Making kissing noises and telling me to come to bed – 20th July 2000

Friday 20th I was much less tired today which was good cos I didn’t really want to fall asleep in the swimming pool!

Swimming ticket with a picture of the castle on the back:

The pool we went to was okay but after 30 mins or so, I got a bit bored cos there weren’t many slides and the jacuzzi was full of teachers. The wave machine was the best bit, except when I got stuck in the deep end in the middle when it first came on. That was a bit scary!

Afterwards, we all went to the centre of Cochem to meet up with the people who went to visit the castle. There were a few stalls and I bought Jake’s presents there. I got him a yellow toy Beetle and a toy campervan to add to his collection on his windowsill.

This afternoon, after eating a very unfilling lunch of leftover chewy bread and cheese from breakfast, we all went wine tasting at Weingut Schlagkamp (what a name!). Wine label:

This old German guy gave us a tour of his wine cellars and told us about growing grapes and talked us into buying his wine after we tasted it. It was nice so Abby and I bought Mum a bottle. This is the list of the wines we could’ve tasted:

We went back to the hostel for another inedible tea and then got changed into our Swing Band stuff and went to do our first concert of the holiday at Enkirch. It was definitely the best concert we’ve done yet. It was some sort of wine festival and they had a wine queen and princess (or something!) giving speeches. Daniel Downes managed to put pegs on the back of their skirts while they were talking which we all found quite amusing. We always have pegs with us in case we have to play outdoors, to stop the music sheets blowing away.

The concert was so good because the sound was brilliant, we had quite a big audience who gradually got pissed and started dancing, and we were all allowed as much free wine/beer as we wanted from the bar!

I got the giggles reeeally badly half way through because there was an old woman taking photos and she came right up close to me and I couldn’t keep a straight face. Denny, Lizzie and Gethin were laughing too which didn’t help and then Denny imitated her with my camera.

Mr P spotted me and also started laughing and had to explain to the rest of the band what was up with me!

I phoned Jake when I got back to the hostel. He was meant to be doing a pub crawl but then they got to Warburton Bridge, some lads pulled up in a car. Jake and the others legged it but Ali Kershaw got a bit battered so they all went back to his house to speak to the police. He’s okay apparently. Connor went and picked them all up.

While I was on the phone, Mr P came over and started making kissing noises and telling me to come to bed down the phone cos he knew it was Jake. Luckily, I don’t think Jake heard. Not that he wouldn’t have known it was Mr P.

Okay, I think I’m going to have to start a new diary…… See you there!

Bye!

[I found our Germany trip leaflet in the back of the diary…]

A minging old jelly baby – 19th July 2000

Thursday 19th We spent most of today travelling before getting lost in Traben-Trarbach (the town in Germany where we’re staying) and eventually finding the youth hostel. The town’s really pretty but unfortunately the hostel’s extremely manky!

We had an unidentifiable meal as soon as we arrived and quite a few people made the mistake of putting yoghurt over their meal, thinking it was sauce!

There’s another school staying here who are leaving tomorrow and there are also some people who seem to have learning disabilities. They wander round so I don’t know who they’re with. One of them stands in the entrance and looks like he’s playing castanets.

We didn’t do much this evening. We got our rooms sorted out and unpacked a bit, got told all the hostel rules by Jessica our trip rep, and went to explore the bar and drink much of its contents!

[In the hostel bar with Gethin, Isaac, Denny & Lizzie]

The rules are that we’re not allowed food or drink in our rooms, we have to be in the hostel and quiet by 11pm, and we aren’t allowed to drink alcohol unless it’s from the bar there.

I’m sharing a room with Maeve, Lizzie and Cat. That was what I expected so it’s quite good. Some people have to share a bathroom between 8 of them so I’m glad I’m not in that room.

I’m very tired cos I got no sleep on the coach. However, I don’t really want to sleep in my bed for fear of finding nasty stuff in it. Maeve found make-up (still in its packets) in her bed and Lizzie found a minging old jelly baby. Yuck!

Bye!

A long and boring journey – 16th & 18th July 2000

Monday 16th I went straight in to see Jake this morning and stayed in his bed for ages and did stuff until I realised my driving instructor was about to turn up. I managed to get ready in time and had quite a good lesson. I did 2 really good bay parks. I saw Jake again later and we just watched TV.

Bye!

Wednesday 18th I saw Jake all day today and packed for leaving for the Swing Band trip to Germany tonight. I got a bit upset which was basically because I was reminded of his bloody Canada trip but also because we were talking and I realised that he’s involved with me but I’m not really involved with him. He knows all my friends and gets on with my family but the same can’t be said for me and his family and friends.

I said goodbye to Jake and went to school to meet the coach. Sarah, Andy and Floyd all came to wave us off which was nice. I ended up sat with Denny on the coach but I didn’t mind that. We set off on a long and boring journey eventually, after arranging to get another minibus for the instruments cos Club Europe fucked up for the 3rd year running and didn’t get us the trailer we needed or a coach with a tow bar. Duh!

Bye!

Man-hunting every night – 15th July 2000

Sunday 15th Swing Band had to do a concert in the rain this afternoon at the Brooklyn Hotel in Bolton. There were also little girly Morris dancers too. It wasn’t much fun.

After the concert, I went straight to Gethin’s 18th birthday party. It was good but me and Jake fell out over something completely stupid again. When he arrived, all he did was hold my hand and then he paid more attention to Emma and the frog she’d caught. So, I just went a bit quiet but he thought I was ignoring him so he kept out of my way, therefore I thought he was ignoring me.

Everyone went to The Coach and Horses a but later and I made a comment about people being welcome to Jake if they still fancied him. I didn’t mean it. I was just pissed off. However, he heard me and walked out, telling Denny he was going home. I felt awful then but he wouldn’t answer his phone.

Denny was being all concerned that we were both okay and tried to catch up with him but failed. He was being really sweet!

Just as I was on the verge of tears, Michael and Sarah offered to catch up with him in the car. So off we went and found Jake just walking up towards the prison. I got out and we both apologised and hugged and he ended up staying in the spare room at my house.

During Gethin’s party, I was talking to Lizzie and she filled me in on the events in Cyprus. Floyd stayed in the apartment most of the time and Gethin was constantly ringing Nell. Karen and Lizzie however were off man-hunting every night and succeeded. The only snogged 6 people each but slept with 2 of them each. Karen had a really fit one called Costas and someone else, and Lizzie had Lazarus (the minging friend of Costas) and Harry, a 16 year old student from Berkshire. No doubt we’ll get all the details over and over and over again at various points from now on!

Bye!

I don’t mime that often! – 12th to 14th July 2001

Thursday 12th I had to do concerts again today for the Year 6 induction days at school. Heidi Warner was being a bitch saying she’s the only flute that plays and things. Grrr!! I don’t mime that often!

I’ve finally sorted an HSBC account out. I’ve got a normal one and they can change it to a student account when I get my results.

Bye!

Friday 13th I had to do the Swing Band Au Revoir concert at the British Legion tonight. It went well and everyone in my year got certificates and a photo of the band.

Suzanna was there and kept looking at Jake. Afterwards, Jake and I, Denny, Michael and his mate Sam all met up in The Coach and Horses. Sam was very southern and very loud but he seemed nice enough.

We all decided to go to the Trafford Centre cos Michael wanted to see Sarah, even though she’s told him to back off a bit. He saw her and the rest of us danced about in free wigs for 70s night in Prior’s. Jake and Denny got up on the dancefloor and were dancing together which worries me slightly! The also got asked if they had any ecstasy pills! They must have been dancing badly!

Bye!

Saturday 14th Jake and I went to The Dog with Sarah and Michael tonight. It was quite good actually cos we just chatted. Sarah told me that Gethin had been gutted when Jake and I got together because he fancied us both!

Bye!

Light-headed and ‘far away’ – 10th March 2001

Saturday 10th
3 weeks + 5 days to go!

I’ve been really tired today cos I couldn’t get to sleep last night and then I had to get up quite early cos I was going to Cheshire Oaks with Sarah today and they picked me up early.

I didn’t really buy much though when we got there. I just got the Wheatus album, a pair or sunglasses from Tog24 and a McDonald’s for lunch. Sarah didn’t find very much either. It was better than staying at home and doing my Geography homework though!

I had to do a Swing Band concert this evening at the Methodist church in the next village. It went quite well but dragged on for ages. It wasn’t just Swing Band, there were extra soloists and stuff in between our tunes. They were good but I was bored. Emma couldn’t go either cos she was working so I was sat on my own.

I kept feeling really funny this evening. It wasn’t a good sort of funny either. It could’ve been just cos I was hot and tired but I felt really light-headed and ‘far away’. Then every so often, I kept feeling like I was sort of drifting (like off to sleep or something) and I kept sort of jumping and snapped out of it. It was weird and I didn’t like it.

I’ve been doing that drifting then jumping thing when I’ve been trying to sleep at night too, along with thinking daft things like I was half awake but dreaming. I don’t like it when that happens cos it’s really strange. I have to totally wake myself up to stop it. Other people say they do that too though.

Unfortunately it’s snowed in Canada. 😦 I’ve not spoken to Jake today or yesterday cos he was doing his avalanche course thing and hasn’t had time to phone me. I don’t think he’ll come back early. It says in his email that he’s still considering it but I reckon he’s just trying to break it to me gently. 😦

Bye!

Today’s emails →

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The shortarse cow! – 7th to 9th January 2001

Sunday 7th It was Jake’s dad’s birthday yesterday so Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre so he could get him a present!

He also bought Ronan Keating’s album cos he likes him (so do I) so he could record it onto minidisc and I could have the CD ‘til he comes home.

We also bought some keyrings that fit together but rather than a soppy heart or something, we got 2 bears on phones. They’re really nice. I think they’re those “Me to You” bears with the blue noses.

Me to You bear

[All that hoarding has come in (slightly) handy again.]

Bye!

Monday 8th It was Presentation Evening at school tonight when they give out the A-Level and GCSE certificates so Jake was there. I had to go too cos Swing Band were playing. It was sooo boring (as always!) but the guest speaker (Mr Guest!) was worse than the usual ones they get in. His speech was complete crap and Emma and I were just sat in hysterics all the way through. I noticed a lot of people in the audience snigger and stuff too, included my dad who was totally taking the piss!

Everyone went to The Coach afterwards for a well needed drink and everyone out of Jake’s year who knows he’s going on Thursday started saying goodbye to him. It was awful! We both had a bit of a cry about it afterwards.

Bye!

Tuesday 9th I’ve got one day left with Jake now before he leaves to go to Canada. It’s sooooo upsetting and we cried lots and lots when we saw each other.

That bitch of a teacher, Miss P, said that some deputy head will probably want a word with me and Emma about laughing last night! Hah, I think I’d have died of boredom otherwise! I bet she’s told him our names, the shortarse cow! (I REALLY don’t like her!)

When I saw Jake after college, we cried lots more cos we really don’t want to be split up. He told me it hurts a lot and he’s right!

Henry Rockwell told me other stuff that Hayley’s said about me. She said nastily, “We’ll all be seeing a lot more of Tessa now Jake is going!” and she overheard someone say that Jake wouldn’t touch Hayley with a barge pole but apparently she thinks I’ve manipulated him into thinking that! Twisted cow!

Bye!

Dressed as robbers with bras on their heads! – 25th July 2000

Tuesday 25th P. [Period.]

Before we set off for the swimming place called Mosaqua at Gulpen, some girl from another school had asked Gethin if Jake and I are going out. He asked how she’d guessed and she told him that it was cos he hadn’t reacted to anyone other than me!

I didn’t go swimming so I just sat by the café at the side of the pool with Jake and the others who weren’t swimming.

We had our last concert in Aachen in Germany today. It was pointless cos we had an audience of about 3 people cos it was rainy, one being this little old woman who was jigging about in her seat and making us all smile!

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[Bet I was miming.]

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Jake and I went to the Queen Vic for a while and then I went with him to his hotel so he could get his bags to dump at ours ready for the coach in the morning. We just sat in my room for a while and decided it’d been a really good few days cos we’d seen so much of each other and that we didn’t want to go home. He said he thinks we should just run away together!

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[Jake helping us to pack.]

Later, we were joined by Gethin. He was pissed and said something about Jake being able to sleep in his room if he wanted (but we’d already decided he could sleep in my bed then it’s not such a rush in the morning) and Gethin was being a bit perverted so Jake told him that he wanted straight sex not gay sex! Well, he didn’t get either but I was glad to hear that!

Some of the girls whose last trip it is with the band, Rina H and Greta Allen, came into our room before, very pissed and dressed as robbers with bras on their heads! Strange!

Bye!

I heard sniffling noises coming from Jake – 24th July 2000

Monday 24th We spent all day at De Efteling theme park which was a bit of a strange place really. We did 2 concerts there. I got totally soaked on one of the water rides so I was cold all day!

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This evening, Jake and I decided to go to the Queen Vic with everyone else before we got accused of being antisocial or something! Mrs P mentioned Canada to Jake and it depressed me so I went all quiet. He noticed and thought I was sulking and said he’d get upset. We talked about it for a bit and how bad it’s gonna be, and a few minutes after we’d stopped, I heard sniffling noises coming from Jake and he had his head down and I noticed tears rolling down his nose.

I asked if he wanted to leave and he nodded so we walked down the street for a bit and hugged for a while. I apologised for upsetting him and gave him a ‘Smile’ tissue like this one →

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which did make him smile and then hug me and then cry again! Only this time he said it was cos he’s so happy! He kept stressing the fact that he never cries so I was flattered in a way that he didn’t mind showing his emotions in front of me like that. We decided it was cos he’s tired.

I felt so guilty but he said it wasn’t my fault, he just can’t bear the thought of going away again. He said that’s how he was feeling on that night he tried to ring me really late when he was travelling.

We walked back to the hotel and went in my room again. We sat in the window for a while before moving to my bed and then 3 happened (again). We just lay on my bed and cuddled for ages after that until Maeve came in the room.

We moved and went and sat on the steps together. He told me that he loves me and that I’m beautiful (hah!) and that he loves my nose and smile and everything else about me and that he can’t believe this is all happening. He also kept telling me that he’s really happy 🙂 So am I! I really do love him!

Bye!

It was dark so I got to snog Jake – 22nd July 2000

Saturday 22nd There’s a spare seat on our coach so Jake gets to stay with us all week!! J

We had quite a few trips, the first one being to the Municipal Grotto. They were just cave things with paintings and carvings and stuff but it was dark so I got to snog Jake without too many people noticing!

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[I had the occasional break from snogging to take a few photos.]

Then we went on the toboggan run which was quite good but going on a chairlift doesn’t seem right without skis on!

I picked this →

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up from the place cos I couldn’t be bothered getting my camera out. It was free, I think! Some people had a go on a death wire thing which came from the top of the tower on the postcard.

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[Cat on the death wire thing. F that S.]

Jake and I didn’t bother so we could just stand and cuddle.

After that, we went bowling. That was alright except our lane kept not giving Jake his points and stuff. That was also the point what Cat told me she fancied the tour rep but then so does Gethin!

Jake came back to our hotel again this evening and I had a rather interesting conversation with him. We started talking again about how long we’ve liked each other and he said he’s liked me ages before the college bowling trip last year and has since I was in Year 11 but doesn’t quite know when or why. He said it might have been triggered by Emma who I’d been best mates with at the time.

The uni subject then came up. He said he doesn’t care about uni cos he doesn’t want to leave me.

Unfortunately, the hotel doors had to be locked so we had to say goodbye. We did try the fire escape so he could’ve left a bit later but there was a gate and a security camera so it didn’t work. He told me he loves me and then had to leave.

Ohhh, I want him so much! I can’t keep my hands off him!

Bye!

P.S. First concert in open air theatre in Valkenburg. Went quite well. Shelly and Emma told me that Jake and I are a nice couple and not annoying like others!

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