She’s considering getting a pregnancy test – 2nd April 2001

Monday 2nd
3 days to go!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

I’m sort of getting a bit worried about Jake coming home now. It was triggered by his email this morning. I mean, I really want him to come home but I’m scared that him being away for so long will have changed things between us.

In his email, he said how he prefers the bars and clubs there, and in other mails he’s gone on about how great everyone is there. I’m just worried that we’re all going to be too boring for him when he gets back after he’s met all these different people.

I feel sort of left out in a way cos I don’t know the people he’s spent the past 3 months with. Plus he’s been doing something he enjoys so coming back here is probably going to be crap in comparison. He also said in his email that the next few days are going to be good, basically cos he’ll be out getting pissed and I don’t like the thought of that! Surely if they’re as good as he thinks they’ll be then he’s going to not want to leave.

Oh, I don’t know what’s up with me really. I want everything to be like it was before he went (only without having to worry about him leaving) but I’m not sure it will be. I can just see him getting bored really easily but I don’t want him to get bored with me.

The other thing is that I don’t know whether I can handle him going on about it all cos I hate to admit it but I am really jealous cos I’ve not really got anything that even nearly matches that to say that I’ve done.

Oh dear, I very nearly got upset then but I’m okay now. I hope all that is just be being daft and I hope it’s even better when he gets back than it was before he went. We’ve got things like Barcelona to look forward to as well. The thing is that I really don’t know what’s going to happen so I’m just going to have to take things as they come.

It’s Denny’s birthday today so he bought a big meal think for a group of us at The Coach at lunch which I thought was really nice of him. Hardly anyone realised it was his birthday cos he’s having a party for it in May so we all just assumed that it was nearer the end of April!

Karen was back in college today. She says she spent a lot of last week worrying cos she was sick in the mornings with the bug she had. She says that she’s okay no but is still a bit worried about what she did with Big Paul cos it was only about 2 months ago at the end of January. She says she keeps checking her weight and she’s not gained any but she’s considering getting a pregnancy test just to put her mind at rest!

After college today there was me, Emma and a few of the College 1 lads hanging about so Emma took the opportunity to ask them if Robbie had mentioned the message she sent him on Friday. They said that he’d mentioned getting a message from her but he said it only said that she was bored and in a pub in town! Emma said it definitely sent so it’s a bit of a mystery as to where it went! Someone’s going to try and get hold of his phone tomorrow to see if he did get it or not. He could’ve thought it was one of his mates messing about and so didn’t want to react to it. Maybe we’ll find out tomorrow.

Jake rang at about 9:45pm. He said the assessment thing went okay for him but some people messed up. He says that he really does want to come home but the bars and stuff there are better than Warrington and other places round here. He says he’ll miss Banff and the people there a bit but he does want to come back.  He asked why I don’t believe him but I couldn’t answer cos I sort of do but I’m a bit unsure. He said he’ll try and email me tonight and will ring at about 5pm tomorrow.

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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(Shortly after he was sick!) Lizzie snogged him – 23rd March 2001

Friday 23rd
1 week + 6 days to go!

I really thought tonight was going to be crap cos loads of people decided in college that they weren’t coming out. Sarah rang me at the last minute to say she wasn’t coming out either so it ended up being just me, Karen and Lizzie out of our year.

I didn’t speak to Jake tonight cos I was going out quite early and he couldn’t phone until about 7:30pm again.

The night, however, turned out to be quite good/interesting! Drew met up with this girl called Heather but acted like he’d never seen a girl in his life so the rest of us gave him a bit of encouragement! He eventually got it together with her in The Coach and Horses, I think. It took him long enough anyway!

Gaz (a.k.a. Barney) hung round with me, Lizzie and Karen for most of the night cos all his mates had paired off with people a bit. For some reason, Robbie got it into his head that Barney was after me and said to him, “You’d better not try it on with my brother’s girlfriend!” Then later, “I’m watching you, Ug!” to Barney. (He gets called stuff like Ug and Barney cos he has a kind of caveman look, I suppose!)

In the end, Robbie did not have to worry anymore cos (shortly after he was sick!) Lizzie snogged him!

I’m really not sure what to make of Robbie. He seems to be nice to me and I thought we got on alright but then Lizzie told me that he’d said something to her the other week about either him or his dad not liking me.

Why not?! I don’t understand what it is that I’ve done wrong!

Jake’s unfortunately right, I don’t want to be at his house while his family are in. Whether any of it’s true or not, I’m probably never going to find out so it does make me want to avoid his family for fear that I’ll do or say something more to fuel any dislike for me. I wish it wasn’t like that. 😦

Robbie was saying that his dad told him to ask me if I want to go to Heathrow Airport with him to pick Jake up. I said I was on a Biology school trip so I can’t. That’s not exactly true though. I am on a trip but it’s the day before he gets back. I’m sorry but I don’t really want to go on a long car journey with a bloke I hardly know who quite possibly doesn’t even like me. Still, it was nice of him to ask.

I do get the feeling sometimes that Jake’s dad’s on a bit of a guilt trip after Robbie told me his dad didn’t like me. It’s just that he phoned me up to apologise for Robbie (fair enough, I suppose), he came round to my house just to give me a book on Barcelona which would’ve been easier to give to Robbie to give to me in college, and now he’s offering to take me to London to pick Jake up.

I mean, he seems like a nice bloke and it’s probably just coincidence that he’s actually spoken to me more since Robbie opened his gob but it does make me wonder whether he’d be so nice to me if Robbie hadn’t said something. Jake keeps telling me that his dad wouldn’t say he didn’t like me but why would Robbie just come out with that? There’s no smoke without fire and all that! Oh well.

Robbie did actually make a complete prick of himself tonight. He was pretty pissed and started doing scally impressions on the park with his trousers tucked into his socks and his boxers pulled up over his shirt to his armpits! Then a while later, someone dared him to flash and he did, not realising Karen had her camera handy! Ha ha!! 🙂

Scally

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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His mate Jonny says I look horny – 15th February 2001

Thursday 15th
7 weeks to go!

I was just about to check my email in college this morning when all the computers went off. It turned out there was a power cut in the village and we were told that we might get sent home cos it was a potential fire hazard. However, the fire alarms were working unfortunately so we had to go to lessons.

At break I tried to read my email again but the internet was down all over school! I eventually got onto Hotmail at lunch but then it cut off my email halfway down for some reason! I then had to wait until I got home before I could read it properly.

Jake had attached lots of photos he’d scanned in to the email of him and his friends. He does look different but I’m not sure why.

He phoned me tonight at about 4:40pm. He said nothing much has happened there except he’s really pleased with himself cos he taught some people to ski properly. He also told me that the girl who they thought broke her neck was on the front page of the local paper and that she’s still in hospital and it was her helmet that saved her.

He also told me not to worry about one of the girls on one of the photos cos it looks like she’s close to him but she wasn’t apparently and she’s a slag and sleeps with all the Canadian blokes and has got pneumonia. Jake said they all reckon it’s cos of all the “stuff” she’s swallowed! Surely she’d have to inhale, not swallow!

We got talking about diaries and he reckons it’s dead cute that I keep one and he wished he did! He also said that he wouldn’t want to read it cos he’d get jealous! He said he even got jealous when he found out I stuck a sweet packet in my diary that Dougie gave me when I was about 13! I’m quite flattered really!

I went to The Coach and Horses with a few people tonight cos not everyone can go out tomorrow night. I sent Michael Amhurst a text message to find out if he got the photo I sent him that I took when he was here. His reply said, “I’M FINE + U? NO PHOTO BUT I’VE NOT BEEN HOME! IT’LL BE WAITING! I’VE GOT THE OTHER PIC ON MY WALL + THE PERSON ON THE RIGHT HAS BEEN GETTING A LOT OF ATTENTION!”

The picture he meant was the one of me, Hayley and Isaac that we sent in a Xmas card to him. I couldn’t remember who was on the right so I asked him and he told me that it was me and that he meant that his mate Jonny says I look horny apparently!

Michael’s probably going to meet up with us sometime next week cos we’re all on school holidays.

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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Emma’s dyed her hair and now looks like a zebra/skunk! – 8th February 2001

Thursday 8th
8 weeks to go!

Robbie apologised to me today for what he said last Friday and says he’s going to ignore me tomorrow night just in case he says anything else! I’ll forgive him! He’s alright really… but then I was never that annoyed with him in the 1st place cos there was nothing too bad written in the letter (he still shouldn’t have read it but I can’t honestly say I wouldn’t have done!) and it was his dad who said something in the 1st place.

Everyone else seems to know about his dad coming round and phoning me and started asking me what he’d said and stuff today.

Emma let out the truth about why Declan dumped Lizzie today. There was a group of us sat around talking about Declan and Kim, and then Emma said, “I don’t know how she can face speaking to you, Lizzie, after what she did.” We all turned to face Emma saying, “WHAT?!” Emma then had to tell us that Robbie told her that Kim and Declan had shared a bed on Friday and things happened between them. Lizzie then, quite understandably, got upset. We were all blaming Declan until today and, yeh, it was his fault but Kim knew he had a girlfriend but still didn’t say no.

Declan then came over to me and Sarah later and swore down that all he and Kim did was kiss. Even so, it’s still not fair.

Jake phoned at about 6pm tonight. He was sure it’s Friday today but I put him straight! His email really confused me when I read it today cos he seemed to think I might be going out. Poor lad, he’d got all confused too! He didn’t have much to tell me so I updated him on the Lizzie and Declan situation and stuff!

Emma’s dyed her hair and now looks like a zebra/skunk! She’s got really blonde bits and black bits too! I didn’t like it at first but now I’ve got used to it, I think it looks quite good!

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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Mum let me drive the car round Asda car park – 7th February 2001

Wednesday 7th
8 weeks + 1 days to go!

It turns out that we were probably along the right lines about why Declan dumped Lizzie. Apparently, Robbie told Freda then Freda told Karen who told me that Declan wants to be single for the ski trip so he can take advantage of Kim while she’s drunk!

That’s so unfair on Lizzie! She must have liked him cos she did actually get upset yesterday afternoon and that’s not at all like her.

I spoke to Jake at about 7pm tonight. He said he’d tried to ring earlier but it was engaged cos my mum was using the phone. He didn’t go snowboarding today 🙂 because the people who were meant to be teaching it couldn’t be arsed! He promises me he won’t do it again cos boards are too expensive to hire.

Mum let me drive the car round Asda car park tonight cos I didn’t go kickboxing cos my legs are still tingling a bit when I walk and stuff. It was really good! Mum said I did really well cos I didn’t stall it or anything until I’d stopped to get out so Mum could take us home.

I want a car now!

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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At least 3 of them were very, very fit! – 8th to 11th November

Wednesday 8th I went to the doctor’s again today and he thinks it’s a trapped nerve, possibly caused by me banging my elbow on something. I’ve got to go back in 2 weeks if it doesn’t improve. He mentioned something about nerve conduction tests. They don’t sound too good!

I missed half of college today cos I couldn’t write.

Bye!

Friday 10th

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I got this ↑ from Mr Smith’s nightclub in Warrington plus 8 of these:

Ticket

[They had such a strict over 18s policy that they invited me on a night when I was still 17. Good old Smith’s!]

So, a load of my mates and I went tonight. Jake didn’t come cos he hates it there but I wasn’t that bothered. It’s more fun with just my mates. Quite a few people didn’t get in in the end but all my main friends did.

I really enjoyed myself! I had loads of lads trying it on with me (and at least 3 of them were very, very fit!) but I rejected them all, of course!

Bye!

Saturday 11th Work was awful today! Q (a chef) was being a right bastard as soon as I arrived and then I kept dropping things cos of my hand being numb.

I saw Jake for a bit and Auntie G and Grandma S came to visit.

Bye!

I had a nosey in Jake’s toiletry bag – 21st October 2000

Saturday 21st I went in to wake Jake up this morning and he said it was really nice having me waking him up. I got in the spare bed with him for a bit but I had to get up eventually cos my dad did a huge fry up, plus I had to go to work at The Green Dragon across the road.

After work, Jake picked me up cos we were going round to Hayley’s sister’s house to help look after the dog. She didn’t want to spend all night on her own so she said we could both stay too. On the way, we stopped off at Victoria Wine and while Jake was buying the drinks, I had a nosey in Jake’s toiletry bag. I know I shouldn’t have done but he looked in a bag from the chemist which is in my room, containing my Dianette.

Anyway, I was expecting it to just be all his hair products and stuff (which it was) but I also discovered a condom in there. He must have been getting his hopes up but I didn’t want to do that tonight cos I’m still on my period.

We didn’t do much when we got to Hayley’s sister’s cos she’d invited this lad called Andy round so Jake and I went to bed to get out of their way. We actually ended up falling asleep pretty quickly and the next thing I knew it was morning.

We just lay there and cuddled for ages and then I grabbed his toiletry bag to test is reactions and, as I expected, he snatched it off me. We ended up falling off the bed though when I tried to get it back!

We decided we could definitely get used to spending all night together cos it’s really nice waking up to each other in the morning.

Bye!