Foot-soldier of the MCRmy – November 2010/February 2011

[Hello to Isabella!

She’s here to share her diary account sexy, hip-shaking mofos. I’m not sure enough time would have elapsed for me to set any teenage diary entries free into the internet after only 8 years so that wins her extra cringe points. 

If anyone else out there feels brave enough to do some diary oversharing with me then get in touch via the ‘Share your own diary‘ page. 

Over to Isabella…

Le bye!
Tess x]

Well, here you go. Two of my teenage ramblings, dedicated to my then-obsession My Chemical Romance. I absolutely adored them, and literally cried for three days when they broke up. I also can’t believe I used to write like this – apparently I was channeling Georgia Nicholson a lot (Angus, Thongs & Full Frontal Snogging by Louise Rennison). The grammar is very random and the odd bits of “French” here and there? Um… 

I was 17 in 2010 and going to gigs all over the place. I think I saw MCR 5 times, The Blackout (eventually) 11 times, and I’m currently on 7 for Green Day… 

Anyway, I hope you enjoy it! My writing has gotten a little more sophisticated over the years, and you can check some of it at my blog: Isabella Hume 

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Wednesday 24th November 2010

So Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys hit two days ago → The world will never be the same again (or certainly mine won’t). It’s amazing. My favs so far are Bulletproof Heart, Summertime, and Planetary (Go!)… they all fucking rule. Supposedly a Feb/Mar European Tour is being announced on Monday… Eeeeeeeeee! A little bit of overnight camping is in order… 🙂 *I have to get the barrier (preferably in front of Mr. F. Iero… ♥)

Le sigh…

In other news… my mother thinks I am going off the rails. Yay. Dad is back to his cantankerous old self (work does this to him). My skin has exploded into something close to a minefield. Jack B is being evasive… so and so. Yeah. CH + 4 A Levels + OU really isn’t helping my stress levels!! Gah!!!!

[insert two months worth of ramblings here]

Sunday 13th February 2011

Isabella MCR

Mel and I arrived at the LG arena at about 1.30 in the afternoon, having taken a 9.20 train from York to get us into Birmingham for 12.20. The 9.20 was the earliest we could get on a Sunday :(. We then caught a train to the NEC and met two other people from Cardiff and quickly made friends with them.

Upon stepping outside of the NEC I realised that it was pouring with rain. Excellent. Queuing for five hours in the pouring rain was really how I envisaged spending my Sunday afternoon. Anyway, ended up in the early queue (obviously) about twenty or so people back from the doors and we made ourselves comfy (as you can in the pouring rain on the concrete ground); Mel – being a brainy person – had brought bin bags for us to sit on so even though we still got wet, our bums stayed mostly dry :).

It soon got to around six and the doors opened. The way the ticket system works is a bit dumb though; you get your ticket scanned at the door and then you go wait in another little queue for someone to give you a wristband, you then have to wait to show your wristband before you actually get in. Anyhoo, got through and ran into the arena right to the centre and was one person deep from the barrier.

Unfortunately I got stuck behind two boyfriends the bane of any gig goers life. Their girlfriends were both on the barrier and they had their arms around them in a protective I’m-going-to-give-my-girlfriend-as-much-space-as-possible-and-if-anyone-
touches-her-they-die kinda way. Fuckers. That’s why I said I was only one person deep from the barrier because the girls kept turning around to suck face with their bfs so they became one thing anyway.

The Blackout (support act) were really good. I’d never seen a band with two frontmen before and I was surprised at how well it worked and how they bounced off each other so well. During The Blackout the crushing was insane and I was getting pushed from behind so much but I got one arm between two people on the barrier (one of the girlfriends being on my left which the boyfriend was not happy about). This girl kept trying to push my arm off the barrier but I don’t quite know where she thought I was going seeing as there was literally no space behind me.

At about 9.15 the house lights went down and the screams filled the place as spots of light started to illuminate the black curtain. As it got to the middle of the intro you could see silhouettes of band members beginning to appear and then as NA NA NA (NA NA NA NA) kicked in, the black curtain fell and the place blew up. I was to the left of Frank, in front of Mikey, and slightly to the right of Gerard – fantastic place to be. I have never danced or sung so hard in my life.

Notes from the show
– I got another Frank pick. A security guard gave it to me. 🙂 I’m gonna make a necklace (like a dog-tag necklace) out of the two of them I have. Although I did have a fight a girl next to me for it!
Gerard is one sexy mofo… when he shakes his hips… 🙂
– I was so mashed against the barrier. At one point I couldn’t even put my heels down without standing on the toes of the girl behind me. I have so many bruises… my inventory currently runs to: a line on my ribs, three on my thighs, two on my calbes, a load on my upper arms and one on my face.
– People kept getting pulled out over the top of me and a security guard had to keep putting his hand over my neck to protect it from flailing feet. At least nine people got pulled out over the top of me, it was insane. There were so many people getting pulled out. I got kicked in the back of the head three times. Yay. There goes my brain cells.
– The show was amazing and for how much I’m aching now, I have two Frank pics to make me feel a hell of a lot better. It was incredible… and I get to do it all again in nine days time! Newcastle here I come!

The End

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He’d better not go off with some rich girl – 8th & 9th August 2000

Tuesday 8th Jake went pond dipping for Hugo’s Geography project today so I didn’t see him. Instead, I went with Mum to take Grandma S for lunch at Hollingworth Lake. We went to Charlotte’s Chip Shop thing and as I drank my Coke, the word ‘Canada’ gradually appeared at the bottom of my glass!! It must have been made there – typical!

When I got home, I went through the strenuous activity of sorting out the bottom of my wardrobe! It took me ages!

Bye!

Wednesday 9th Jake got dropped off at my house at lunch today by Hugo’s mum. As usual, I’ve not got much to tell cos we didn’t do much at all. We ate one of the really, really nice ham salad sandwiches from the village shop down the road, took Mollie for a walk (Jake’s really good with her now!) and then went to Gethin’s house for tea.

Gethin then wanted to go to Floyd’s but we didn’t really so we made our excuses and came back to mine. We were going to go to the cinema but I started playing with Jake’s hair and he went all sleepy and we decided we couldn’t be bothered going after all.

We kissed and stuff but left it too late before hands moved anywhere interesting so I stopped him cos he had to go home.

I’ve been informed of a big all night party at Emma’s house tomorrow. I think I might go – I hope it’s gonna be good!

Bye!

P.S. Jake’s just texted me apologising for something but I didn’t know what so I asked him and he’s texted me back saying, “WHEN I WAS ASKING YOU TO SMILE THEN SAID YOU LOOKED YOU LOOKED LIKE YOU WERE DRUGGED UP! AND I’M SORRY FOR GETTING ALL PARANOID – I’M BEING TOTALLY SELFISH ABOUT IT BUT ONLY COS I CARE THE WAY I DO ABOUT YOU!… WHICH IS A LOT! I DO TRUST YOU – AND I HOPE YOU CAN TRUST ME! IT’S TAKEN ME THAT LONG TO FIND SOMETHING THIS GOOD – I’M NOT GONNA THROW IT ALL AWAY! I’M REALLY GONNA MISS YOU!… AGAIN! BUT I CAN WAIT 2 WEEKS FOR A KISS/CUDDLE/HUG – I’M NOT GONNA GET BORED! HOW COULD I? YOU’RE SO MUCH FUN! IF IT WERE THE OTHER WAY ROUND, I CAN’T IMAGINE HOW PARANOID I WOULD BE!! I’D PROBABLY LOCK YOU AWAY SOMEWHERE SO YOU COULDN’T GO! I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!! xxx”.

That was all about the hen night and cruise, and I’d said to him that even if he gets bored he’d better not go off with some rich girl, which is why he said he won’t get bored!

I really, really, really, really don’t want to go! – 4th August 2000

Friday 4th Jake came round again today but I’m not getting sick of him doing so yet! I like seeing him this often. Yet again we didn’t do much but we did take Mollie for a walk round the fields. He had to work at 5pm so he cycled home earlier than usual but he, Sarah, Gethin and I all went to The Dog tonight so I saw him again.

Unfortunately, the night turned out to be crap!

  • Sarah still really fancies Gethin but found out today he’s officially seeing Lizzie.
  • Both Sarah and I aren’t pleased with Gethin cos he’s completely ignored us so far this holiday.
  • Jake was tired and has started bothering about me going on the hen night to Blackpool for Hayley’s future sister-in-law which made me feel guilty and also annoyed cos he’s going away for much longer and I’m not making as much of a fuss…

…so there was tension all round therefore making it a shite night!

On the walk back to my house, Jake apologised for sulking and so did I. He said it’s not me he doesn’t trust on the hen night, it’s other people. He said it’s only cos he cares.

Meanwhile, I remembered I’ve got to go for this bloody meal at bloody Rialto’s tomorrow night! I really, really, really, really don’t want to go!

We all sat about at my house and ate our Chinese food before Gethin decided he wanted to order a taxi. Jake didn’t want to go, I didn’t want him to and Sarah just sat there. They went eventually though.

I DON’T WANT TO GO TOMORROW NIGHT!!! That’s the next time I’m going to see him. Just the thought of it makes me feel really sick.

AAARRGGHHH!!!

Bye!

P.S. Put my name down for a job at The Green Dragon across the road.

AAARRRGGGHHH!!! That’s like one of my worst nightmares! – 1st August 2000

Tuesday 1st Jake invited me round to his house today cos we decided against going to Sarah’s cos we thought it was going to rain. There was only him, his brother and the cleaner there when I arrived but we went to his room anyway. I had a good look round! He’s got shelves dedicated to certain things, for example, he’s got a shelf full of Beetle (the car that is!) stuff!

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[Teenage Jake in his natural habitat circa 2000.]

We didn’t do much at all except lie about on his bed and talk and not answer the phone to Hugo Pratt (his rich mate) cos he’d (earlier on) been making dirty comments about ice cream when Jake mentioned we were eating some!

At one point, Jake and I managed to depress ourselves by bringing up the Canada subject. It couldn’t really be avoided cos he had loads of Canadian stuff in his room (including a big flag!) which kept reminding me anyway! He told me he could’ve done the ski instructor course in Scotland and that he could only do it for 7 weeks of he wanted, rather than 12, and he said I can go to the meetings with him if I want to see who he’ll be with.

I think I’m better off not going cos it’d only upset me to hear all about it and if there was some gorgeous girl there then I’d be made sooo paranoid when he goes! Still, it was nice of him to say I could go with him.

He also gave me my presents from his Europe trip. There’s a big pine cone from Barcelona, a stone from Nice I think and then loads of bus tickets and stuff from everywhere else. He also gave me the receipt from the lunch he bought in Valkenburg while he was waiting for me to arrive!

The other thing he gave me was this P&O brochure of the Aurora cruise ship (he’s on the Aurora AU011 cruise in it – lucky git!). He said it’s so I can see where he’ll be every day but it’s more like he’s rubbing it in! I don’t think he means to though!

His dad came home from work and I got invited for a meal at Rialto’s on Saturday… AAARRRGGGHHH!!! That’s like one of my worst nightmares! I hate eating in front of people and it’s not just Jake, it’s the rest of his family, plus nearly everyone I know works in Rialto’s!! I couldn’t say no though cos he said he’d like me to come. I’m gonna be wetting myself by Saturday afternoon!

About half an hour before I had to go, Jake decided to 3. Then his dad came in to offer me a lift home (he didn’t notice – I hope!) so we had to stop.

When I got in, I had a message saying, “R U WITH J” and I didn’t recognise the number so I texted Jake and he said, “IT’S NOT ONE OF MY FRIENDS! MIGHT BE HUGO USING HIS SIS/MUM’S PHONE THOUGH! I’M SOOO SORRY! THAT HAPPENS EVERY TIME AND IT’S NOT FAIR ON YOU! : ) LOVE YOU! xJx”.

I told him it didn’t matter and he said, “MMM! I STILL FELL BAD! : ( IT HAS TO BE A 2-WAY THING!! IF YOU CAN COME ON SATURDAY WE’RE DEF GOING TO RIALTO’S NOT THE CHINESE! : ( I’D LIKE YOU TO COME IF YOU CAN! LOVE xJx”.

When his dad walked in on us, Jake had looked really pissed off. I could tell then that it was cos he’d not done to me what I’d done to him. That made me feel guilty for making him feel guilty so I told him and he said, “WE’RE A RIGHT PAIR! ONE OF US CAN’T FEEL BAD/GUILTY WITHOUT THE OTHER ONE FEELING EVEN WORSE COS OF IT! YEAH YOU TOLD ME YOU HAD TO WASH THE CAR – I DON’T MIND HELPING (I MEAN GETTING YOU SOAKING WET)!! : ) I’D DO ANYTHING JUST TO BE WITH YOU – EVEN IF IT DOES INVOLVE SLAVE LABOUR! LOVE xJx”.

Oh, he’s so nice!

Bye!

He had his hands in my bra – 26th July 2000

Wednesday 26th Jake and I actually got some sleep last night despite being in the same bed. It was really nice waking up to him this morning.

I got to sit next to him on the coach on the way back.

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When I was covered up with my fleece, he pulled my top down and he had his hands in my bra but then the coach stopped at the services. Everyone was too tired to notice what he was up to I think!

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[In case you can’t read that, my cash and carry shopping haul consisted of 1 massive Milka chocolate slab, 1 bottle of Bacardi and 1 bottle of Archers.]

I discovered that he likes me running my fingers through his hair and being tickled but he says he’s never been ticklish before and that it’s just the way I do it. He said he likes being messed with.

We arrived back quite late. Neither of us wanted to come home cos we know we won’t see each other anywhere near as much now.

Bye!

Dressed as robbers with bras on their heads! – 25th July 2000

Tuesday 25th P. [Period.]

Before we set off for the swimming place called Mosaqua at Gulpen, some girl from another school had asked Gethin if Jake and I are going out. He asked how she’d guessed and she told him that it was cos he hadn’t reacted to anyone other than me!

I didn’t go swimming so I just sat by the café at the side of the pool with Jake and the others who weren’t swimming.

We had our last concert in Aachen in Germany today. It was pointless cos we had an audience of about 3 people cos it was rainy, one being this little old woman who was jigging about in her seat and making us all smile!

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[Bet I was miming.]

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Jake and I went to the Queen Vic for a while and then I went with him to his hotel so he could get his bags to dump at ours ready for the coach in the morning. We just sat in my room for a while and decided it’d been a really good few days cos we’d seen so much of each other and that we didn’t want to go home. He said he thinks we should just run away together!

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[Jake helping us to pack.]

Later, we were joined by Gethin. He was pissed and said something about Jake being able to sleep in his room if he wanted (but we’d already decided he could sleep in my bed then it’s not such a rush in the morning) and Gethin was being a bit perverted so Jake told him that he wanted straight sex not gay sex! Well, he didn’t get either but I was glad to hear that!

Some of the girls whose last trip it is with the band, Rina H and Greta Allen, came into our room before, very pissed and dressed as robbers with bras on their heads! Strange!

Bye!

It’s his last night to pull – 20th July 2000

Thursday 20th My postcards from Jake finally arrived this morning. It’s a good job they did or I wouldn’t have been able to read them until I got back from Holland. (I’ve stuck them over the page.)

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It was the last day of college today but I’ve been left with tonnes of coursework to get on with over the “holidays”! We finished early today so I came home to pack for tonight when I leave for Holland. I’m getting really excited now but I know the coach journey’s going to seem to take forever and I won’t get much sleep (if any!) so I’ll look a complete state when I get off at the other end! I hope Jake will be there though.

He’s asked me to bring my nail varnish cos he’s only got a bit left on his nail and also my Poppy body spray cos the smell of it on his watch strap’s wearing off. I think I’d better take my nail varnish remover and all cos if he gets drunk, he’ll let me put it on and then regret it the next morning!

He was telling me before that he’s going into Amsterdam tonight because it’s Charlie’s and Ali’s last chance to pull and Charlie reckons he’s feeling lucky! He also told me that he can’t stay in our hotel cos there’s no room so he’s booked into a hostel or something in Maastricht which he said is only 10 minutes away on the train.

He sent me 2 messages after that saying, “I GET TO SEE YOU TOMORROW! : ) : ) : ) SORRY – IT LOOKS BETTER WHEN I WRITE IT IN A MSG! : ) CAN YOU TELL HOW HAPPY N VERY EXCITED I AM BY THE NUMBER OF SMILEY FACES??…” and then, “COS I’M SOOO EXCITED!!! LOVE YOU TO BITS!!! : ) : ) : ) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx J xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx : ) : ) : )”. Do you think he put enough kisses?!

I then told him (jokingly) that it’s his last night to pull too but he said, “CHEEK – YOU KNOW I’M NOT OUT TO PULL AND I DON’T WANT TO EITHER! : ) WAY TOO HAPPY TO EVEN LOOK AT ANYONE ELSE! : ) I THOUGHT IT WAS AT LEAST 7PM BEFORE – THEN I LOOKED AT MY WATCH AND IT’S ONLY 4PM! CAN’T BELIEVE HOW SLOW IT’S GOING! 24 HOURS AND WE’LL BE TOGETHER! : ) LOVE YOU! : ) xxx J xxx”.

I’ve decided that from now on, when I get a continuing message, I’ll just write it down as if it’s one.

A bit later on he said, “REALLY REALLY REALLY CAN’T WAIT! YOU WILL TEXT ME WHEN YOU’RE ALL ON THE COACH WON’T YOU?! I’M JUST WALKING ROUND – THEY’RE LOOKING FOR SOME DODGY COFFEE HOUSES! WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?? I’M SOOO EXCITED! – THIS HAS BEEN SO HORRIBLE! AND TOMORROW IT’LL ALL BE OVER – CAN’T WAIT! REALLY DO LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! xJx”.

I agreed that it’s been horrible and stuff and then he said, “UURRGGHH! JUST WANT TO GET ON THAT TRAIN NOW! AT THEY VERY LEAST I SHOULD SEE YOU IN THE EVENINGS… SHOULDN’T I?? GONNA WANT TO BE WITH YOU ALL THE TIME! CAN’T PUT IN THIS OR ANY OTHER MSG HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!!! COS I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS! : ) YOU MAKE ME SOOO HAPPY! : ) STILL CAN’T WAIT! – HOPE YOU’VE GOT LOTS OF CREDIT FOR THIS COACH JOURNEY (WELL UNTIL YOU GET ON THE FERRY)! LEAST YOU SHOULDN’T FALL ASLEEP TONIGHT… SHOULD YOU! LOVE YOU LOTS!!! : ) xxx J xxx”,

I really can’t wait to see him! I just want to get there!

Bye!