Foot-soldier of the MCRmy – November 2010/February 2011

[Hello to Isabella!

She’s here to share her diary account sexy, hip-shaking mofos. I’m not sure enough time would have elapsed for me to set any teenage diary entries free into the internet after only 8 years so that wins her extra cringe points. 

If anyone else out there feels brave enough to do some diary oversharing with me then get in touch via the ‘Share your own diary‘ page. 

Over to Isabella…

Le bye!
Tess x]

Well, here you go. Two of my teenage ramblings, dedicated to my then-obsession My Chemical Romance. I absolutely adored them, and literally cried for three days when they broke up. I also can’t believe I used to write like this – apparently I was channeling Georgia Nicholson a lot (Angus, Thongs & Full Frontal Snogging by Louise Rennison). The grammar is very random and the odd bits of “French” here and there? Um… 

I was 17 in 2010 and going to gigs all over the place. I think I saw MCR 5 times, The Blackout (eventually) 11 times, and I’m currently on 7 for Green Day… 

Anyway, I hope you enjoy it! My writing has gotten a little more sophisticated over the years, and you can check some of it at my blog: Isabella Hume 

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Wednesday 24th November 2010

So Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys hit two days ago → The world will never be the same again (or certainly mine won’t). It’s amazing. My favs so far are Bulletproof Heart, Summertime, and Planetary (Go!)… they all fucking rule. Supposedly a Feb/Mar European Tour is being announced on Monday… Eeeeeeeeee! A little bit of overnight camping is in order… 🙂 *I have to get the barrier (preferably in front of Mr. F. Iero… ♥)

Le sigh…

In other news… my mother thinks I am going off the rails. Yay. Dad is back to his cantankerous old self (work does this to him). My skin has exploded into something close to a minefield. Jack B is being evasive… so and so. Yeah. CH + 4 A Levels + OU really isn’t helping my stress levels!! Gah!!!!

[insert two months worth of ramblings here]

Sunday 13th February 2011

Isabella MCR

Mel and I arrived at the LG arena at about 1.30 in the afternoon, having taken a 9.20 train from York to get us into Birmingham for 12.20. The 9.20 was the earliest we could get on a Sunday :(. We then caught a train to the NEC and met two other people from Cardiff and quickly made friends with them.

Upon stepping outside of the NEC I realised that it was pouring with rain. Excellent. Queuing for five hours in the pouring rain was really how I envisaged spending my Sunday afternoon. Anyway, ended up in the early queue (obviously) about twenty or so people back from the doors and we made ourselves comfy (as you can in the pouring rain on the concrete ground); Mel – being a brainy person – had brought bin bags for us to sit on so even though we still got wet, our bums stayed mostly dry :).

It soon got to around six and the doors opened. The way the ticket system works is a bit dumb though; you get your ticket scanned at the door and then you go wait in another little queue for someone to give you a wristband, you then have to wait to show your wristband before you actually get in. Anyhoo, got through and ran into the arena right to the centre and was one person deep from the barrier.

Unfortunately I got stuck behind two boyfriends the bane of any gig goers life. Their girlfriends were both on the barrier and they had their arms around them in a protective I’m-going-to-give-my-girlfriend-as-much-space-as-possible-and-if-anyone-
touches-her-they-die kinda way. Fuckers. That’s why I said I was only one person deep from the barrier because the girls kept turning around to suck face with their bfs so they became one thing anyway.

The Blackout (support act) were really good. I’d never seen a band with two frontmen before and I was surprised at how well it worked and how they bounced off each other so well. During The Blackout the crushing was insane and I was getting pushed from behind so much but I got one arm between two people on the barrier (one of the girlfriends being on my left which the boyfriend was not happy about). This girl kept trying to push my arm off the barrier but I don’t quite know where she thought I was going seeing as there was literally no space behind me.

At about 9.15 the house lights went down and the screams filled the place as spots of light started to illuminate the black curtain. As it got to the middle of the intro you could see silhouettes of band members beginning to appear and then as NA NA NA (NA NA NA NA) kicked in, the black curtain fell and the place blew up. I was to the left of Frank, in front of Mikey, and slightly to the right of Gerard – fantastic place to be. I have never danced or sung so hard in my life.

Notes from the show
– I got another Frank pick. A security guard gave it to me. 🙂 I’m gonna make a necklace (like a dog-tag necklace) out of the two of them I have. Although I did have a fight a girl next to me for it!
Gerard is one sexy mofo… when he shakes his hips… 🙂
– I was so mashed against the barrier. At one point I couldn’t even put my heels down without standing on the toes of the girl behind me. I have so many bruises… my inventory currently runs to: a line on my ribs, three on my thighs, two on my calbes, a load on my upper arms and one on my face.
– People kept getting pulled out over the top of me and a security guard had to keep putting his hand over my neck to protect it from flailing feet. At least nine people got pulled out over the top of me, it was insane. There were so many people getting pulled out. I got kicked in the back of the head three times. Yay. There goes my brain cells.
– The show was amazing and for how much I’m aching now, I have two Frank pics to make me feel a hell of a lot better. It was incredible… and I get to do it all again in nine days time! Newcastle here I come!

The End

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He’d better not go off with some rich girl – 8th & 9th August 2000

Tuesday 8th Jake went pond dipping for Hugo’s Geography project today so I didn’t see him. Instead, I went with Mum to take Grandma S for lunch at Hollingworth Lake. We went to Charlotte’s Chip Shop thing and as I drank my Coke, the word ‘Canada’ gradually appeared at the bottom of my glass!! It must have been made there – typical!

When I got home, I went through the strenuous activity of sorting out the bottom of my wardrobe! It took me ages!

Bye!

Wednesday 9th Jake got dropped off at my house at lunch today by Hugo’s mum. As usual, I’ve not got much to tell cos we didn’t do much at all. We ate one of the really, really nice ham salad sandwiches from the village shop down the road, took Mollie for a walk (Jake’s really good with her now!) and then went to Gethin’s house for tea.

Gethin then wanted to go to Floyd’s but we didn’t really so we made our excuses and came back to mine. We were going to go to the cinema but I started playing with Jake’s hair and he went all sleepy and we decided we couldn’t be bothered going after all.

We kissed and stuff but left it too late before hands moved anywhere interesting so I stopped him cos he had to go home.

I’ve been informed of a big all night party at Emma’s house tomorrow. I think I might go – I hope it’s gonna be good!

Bye!

P.S. Jake’s just texted me apologising for something but I didn’t know what so I asked him and he’s texted me back saying, “WHEN I WAS ASKING YOU TO SMILE THEN SAID YOU LOOKED YOU LOOKED LIKE YOU WERE DRUGGED UP! AND I’M SORRY FOR GETTING ALL PARANOID – I’M BEING TOTALLY SELFISH ABOUT IT BUT ONLY COS I CARE THE WAY I DO ABOUT YOU!… WHICH IS A LOT! I DO TRUST YOU – AND I HOPE YOU CAN TRUST ME! IT’S TAKEN ME THAT LONG TO FIND SOMETHING THIS GOOD – I’M NOT GONNA THROW IT ALL AWAY! I’M REALLY GONNA MISS YOU!… AGAIN! BUT I CAN WAIT 2 WEEKS FOR A KISS/CUDDLE/HUG – I’M NOT GONNA GET BORED! HOW COULD I? YOU’RE SO MUCH FUN! IF IT WERE THE OTHER WAY ROUND, I CAN’T IMAGINE HOW PARANOID I WOULD BE!! I’D PROBABLY LOCK YOU AWAY SOMEWHERE SO YOU COULDN’T GO! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!! xxx”.

That was all about the hen night and cruise, and I’d said to him that even if he gets bored he’d better not go off with some rich girl, which is why he said he won’t get bored!

I hope Jake doesn’t read this – 7th August 2000

Monday 7th I finally got round to doing my traffic survey and quadratting for my Geography project and Jake and Sarah came to help. We got a bit wet (rain) and a bit pissed off (man cut grass where we needed to count plants!) but we managed to make up fairly truthful looking results!

Jake stayed at my house for a while but Sarah had asked me to go to the cinema with her, Hayley, Georgia and Maz P (and his lot) so I had to leave him earlier than I would’ve liked.

I didn’t really want to go to the cinema but it turned out to be alright. Nathan and Milo picked us up at the cinema and took us to Adi’s house and then some cinema in Runcorn to see Gone in 60 Seconds which I thought was quite good, although no-one else was too impressed.

Nathan then drove us all the way home which was nice of him. Nathan’ll have volunteered cos he fancies Hayley but she now likes his mate Daryl and I have to say I don’t blame her! In fact, now that I’m no longer single, that lot seem to have become a lot nicer looking due to a few additions e.g. Daryl and Adi!

I know I shouldn’t be saying that and I hope Jake doesn’t read this cos I really don’t think he trusts me all that much but I don’t fancy them and I love Jake and really wouldn’t want anyone else!

Bye!

She’s had her nipple pierced – 5th & 6th August 2000

Saturday 5th I didn’t see Jake during the day today so I had nothing to take my mind off panicking about tonight, therefore I spent most of my time doing so! But as it happened, Sarah, my mum and nearly everyone else I’d panicked to was right….. it wasn’t actually that bad!!

The food was crap, Emma had to wait on us and told me she’s had her nipple pierced, and nearly everyone else in college just happened to be working tonight but other than that, it wasn’t too bad! The other 2 girls were nice, Clara was chatty, Robbie was whinging about his girlfriend Miranda, the adults talked and Jake was as embarrassed as I was about the amount of staff we know who work in Rialto’s!

We were there for ages and Jake, Robbie and I got a bit bored towards the end but then his dad dropped Jake off at mine for a bit. He’s taken a liking to Mollie now so we were just playing with her for a bit until his taxi arrived. I think we were both relieved it was over!

Bye!

Mollie Scottie dog

[I know I’m completely biased but how did he go so long without taking a liking to that little face?! ♥♥♥]

Sunday 6th Jake came round. Not much to tell except we took Mollie for a walk.

Bye!

I really, really, really, really don’t want to go! – 4th August 2000

Friday 4th Jake came round again today but I’m not getting sick of him doing so yet! I like seeing him this often. Yet again we didn’t do much but we did take Mollie for a walk round the fields. He had to work at 5pm so he cycled home earlier than usual but he, Sarah, Gethin and I all went to The Dog tonight so I saw him again.

Unfortunately, the night turned out to be crap!

  • Sarah still really fancies Gethin but found out today he’s officially seeing Lizzie.
  • Both Sarah and I aren’t pleased with Gethin cos he’s completely ignored us so far this holiday.
  • Jake was tired and has started bothering about me going on the hen night to Blackpool for Hayley’s future sister-in-law which made me feel guilty and also annoyed cos he’s going away for much longer and I’m not making as much of a fuss…

…so there was tension all round therefore making it a shite night!

On the walk back to my house, Jake apologised for sulking and so did I. He said it’s not me he doesn’t trust on the hen night, it’s other people. He said it’s only cos he cares.

Meanwhile, I remembered I’ve got to go for this bloody meal at bloody Rialto’s tomorrow night! I really, really, really, really don’t want to go!

We all sat about at my house and ate our Chinese food before Gethin decided he wanted to order a taxi. Jake didn’t want to go, I didn’t want him to and Sarah just sat there. They went eventually though.

I DON’T WANT TO GO TOMORROW NIGHT!!! That’s the next time I’m going to see him. Just the thought of it makes me feel really sick.

AAARRGGHHH!!!

Bye!

P.S. Put my name down for a job at The Green Dragon across the road.

His dad probably thinks I’m a right little freak – 3rd August 2000

Thursday 3rd Jake and I got bored quite quickly today so we decided to get on a train and go somewhere. We only ended up going to Manchester though which wasn’t very exciting cos all we did was wander round and then go in the Starbucks there when it started raining. Once we got bored of Manchester, we just got on the train (after running for and failing to catch an earlier one!) and came home again, stopping off at McDonald’s for tea!

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When we got back to mine, we were both a bit knackered so we just lay about listening to music and stuff. Jake told me he likes my legs too! He also had his hand in my pants but didn’t do owt.

His dad came to pick him up this evening and had been talking to my parents. He noticed a Puffin Book Club sticker which I’d put on Jake and he asked who’d stuck it on but before waiting for an answer he guessed it’d been me! I know cos I sent Jake a message later checking that he had guessed and he said, “RIGHT! OK! : ) HE GUESSED – I THINK HE HAS HIS SUSPICIONS NOW HE KNOWS YOU PAINT MY NAILS! : ) DON’T WORRY – HE JUST LAUGHED AT ME! OH AND HE THINKS YOU LOOK A LOT LIKE YOUR MUM! DON’T KNOW HOW THEY GOT ONTO THE TOPIC OF VEGETABLES THOUGH!? LOVE xJx”.

Great, so his dad probably thinks I’m a right little freak now!

Bye!

AAARRRGGGHHH!!! That’s like one of my worst nightmares! – 1st August 2000

Tuesday 1st Jake invited me round to his house today cos we decided against going to Sarah’s cos we thought it was going to rain. There was only him, his brother and the cleaner there when I arrived but we went to his room anyway. I had a good look round! He’s got shelves dedicated to certain things, for example, he’s got a shelf full of Beetle (the car that is!) stuff!

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[Teenage Jake in his natural habitat circa 2000.]

We didn’t do much at all except lie about on his bed and talk and not answer the phone to Hugo Pratt (his rich mate) cos he’d (earlier on) been making dirty comments about ice cream when Jake mentioned we were eating some!

At one point, Jake and I managed to depress ourselves by bringing up the Canada subject. It couldn’t really be avoided cos he had loads of Canadian stuff in his room (including a big flag!) which kept reminding me anyway! He told me he could’ve done the ski instructor course in Scotland and that he could only do it for 7 weeks of he wanted, rather than 12, and he said I can go to the meetings with him if I want to see who he’ll be with.

I think I’m better off not going cos it’d only upset me to hear all about it and if there was some gorgeous girl there then I’d be made sooo paranoid when he goes! Still, it was nice of him to say I could go with him.

He also gave me my presents from his Europe trip. There’s a big pine cone from Barcelona, a stone from Nice I think and then loads of bus tickets and stuff from everywhere else. He also gave me the receipt from the lunch he bought in Valkenburg while he was waiting for me to arrive!

The other thing he gave me was this P&O brochure of the Aurora cruise ship (he’s on the Aurora AU011 cruise in it – lucky git!). He said it’s so I can see where he’ll be every day but it’s more like he’s rubbing it in! I don’t think he means to though!

His dad came home from work and I got invited for a meal at Rialto’s on Saturday… AAARRRGGGHHH!!! That’s like one of my worst nightmares! I hate eating in front of people and it’s not just Jake, it’s the rest of his family, plus nearly everyone I know works in Rialto’s!! I couldn’t say no though cos he said he’d like me to come. I’m gonna be wetting myself by Saturday afternoon!

About half an hour before I had to go, Jake decided to 3. Then his dad came in to offer me a lift home (he didn’t notice – I hope!) so we had to stop.

When I got in, I had a message saying, “R U WITH J” and I didn’t recognise the number so I texted Jake and he said, “IT’S NOT ONE OF MY FRIENDS! MIGHT BE HUGO USING HIS SIS/MUM’S PHONE THOUGH! I’M SOOO SORRY! THAT HAPPENS EVERY TIME AND IT’S NOT FAIR ON YOU! : ) LOVE YOU! xJx”.

I told him it didn’t matter and he said, “MMM! I STILL FELL BAD! : ( IT HAS TO BE A 2-WAY THING!! IF YOU CAN COME ON SATURDAY WE’RE DEF GOING TO RIALTO’S NOT THE CHINESE! : ( I’D LIKE YOU TO COME IF YOU CAN! LOVE xJx”.

When his dad walked in on us, Jake had looked really pissed off. I could tell then that it was cos he’d not done to me what I’d done to him. That made me feel guilty for making him feel guilty so I told him and he said, “WE’RE A RIGHT PAIR! ONE OF US CAN’T FEEL BAD/GUILTY WITHOUT THE OTHER ONE FEELING EVEN WORSE COS OF IT! YEAH YOU TOLD ME YOU HAD TO WASH THE CAR – I DON’T MIND HELPING (I MEAN GETTING YOU SOAKING WET)!! : ) I’D DO ANYTHING JUST TO BE WITH YOU – EVEN IF IT DOES INVOLVE SLAVE LABOUR! LOVE xJx”.

Oh, he’s so nice!

Bye!