All I wanted to do was snog Leon – 21st-22nd December 1999

Tuesday 21st I went ice skating today with a few members of Lizzie’s swimming club. There was me, Lizzie, Amir, Damon, Becki, Leon and Brett and Leon’s nephew. It was quite good apart from the fact that all I wanted to do was snog Leon. At one point, Damon said Leon still fancied me but I think it was only because Leon’d said Damon fancied Lizzie. Damon was also nodding his head and pointing in my direction after getting Leon’s attention, as in a ‘go for it’ kind of way. I wish he had’ve done!

When we were on the bus, Becki was going through Leon’s phone and ringing his mates and telling them she loved them and stuff. One of them was Reevesy (Brett said he still likes me) but I don’t know if he believed it. Later on, Lizzie and I were giving Becki numbers to phone, one of which was Aled’s. She rang but he was out so she just told whoever answered that she was Tess. I hope he doesn’t ring me back now.

Zoe kept phoning because she knew Brett was there but he didn’t want to speak to her coz he says he can’t stand her!

I saw Oscar’s new girlfriend in McDonald’s earlier on today. He pointed her out coz he was working. She’s not really pretty or anything but she looks really nice.

I think I like Leon again now, damn it! I hardly spoke to him but I can’t help it. Lizzie’s not sure if he’s going out with Becki or not but I think it’s pretty likely seeing as his phone’s full or messages from her.

Gethin’s now seeing Lizzie officially. We rang him and I made him ask her and it worked!


Wednesday 22nd Aled phoned this evening to see if I’d phoned him yesterday! I explained what’d been going on and he just told me that he’d heard about Gethin and Lizzie, and Gethin and Hayley at the party. That was about it.

I got a certificate at kickboxing tonight to show I’m now a white belt. We were doing a bit of self-defence and a jump side kick and a more complicated back kick thing. It’s so good!

Zoe informed me earlier that she’s now going out with Brett. He is one confused lad! It was only yesterday that he was saying how much he couldn’t stand her but I now think that was only coz Lizzie was there.


“Do you want a cold?” – 18th December 1999

Saturday 18th The party last night was yet again quite eventful. I think I’ll begin with me. I could’ve snogged 3 lads but I managed to keep a certain amount of self-control.


[My Christmas party attire.]

First of all, there was Ollie Bramwell. He kept asking me, “Where did you get those legs?!” and saying how I should show them off around college more. I was quite flattered but I kept avoiding him. I’ve already met [snogged] him before anyway at another of Freda’s parties. Keira and I were telling him how we were going to do an Xmas strip but Davis was the one who wanted us to do it and he didn’t turn up (we wouldn’t have done anyway though!) and Ollie was trying to convince us to do it anyway.

Then there was Charlie Wilson. I’d been getting on quite well with him all night and he asked me twice to meet [snog] him. He asked indirectly by saying, “Do you want a cold?” I told him I already had one and he asked, “Do you want another one?” I refused him quite simply by saying no. After that he kept giving me hugs and later when we were sat on a sofa he said, “You can snog me if you like.” I started going on about how Cat wouldn’t be too pleased and then luckily he went home. I couldn’t have done anything with him after the amount of piss taking I did out of Cat in Belgium. I’d have been laughed at anyway.

As most people were leaving the party, Adrian Ford turned up. He kept talking to me and putting his hands on my waist as he was doing so. To start with I did my best to avoid him too but then I got bored and found out that most other people had got a snog out of the party so I thought, “Sod it” and took the next opportunity. This was when Adrian went to see if Nigel Groves was okay and he dragged me with him outside, only to find Nigel being sick around the corner.

We left him to it and headed back to the house but Adrian stopped me and we ended up meeting [snogging] each other twice. He wasn’t bad but kept hitching my skirt up and trying to get in my top so I went inside before somebody saw me.

A while later he followed me into Freda’s room and I snogged him again. This time his hand ventured but stayed on the outside of my clothes so I didn’t care! He asked if I was alright, I said yet but took the opportunity to mention that Cat (who was on Freda’s bed) might wake up so we went and he went home pretty soon after.

While I was trying to get some sleep last night, I was putting all the lads I’ve kissed into a list from best to worst! This may seem cruel but, unless they’re psychic, they won’t know. It goes:-


Now I get onto what happed with other people. This could take a while. The expected happened between Lizzie and Gethin, and Gethin made me take a photo of them mid-snog! Gethin also met [snogged] Hayley and Rachael but that was for part of a bet. To complete the bet, he also had to snog Cat and Julian Olsen which he didn’t do. He went back to Lizzie for the rest of the night and kept thanking me for pushing them together with my superb match-making skills!

He really likes her but after he’d left she snogged Anton Roper. He was creeping on to me a bit too, I forgot about that. I was stood next to him and he was rubbing his hand further and further down my back until I moved then he kept feeling my leg when I was trying to sleep on the floor.

My match-making also worked with Karen and Floyd Miller. Before they arrived I’d said I was going to do it and I kept making her sit on his knee and stuff and they ended up meeting [snogging] each other.

Emma was having stalker trouble with Neil Kennedy. He cornered her and was saying how much he loved her and gave her a diamond heart-shaped pendant. I rescued her because I came round the corner to find a drink and saw her trying to get rid of him so I started up a conversation with Emma and told him someone was looking for him. She is now seeing Orson Platt but doesn’t want to be now she’s sobered up!


[Orson & Emma]

Maisie Jones snogged Tunde S and then Adrian. I don’t care coz I don’t like Adrian like that. I was just drunk and bored!

Big Paul upset Cat by meeting [snogging] her and then buggering off with Keira.


[Big Paul & Keira]

There’s more stuff but I can’t quite remember what it is just yet!

Zoe rang me before to see if I’d go to the cinema with her, Reevesy, Brett and Ste because Hayley wasn’t going but I couldn’t because I had to go and see Grandma S.

It’s not good at Grandma’s. She’s had a bit of a fire but must have managed to put it out, her sink in the kitchen was blocked, the basin upstairs was blocked and it looks like there’s been a flood upstairs in the bathroom at one point coz all the paper on the ceilings is coming off. I got a bit upset actually because Mum’s really worried but Grandma’s being stubborn and won’t come and stay with us for a few nights until everything’s sorted.

The other thing was there was a mini explosion when Dad tried to switch the TV on. Grandma had wiped it down with water because it’d been smoke damaged. I hope she’ll be alright.


The Horny Angels – 16th December 1999

Thursday 16th Sarah told me today that yesterday Hayley apparently was nearly crying when I turned away from her while she was speaking to me. I don’t even remember doing it so it won’t have been intentional. Sarah didn’t see it happen, Hayley just told her that when I did it her eyes started “filling up”. Why? She’s so unbelievably soft!

Sarah also told me that Hayley now quite likes Reevesy and that she’s planning to snog him or something just to spite me. Why would I care if she did that? I’m the one who rejected him. In actual fact, I’d be quite glad if she got together with Reevesy because maybe then she’d have someone else to be paranoid around other than me!

Zoe also said that Hayley fancies Reevesy and they’re going to the cinema with him and Brett this weekend. They keep talking about it in front of me like they’re trying to wind me up but in actual fact I couldn’t care less! I think they think I’d be bothered. Ha, yeah right!

Zoe keeps going on about Brett like they’re the couple of the century or something but a message I got the other morning makes me think that Brett thinks otherwise. It said, “TESS CAN U TELL ZOE I ENJOY HER COMPANY BUT I CARED 4 LIZZIE A LOT + I CAN’T CARE 4 ANOTHER GIRL 4 A WHILE YET. THAT’S MY FINAL DECISION. I DON’T WANT TO SEE ME OR U GET HURT AGAIN.” Even after I showed her that she didn’t change her tune!

We had the college Xmas quiz tonight. It was okay and our team ‘The Horny Angels’ [Oh, no.] came 3rd out of 15. Hayley was pissing me off though. She just shouts all the time when she’s talking to you, even if you’re right next to her, and she laughs really loudly too. Then someone mentioned Scousers and so she was doing an AWFUL Scouse accent for most of the night. AAARRGGHH!! She irritates me sooooo much!

Freda is having a party tomorrow night but I think I’m destined to be single all night because not that many lads are going.


All I want to do is punch the living daylights out of her – 15th December 1999

Wednesday 15th Hayley decided to speak to me yesterday when I gave her a Xmas card and she gave me one back. She gave Lizzie one too. I still can’t stand that girl though. Everything she does irritates me and all I want to do is punch the living daylights out of her whenever she comes near me!

Today was the Senior Citizens’ Xmas Party at school. They first years were doing it because Mr M (who organises it all) is their head of year but any college students who wanted to help out could. I did because I didn’t want to do Biology with Mrs P.

I think the party went okay. Rachael Hollins snogged Adrian Ford at one point (nobody knows why!) and I managed to drop a box full of mugs. There were about 30 of them and only 3 remained intact. Just my luck!

I did my CLAIT exam [some computer literacy thing] this afternoon. I passed the mock exam that I did last week but I don’t know about this one yet.

I was also graded at kickboxing tonight. It was pretty easy because all be had to do were the basic evasion and punching stuff. I passed so that means I am now a white belt. I doesn’t sound very impressive but I’m pretty pleased.


Totally unnecessary and totally pathetic! – 13th December 1999

Monday 13th The weekend has not put a stop to Hayley’s pathetic attempts to wind me up. This morning she was giving out Xmas cards very obviously by yelling the person’s name and stating that she had a card for them before flinging it across the room. Many came in my direction, some of which hit me followed by the comment, “Ha ha!! That was a good throw!” from the Twisted Bitch herself but none of them were for me. She didn’t give Lizzie one either. Sad cow!

Even though she’s not given me a card, I’m giving her one because otherwise it’ll only be an excuse to slag me off. If I didn’t then she’d make sure everyone knew about it whereas the fact she didn’t give me one will probably go unnoticed because I’m not going to make a big fuss about it.

She also had a dig at Lizzie in a room full of people today as well. A lot of people suspect that Gethin might fancy Lizzie so today Gethin said, “I don’t fancy you Lizzie.” Hayley heard this and yelled, “Oh well, Lizzie thinks everybody fancies her!” That was totally unnecessary and totally pathetic!

I managed to block the SIM card on Lizzie’s phone today by trying to guess the pin number one too many times. She was pissed off to start with but, unlike Hayley, was back to normal with me about 10 mins later. And people wonder why I’m better mates with Lizzie than Hayley! I was worrying about the phone all day because I thought she might not get it sorted but thankfully she did.

I saw the gorgeous Riley tonight. I’ve not seen him for ages because his family moved to a different area of his village but he was at the infants Xmas party at the primary school tonight. I went along to help my mum sort the kids out and he went to watch his brother who’s in my mum’s class. Riley’s still fit as ever!



So I sent him another saying, “YOUR LIFE IS NOT FUCKED! IT’S ONLY LIZZIE 4 GOD’S SAKE! YOU’RE RIGHT, U CAN’T DO OWT BUT U’LL GET OVER IT. THERE’S PLENTY OF OTHER GIRLS ABOUT e.g. ZOE. U LIKE HER DON’T U?” That may have sounded a bit harsh but he needed telling. Poor lad, I do feel sorry for him.


She’s such a slapper – 12th December 1999

Sunday 12th I received a text message from Lizzie last night which has put me in yet another awkward position. The message said, “TESS, GETHIN JUST SENT ME THE FOLLOWING MESSAGE. WHAT’S GOING ON?… MY LIFE BELONGS WITH YOU. SEE YOU SOON, LOVE GETHIN XXX”

This is a problem because I had just reassured Sarah that it is not Gethin that fancies Lizzie because Emma had been saying on Friday that someone did but wouldn’t say who. Sarah really likes Gethin so I promised to find out if it was him. Emma told me it wasn’t but going by that message and the way he’s been flirting with Lizzie, I think Emma must be lying.

Now I have to make the decision of either keeping quiet and letting Sarah find out herself in a possibly bad way or telling her myself and breaking it to her gently. I think I might just leave it as it is not definitely true.

I had a phone call from Zoe this evening. She told me that this weekend she’d phoned Brett and asked him if he wanted to go bowling with her, Rochelle and Chloe because she “felt sorry for him”. Did she bollocks feel sorry for him! She asked him because she fancies him and also because she doesn’t like Lizzie so she thought it might be a good way to hurt her feelings.

The next confession was pretty much what I expected her to have done because she’s such a slapper. She snogged him and is now “sort of seeing him”. Not only did she begin to slag off Lizzie to me but she then had the nerve to say, “Will you stick up for me if anyone starts slagging me off tomorrow?” Well, I came straight out and said very simply, “No”.

How can she seriously expect me to stick up for her when she is in the wrong after she’s spent weeks doing exactly the opposite in the Hayley situation for me when I’m not totally at fault? That really pissed me off!

While I was at it, I told her to stop slagging off Lizzie to me too because I’m mates with her and it’s unfair to say things at all, never mind to me. I know her intention is that I go back and repeat it all to Lizzie but I won’t because there’s no need for her to know really. It’d only upset Lizzie.

So much for it taking Brett 18 months to get over Lizzie! Leon, Reevesy and Chris (Leon’s nephew) also went bowling. The fact that Leon went made me feel really jealous, although I don’t know why because as far as I know he didn’t do anything with anyone.


I turned round and told her to grow up – 10th December 1999

Friday 10th Even more trouble with Twisted Bitch Hayley today. I’d been having nasty, nasty looks off her all morning and then when Lizzie and I were talking about David Beckham getting banned from driving for a while, Hayley came out with, “They’re all a bunch of lying tossers!” for no apparent reason.

As Hayley was going out of the room, Lizzie turned to me and sort of asked what the hell Hayley’d been on about and then when we walked past Hayley, she said, “Oh Lizzie, if you’re going to bitch about me, at least do it to my face!”

I started shaking my head with a disapproving look (directed at Hayley, of course) and she said, “I don’t know why you’re giving me that look, Tess.” So I turned round and told her to grow up. That was a stupid thing to do (but I was wound up at the time) coz it gave her the perfect excuse to yell at me. She started saying how I was the one that needs to grow up (bollocks!) and how I’m doing exactly what ‘they’ (Lena, Lindsey Bullman, etc.) did to us a while back which I’d promised I wouldn’t do.

I just began telling her it was her own fault for not speaking to me constantly but she must have known it was coming and, not wanting to hear it, stormed off. She knows it’s her own fault that I don’t like her at all anymore but she just doesn’t want to hear it.

I found out from Zoe later that, after Hayley stormed off, she’d burst into tears. That will have been purely for sympathy purposes and to make me look like the bad one. The annoying thing is that some people actually take her on and believe every word she says.

Luckily though, some people (especially those who’ve been on the receiving end) know what she’s like. Emma’s been joining in slagging her off and again making me feel better about the situation by actually understanding how I’m feeling about all this (pretty pissed off!) and why.

Cat was saying how Hayley does tend to categorise people and I’m the unlucky one who’s ‘best mate’ (ha, yeah right!). Cat also thinks it’s about time she just let go and allowed us to just drift apart instead of being so possessive all the time.

The 2nd Xmas concert was tonight. I hung about in the back until we’d done Swing Band then went to the Coach Horse pub with everyone. Nowt interesting happened really except there’s now tension between Suzanna and Gethin, and Suzanna and Emma for some reason.

Aled rode next to me on his bike when I was walking round to Mum’s school after school. I thought he’d just ride straight past coz I’ve not spoken to him for ages but as soon as he saw me he stopped, narrowly missing a collision with a car! He was just telling me about Oscar and his potential girlfriend and I was filling him in on the Lizzie-Brett situation.