. I was okay again later on though. Maybe it was just tiredness.

We just talked after that and Jonas told me I’m the longest-lasting girlfriend he’s had, as well as his best. 🙂 That’s nice to know. Perhaps one day (hopefully) he’ll be the longest-lasting boyfriend I’ve had. We’ll have to be together for a good while yet though if that’s going to happen.

Jonas still wants me to go to Lincoln with him and he said he’s mentioned it to his mum and sister, and they’re looking forward to meeting me. I’m quite scared of meeting them though.

Jonas gave me a black beady bracelet of his to replace the one I lost in Camel. He’s wearing my necklace with a little blue flower on it too. It’s a bit girly but he can get away with it.


Wednesday 13th  I had a pretty boring day today. Kevin and Jen still aren’t speaking and Jen even said she might not live with us next year because of him.

I bought Jonas some Valentine’s stuff today after lectures. It took me ages trying to find a card and I ended up buying 2 because I couldn’t decide. One was a list of how to please a woman which I intended to change to fit me. For example, “Buy her lots of wine + chocolates” I would’ve crossed out wine and written in “snakebite” or something.

The other was one of those with a black and white old photo of a bloke and a woman walking along a beach, and he’s wearing a rather feminine bathing suit. Underneath was the caption, “When Tarquin said he wanted to get into her swimsuit, this was not what she expected”. (Or something like that.) I ended up writing in that one for him because I bought him a thong from Topshop as a joke. I keep coming into my room and finding Jonas sitting there in my bra so I thought I’d get him some girly underwear of his own! The card kind of went along with that theme too. I drew a picture of the thong in the card to make him notice the theme more.

I put the thong in a box and wrote, “I know how much you like wearing my underwear so…..” on the lid and “…I got you some of your own! :)” inside. I hope he doesn’t get offended!

I phoned up some more houses this evening and we’ve arranged to look round 3 owned by the same bloke whose number was put on a leaflet sent round Storthes.

Jen and I then went up to the Arb and saw Jake in there with a mate. He said he’s got a house and is living with 6 lads. He got it from the same bloke as I rang and he said his is brand new and really nice. He said the others are older but not bad either and their all opposite his.

Jake also embarrassed me in front of the others by asking if I still had that weird thing when my legs went numb and told them how I used to read the medical dictionary all the time. Bastard! There was no need for that! I’m not sure I want to live opposite him.


The bus driver had a major tantrum – 8th to 11th February 2002

Friday 8th  I stayed at Jonas’s. He made me tea and food and we cuddled lots and fell asleep really quickly though.


Saturday 9th  After being at Jonas’s for most of the day, we came back to mine. He kept asking for cuddles and said “I love you” a couple of times 🙂 out of the blue.

While I was watching TV, Jonas did my hair (strangely) and tied me up and then, after a struggle, managed to get a photo of me.

He wants me to go to Lincoln with him to get his car because it’s “what you do” when you’re with someone, i.e. meet their parents. (Eek!)


Sunday 10th  Jonas stayed at mine until about 3pm and we cuddled and kissed lots and he said “I love you” as he left. I then went round to Archie’s to try and sort out house stuff.


Monday 11th  I went to Camel without Jonas tonight (no money). Storecard was there and was trying to get me to snog him and stuff, saying Jonas wouldn’t find out. I didn’t of course!

Jen and I also got chatted up by some old [I bet he was about 23] southern bloke who claimed he was a fireman. Yuck! Some lad also tried beckoning me over to him as I was walking past but I didn’t go.

I was dancing with Archie and Jen most of the time and I lost the beady bracelet Jonas gave to me. I was annoyed with myself and searched for it everywhere but couldn’t find it. He hasn’t given me much of his yet so I wanted to keep it.

Ben was in Camel and asked me why I always run away from him. I don’t. He was very pissed.

I also spilt my drink (well, threw it really) over Kevin’s white shirt (it was snakebite and blackcurrent!) cos he was being nasty and ignoring Jen and she was upset.

On the way home, the bus driver had a major tantrum cos people were ringing the stop button. He kept stopping and turning the bus round and threatening to chuck us all off.

I rang Jonas when I got in but didn’t say much cos it was late.


Idiot freak! – 5th to 7th February 2002

Tuesday 5th  Jonas stayed over cos we don’t have to be in 1st thing tomorrow. He kept asking for cuddles and said it’s sexy and cute when I wiggle and he likes it. He said again that he doesn’t care what his mates think and didn’t mind staying with me last night.

It was nice having him there to cuddle and he giggled in his sleep!


Wednesday 6th  It was nice having Jonas there this morning, even though we had to get up for lectures.

I only had 2 hours of Water Science so I went back to the flat and Marc and Violet asked me if I wanted to watch Road Trip on video in Marc’s room. I did.

Jonas was meant to be having a flat reunion in Visage tonight. At first I had images of loads of girls that used to fancy him or ex-girlfriends swarming round him and me not being there to kickbox them off, but then he told me he’d decided not to go.


Thursday 7th  It was a school disco thing at Milton tonight so I got my school uniform on and went along to it with Archie and his flatmates.

Jonas arrived later on after I’d been sat talking to Bronwen, Hazel (Archie’s flatmates) and Caroline (Bronwen’s coursemate) for ages. Some girl took a photo of us in our school uniforms and then took our names so now we’re a bit worried it’s going to end up in the uni paper or something!

Jonas told me I looked tasty and gorgeous and stuff 🙂 which was nice cos there was a point when I felt a bit daft as we went to Bar Non where most people were dressed normally.

Some lad in Milton was staring at our table. I think he lives at Storthes and I couldn’t tell if he was looking at me or Bronwen. It was probably her actually.

In Bar Non, I was dancing with Jonas, Hazel and Archie, and Sid came over and started singing at me. I tried to move back but ended up pinned up against a wall. Idiot freak!

I got on with Hazel quite well actually and she said to someone she liked me.

Jonas stayed at mine again and as we were walking back he said I looked “authoritative” in a skirt. According to him, that’s good!


Covered in Tia Maria and Coke – 4th February 2002

Monday 4th  It was the 1st day of lectures again after a break but it wasn’t too bad.

We all went out to Camel tonight. There were loads of people I knew there. I spoke to Ben quite a bit and Jonas seemed to get a bit jealous at one point cos he thought I was staring at Ben. I wasn’t. Jonas also said that lads kept looking at me. They weren’t. I don’t mind if he gets a bit jealous cos it’s nice to know in a way that he doesn’t want anyone else to have me.

Jonas said he loves me and he likes my new jeans. For some reason he pointed out to me that he hates stilettos. If it was cos he was worried I might wear some then there’s no need cos I don’t really like them either. Jonas also told me I’m gorgeous and stuff.

The night went downhill fairly rapidly after Jen went in a mood. I was perfectly happy and then she got all upset (bringing the mood down) cos Kevin was ignoring her. What really put me in a bad mood was when she complained about me and Jonas. We weren’t doing anything. I think it was just cos we were together and she was feeling a bit of a gooseberry.

Jen left so I was in Camel with Jonas and his mates who were all being a bit knobheadish. Sid (wearing a suit) shook my hand and asked how I was. He then said “sorry” and laughed saying it didn’t matter when I asked why he was apologising. He then pretended to snog Jonas (putting his hand over Jonas’s mouth) and then he did it to me. Pierced Sam with pink hair then did it to me too, spilling my drink all over me in the process. I really wasn’t in the mood for people pissing about and being covered in Tia Maria and Coke so I found myself very close to tears.

Jonas noticed and was being really nice and he said he didn’t really like Camel and didn’t mind leaving. That made me feel guilty cos he’s gone every week and spent money in there even though he’s not that keen, just because of me. I suppose that’s nice in a way though.

Jonas then thought I was in a mood with him because I told him to go and dance. I only said it because all his mates were and I didn’t want him to miss out cos of me. Jake used to not dance so I stayed with him but resented it cos my mates were off having fun. I didn’t want Jonas feeling the same as I did.

Jonas stayed with me and told me his mates think I don’t like them. Great. Paul came up to me and said I was too quiet while Jonas wasn’t listening. That, along with Sid giving me an evil look when I left, really pissed me off too.

I ended up telling Archie about Jen and Kevin last week but I don’t really think he took it in cos he was pretty drunk.

That Louise girl that “took advantage” of Jonas once but only snogged him and fancied him for ages was there. She kept looking at him and bashed into me on her way past, short-arse cow!

Outside, I sat on some steps with Jonas and apologised for being miserable. He said he doesn’t care what his mates think cos they’re not his REAL mates (like the ones from Scotland). He said I have to acknowledge them more cos they’re sensitive and get offended easily. I’m just very worried his mates don’t like me but he can’t see it and sides with them. What is it I do wrong?! I can’t help being a bit shy.

I got upset when I got back so I ate lots.


Telling me about his fantasies – 29th to 31st January 2002

Tuesday 29th  I went to stay at Jonas’s tonight. On the way we stopped at uni to check emails and I had one from Gethin saying Ken’s mum’s died. That’s so bad. His dad died when we were at college too.

We just lounged around when we got to Jonas’s and he made me lie on top of him. He started telling me about his fantasies involving me when he “gets bored” (i.e. jacks off). He says he does it every day when he gets bored.

I’m making Jonas sound like a right pervert but he’s not too bad really. He does talk about normal things too but they’re not interesting so there’s no point in writing them down.

Ha ha ha!! Jonas was wandering around naked and Russell came up the stairs and saw him!


Wednesday 30th  Jonas gave me a list of houses up for rent next year. We’ve really got to try and sort something out soon. Archie had a list sent to his flat too so I’ve bought a road atlas of Huddersfield so we can see where they all are.

Jonas came round tonight and we got to level 5 but it went on for ages.

I ended up getting upset as I was lying in bed tonight. A sad song came on my CD player and it set me off thinking about Sarah and home in general and I found myself getting a bit homesick. I miss my friends loads. Jonas didn’t help by being nice and cuddling me cos it made me happy so I cried more! He told me he cries a lot just for the hell of it. He then told me he loves everything about me and he said, “I love you too, very much.” 🙂

Later on, I had a weird phone call from a lad saying my number was under his door saying to ring me. He said he reckoned it was his mates playing a trick.


Thursday 31st  Jonas stayed at his tonight cos he had work to do. I’m bored. I didn’t got out cos nobody else has either.


What a bastard! – 27th to 29th January 2002

Sunday 27th  Jonas stayed over at mine and dragged me into the shower with him. I felt a bit self-conscious but it was still fun!


Monday 28th to Tuesday 29th   We all went to Camel tonight. Jonas was very pissed, Archie was depressed and we lost Jen and Kevin completely. I later found out they’d gone back to Jen’s and apparently just snogged.

Jonas kept saying he loved me so I wasn’t all that worried when he came back from the toilet and 2 girls were hanging round him. It turned out they were asking after his mate Pierced Sam anyway. He also saw his flatmate from last year, Carina(?), who said she was proud of him cos he’s got a girlfriend.

Archie updated me about houses tonight too. It turns out that we’re going to try and rent one because some lad called Matt (used to be in Archie’s flat but left uni and is coming back next year) might be living with us too so Kevin’s not buying one anymore. Kevin’s left it all to Archie to sort out (lazy git!) but I’m quite pleased cos that means I’m more likely to be told about stuff.

Archie’s really pissed off with Kevin anyway because Kevin was trying it on with Sophie (Archie’s flatmate who Archie’s openly fancied for ages) really obviously and still snogged her even after Archie had a serious word with him. What a bastard! Archie said Kevin did the same to him with me so he definitely was not impressed a 2nd time.

Archie must have been pissed too cos he kept saying he liked me. Jonas sort of half jokingly but half seriously said Archie would go straight through the bus window if he snogged me.


Not humanly possible – 24th to 25th January 2002

Thursday 24th to Friday 25th  I wasn’t feeling too happy today. I just feel as though I have fewer friends than I would have had had I not got on the wrong side of Marc and Kevin etc. cos that way it made things awkward or I was being bitched about. It’s because I found out Jen went out last night with her flatmates, and Archie and Kevin are off out tonight and didn’t invite me when I phoned up. Oh well.

I ended up at Jonas’s instead which I didn’t mind at all and I stayed over. Russell (his housemate) managed to piss me off cos when I answered a question he said, “So you can hear me then” really nastily. Fucker!

Jonas got out a massive pile of FHM magazines and sifted through them (after Russell had pissed off) saying he wanted to try stuff (i.e. the positions) out of them. We didn’t cos most were not humanly possible (hence the cartoon diagrams) and Jonas had an exam first thing in the morning.

When Jonas got up go to uni, I got to stay in his bed until he got back. When he did we cuddled for ages. He suggested running away together to Canada in a camper van. That would be cool but we have a slight lack of camper van and money.

Jonas didn’t want me to leave but I had to cos Abby came to visit. Mum and Grandma brought her. We didn’t do much except go up to the Arb for a bit with Jen.


He’s done it on every piece of furniture – 23rd January 2002

Wednesday 23rd  Cat went home today and Jonas met me at the station then came to mine. We decided to go to bed quite early and worked our way through the levels (except 4) up to number 5. The TV and light were both on which was weird cos it’s normally pitch black and we can’t see a thing.

He told me he’s done it on every piece of furniture with Natasha which I didn’t particularly want to know! He also mentioned that he once had girls shouting through his bedroom window about stuff. It took me ages to find out what they said but he eventually told me that one of their mates found him to be quite good with his hands one night so the others wanted to see if it was true or something.

We said we loved each other and cuddled lots and Jonas told me that I’m great and that I’m the “whole package” and that he loves everything about me. 🙂 Mmm Jonas!!


Designer Vaginas – 20th to 22nd January 2002

Sunday 20th  I got Cat back to mine eventually and we just dossed about all day.


Monday 21st  Cat and I went to Camel Club tonight cos it’s Jen’s birthday tomorrow. Jonas met us there and there were loads of other people I knew. However, Cat was being really boring and just sat on the same seat all night, trying to repel Archie.

Archie was actually after his flatmate, Sophie, but Kevin was trying his luck with her. He knows perfectly well that Archie’s liked her for ages and even when Archie had a word with him to warn him off, Kevin still went ahead and snogged her. Bastard!

Jonas wasn’t very pissed and kept saying he was annoyed with his mates for not turning up last night. Jen, on the other hand, was totally bladdered and kept pinching the arses of random lads as they walked past.

Jonas said he loves me and checked I wasn’t scared. Of course I’m not! He said if he goes to Canada, I can go too in his camper van. Apparently that’s what he wants to do after uni.


Tuesday 22nd  Cat and I just dossed about all day then went for a walk up the hill before going to bed after watching Designer Vaginas on TV. Urgh!!


She had spew hanging from her hair – 19th January 2002

Saturday 19th  It was Jonas’s “party” tonight. Oh what fun it was. NOT!! So much for a party. There were 4 of us there – me, Jonas, Russell and Cat. It wasn’t Jonas’s fault though. I was witness to him inviting people and them replying saying they’d come but nobody did.

Due to Jonas expecting rather more than 4 people, he made a rather large magic chocolate cake with rather a lot of magic illegal substance in it. We all ate some and got stoned but Cat wolfed down more than the rest of us and it had rather a negative effect on here.

She was fine to begin with and she and I were just giggling about a song (Robbie Williams Me and My Shadow when it sounded like he says “Happy New Year, ming…”) and a card I bought with the caption “Harry failed to become a Beanie Baby” over a photo of a rather unattractive animal of some sort.

Then Cat started throwing up really badly and said her heart was racing and she was scared. She kept asking me to do something but I didn’t know how to help. Jonas ended up phoning an ambulance on Cat’s request (I think it was a slight over-reaction to be honest) and they turned up outside the house. The paramedics were very sharp with Cat but I don’t blame them really cos if Cat had just have laid down and slept it off, I’m sure she wouldn’t been fine. I got to go with Cat but felt incredibly guilty cos I’m sure there were proper emergencies which needed an ambulance much more that Cat did.

When we got to the hospital, we were sat about for ages. I got the impression Cat was feeling a bit better but didn’t want to admit it cos she felt stupid for wasting people’s time. She kept gagging and stuff but wasn’t actually chucking much up. She tended to do it more when nurses and people were there too.

There was one doctor that was really nice (probably cos she couldn’t complain!) and Cat was put on a heart monitor thing. I also felt a bit funny (like my heart was going way too fast) but I didn’t say anything cos I thought it’d just go away. It did eventually.

We got a taxi back to Jonas’s afterwards (after trying to convince the driver Cat wouldn’t be sick, even though she had spew hanging from her hair). Jonas kept apologising and said he didn’t think we’d come back.

While Jonas was trying to sleep, I started freaking him out by whispering “Oi!” a lot. I also found out that he’d put loads of stuff in the cake cos he was expecting lots of people to eat a bit of cake each, not a few people to eat loads!