I had him first! HAH!!! – 17th & 18th September 2001

Monday 17th I had my last driving lesson before I go to uni today. I’ve got to try and get home for more lessons and a test. We’ll see!

I also went to the doctor to have my blood pressure taken. He’s given me 6 months’ worth of pills too. I hope I don’t lose them!


Tuesday 18th Yey!!! 🙂 I’ve finally got my uni address! If people want to send stuff, they’ve got to send it to:

Boothroyd Court, Block D, Flat 5, Room 5
Storthes Hall Park Student Village
Storthes Hall Lane
West Yorkshire

How cool is that?! I’ve got my own address.

I texted Jake to tell him and he rang me later which surprised me. He’s at Saville Court, Block C. He told me he’s spoken to Samantha Breck who was there last year and apparently our 2 buildings are the best/liveliest ones to be in. Mine’s nearest the pub! 🙂 She warned Jake that he’s on the bottom floor (she was in the flat next to his) and that things get nicked more often cos it’s easier to get in and out. That means I’m probably on the top floor which I can see being a struggle sometimes!

He also told me that he did The Run [pub crawl] on Friday with Niall, Emma and Suzanna etc. Charming! He won’t do it with us! He did say he’ll try and come out with us this week but I won’t be expecting it.

I also had a phone call from Gethin today. He was saying how he was upset by our messages from Saturday and that he was “honestly” going to come and see me to say goodbye. Yeh right!

I’ve been going on http://www.virginstudent.com over the last few days cos I got a leaflet about it and it’s really good. I’ve got in contact and have been chatting to other people going to Huddersfield at the weekend.


  • A girl called Katy who’s 19 from Norfolk.
  • A girl called Saz (Sarah) who’s 18 from York.
  • A woman called Lynda who’s 22 and is doing Environmental Analysis.
  • A Welsh girl called Carys who’s unsure about her sexuality, has slit her wrists and is doing Geography with Environment Science.
  • A lad called Ben who I’m going to tell you about separately cos it’s sooo freaky.

Okay, Ben was introduced to me on MSN Messenger by Saz and we got talking about where we’re living and I discovered he’s in the same flat as Jake and in the room next door to him. Out of 1500ish people, what are the chances of that?! So, I immediately rang Jake and got him online and they started chatting. They’re into the same music, both ski, support crap footy teams, Ben’s doing Graphic Design and Jake’s doing Architecture so that’s a similar department, they think. Ben’s best mate also has the same surname as Jake! There were a few other weird coincidences too but I can’t think what now. Oh yeh, he sent me a photo (he’s not bad!) and he has the same hair and eyebrows as Jake!

Speaking of eyebrows, I’m sure Jake’s been plucking his. They used to have a few faint hairs that met in the middle and when I last saw him, those hairs were kind of stubbly!

All the people I’ve been speaking to have decided we should meet up when we get there so that could be interesting to see what they actually look like. I discovered Katy’s also in Boothroyd but in Block A which is probably at the other end to me. She’s going on Saturday too.

Jake rang me again later to ask what the Virgin website address was cos his roommate from Canada wanted to know. I went online again later and Jake and a girl called Nicola (who I’ve also spoken to) were chatting. They invited me to their conversation and I found myself getting really bothered when he kept saying “aww” and “cute” when she was talking about guinea pigs and losing her gloves. I also found out he’s promised Saz and Nicole he’ll teach them to ski when we get there. He’d better help me improve skiing then.

I supposed I’d better get used to him being all popular with girls. I’ll just have to keep reminding myself that I had him first! HAH!!! 🙂


He was such a good kisser! – 14th & 15th September 2001

Friday 14th Wow! Jake sent me a message today totally out of the blue. He said, “HELLO! HOW ARE YOU? JUST GOT BACK FROM WALES – LOVELY PLACE… NOT! HAVE YOU HAD UR ADDRESS THOUGH FROM HUDDS? ARE YOU READY/EXCITED? xJx”

I replied to him and then spoke to him on the phone for quite a while about everything going on with uni and stuff. He said Wales was crap and it was only him and 3 other lads. He’s moving house the day before we got to uni. He also asked me to get his CD off Cat. Hee hee! I will cos I want to tape it! 🙂


Saturday 15th I went to Cat’s for a bit this evening and then Lizzie picked us up and we went into town. It turned out to be a really good night actually.

Lizzie had arranged to meet a girl called Kim who she swims with so we went and found her and her friends first in Wetherspoons. It was really busy in there so we decided to move on. Kim and her mates either tried to get into over 21’s bars or really busy ones and all we wanted was a drink.

We lost them in the end cos Lizzie stopped and said hi to Stoned Rob as he walked past us so we went to Edison’s on our own. We got a few drinks down us in there because unless you’re pissed when you go in Smith’s, it has the tendency to be crap. They were playing some good old tunes in Edison’s so we stayed and listened to that as we drank before leaving when the place began to empty.

We went straight to Smith’s cos it was getting quite late after that. It cost us £6 to get in! Rip off! It was packed though and there seemed to be slightly older people in instead of the 14 year old scallies which tend to congregate there on Tuesdays and Fridays. That made it much more enjoyable because I really can’t stand scallies.

While we were waiting for people to start dancing, we decided to send a joint text to Gethin because he’s pissed us off. Jake told me that Gethin said to him (on one of the many occasions Jake’s been at his house) that he couldn’t be arsed seeing everyone cos he’s seen and said goodbye to all the people he wants to. Fucker! We’ve not seen him for ages. It sounds like he’s been too busy with Jake! So, I told the others what Gethin said and they weren’t best pleased either. I can’t remember what we put now but it was a bit on the evil side! 🙂

Anyway, eventually the dance floors began to fill up so Cat, Lizzie and I went and had a good old dance. Unfortunately, a total gimp who used to be in our year at school, Ian Bratley, and his sidekick, Simon Robson, danced in our direction so we shoved them out of our way and moved.

Cat went in a bit of a mood at one point (which I later found out was cos she wanted Matt the dominatron) and wouldn’t dance. Lizzie and I tried to cheer her up but it didn’t work and she wandered off. We wouldn’t have found her so we stayed where we were, got our arses felt on many occasions, and eventually she came back and danced again. PMT.

There was some lad (not a bad one either!) in a red Ferrari shirt who kept dancing up against me. It was obvious he was trying it on and I might have gone for it had the DJ not announced something about him being sweaty! However, I ended up wishing I’d just snogged him after Lizzie went with some bald bloke and then got together with dopey Mike (the friend of chef Matt who I had) and I thought I wasn’t going to pull at all.

But then… :)… Cat and I started dancing again and I noticed a lad looking at me through the crowd. He looked away as soon as I noticed but looked back again when he thought I couldn’t see. So, I grabbed Cat and danced in his direction. He then started dancing very close behind me but I had my back to him and couldn’t see. Cat warned me that he looked like he was about to make a move but I ignored her cos that’s what I wanted!

I turned round so I was side on to him and he actually asked if I minded if he danced with me. Lads in Smith’s don’t make a habit of asking, they usually just grab you. I thought it was sweet so I said “No”, meaning “No, I don’t mind” but he took it as “No, piss off!” and started to turn away so I grabbed him by the sleeve and explained what I meant. So we ended up dancing and we moved closer and snogged pretty soon afterwards. He was such a good kisser! He got it just right. It was like Jake was once we got used to each other, only this was perfect first time. He was quite nice looking too! 🙂

I then noticed Cat stood on her own near me and I felt guilty. I asked the lad I was with (he was called Adam) if he had any mates for her but they’d all wandered off so I just prodded the nearest fit lad and pointed at Cat. It worked! They were snogging for ages!

Adam and I kept kissing and smiling during it when we noticed Cat trying to keep her lad’s hands from going up her top and down her pants. Adam didn’t try anything like that which was also nice and I was with him until we left.

Every time I said I was hot, he started blowing on me to cool me down. It was so sweet! The most he did was put him hand on my bum while we were kissing but I didn’t mind that. When I went to get some water, he came too and even offered to pay when he’d only had a few sips.

We started talking at the bar cos we could hear better. I found out he lives in Milton Keynes and is just visiting a mate who lives in Lymm but he said he used to live in Warrington about a year ago and had come to town to see if it’d changed. He said he did computing at uni and had either just finished or he’s in his last year (I can’t remember) so he was probably in his early 20s. He said he took a sandwich course and worked in Manchester for a year.

We went back and danced for a bit longer and kissed more and then a woman came round with a bucket of roses. Adam paid £2 and bought me a pink one then kissed me on the cheek and when I said “Thanks” he said, “You’re worth it!” He didn’t say it in a creepy slimy way, he said it really nicely. Mmm. 🙂

He constantly held my hand when we walked around and waited for me to get my coat when we had to leave. He had to wait outside for his mates and I had to go to the taxi place so we had one last kiss goodbye and parted. I really didn’t want to stop kissing him though, it really was so nice!

I’ve just remembered. At one point when I said I was too hot, he suggested we went outside. That was the only point when I thought he might have been wanting to try something but then he seemed too nice. He probably just meant the entrance anyway cos we’d have had to pay to get back in again and we couldn’t afford it.

I wish I had his phone number or something but then I suppose he does live miles away and if he turned out to be a creep or weird I’d be disappointed and it would ruin what I thought was a really nice/good night.


Bladdered on “real” diesel – 12th & 13th September 2001

Tuesday 12th I was at Cat’s for most of today cos I stopped over last night. We just played on SimCity on the computer.

You can’t escape what happened in New York today. It’s everywhere. The whole thing’s so terrible. There must’ve been so many people killed. 😦


Wednesday 13th We did The Run [pub crawl] tonight for a change cos a lot of people are going to uni on Saturday morning and so can’t go out tomorrow.

Cat was really pissing me off. I was totally sober (trying to save money) and she was really bladdered on “real” diesel (lager, cider, blackcurrant and whisky – which we wouldn’t normally add). She kept going into the toilets to talk to Sarah about the internet male dominatrix she’s been in contact with and leaving me out.

When I was speaking to Sarah, she was telling me about stuff her and Michael do. He’s tied her up and they’ve had sex in all sorts of places, lots of times. It’s made me realise how boring Jake actually was!

Denny had a message off Jake tonight actually, saying he couldn’t do The Run cos he was on a hill somewhere in Wales. He’s doing his Queen’s Scout Award thing.

I’m beginning to think that maybe I’m either weird or in some sort of state where it’s not sunk in yet but I never really go on about Jake or anything. I am just finding myself getting on with it. All my mates have had long whinges about Mr L and Maz for example but I realised I haven’t actually done that yet. I suppose that’s a good thing though. Mum keeps saying she’s proud of me and, I have to say, I’m actually quite proud of myself so far!

I still can’t bear the thought of him with another girl though. I hope that’ll pass. The thing is, I don’t really know how I’ll feel about things cos none of my friends have really been through this so they can’t tell me. 😦


It doesn’t seem real – 11th September 2001

Tuesday 11th I was listening to the radio this afternoon while I was on the computer and the DJ suddenly said to switch on the news cos there’s been a plane crash in New York. I waited a while and then went to see what was going on.

Just before I switched Sky News on, a 2nd plane had crashed into the World Trade Centre. It was on film because the news crew had got to the scene because of the first crash. That just looked like an accident but when the 2nd one hit it was obvious it was deliberate.

I just can’t believe it. It doesn’t seem real.

I couldn’t stop watching the news because it was so unbelievable. As I watched, more and more awful things happened such as the plane hitting the Pentagon and the one crashing in Pittsburg and then seeing the WTC towers collapse while there were still people inside.

It must’ve been awful, especially for those on the hijacked planes because they must’ve known they were going to die. It’s so hard and awful to imagine.

It just looked like the scene of an earthquake or something when the towers collapsed and all the clouds of dust were so scary.

It didn’t feel right somehow after what’s happened in America but Lizzie, Cat, Isaac, Denny and I all went out to Warrington tonight. We went in Edison’s first where they were showing the news on the little TVs and Denny and Isaac told us how they went in the WTC when they went to New York a couple of months back. Scary!

While we were in Edison’s, we had a 1 minute silence for the people in New York. The DJ said we in Warrington especially should do it because our town’s been a victim of terrorism with the bomb a few years back.

We went pretty much straight to Smith’s after Edison’s. I pulled once. It was some lad called Mike, He wasn’t all that fit but he was nice enough and quite a good kisser! He didn’t dive straight in there either, he held my hands first. Meanwhile, Cat snogged his mate. She said it was awful!


Slagging off all the shit stuff – 6th & 9th September 2001

Thursday 6th I got woken up really early this morning by Cat and Denny talking loudly. Cat was telling him how he’d been talking in his sleep. She said he was just mumbling at first then suddenly said, “Take them to South Beach”!

We went to the Tate Modern today to avoid Cat sulking. It wasn’t too bad actually. Denny and I had fun slagging off all the shit stuff off e.g. a big grey square.

The piano hanging from the ceiling was funny. Unfortunately it didn’t move while the others were stood underneath it saying they hoped it didn’t fall. That would’ve been so funny! They might’ve wet themselves though, which wouldn’t have been very pleasant!

We went for a quick wander round Covent Garden before heading back to the hostel to get our bags. When we tried to get our bags out of the locker we couldn’t and panicked and all the members of staff tried to help us before we realised we were trying to open the wrong locker! It was a bit embarrassing!

The train journey back went really quickly. It was really funny and we were laughing most of the way. I can’t remember why now. It probably had something to do with the free alcohol though!


Friday 7th I had a driving lesson this morning and then I did The Run [pub crawl] tonight. It was okay apart from the fact I caused a fall out between Michael and Sarah by saying something hinting towards what Sarah did with her assistant manager at work. He then immediately wanted to know EVERYTHING. They sorted it out eventually.

We were expecting Jake to come this week with Connor but he didn’t. Connor said he went round to Jake’s and he was all dressed up like he was going out but told Connor he wasn’t. Hmm.


Saturday 8th There was a squirrel in the garden today and that’s about the most exciting thing that happened.

Oh, we recorded our 3rd CD with Swing Band this morning at school but that was really boring.


Sunday 9th Cat, Michael and I all went along to Sarah’s work leaving do tonight at the Exchange bar place in the Trafford Centre.

We didn’t sit with the work people and Sarah cos we felt a bit out of place but Sarah said I was being admired. It was some lad called Anthony who fancied me. He wasn’t bad actually. He came over at one point and said, “You can come and sit with us if you want. We don’t mind… honestly!” Then he looked at me. 🙂

He was fit and laughed when I said I couldn’t buy a round cos I had all of 12p. However, Cat refused to go over cos she didn’t want to be left on her own. I wasn’t very pleased.

Some girl told Mike (the bloke Sarah had that time) that he looked gay. He wasn’t amused!


Cat texted a dominatrix – 3rd & 5th September 2001

Monday 3rd I had a major panic this morning. I was sorting out my uni stuff and found my confirmation letter from UCAS which I got after my exam results. I hadn’t sent back the bloody reply slip! It said it had to be sent within 2 weeks or the uni could give your place to someone else. So, I rang up Huddersfield and some snappy woman told me it’d be ok if I stuck a 1st class stamp on it and posted it NOW! So I did. I hope it’ll be okay.


That surprised me cos I didn’t think he’d really care. He’s on a canal boat trip with Scouts by the way.

Rhian and Marc are back together again.


Wednesday 5th I stayed over at Cat’s last night so it’d be easy to get us all to Warrington Bank Quay Station today. I didn’t get much sleep cos Lizzie and I slept in the living room and kept talking most of the night.

We were in 1st Class on the train which was really cool! We got fed bacon butties and I drank way too much coffee cos they kept coming round with more every few minutes!

I took a few things to prove I’ve been in 1st Class:

When we got to Euston Station, we all split up. Isaac, Denny and Floyd went for a look round London while Cat, Lizzie and I went to find the Club Europe office so Cat could have her interview. It was at Forest Hill so we had to go on a tube and then another train. Her interview was at 2pm so we were a bit early so we had a drink in a nearby café.

When we went into the Club Europe place, the interviewer looked at us in a funny way when we asked if it was okay for Lizzie and I to wait for Cat. We began to realise why once we’d been sat on the big red sofa for an hour and a half. We thought it’d only be about 30 mins but, no, we were there for over 2 and a half hours! The level of boredom that Lizzie and I experienced was far higher than I’ve ever known! People in the office kept saying they could find us jobs to do and stuff but unfortunately they were only joking.

We listened to some woman talk about a relative dying (cheerful!) and laughed at a “Biiiiig pixie woman” (who made Cat speak French) and read the brochures. I found pictures of our Swing Band in 2 of them (which was cool) so I kept them. We were so relieved when Cat finally came over to us, although we were worried about standing up in case we’d become moulded to the sofa!

Cat got the job.

We all then we made our way to find Earl’s Court Youth Hostel where the lads were waiting for us so we could go out to The Comedy Store. They ended up leaving without us cos we needed a rest after trekking across London and then all the way to the very top of the hostel!

We were a few minutes late for the Comedy Store thing but still got in. It was sooooo funny! The people there were Tony Hawks, Lee Simpson, Alex Munroe (I think), Richard Vranch and some others.

Once it’d finished, we were stood outside and all the comedians just walked past us down the road. The Lee Simpson bloke spoke to us and said we’ll have to go to the Manchester one too. We might just do that!

[Lurking round the door.]

We got a bottle of Taboo on the way back to the hostel and drank it when we arrived. We made lots of phone calls to people such as Sarah and Denny texted Rhian. I’m proud I’ve not texted Jake since Monday. 🙂

I had lots of messages from Duncan asking when I’m next up and stuff, and Cat texted a dominatrix man she’s met on the internet. Hmm.


He’s hardly a mosher – 2nd September 2001

Sunday 2nd Abby, Connor, Jake and I all went to One Big Sunday for Radio 1 at Victoria Park in Leicester today. We were all knackered cos it took us ages to get there and then couldn’t find any parking after getting up really early.

It was good apart from me getting upset over Jake and Wednesday, and Jake being in a foul mood for most of the day. I brought it up cos I could feel the tension and I wanted to get it sorted but he ended up saying I was getting on his nerves for going on about it and he said it “wasn’t my scene”. That made me laugh cos he’s hardly a mosher and was obviously just going to try and fit in with Niall and Emma etc. who he obviously worships.

He tried to cheer me up a bit later by prodding me and touching my nose. I did cheer up but only cos I wasn’t going to let him ruin my day. He pissed me off actually most of the time and made me cringe when he suddenly came all alive and sang when Coldplay came on, thinking he was cool knowing the words and stuff!

Connor nearly got himself battered at one point. Some girl sat on the shoulders of a bloke in front and he was complaining that he couldn’t see. Then this huge bloke next to us told Connor to chill out and, stupidly, Connor turned round and called him a knobhead. Luckily he didn’t react!

The people there today were pretty good actually. There was:

[Here are their songs from around that time for your listening pleasure/displeasure…]

I also found out what DJ Chris Moyles looked like.

On the way back, we got very lost and couldn’t find out way out of bloody Leicester. Jake had a missed call off Charlie, a girl from Canada, cos she was back from New Zealand and he was constantly texting people.

Jake gave me a hug and pressed my nose when he got out of the car.

I’m going to London on Tuesday! Yey!! I really wanted to go but had no money but Grandma gave me £50 for passing my exams. Cat’s going for her Club Europe interview and Gethin dropped out so I’m taking his place. 🙂


I “bounce” when I get excited – 31st August & 1st September 2001

Friday 31st I had a driving lesson this morning and then I went round to Sarah’s for a bit.

We did The Run [pub crawl] tonight because it’s Karen’s last one before she goes to uni tomorrow but she wasn’t told about it and didn’t turn up until late!

[Karen, Lizzie, me and Cat waiting for Karen’s last pre-uni takeaway midway along The Run.]

My phone somehow managed to ring Jake’s for about 15 minutes and wasted all £2 of my credit. The speed dial button for him must’ve been pressed while it was in my bag or something. Grr!! It did get us speaking again though cos I texted to apologise about the 15 min long answerphone silent message and he texted back saying he’ll ring me tomorrow if I still want him to go on Sunday.

I also had texts from Duncan. He told me Marc said I’d split up from Jake.

Sarah ring Michael in The Mossland and Michael said if he goes for a drink with Fit Jon, I can go too. 🙂 Mmm, Jon!

Sarah also told me that Michael said I remind him of Fizz out of the Tweenies cos I “bounce” when I get excited. Hmm!

Lizzie had a message from the lad she snogged on Tuesday saying they had a crap night after we left. 🙂


Saturday 1st A group of us went to Denny’s tonight to watch the England v Germany match.

Jake was there and didn’t say much but I don’t care. He said he was okay and then left.

There were some funny things said by the commentators during the match referring mainly to Jancker and Seaman. We saw the dirty side! For example, when talking about Jancker, they said he was a bit of a “handful” and that the other players need to “get to grips” with him! They also said things like “Seaman’s all over the ball” and “Seaman’s just come out of the goal”! Hee hee!! 🙂


Liar!! – 30th August 2001

Thursday 30th I sent Jake a message this morning. My aim was to act nice at first and find out as much as possible about last night and then get mad with him. It worked too!

In my 1st message I asked if he was still up for Leicester and then included a bit saying my sis and Connor saw him last night. He replied saying he went to see the band etc. so I sent him a 2nd message asking if they were good and who went. He said it was good and that Gethin, Niall, Dougie, Isaac and Emma went. I knew Emma would be there! Apparently it was Dougie who asked him though.

I then got angry with him and decided not to let him get away with it so I sent another saying, “NICE TO KNOW YOU THOUGHT OF ME. SO MUCH FOR BEING YOUR “BEST FRIEND”! HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF I FORGOT ABOUT YOU? THANX”.

He replied saying not to blame him and there was no room in the car. So, I pointed out that I saved a seat for him when there was only one car going to Ainsdale (but that was a lie!) and that I still invited him when Rocky’s car was full on Tuesday night.

His reply was that it wasn’t up to him to invite people so I told him it wasn’t up to me to invite people to Ainsdale or town. He also said he only found out at 6pm (but that was a lie cos Dougie mentioned it on Tuesday) so I said if he could make it when he only just found out, I could’ve too!

I also pointed out that when I sent him a message last night asking what he was up to, he sent a reply at 6:45pm saying he was watching Hollyoaks! Liar!!

He didn’t reply to that message so I’m assuming I’ve won that argument! 🙂


I could snog him in front of them – 29th August 2001

Wednesday 29th I rang Jake today to tell him the arrangements for One Big Sunday in Leicester and he was really off with me. I asked what was wrong and he said it was because I was nasty to him last night and he saw my face fall when he arrived. Karen, Isaac and Rocky apparently agreed with him. Thanks a lot!

I feel really guilty about it now but I was looking forward to a night out with just my mates, without having him there to upset me by reminding me what it used to be like. It’s almost like torture when he’s there and I can’t kiss him and stuff. I also didn’t like seeing loads of girls looking him up and down constantly in Edison’s. When I was with him I could snog him in front of them and feel really smug but not anymore. There’s nothing I can do.

On the phone, Jake also said that I looked really nice with my hair up and pointed out that I never did that for him. I couldn’t help thinking that if I’d worn my hair up before then he wouldn’t have wanted to split up but I’m not going to think like that cos there are a lot more “ifs” that the same could be said about.

He said everyone noticed him looking down cos of me. I felt more guilty at first but when I thought about it, he’s the one that wanted to break up more than me so I’ve got no reason to feel like that really.

I’ve been really upset this evening. Abby and Connor saw Jake on their way to kickboxing. He was sat on a wall in the next village waiting for a lift to Warrington to see Freda’s band play at Çasi. I’m so pissed off! I’ve been inviting him everywhere with me to prevent him feeling left out. I didn’t want to get too upset about it cos Mum said how proud she was of the way I’ve handled the situation and just got on with things. I couldn’t help it though. I kept getting images of him snogging random girls and I bet any money Emma’s there!

I think it’s just cos it’s the first time he’s been out without me properly that it’s upset me and I probably won’t be as bothered from now on. It’ll be the same with his girlfriends, I suppose.