The aim was to pop her water bra – 5th May

Saturday 2nd Before Denny’s party, Lizzie, Sarah, Cat, Karen, Jake and I all went to Brett Massey’s party. He lives near Ikea and is an ex-boyfriend of Lizzie’s but she recently got back in touch with him and he invited her to his part with the instruction to bring as many girls as possible! Desperate!!

It was pretty weird actually cos there were mostly people who I didn’t know, some that I used to talk to when Lizzie was with Brett and my ex-sort-of-boyfriend, Leon Farrell. I have to say, he has improved a bit but his girlfriend was a bit ming! That pleased me cos Jake is pretty damn gorgeous if you ask me! 🙂

I don’t want to sound full of myself or anything but Leon did keep looking at me! I felt kind of smug though cos I had Jake cuddling me all the time and he had his girlfriend this who wasn’t. Anyway, we didn’t stay at Brett’s long. We just drank all his alcohol, said goodbye/thanks and left!

Denny’s was a top party!! There was everybody there, no Hayley or Lena or any other bitchy people, loads of nice food, music and his lovely big house!

Denny's birthday

Nothing really major happened, everybody just stood/danced around and chatted drunkenly at each other. Emma and Freda were searching for Karen with a corkscrew and the aim was to pop her water bra but she wasn’t wearing it!

Suzie told me that I’m one of those “sickening people that always looks good”! I don’t agree but I like Suzie even more now! 🙂

Gethin got really pissed on absinthe and took Jake out to the stables for a chat. He apologised for feeling him up once and told him that I’m a really good friend cos I’m so honest and stuff! 🙂

A few of us got into a discussion about whether hand size indicates penis length and Jake reckons it’s about right cos we measured across his palm from wherever you do it from (can’t remember!) and it was about 6 inches. He reckons his is about 6.5 inches.

Tess & Jake

While Gethin was pissed, he said he was imagining me naked. Yuck!

Freda said I remind her of Holly out of Casualty!

Jake and I stayed at Cat’s house and as the night progressed, some stuff happened.

I’d better go! I’ve run out of room. See you in the my next diary….. it’s a red one this time.

Byeeee!!! 🙂

Fireworks between the sheets – 2nd to 4th May

Wednesday 2nd Cat told me that Mr L’s been suspended. It serves him right! She said there’s also the possibility of police involvement because of Ellie.

I saw Jake after college. We just talked, mainly about the future actually and me maybe being Tessa Taylor one day! I’m not too sure about that!

He did a face reading thing on me out of FHM which tells you what your features say about your personality. Mine went something like:

  • Full lips = Pleasure orientated and have exciting sex life
  • Small ears = Sensitive about own health and unlikely to have unprotected sex
  • Winder nose = More fireworks between the sheets and more emotional
  • Larger eyes = Open-minded in bedroom and willing to break taboos
  • Overall = More imaginative and likes mental stimulation as well as physical. Ideal partner would be very caring. Sex has to be emotionally satisfying and prefer to take things slowly at first but perfect techniques in the long run.

Apparently that’s a mixture between Sarah Michelle Geller and Reese Witherspoon.

Hmmm. Most of that revolved around sex but then it is in a bloke magazine! Some of it is true though!

Bye!

Thursday 3rd Mr L’s been suspended pending inquiry but teachers and pupils are being told he’s got food poisoning!

Jake phoned me today cos he was bored. So was I!

Bye!

Friday 4th Nobody was doing anything tonight because we’re all going to Denny’s party tomorrow. However, Jake and I didn’t want to stay in so we went to the Trafford Centre and saw The Mexican at the cinema. It was really good actually.

Bye!

Wearing black balaclavas and pretending to be tadpoles – 28th & 29th April 2001

Saturday 28th I was with Jake all day today. 3 happened this morning but I’m still confused about last night and it was probably the real reason behind me getting upset so easily when my sister went a bit bitchy about going in the shower first.

It’s Sarah’s actual birthday today so me, her, Michael and Jake all went to see Bridget Jones’s Diary (again!) at the Trafford Centre cinema.

I got some messages off Jake when he went home which made me feel a bit better (but I’m still confused) about last night. One said. “ : ) HEY! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! I’M SORRY FOR KEEPING YOU AWAKE! I THINK IT WAS MORE THAN WORTH IT THOUGH! : ) I JUST GET FRUSTRATED COS I WANT TO STAY IN YOUR BED. I WOKE UP AT 7AM + COULDN’T GET BACK TO SLEEP COS I WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO WALK THROUGH MY DOOR! I LOVE FALLING ASLEEP CUDDLING YOU + WAKING UP NEXT TO YOU! J xJx”.

Bye!

Sunday 29th Jake came to Mum’s school with me, Mum and Abby today to help make a pond in the corner of Mum’s classroom for the children to go underneath and play in wearing black balaclavas and pretending to be tadpoles! It looks really good!

This evening my state of confusion disappeared after the exchange of texts with Jake. 🙂 They weren’t very nice to start with but got better. Here goes:

  1. “Well I enjoyed it! Sorry I won’t bother in future! : ( Let’s face it – there’s not much chance of us having fun with them! x”
    (Last part was referring to Manchester and my mates.)
  2. “I’m so sorry! I just seem to be upsetting you all the time at the moment! : ( I always say something horrible or manage to upset you even more when you need cheering up! I’m a crap boyfriend! + I don’t know how you put up with me! I love you more than anything in the world + I’m so sorry! Please text me when you get credit. x”
    (I did have credit! Ha ha!!)
  3. “You said it continued to be a bad night! How do you think that made me feel? It put me off too!”
  4. “Noooo! : ) I wasn’t disappointed at all! I didn’t know what to do?! Don’t think that! Love you! : ) xJx”
  5. “ : ) I want to be with you now! : ) Anyway, I’m really sorry if I gave you the wrong impression – I certainly wasn’t disappointed! I love you! : ) xJx”

Finally! That’s what I needed to hear! He’s actually pretty considerate! I bet most lads wouldn’t think twice about upsetting me! Ooh, I love him!! 🙂

Bye!

There weren’t enough men – 27th April 2001

Friday 27th A fairly big group of us went with Sarah’s family to a Chinese restaurant in Manchester tonight. It’s for her 18th birthday tomorrow so that was the excuse! The food was very nice! After we’d eaten, we all got let loose in Manchester. We started off in Soft. We knew it was quite good fun from last time so that’s where the serious drinking commenced!

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After that we went to some cocktail bar in the Printworks. That’s when Sarah, Lizzie, Karen and Gethin decided they wanted lads so they split up from us and went to Infinity. Me, Jake, Floyd and Cat weren’t too keen on going cos we knew we’d end up looking after bags and trying to keep everyone else from going home with strangers!

The 4 of us went to Norwegian Blue which was really cool and Jake bought me a big blue cocktail! Most of us liked it in there but Cat said there weren’t enough men and convinced us to leave. That was when the night became crap!

We spent ages wandering round in the cold and rain trying to find somewhere we all wanted to go in but we couldn’t agree. I didn’t like wandering round Manchester at night, I didn’t feel safe so we all ended up back in Soft.

We were all pissed off with the others for leaving us behind and were in no way drunk and so got very bored. Actually, Cat was pissed and started crying cos she wanted Mr L and said Radiant Dan looked like a monkey on the photos we showed her. She then started making me feel guilty for being happy with Jake. She was also crying cos she didn’t want to snog Floyd but felt like she had to cos he bought her a drink! She was talking crap and snogged him anyway!

After sitting in complete boredom for 2 hours or so, we were very glad when the taxi arrived! It dropped me and Jake off at my house first so we were very relieved cos he was a dodgy driver! We sat in the kitchen for a bit and moaned about how crap it’d been before getting ready for bed.

Jake got in my bed and ended up staying there until about 5:30am! We kissed and cuddled a lot and some other stuff happened. I felt slightly under pressure to do things, although I know he wouldn’t force me. He did keep sort of hinting but I didn’t quite have the nerve to go for it! Then he was just about to go to the spare room but I stopped him. I felt like I was in a now or never situation but then he went in the spare room anyway. I’m confused! What did I do wrong?!

He then kept saying he loved me more than usual as if he said it to make me feel better but it didn’t work. Ugh! I’m confused! I wanted to ask what was wrong but felt stupid cos maybe I should know!

Bye!

I feel unfit! – 24th to 26th April 2001

Monday 24th Sarah, Lizzie, Karen and I all went for a drive in Karen’s car during our frees today. We went all over the place, saw a pub called Fiddle I’th Bag and Mesnes Park and The Blue Bell which we all found amusing! We got lost and ended up in Wigan! We skived Geography/Maths too.

I felt a bit miserable before cos everyone seems to be going to the gym and I feel unfit! I really want to go kickboxing again but I’m scared that weird numb thing will come back or get worse again. I’ve decided to try a few exercises myself to see how it goes then I can choose how much I do rather than a bossy bloke at the front of a hall. I did warm ups (jogging on spot etc.), 50 sit ups and 30 leg lifts. Ouch!

Bye!

Tuesday 25th I’ve decided to go back to kickboxing, maybe in a couple of weeks so I can build up to it properly myself. I did warm ups again, 50 sit ups and 30 leg lifts.

I saw Jake this evening. We just lay about and I found he’s got a ticklish neck if I do it gently! 3 happened and my arm went pretty tingly.

Connor and Abby didn’t get to kickboxing cos as they were driving over the speed bumps, that twat scally, Jav, kicked the side of the car and left a big scratch down it and then ran after the car. They stopped at Evie’s to ring the police. They probably won’t do anything though unfortunately.

Bye!

Wednesday 26th I had to go to a Sports Studies revision conference at Salford Uni today. There were lots of lads there which kept Lizzie happy but it was sooo boring!

I finally finished my bacteria coursework for Biology this evening! I’m very proud cos it’s taken me weeks to get my head round it and I finally have done. Yey! 🙂

I didn’t do any exercises tonight. That was partly cos I couldn’t be bothered but mainly cos my legs went quite tingly after the short walk to the minibus. It hasn’t been doing it as much on short walks until now. I’m worried again!

Bye!

PLEASE LEAVE IMMEDIATELY – 21st April 2001

Saturday 21st Jake came round today and apologised again for last night. He kept saying, “I love you” too! 🙂 We took Mollie for a walk up the back of The Crow cos we can’t go round the fields cos if foot and mouth. He said, “You’re the best” and hugged me lots and told me I’m his best friend too and he doesn’t know what he’d do without me. 🙂 I think he’s my best friend too and I’d be pretty unhappy without him.

I found out some horrible things today. Mum told me that Dad shot some of our hens cos they kept fighting, our little black hen (Titch) got eaten by a fox while she was protecting her nest and, the worst of all, my duck (Squeak) got killed on the road! She was apparently flowing the lad from next door and got hit 😦 He cried!

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[Me & Titch]

I got very upset when I found that out. I wasn’t very old when I had her (about 8 years old) but I loved her. Next door found her as a duckling but couldn’t keep her cos they had Sheba the cat. So they gave her to us. I adopted her and she thought I was her mum! She always followed me around and sat under my jumper. She ate sloppy Weetabix and once got drunk when Dad left alcohol out to kill slugs… which she ate!

Tess & Squeak

[Me & Squeak]

Apparently it happened when we were in Scotland. She used to go over and talk (quack!) to the man across the road and that’s where they think she was off to. It made me cry a lot today cos they’d always told me she flew away and was probably swimming around on the pond at the garden centre. Mum said she’s buried in the garden somewhere.

Connor, Abby, Jake and I ended up in Knutsford this evening. We went in search of a pool table, had one game in The Railway before going to the Mangoletsi place where Connor got his car from. We left pretty fast when he heard “PLEASE LEAVE IMMEDIATELY” over some speakers! They must’ve have thought we were nicking cars or something!!

We then drove past Hugo’s house and I shone my torch on it but we now know there was no-one in cos we saw him and his family walking down the road. Connor reversed quickly and they gave us a funny look so Jake hid and I shined my torch at Hugo! Ha ha ha!!!

Bye!

I don’t think Mum was too keen on them – 19th April 2001

Wednesday 19th I went to Manchester with Cat today and I bought my really cool trainers! 🙂 They look something like this:

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I think that’s a fairly good likeness! Yes, I’m proud of those pictures! 🙂 I don’t think Mum was too keen on them when I was wearing them before but I think they’re great! They’re really bright and really comfy!

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[The only picture I can find of me wearing the horrible trainers. I was at Noss Head Lighthouse in Caithness where, thankfully, very few people will have witnessed them.]

I really wish I had more money cos I saw so many nice clothes too. Most were in the O’Neill and Quiksilver shops, in which case they were VERY expensive!

We trekked round all day trying to find Cat a bloody hooded jacket with a zip but we didn’t find one until Gap which was the last place we went in. I was pretty fed up by then.

We missed a train home so we had to get one to Warrington so the bloke made us pay an extra £1.15! Rip off!! Cat’s mum was going to pick us up but ran out of petrol so we had to get the bus home. It reminded me very much of Tuesday!

We went in Affleck’s Palace while we were in Manchester. It’s so good in there! I’ve walked past it before but it looked scary so I never went in but I like it now!

Bye!