A long and boring journey – 16th & 18th July 2000

Monday 16th I went straight in to see Jake this morning and stayed in his bed for ages and did stuff until I realised my driving instructor was about to turn up. I managed to get ready in time and had quite a good lesson. I did 2 really good bay parks. I saw Jake again later and we just watched TV.

Bye!

Wednesday 18th I saw Jake all day today and packed for leaving for the Swing Band trip to Germany tonight. I got a bit upset which was basically because I was reminded of his bloody Canada trip but also because we were talking and I realised that he’s involved with me but I’m not really involved with him. He knows all my friends and gets on with my family but the same can’t be said for me and his family and friends.

I said goodbye to Jake and went to school to meet the coach. Sarah, Andy and Floyd all came to wave us off which was nice. I ended up sat with Denny on the coach but I didn’t mind that. We set off on a long and boring journey eventually, after arranging to get another minibus for the instruments cos Club Europe fucked up for the 3rd year running and didn’t get us the trailer we needed or a coach with a tow bar. Duh!

Bye!

I didn’t really fancy getting murdered – 2nd July 2001

Monday 2nd I’m in BARCELONA!!! It’s really nice too! 🙂

Both Jake and I only got a couple of hours sleep before we had to get up to go to the airport. It was nice staying in his bed so I didn’t really want to get out, especially at 5:15am!

I was really hungry but when I went downstairs, nobody was eating so I didn’t either when I was asked if I wanted breakfast. It wall went quiet when I was stood in the kitchen so I went upstairs to escape the awkwardness, telling Jake and his dad I needed to get my things together (lie lie!).

We ended up having breakfast at the airport cos we checked in quite early but they then I wasn’t very hungry due to my nervousness about flying. I’m really pissed off that I’ve gained a new found fear cos there’s no reason why it’s happened! I need not have worried though because the flight was very smooth and very clear so I could see everything that we were flying over.

I was given this at the airport and it’s the network my phone went onto instead of Vodafone…

It was in the newspaper that the cleaners at Barcelona Airport were on strike and had thrown rubbish everywhere. This was true. When we arrived, there were small piles of rubbish everywhere but thankfully it was only shredded paper.

We got a train from the airport to Plaza de Catalunya and then a taxi to our hotel. In actual fact, we could’ve walked to our hotel from where we got off the train but we couldn’t work out which direction to go in from the map.

We got to Hotel Lleo but had to wait a while for a room. The lobby area was nice (lots of marble) but our room was even better. We are in room 101 on the 1st floor (right by the bar!) and have a huge bathroom, 2 single beds pushed together, phone, Sky TV, lots of mirrors, a nice view out onto the street and… these are the best bits… a spa bath, a minibar and adjustable beds! The beds are sooo cool!! It took us a while to work out what the remotes were for and then the beds began to move! Hee hee!! 🙂

This afternoon, we prized ourselves away from our cool beds and went for a wander along Las Ramblas to the harbour thing where there was a huge cruise ship arriving. There were loads of street performers and stalls, some of which were unfortunately selling animals and birds out of tiny cages.

When we got hungry, we really should’ve gone for something Spanish but instead, we opted for the Hard Rock Café there. A starter would’ve done but we had a main meal too and we were so full afterwards!

We went back to the hotel and I rang Mum to say we’d arrived and then we went for a wander to find the beach. After about a 45 minute walk, we arrived and it was very, very manky. It was full of dogs and covered in rubbish. Yuck!!

As if we hadn’t done enough walking, Jake decided he wanted to see what some sculpture right at the end of the road was. I had blisters on my feet already but I assumed he knew a way back that way so I followed him. He didn’t so we had to walk all the way back again. I was reeeally pissed off cos he’d said the beach wasn’t far and he knew my feet were killing me so I marched on ahead. It was also getting dark and I didn’t really fancy getting murdered so I wanted to get back to the hotel asap!

Jake got upset cos he realised I was pissed off but we’ve made up now. My feet are still sore and I’m so tired.

Hmm, what position shall I put my bed in so I can sleep tonight?!

Bye!

She’s really false – 25th & 26th June 2001

Monday 25th I went to the Trafford Centre with Jake. We got the bus there and Robbie’s girlfriend Amy got on it too. Jake seem to like her and get on with her but she completely ignored me. I wish Robbie liked and got on with me.

When we got there, we also saw loads of people from Jake’s year. Earlier we saw some of them drive past and then we saw a couple of others and then his ex-girlfriend on the way home. The lad (Alex) was the only one who acknowledged my existence and asked me if I’m going to the college leaving do on Wednesday cos he is seeing as he stayed back at college a year.

They all asked Jake about Canada (grr!) and he informed some of them that he’ll go back at some point to renew his qualification thing. He said I could go with him but it involved money which I don’t have and I’d be stuck on my own while he pissed off and skied.

Ugh, he also said Jodie Nichols is going to Huddersfield too. This is not particularly good news as she really gets on my nerves. She used to be my best mate at primary school but then she started ignoring me and now she’s really false when she smiles or says hi and stuff. Plus she was openly flirting with Jake once when she thought I wasn’t there.

Grandma’s still in hospital. If something happens to her and everyone goes up to Scotland, I won’t want to go to Barcelona. I don’t know what to do if the worst happens.

Jake’s not got a job in that architect’s office cos there was nowt for him to do. He’s now decided he wants a job in the Quiksilver shop in Manchester.

Bye!

Tuesday 26th Gethin asked Jake round to his house this morning and I have to say that I was quite a bit pissed off. It was mainly because I felt left out cos he’s meant to be friends with both of us but he’d chosen Jake over me and could’ve asked us both. Also, I know Gethin used to fancy Jake and, even though I know Jake’s not gay, I still don’t like the thought of Gethin being alone with him cos that’s what Gethin would want.

So, I decided to send Gethin a short text message, just to let him know I wasn’t entirely happy, saying, “Why is it that you never ask anyone else round to your on their own? Hmm, I wonder.”

Then about 5 minutes later, the phone rang. It was Gethin asking what the message was in aid of. I told him basically what the problem was and then ended the conversation and thought that was the end of it.

However, when Jake came to mine afterwards, we fell out over it cos he couldn’t see why I felt left out. He started saying stuff about uni too and how we’ll have to have our own friends then. I pointed out that this was different cos we’re both friends with Gethin and I don’t have a problem with him going out without me with his mates that I don’t know as well.

I couldn’t stop crying but then I was also upset about Grandma at the same time cos Mum rang me from work and said she’s really ill.

We eventually made up and he went to Venture Scouts.

Bye!

Threesomes and foursomes and incest and stuff – 23rd June 2001

Saturday 23rd It was sooo nice waking up with Jake this morning. We didn’t get up for quite a while cos it was nice just lying there. When we were all finally out of bed, we attempted to make breakfast. I did scrambled eggs, Michael did pancakes and Sarah did toast and bacon. Jake served it all up.

We were at Sarah’s nearly all day before going home and then meeting all our other friends in The Dog to do The Run. Cat really pissed me off at one point by having a go at me for asking her very loudly if she was going to “shag” Floyd. I didn’t say that at all. I know because I wouldn’t have phrased it like that. She must’ve just misheard something else but she wouldn’t listen to me when I said I hadn’t said that.

Everyone went back to Sarah’s tonight. We all sat about for a bit before going to bed. We all got out of bed again though to look at the dodgy books Cat and Gethin found in Sarah’s parents’ room. There was one that explained about threesomes and foursomes and incest and stuff. Weird!

Jake and I did stuff but he didn’t ask if I wanted to this time, he just assumed. He assumed right though. We talked for ages and I know we’re being doubly careful as I’m on the pill for my skin but it was still in the back of my mind about that there could be a tiny chance of an accident somehow. So I asked Jake what he’d do if that happened, just as a matter of interest. He said he definitely wouldn’t dump me and would support me in whatever I wanted to do but seemed in favour of abortion if anything happened at our age because we haven’t got any money etc.

He said ideally he’d want to have kids in his early 30s and would want 2 of them (a boy first then a girl). He said he’d rather have 2 girls than 2 boys cos he reckons they’d be easier. He also told me he wants to marry me again but said after uni cos he want to travel round the world first. When I asked him who with, I was hoping he’d say me but instead he said Charlie Wilson and a couple of other mates cos they all said they would. I wasn’t even mentioned! 😦

I then got pissed off (cos when he got back from Canada he said he wouldn’t go anywhere without me again) then I got upset and then tried to get a moth out of the room and managed to break the curtains. Jake then apologised and cuddled me but then said something about Wick which upset me even more cos it doesn’t look like we’re going this year cos Auntie S isn’t coping very well with looking after Grandma L cos she’s old and has lots wrong with her.

Jake then got upset too because I was upset and said he never wants to go anywhere without me again but just didn’t think when I asked cos he didn’t think I’d want to go with the lads. It’d still have been nice if he’d wanted to go with me though.

Bye!

I’ve got to stop this paranoia! – 18th & 19th June 2001

Monday 18th I was in a bit of a better mood this morning and all that stuff I wrote last night now seems completely stupid!

However, my exam this afternoon has pissed me off completely. It was the physiology section of Sports Studies and we had 2 hours to do 4 long questions. I just don’t see the point of doing pages and pages of notes on loads of different things when the exam only covers 4 small areas. Typically, those 4 areas were also on the thinks that I didn’t particularly understand. Oh well, only one more exam to go now.

Jake gets back from Scotland tonight and I was expecting to see him cos he said he should be able to get here. I really need a hug after this weekend and that exam today but he’s just texted me today he won’t be able to get here cos his dad’s been driving all day and his bro’s too tired. I don’t think he’s all that bothered about seeing me actually cos surely he could get a bus or a taxi like he normally does.

Urgh, I’ve got to stop this paranoia! It’s not doing me any good. He probably doesn’t feel like hanging round for buses etc. after travelling all day and he probably wants a shower and bed. I’ll just have to see him tomorrow instead cos I doubt I’ll do any revision tomorrow evening anyway. He’d better bring the chocolate he bought me. I need it!

Bye!

Tuesday 19th It’s Dad’s birthday today! I’m not sure how old he is actually. Hang on, he was born in 1946 so he must be… erm… 55(?). I hate maths!!

I’m feeling much better today anyway and very much loved! Jake came at about 4:30pm and kept hugging me and telling me I was nice and stuff. I didn’t see him for very long cos he had Venture Scouts but I was left with plenty of chocolate to eat!

Bye!

My personality’s obviously not enough! – 17th June 2001

Sunday 17th I got a bit upset this afternoon during a break from my mad last-minute cramming-style revision. I was just lying on my bed and thinking (I really shouldn’t do that!) and I just suddenly found myself crying.

There are 3 things that are bothering me most at the moment. They are:

  1. The fact that I’ve become thick over the last few weeks and it’s looking very unlikely that I’ll get 14 points for uni.
  2. It doesn’t seem likely that we’ll be going to Wick this summer cos my Auntie S is stressed about my Grandma L.
  3. I’m feeling a bit insecure about me and Jake.

Recently I have been a bit worried about me and Jake due to the Suzanna thing and the fact that I know other people fancy him too so the worry that one day he’ll like one of the people who like him more than he likes me has come to my mind. However, a conversation we had on the phone when he finally decided to ring me after playing rounders with a bunch of Cub Scouts at 11pm yesterday has added to my insecurities.

Somehow we got on to the subject of no sex again. I started off joking, asking would he go off me if I never ever wanted to. He said he wouldn’t be able to not do it forever so I narrowed it down to 10 years, the 5 years, then 1 year but he was still saying he couldn’t do without. I mean, we’ve only ever done it twice and neither time was exactly brilliant so then I started to worry. I realised that he was saying he’d go off me if I didn’t want to do it and he’s also said he wouldn’t like me as much with no legs. It sounds like he doesn’t like me for my personality at all otherwise he’d love me whatever, surely?

That conversation make me think of Barcelona and the fact that I might not be able to do much there cos my period’s due. I’m worried that he’ll be pissed off cos he sounds keen to make the most of the few nights we’ve got there. He’s usually understanding about that though cos he knows I can’t exactly help it.

Oh I don’t know. My self-esteem’s just gone way down. I feel a bit of a mess (looks-wise) at the moment so what if Jake notices? Will he go off me or what?

The other thing that’s at the back of my mind is that what if, one day, I have to come of the pills for my skin and my spots flare up again. I remember him once commenting ages ago how awful someone’s acne looked. There’s no way he’d want to be seen with me if my skin got bad again, is there? My personality’s obviously not enough!

His comments about models in magazines and stuff don’t help either. I mean, fair enough, I ask him if he’d fancy them but he always says yes. That’s what worries me. What if someone who looked like them liked him? He wouldn’t like me as much, I’m sure.

All this insecurity really started when he started saying he couldn’t talk to me about stuff (e.g. his mum) when we got into that argument the other week. It sounds like he doesn’t trust me. I’m always moaning about stuff to him but he never does it back. I can’t help it, I’m just scared one day he’ll get sick of me whinging about things

Ugh, I don’t know what’s up with me at the moment. I think I am stressed about exams and that’s the underlying thing. Plus uni is looming (providing I get in!) and I have to say, I am a bit nervous about it. That could also be when I lose Jake if we meet new people cos so many people I know have split up, even if they went to the same place. I don’t want that to happen to us.

Hearing that his dad doesn’t like me and his bro’s been slagging me off haven’t exactly boosted my confidence either. My family like Jake and I’d like it if his family liked me too and made me feel welcome.

I think I just need Jake to reassure me really. He says he loves me all the time and I believe him but I need to hear why he loves me, I think. I need him to tell me spontaneously too, without me having to say something first or having to be upset and he just says stuff to make me feel better. That’s probably not going to happen but still, I need to hear something positive right now to stop me feeling so fed up.

The thing I have to keep reminding myself is that he fancied me for ages before we got together and there must be reasons for that.

Bye!

P.S. I’ve just spoken to Jake on the phone and got a bit upset. I told him my worry about him finding someone else he likes more than me. Instead of saying it WON’T happen, he just kept saying he hopes it doesn’t. He’s not ruling it out completely then! Ohh, I really need a hug!

I’m not thinking that maybe I shouldn’t have told him that I’m feeling a bit insecure and why cos he doesn’t really have to worry about things like that about me so it’s like he’s in a better position than me so he’s kind of in control. For example, if we split up, he’s good looking and I’m pretty normal so he’s more likely to find someone else.

Oh, I really do think way too much!

A total cock-up – 15th June 2001

Friday 15th Well, I thought those exams were going to be bad and so they were. I managed to answer all the biology questions but didn’t have a clue what I was writing about. The geography one was a total cock-up. There were 4 really hard essay questions and I had to do 2 of them. The first one I did was completely vague answers and the 2nd one I just shouldn’t have done cos I didn’t have a clue what it meant. Half way through writing it I realised I should’ve done a different one but I only had about 10 minutes left so it was too late.

Urrggh!! I’m never going to get into uni!

Jake met me outside college after my last exam and we walked back to mine. Well, we started to walk then it started thundering so we got on a bus instead.

He’s going to Scotland with his family tonight to visit friends on the Isle of Mull so we only had about 3 hours before his dad picked him up. We were just talking and for some reason got onto the subject of celibacy. He ended up saying that he’d still love me bit it wouldn’t suit him cos he would be too frustrated! He said he could cope if I didn’t believe in sex before marriage cos there’s the hope that one day it will happen. It was a very jokey conversation and he was telling me (when I pointed out that he went for 16 years without even snogging a girl) that when lads are 16 they always hope that they’ll get to have sex with a girl one day. Hmm, maybe not in some cases. I can’t imagine Rory really wanting to do it with a girl!

Ahh, Jake also told me that after the conversation about what he’d do if I had no legs, that he would still love me just as much. That’s good to know!

He told me he liked my teeth today too. I don’t. They’re all gappy. He said he likes that though. Fairy nuff, I suppose.

I can’t not see him for 3 whole days! Ugh! Ok, so it’s nothing compared to 3 months but I like seeing him and it’s something to look forwards to after revision all day. Ah well, I’ll just have to cope. I will miss him though.

Bye!

I wish I’d never remembered – 12th June 2001

Tuesday 12th Fuck. I realised before that I’ve made a stupid mistake on the Ecology paper I did last week for biology. I don’t know what made me remember but it suddenly came to me that on one question about catching insects, I wrote about the mark, release and capture method. I realised it was wrong at the time but I thought I only had 7 mins left (I actually had 17 mins but a teacher had written the finishing time wrongly on the board) so I made a note next to the question saying “pitfall traps” but I never went back to it because I forgot. Bugger! I wouldn’t mind but the grade boundaries are sooo close and those few marks could’ve made quite a difference. I’m so pissed off with myself but it’s too late to do anything about it now. I wish I’d never remembered. 😦

Jake and I have been going out a year and 4 months and 1 day. Yesterday was the 11th and that was the date he actually asked me out. HOWEVER, from now on we’ve decided that we will use the date of the 4th to mark anniversary type things cos it was a week before the 11th February (on the 4th) that we first got together, even if nothing was official, at Amanda Bryan’s birthday party in The Coach and Horses. When we think of getting together, that’s what we think of – that party. So, we have now been “together” for 1 year, 4 months, 1 week and 1 day! 🙂

I hate revision! Grrr!!

Jake came round for a bit this evening before he went to Venture Scouts. We didn’t really do much cos we didn’t have much time. I went really, really ticklish though for some reason!

He was telling me about this work experience he’s doing in the summer. He said he’s working at BDP Advanced Technologies on Deansgate in Manchester. At first he said it was only going to be for 2 weeks then he said a month and today he told me it could be for 7 weeks over the summer. Ohh, I might hardly ever get to see him but he said they want to train him up properly and, you never know, if he goes every summer they may offer him a job for after uni.

He suggested that I get some work experience but I don’t particularly want to, to be honest. I’ll be doing a whole year’s work placement at uni (if I get there!), plus I want to make the most of this summer while I’ve got no college stuff to do.

Bye!

I left Jake watching TV to go and make some fake cum – 10th June 2001

Sunday 10th Hmm. Last night was quite a varied night in the end with some good bits and some not so good bits.

Jake, Michael, Sarah, Karen, Cat, Gethin and I all went round to Lizzie’s house because her parents went away to Cyprus for 2 weeks yesterday. We all brought alcohol supplies and just settled down in the living room to watch TV/listen to music/talk.

Gethin was being all lively and was poncing about in the middle of the room, dancing and cracking crap jokes in order to be the centre of attention but as soon as everyone lost interest he went and sulked and had heart-to-heart talks with people and cried cos he’s gay. I didn’t fall for it. It was all for attention purposes and really got on my nerves.

My theory is that it was mostly for the benefit of Sarah but she’s so soft she gave him loads of sympathy. You see, I reckon Gethin’s jealous deep down of Michael because now he’s come along, Sarah’s no longer following Gethin round like a little sheep in hope she’ll get a snog out of him. He didn’t want to know at the time but now it’s the whole situation of wanting what he can’t have. I may be wrong but it’d be a very Gethin-like thing to do.

He did ask me if he could talk to me at one point but I refused to go out of the room with him cos I had a feeling that if he was going to go all serious. I’d either get annoyed or laugh and I didn’t really want to fall out with him.

I had a minor jokey disagreement with Jake while he was watching the Formula 1 on TV. I asked why he found it so interesting and he eventually came out with a comment that girls only like football for the perve factor. That pissed me off so much so I put up and argument. He did admit in the end that he knows that’s not why I watch it. Why can’t I just like the game? Grrr.

I left Jake watching TV to go and make some fake cum at one point. Cat found a recipe a while ago on the internet and was going to spread it round Mr L’s room (ha ha ha!!!) so we thought we’d test it out. It didn’t work. We ended up with a runny yellow concoction consisting of egg white, sugar, mayonnaise, flour, evaporated milk, arrowroot, salad cream and lots more. It was pretty mingin’! (We didn’t actually follow a recipe, we guessed!)

A few of us had a go at my drinking games. We played Fuzzy Duck, Bunnies, something with matches and something where you had to pick a bottle up with your mouth while standing on one leg. We got bored pretty quickly though cos none of us were that pissed.

Sarah, Michael, Jake and I all went in Sarah’s car to get Chinese takeaway and stopped to pick Floyd up from The Green Dragon on the way back. He was still working so I used my superb waitressing skills and help him tidy up faster so he could finish his shift. It’s scary how it all came back to me!

When we got back, we ate too much food and all nearly exploded but it’s too nice to leave leftovers! Sarah and Michael then had to go out again to take Cat home cos she had to teach Sunday school this morning.

Cat got upset at one point too, all because of fucking Mr L. She checked his email and discovered a letter which someone had written for him to print off and put with his application forms for new jobs. It was all about why he’d resigned (cos of the allegations made against him) and went cringingly onto say how he loves his job and how he’ll work extra hard to prove himself etc. Tosser!

The part that really got to Cat though was a bit saying that the head of our school would back him up about what an “asset” he was. It sounds like Mr C didn’t believe what Cat was saying. Mr bloody L is going to be allowed to teach again and it’ll happen all over again with more pupils. With any luck though, nobody will want to risk taking him on.

Even though we were all full from Chinese, we kept finding chocolates and sweets all over the house and therefore we all felt even more sick!

It really is a mess in Lizzie’s house. You can hardly move for rubbish and there’s about 4 inches of dust on the vacuum cleaner! Luckily Lizzie said Jake and I could share her sister’s bed so we didn’t have to sleep in amongst the mess. Mind you, it took us a while to clear the crap off her sister’s bed too!

We went to bed pretty early actually. Sarah and Michael shared another bedroom and the others slept on the living room floor.

I left Jake on the bed to go in the bathroom and came back to find him in the bed with no clothes on at all! We just kissed and cuddled for a bit then…

[CENSORED! I can’t include what I wrote because I covered all the gory details at some point with a thick black pen, probably before I went to uni when I feared Mum or Abby would find my diaries. I’m not going to pretend I’m not relieved I don’t have to cringe my way through sharing that sort of stuff.]

We got some sleep after that and it was really nice being able to snuggle up together. It was really nice waking up with him there this morning too. We cuddled for ages before Sarah knocked on the door to say she was leaving soon if we wanted a lift. We all ended up going to McDonald’s for breakfast (mmm, bacon roll!) and Rory was working. The McDonald’s uniform actually makes him look vaguely straight!

Jake got a lift back with Karen cos she was dropping Lizzie off and he lives in the next close to Lizzie. I don’t like leaving him, especially when Karen’s there. I’m going to sound really paranoid now but she keeps flirting with him, I’m sure! He was complaining this morning about his hair being a mess and she started stroking his head saying, “Ahh!”. She laughs at him all the time and kept saying he was sweet last night.

Hugo kept ringing him too and Karen made sure she answered it and said, “Hi! This is Big ‘n’ Bouncy Escorts. How may I help you?” Actually, that was quite funny though. I probably wouldn’t notice as much if I didn’t know that she used to fancy him. Ugh, I don’t know! I don’t think she’s really a threat though!

When I got home this morning, Jake sent me a message saying he’s sorry if he hurt me (pain-wise) last night and not to feel guilty about it. Ooh, I love him sooo much! 🙂

Sarah told me in the car on the way home that she thinks Michael was expecting to go all the way last night but he said he respected her for not wanting to rush it. Aww, sweet! She said she did 2 to him and he did 3 to her on our ranking system.

Just to explain, my mates and I have come up with numbers to represent what stage was reached with lads, just in case we don’t want to say properly what we did if other people are there. It goes:

1 = Snog
2 = Grope
3 = Hands
4 = Mouths
5 = Sex

So, if I ever use those numbers in here, that’s the explanation for it.

I’ve spoken to Jake a couple of times today on the phone cos he decided not to come here cos he’s really tired and doesn’t feel like getting the buses and taxis. (His brother’s getting that Punto but Jake won’t be insured on it.)

I’ve just been texting Jake now and I apologised again for last night. He said it doesn’t matter and that it didn’t last very long the first time so that’s the longest it’s lasted yet!

Oh no, I’ve got a driving lesson tomorrow. I’ve forgotten what to do!

Bye!

I shouldn’t have mentioned Canada – 9th June 2001

Saturday 9th Well, Jake certainly made sure I felt guilty about everything I said about Suzanna/Canada. I phoned him and apologised again but we got into a bit of an argument because he said I always make him feel as if things out of his control are his fault. So, obviously I defended myself and basically said I didn’t.

We ended up talking on MSN messenger on the internet and got onto the subject of his mum. He said I shouldn’t have mentioned Canada yesterday (I know!) and started saying how he didn’t tell me why he was so upset at the time cos he doesn’t feel like he can talk to me about it because I never ask him about it.

Well, that really insulted me and I made sure I pointed out the fact that he said last year (and so did Hugo) that he didn’t like talking about it. I was hardly going to bring it up and risk saying the wrong thing and upsetting him, especially if he didn’t like speaking about it.

I got cut off MSN mid-argument so I ended up phoning him again. He was crying and so was I and after hanging up on me once, I rang again and we sorted it out. He apologised for not telling me stuff and I apologised for what I said last night. We’re friends again now which is a good thing cos we’re both staying at Lizzie’s house tonight. I’ll report back on that tomorrow though.

Bye!