Barcelona is FULL of Americans and mopeds – 4th to 6th July 2001

Wednesday 4th We went on another bloody hill walk today to Parc Güell where there’s lots of Gaudi artwork. We shouldn’t have had to walk but most of the damn street escalators weren’t working! It was nice when we got there though.

Two people asked us if we spoke English so maybe we’re so tanned that we now look Spanish. Hah! I think not! I’m still as pasty as anything!

My feet still hurt now from all the walking we did today.

This afternoon we went to see more Gaudi stuff at some building with a bank on the ground floor. We had to pay to get in cos it was like a museum but it was pretty good.

There was an old apartment with all the furniture and stuff still in it. The on the rood there were lots of arches and stuff. It’s all in here!…

We went back to the hotel to get changed and then went out for tea. We went to the harbour bit and to a posher restaurant. It was quite expensive but pretty minging food. We had Spanish food and it was all fishy so I wasn’t too keen. Never mind though, Jake paid for that one!

I rang home again tonight and Mum informed me that Connor quit his job at AMEC because he hates it. He’s got nothing to fall back on though and nothing else lined up. Mum also said it’s very hot at home and there have been floods in Wales around where my Grandma L lived. My dad’s cousin’s caravan’s been washed away. She wasn’t in it though.

Jake and I have now been together for a year and 5 months. 🙂 🙂 🙂

Bye!

Thursday 5th We went to see the gothic part of Barcelona today. It was quite nice with the narrow streets but I can see why that makes it a bad idea to go at night. We went to the Hard Rock Café again for lunch and then present buying around the harbour bit.

We had a wander then ate at Moka which was a nice and fairly cheap café/restaurant place on Las Ramblas. We didn’t do nearly as much today cos we needed presents etc. and didn’t have much money and we’re pretty tired too.

I don’t really want to go home tomorrow. The things I won’t miss are the sticky heat, the scrubby pickpockets and the music shop under our room which plays about 5 songs over and over. Nsync is one of their favourites which we haven’t been too pleased about! I will miss my bed and the bath and having Jake there all the time though.

We have made one conclusion from this holiday and that is that Barcelona is FULL of Americans and mopeds.

Bye!

Friday 6th We left our hotel at about 10am and nearly missed the train to the airport which would’ve meant missing the plane. That was quite scary cos we wouldn’t have known what to do.

The flight home wasn’t too good. It was very bumpy and cloudy so I couldn’t see much. I didn’t like it. I thought I was nervous but the girl behind us started hyperventilating and the cabin crew had to take her to their bit at the back to calm her down.

It was surprisingly hot when we got outside Speke Airport to meet my dad. He was a bit late because of traffic jams but he got there eventually.

I saw Jake again this evening and we just stayed in and watched TV cos everyone else is still away.

Bye!

Worrying him with questions like, “Would you still like me if I had no legs?”– 3rd July 2001

Tuesday 3rd We had breakfast in the hotel this morning and it was really nice. There was a big table in the centre of the room with loads of different foods on it including cakes and doughnuts. I opted for croissants in the end, just to be boring!

We decided to try and go up a hill that Jake went up last year when he was here. After getting lost in the airless Metro tunnels before realising it was a train we needed, we finally made it to the right place. We knew there were trams to the funicular railway which goes to the very top but we didn’t know where to get them from and decided it couldn’t be that far to walk.

Big mistake! It was miles and we were so hot, sweaty and knackered by the time we got to the train thing. I saw a little lizard though.

We ate some food in the shade of a wall at the top of the churchy building at the top of the hill but had no money for a drink. So, pretty much as soon as we got up there, we had a look at the view of the city then went back down the hill.

It was definitely easier and faster to get down and we beat the tram cos it got stuck in traffic. Hah!

We went back to the hotel to have a shower and cool down in our lovely air conditioned room before going to get some more food. What we had for lunch wasn’t very exotic (it was from the Marks & Spencer at the end of the road!) so we went to one of the cafes on Las Ramblas. They said they didn’t have any of the Spanish food we wanted so I ended up with spaghetti bolognaise and Jake had pork chops, I think!

We then walked to the Metro again and went to find the Sagrada Família thing. It’s huge and pretty impressive. They’re still building it so there were loads of cranes and stuff which spoilt it a bit.

We fell out a bit again this evening because Jake asked me to sleep on my bed cos he was hot so we were sleeping miles away from each other. It just annoyed me because we hardly ever get to sleep in the same bed and then when we can, he chucks me out. He also said I’d been worrying him with questions like, “Would you still like me if I had no legs?” etc. I was only messing about though. We both got a bit upset (him more) and we made up and slept in the same bit of bed.

Bye!

I didn’t really fancy getting murdered – 2nd July 2001

Monday 2nd I’m in BARCELONA!!! It’s really nice too! 🙂

Both Jake and I only got a couple of hours sleep before we had to get up to go to the airport. It was nice staying in his bed so I didn’t really want to get out, especially at 5:15am!

I was really hungry but when I went downstairs, nobody was eating so I didn’t either when I was asked if I wanted breakfast. It wall went quiet when I was stood in the kitchen so I went upstairs to escape the awkwardness, telling Jake and his dad I needed to get my things together (lie lie!).

We ended up having breakfast at the airport cos we checked in quite early but they then I wasn’t very hungry due to my nervousness about flying. I’m really pissed off that I’ve gained a new found fear cos there’s no reason why it’s happened! I need not have worried though because the flight was very smooth and very clear so I could see everything that we were flying over.

I was given this at the airport and it’s the network my phone went onto instead of Vodafone…

It was in the newspaper that the cleaners at Barcelona Airport were on strike and had thrown rubbish everywhere. This was true. When we arrived, there were small piles of rubbish everywhere but thankfully it was only shredded paper.

We got a train from the airport to Plaza de Catalunya and then a taxi to our hotel. In actual fact, we could’ve walked to our hotel from where we got off the train but we couldn’t work out which direction to go in from the map.

We got to Hotel Lleo but had to wait a while for a room. The lobby area was nice (lots of marble) but our room was even better. We are in room 101 on the 1st floor (right by the bar!) and have a huge bathroom, 2 single beds pushed together, phone, Sky TV, lots of mirrors, a nice view out onto the street and… these are the best bits… a spa bath, a minibar and adjustable beds! The beds are sooo cool!! It took us a while to work out what the remotes were for and then the beds began to move! Hee hee!! 🙂

This afternoon, we prized ourselves away from our cool beds and went for a wander along Las Ramblas to the harbour thing where there was a huge cruise ship arriving. There were loads of street performers and stalls, some of which were unfortunately selling animals and birds out of tiny cages.

When we got hungry, we really should’ve gone for something Spanish but instead, we opted for the Hard Rock Café there. A starter would’ve done but we had a main meal too and we were so full afterwards!

We went back to the hotel and I rang Mum to say we’d arrived and then we went for a wander to find the beach. After about a 45 minute walk, we arrived and it was very, very manky. It was full of dogs and covered in rubbish. Yuck!!

As if we hadn’t done enough walking, Jake decided he wanted to see what some sculpture right at the end of the road was. I had blisters on my feet already but I assumed he knew a way back that way so I followed him. He didn’t so we had to walk all the way back again. I was reeeally pissed off cos he’d said the beach wasn’t far and he knew my feet were killing me so I marched on ahead. It was also getting dark and I didn’t really fancy getting murdered so I wanted to get back to the hotel asap!

Jake got upset cos he realised I was pissed off but we’ve made up now. My feet are still sore and I’m so tired.

Hmm, what position shall I put my bed in so I can sleep tonight?!

Bye!

He likes the cowgirl look – 29th June & 1st July 2001

Friday 29th Urgh! This pen’s meant to be purple but it’s more of a browny-black colour really. Oh well, I can’t find another one.

I went to Manchester with Jake today in search of a hat for Barcelona and we both ended up getting one from the Quiksilver shop. His is blue and flowery on one side and creamy on the other, and mine’s purpley on one side and creamy on the other. They’re both reversible. Jake says he really likes me in mine and that he wants photos of me in it in Barcelona. We’ll see!

[I wish there wasn’t a photo of me in the hat but here it is.]

Jake picked up a leaflet with a cowgirl on it in Schue today. He likes the cowgirl look and has told me plenty of times. He said he got it to “test my reaction” but I don’t believe him! It’ll probably be on display in his bedroom from now on!

I spoke to Jake’s sister very briefly today at his house. She liked my hat too and suggested we wear them at the same time so we nearly match. I think not!!

Bye!

Sunday 1st I had to do a Swing Band concert at The Roebuck pub in Urmston today. Connor took me and Abby, and Jake came too cos Connor didn’t want to be on his own.

It went quite well and it was a really nice big pub but it was a bit windy so the music kept blowing away. We were also meant to get a barbecue but that didn’t happen until after we’d left unfortunately.

Jake and I are going to Barcelona tomorrow. Yey!! We’ve got to be at Speke Airport quite early so his dad can drop us off before he goes to work in Liverpool. I’m actually pretty nervous about going on the plane to be honest. I don’t know why cos I never used to be. It just doesn’t seem right though, something as big and heavy as an aeroplane being able to stay up in the air!

Bye!

Prancing around thinking they were God’s gift – 27th June 2001

Wednesday 27th P. [period]

Jake was at my house nearly all day but I had to get ready and then go to my college leaving do. He went to The Dog then The Coach and then his mates’ flat where he played with the hamster and talked, apparently.

The leaving do was pretty good and quite eventful actually. It was held at The Village Hotel in Warrington which is really nice. We had the do in a big room but we spread into the bar and outside as the night went on.

Cat’s dad took me, her, Karen and Lizzie there so we all met at Cat’s first. It was weird cos Sarah wasn’t there and we kept feeling like we’d forgotten someone.

[Cat, me, Lizzie and Karen pre-Smirnoff Ices]

Sarah decided not to go, even though we all had a go at trying to persuade her, because she was feeling rough (and embarrassed/guilty/worried) about her activities last night. I’m pretty annoyed with her about it actually. It was Lizzie’s birthday so a few of them went to Warrington (I had no money) and got reeeally bladdered. Sarah snogged 4 random lads including Isaac, had to be helped into a taxi and then slept where she fell on her kitchen floor with the back door open.

The bit I’m annoyed about is her activities with the lads. Poor Michael. I bet he wouldn’t do that to her. Anyway, I said my piece on the phone and she does feel very guilty about it. It’s also a shame she didn’t come to the do cos she missed out and she won’t be on any of the photos.

When we arrived at the hotel, we were greeted by glasses of champagne. The room was fill of balloons and streamers and there was some food out.

[Me, Isaac, Denny, Floyd, Lizzie and Karen]

Isaac made me feel sorry for him at one point when he asked me if the reason Sarah hadn’t come was cos of him. I told him it wasn’t cos as far as I know that’s true. He said he felt really guilty about Michael but Sarah did throw herself at him.

The gap between upstairs and downstairs people in college* was bridged a bit at the do and most people made the effort to talk to each other. It was mainly the lads from downstairs who were being nice to us but I was also talking to Daisy Smith and Josie Nichol who I used to be friends with at primary school.

*[We had one common room downstairs in the 6th Form College building but the swots/moshers/LGBTQ+ amongst us formed a breakaway common room in a disused classroom upstairs away from the popular people where we felt more comfortable all being mildly weird together. It was known as The Mosher Room by those that didn’t use it.]

However, some people did more than just talk. Lizzie got with Jez Greenhalgh and she have him a number 4 behind some building. Karen and Tunde also got together and did number 4 to each other on the grass outside!

[Jez and Lizzie mid-snog]

Adrian Ford felt my arse and then I had a long chat with Gethin in which he told me that he used to fancy me more than he’s ever fancied Jake. Ha ha!! I find that hard to believe actually. We’re friends again anyway.

[Gethin and I being bezzie mates again]

Aww, Mr P was there tonight with scan pics of his baby (his wife’s pregnant). I asked when it’s due and he told me November. I told him my birthday’s in November and he asked what date. I said the 12th and he looked freaked out for a second before telling me that’s the day it’s due. I hope it’s born on my birthday. That’d be really nice.

I spent quite a bit of my night trying to cheer up Denny. He was feeling a bit miserable cos of Jez and Lizzie getting together cos he still really likes Lizzie. He’s too nice for Lizzie and I really hope he gets a really nice girlfriend soon because I think he deserves one.

[Me, Lizzie and Denny in his fetching white suit]

Some daft awards were given out tonight after people voted in college. Here’s who go what:
[I can’t believe we were allowed to dish some of these awards out!]

CATEGORYRECIPIENTPRIZE  
Best looking lad James Douglas (Dougie)Mirror  
Best looking girlEmma ThornleyMirror  
Biggest beer bellyJez GreenhalghPie  
Biggest party animalFreda Fernandez (Freda wasn’t there so Pallav got it instead)Party hat  
Most unlikely coupleFreda Fernandez and Julian Olsen 
Most likely coupleGethin Turner and Paul Wenham (Big Paul)Confetti + 2 model grooms
Most likely porn star  Karen BrentPineapple condom
Biggest male slapper  Gethin TurnerPack of condoms
Biggest female slapperLizzie Bond  Pack of condoms
Biggest pissheadStuart Hobbs  Pint of something
Best arseTanya Potter (Tanya wasn’t there so Tara Costello got it instead) 
Best dressedShauna Adams   
Most likely virginAled Brownlee   
[Jez and his pie prize]

I could’ve slapped Shauna and Tara. They were prancing around thinking they were God’s gift all night after that. They were also glaring at Emma all night, obviously out of pure jealousy.

The only other things that really happened was a fight between Orson Platt and Adrian Ford over Poppy Kaye, and David Ingle being sick due to excessive amounts of alcohol cos it was his birthday!

Bye!

I’ve got to stop this paranoia! – 18th & 19th June 2001

Monday 18th I was in a bit of a better mood this morning and all that stuff I wrote last night now seems completely stupid!

However, my exam this afternoon has pissed me off completely. It was the physiology section of Sports Studies and we had 2 hours to do 4 long questions. I just don’t see the point of doing pages and pages of notes on loads of different things when the exam only covers 4 small areas. Typically, those 4 areas were also on the thinks that I didn’t particularly understand. Oh well, only one more exam to go now.

Jake gets back from Scotland tonight and I was expecting to see him cos he said he should be able to get here. I really need a hug after this weekend and that exam today but he’s just texted me today he won’t be able to get here cos his dad’s been driving all day and his bro’s too tired. I don’t think he’s all that bothered about seeing me actually cos surely he could get a bus or a taxi like he normally does.

Urgh, I’ve got to stop this paranoia! It’s not doing me any good. He probably doesn’t feel like hanging round for buses etc. after travelling all day and he probably wants a shower and bed. I’ll just have to see him tomorrow instead cos I doubt I’ll do any revision tomorrow evening anyway. He’d better bring the chocolate he bought me. I need it!

Bye!

Tuesday 19th It’s Dad’s birthday today! I’m not sure how old he is actually. Hang on, he was born in 1946 so he must be… erm… 55(?). I hate maths!!

I’m feeling much better today anyway and very much loved! Jake came at about 4:30pm and kept hugging me and telling me I was nice and stuff. I didn’t see him for very long cos he had Venture Scouts but I was left with plenty of chocolate to eat!

Bye!

My personality’s obviously not enough! – 17th June 2001

Sunday 17th I got a bit upset this afternoon during a break from my mad last-minute cramming-style revision. I was just lying on my bed and thinking (I really shouldn’t do that!) and I just suddenly found myself crying.

There are 3 things that are bothering me most at the moment. They are:

  1. The fact that I’ve become thick over the last few weeks and it’s looking very unlikely that I’ll get 14 points for uni.
  2. It doesn’t seem likely that we’ll be going to Wick this summer cos my Auntie S is stressed about my Grandma L.
  3. I’m feeling a bit insecure about me and Jake.

Recently I have been a bit worried about me and Jake due to the Suzanna thing and the fact that I know other people fancy him too so the worry that one day he’ll like one of the people who like him more than he likes me has come to my mind. However, a conversation we had on the phone when he finally decided to ring me after playing rounders with a bunch of Cub Scouts at 11pm yesterday has added to my insecurities.

Somehow we got on to the subject of no sex again. I started off joking, asking would he go off me if I never ever wanted to. He said he wouldn’t be able to not do it forever so I narrowed it down to 10 years, the 5 years, then 1 year but he was still saying he couldn’t do without. I mean, we’ve only ever done it twice and neither time was exactly brilliant so then I started to worry. I realised that he was saying he’d go off me if I didn’t want to do it and he’s also said he wouldn’t like me as much with no legs. It sounds like he doesn’t like me for my personality at all otherwise he’d love me whatever, surely?

That conversation make me think of Barcelona and the fact that I might not be able to do much there cos my period’s due. I’m worried that he’ll be pissed off cos he sounds keen to make the most of the few nights we’ve got there. He’s usually understanding about that though cos he knows I can’t exactly help it.

Oh I don’t know. My self-esteem’s just gone way down. I feel a bit of a mess (looks-wise) at the moment so what if Jake notices? Will he go off me or what?

The other thing that’s at the back of my mind is that what if, one day, I have to come of the pills for my skin and my spots flare up again. I remember him once commenting ages ago how awful someone’s acne looked. There’s no way he’d want to be seen with me if my skin got bad again, is there? My personality’s obviously not enough!

His comments about models in magazines and stuff don’t help either. I mean, fair enough, I ask him if he’d fancy them but he always says yes. That’s what worries me. What if someone who looked like them liked him? He wouldn’t like me as much, I’m sure.

All this insecurity really started when he started saying he couldn’t talk to me about stuff (e.g. his mum) when we got into that argument the other week. It sounds like he doesn’t trust me. I’m always moaning about stuff to him but he never does it back. I can’t help it, I’m just scared one day he’ll get sick of me whinging about things

Ugh, I don’t know what’s up with me at the moment. I think I am stressed about exams and that’s the underlying thing. Plus uni is looming (providing I get in!) and I have to say, I am a bit nervous about it. That could also be when I lose Jake if we meet new people cos so many people I know have split up, even if they went to the same place. I don’t want that to happen to us.

Hearing that his dad doesn’t like me and his bro’s been slagging me off haven’t exactly boosted my confidence either. My family like Jake and I’d like it if his family liked me too and made me feel welcome.

I think I just need Jake to reassure me really. He says he loves me all the time and I believe him but I need to hear why he loves me, I think. I need him to tell me spontaneously too, without me having to say something first or having to be upset and he just says stuff to make me feel better. That’s probably not going to happen but still, I need to hear something positive right now to stop me feeling so fed up.

The thing I have to keep reminding myself is that he fancied me for ages before we got together and there must be reasons for that.

Bye!

P.S. I’ve just spoken to Jake on the phone and got a bit upset. I told him my worry about him finding someone else he likes more than me. Instead of saying it WON’T happen, he just kept saying he hopes it doesn’t. He’s not ruling it out completely then! Ohh, I really need a hug!

I’m not thinking that maybe I shouldn’t have told him that I’m feeling a bit insecure and why cos he doesn’t really have to worry about things like that about me so it’s like he’s in a better position than me so he’s kind of in control. For example, if we split up, he’s good looking and I’m pretty normal so he’s more likely to find someone else.

Oh, I really do think way too much!

A total cock-up – 15th June 2001

Friday 15th Well, I thought those exams were going to be bad and so they were. I managed to answer all the biology questions but didn’t have a clue what I was writing about. The geography one was a total cock-up. There were 4 really hard essay questions and I had to do 2 of them. The first one I did was completely vague answers and the 2nd one I just shouldn’t have done cos I didn’t have a clue what it meant. Half way through writing it I realised I should’ve done a different one but I only had about 10 minutes left so it was too late.

Urrggh!! I’m never going to get into uni!

Jake met me outside college after my last exam and we walked back to mine. Well, we started to walk then it started thundering so we got on a bus instead.

He’s going to Scotland with his family tonight to visit friends on the Isle of Mull so we only had about 3 hours before his dad picked him up. We were just talking and for some reason got onto the subject of celibacy. He ended up saying that he’d still love me bit it wouldn’t suit him cos he would be too frustrated! He said he could cope if I didn’t believe in sex before marriage cos there’s the hope that one day it will happen. It was a very jokey conversation and he was telling me (when I pointed out that he went for 16 years without even snogging a girl) that when lads are 16 they always hope that they’ll get to have sex with a girl one day. Hmm, maybe not in some cases. I can’t imagine Rory really wanting to do it with a girl!

Ahh, Jake also told me that after the conversation about what he’d do if I had no legs, that he would still love me just as much. That’s good to know!

He told me he liked my teeth today too. I don’t. They’re all gappy. He said he likes that though. Fairy nuff, I suppose.

I can’t not see him for 3 whole days! Ugh! Ok, so it’s nothing compared to 3 months but I like seeing him and it’s something to look forwards to after revision all day. Ah well, I’ll just have to cope. I will miss him though.

Bye!

I’m going through an ugly stage – 14th June 2001

Thursday 14th Uurrggh! Shiiiit!! There’s no way I can pass my geography and biology exams tomorrow. I am sooooo fucked!! I don’t know anything and the small amount of information I have managed to memorise means absolutely nothing to me. I’d better start collecting application forms for places like McDonald’s and Woolworths soon cos I very much doubt I’ll be getting 14 points from my exams.

I think I’m suffering from exam stress. Well, that’s my excuse for everything e.g. not emptying the dishwasher, getting pissed off with Abby etc.!

Robbie dropped Jake off at mine tonight in his new car. His girlfriend was in it too. Grrr! It was so good when Jake had a car. I don’t like to think of his bro and girlfriend having one instead.

Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre tonight cos he needed to feed his shirt buying addition. He bought 2. They are pretty cool though.

I blurted out that I didn’t like his brother (not uncommon knowledge cos he hates me) and Jake accused me of attention seeking!? In the end (when we made up) he said he just couldn’t think of anything else to say.

I’m going through an ugly stage (exam stress!) but Jake kept telling me I’m yummy whether I believe it or not. 🙂 I love him!! Actually, I didn’t feel too bad tonight. I’ve been feeling a mess all week but I’ve been stuck at home revising mostly so it was nice to be out tonight and not sat down.

Bye!

I wish I’d never remembered – 12th June 2001

Tuesday 12th Fuck. I realised before that I’ve made a stupid mistake on the Ecology paper I did last week for biology. I don’t know what made me remember but it suddenly came to me that on one question about catching insects, I wrote about the mark, release and capture method. I realised it was wrong at the time but I thought I only had 7 mins left (I actually had 17 mins but a teacher had written the finishing time wrongly on the board) so I made a note next to the question saying “pitfall traps” but I never went back to it because I forgot. Bugger! I wouldn’t mind but the grade boundaries are sooo close and those few marks could’ve made quite a difference. I’m so pissed off with myself but it’s too late to do anything about it now. I wish I’d never remembered. 😦

Jake and I have been going out a year and 4 months and 1 day. Yesterday was the 11th and that was the date he actually asked me out. HOWEVER, from now on we’ve decided that we will use the date of the 4th to mark anniversary type things cos it was a week before the 11th February (on the 4th) that we first got together, even if nothing was official, at Amanda Bryan’s birthday party in The Coach and Horses. When we think of getting together, that’s what we think of – that party. So, we have now been “together” for 1 year, 4 months, 1 week and 1 day! 🙂

I hate revision! Grrr!!

Jake came round for a bit this evening before he went to Venture Scouts. We didn’t really do much cos we didn’t have much time. I went really, really ticklish though for some reason!

He was telling me about this work experience he’s doing in the summer. He said he’s working at BDP Advanced Technologies on Deansgate in Manchester. At first he said it was only going to be for 2 weeks then he said a month and today he told me it could be for 7 weeks over the summer. Ohh, I might hardly ever get to see him but he said they want to train him up properly and, you never know, if he goes every summer they may offer him a job for after uni.

He suggested that I get some work experience but I don’t particularly want to, to be honest. I’ll be doing a whole year’s work placement at uni (if I get there!), plus I want to make the most of this summer while I’ve got no college stuff to do.

Bye!