AAARRRGGGHHH!!! That’s like one of my worst nightmares! – 1st August 2000

Tuesday 1st Jake invited me round to his house today cos we decided against going to Sarah’s cos we thought it was going to rain. There was only him, his brother and the cleaner there when I arrived but we went to his room anyway. I had a good look round! He’s got shelves dedicated to certain things, for example, he’s got a shelf full of Beetle (the car that is!) stuff!

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[Teenage Jake in his natural habitat circa 2000.]

We didn’t do much at all except lie about on his bed and talk and not answer the phone to Hugo Pratt (his rich mate) cos he’d (earlier on) been making dirty comments about ice cream when Jake mentioned we were eating some!

At one point, Jake and I managed to depress ourselves by bringing up the Canada subject. It couldn’t really be avoided cos he had loads of Canadian stuff in his room (including a big flag!) which kept reminding me anyway! He told me he could’ve done the ski instructor course in Scotland and that he could only do it for 7 weeks of he wanted, rather than 12, and he said I can go to the meetings with him if I want to see who he’ll be with.

I think I’m better off not going cos it’d only upset me to hear all about it and if there was some gorgeous girl there then I’d be made sooo paranoid when he goes! Still, it was nice of him to say I could go with him.

He also gave me my presents from his Europe trip. There’s a big pine cone from Barcelona, a stone from Nice I think and then loads of bus tickets and stuff from everywhere else. He also gave me the receipt from the lunch he bought in Valkenburg while he was waiting for me to arrive!

The other thing he gave me was this P&O brochure of the Aurora cruise ship (he’s on the Aurora AU011 cruise in it – lucky git!). He said it’s so I can see where he’ll be every day but it’s more like he’s rubbing it in! I don’t think he means to though!

His dad came home from work and I got invited for a meal at Rialto’s on Saturday… AAARRRGGGHHH!!! That’s like one of my worst nightmares! I hate eating in front of people and it’s not just Jake, it’s the rest of his family, plus nearly everyone I know works in Rialto’s!! I couldn’t say no though cos he said he’d like me to come. I’m gonna be wetting myself by Saturday afternoon!

About half an hour before I had to go, Jake decided to 3. Then his dad came in to offer me a lift home (he didn’t notice – I hope!) so we had to stop.

When I got in, I had a message saying, “R U WITH J” and I didn’t recognise the number so I texted Jake and he said, “IT’S NOT ONE OF MY FRIENDS! MIGHT BE HUGO USING HIS SIS/MUM’S PHONE THOUGH! I’M SOOO SORRY! THAT HAPPENS EVERY TIME AND IT’S NOT FAIR ON YOU! : ) LOVE YOU! xJx”.

I told him it didn’t matter and he said, “MMM! I STILL FELL BAD! : ( IT HAS TO BE A 2-WAY THING!! IF YOU CAN COME ON SATURDAY WE’RE DEF GOING TO RIALTO’S NOT THE CHINESE! : ( I’D LIKE YOU TO COME IF YOU CAN! LOVE xJx”.

When his dad walked in on us, Jake had looked really pissed off. I could tell then that it was cos he’d not done to me what I’d done to him. That made me feel guilty for making him feel guilty so I told him and he said, “WE’RE A RIGHT PAIR! ONE OF US CAN’T FEEL BAD/GUILTY WITHOUT THE OTHER ONE FEELING EVEN WORSE COS OF IT! YEAH YOU TOLD ME YOU HAD TO WASH THE CAR – I DON’T MIND HELPING (I MEAN GETTING YOU SOAKING WET)!! : ) I’D DO ANYTHING JUST TO BE WITH YOU – EVEN IF IT DOES INVOLVE SLAVE LABOUR! LOVE xJx”.

Oh, he’s so nice!

Bye!

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He had his hands in my bra – 26th July 2000

Wednesday 26th Jake and I actually got some sleep last night despite being in the same bed. It was really nice waking up to him this morning.

I got to sit next to him on the coach on the way back.

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When I was covered up with my fleece, he pulled my top down and he had his hands in my bra but then the coach stopped at the services. Everyone was too tired to notice what he was up to I think!

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[In case you can’t read that, my cash and carry shopping haul consisted of 1 massive Milka chocolate slab, 1 bottle of Bacardi and 1 bottle of Archers.]

I discovered that he likes me running my fingers through his hair and being tickled but he says he’s never been ticklish before and that it’s just the way I do it. He said he likes being messed with.

We arrived back quite late. Neither of us wanted to come home cos we know we won’t see each other anywhere near as much now.

Bye!

Dressed as robbers with bras on their heads! – 25th July 2000

Tuesday 25th P. [Period.]

Before we set off for the swimming place called Mosaqua at Gulpen, some girl from another school had asked Gethin if Jake and I are going out. He asked how she’d guessed and she told him that it was cos he hadn’t reacted to anyone other than me!

I didn’t go swimming so I just sat by the café at the side of the pool with Jake and the others who weren’t swimming.

We had our last concert in Aachen in Germany today. It was pointless cos we had an audience of about 3 people cos it was rainy, one being this little old woman who was jigging about in her seat and making us all smile!

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[Bet I was miming.]

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Jake and I went to the Queen Vic for a while and then I went with him to his hotel so he could get his bags to dump at ours ready for the coach in the morning. We just sat in my room for a while and decided it’d been a really good few days cos we’d seen so much of each other and that we didn’t want to go home. He said he thinks we should just run away together!

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[Jake helping us to pack.]

Later, we were joined by Gethin. He was pissed and said something about Jake being able to sleep in his room if he wanted (but we’d already decided he could sleep in my bed then it’s not such a rush in the morning) and Gethin was being a bit perverted so Jake told him that he wanted straight sex not gay sex! Well, he didn’t get either but I was glad to hear that!

Some of the girls whose last trip it is with the band, Rina H and Greta Allen, came into our room before, very pissed and dressed as robbers with bras on their heads! Strange!

Bye!

It’s his last night to pull – 20th July 2000

Thursday 20th My postcards from Jake finally arrived this morning. It’s a good job they did or I wouldn’t have been able to read them until I got back from Holland. (I’ve stuck them over the page.)

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It was the last day of college today but I’ve been left with tonnes of coursework to get on with over the “holidays”! We finished early today so I came home to pack for tonight when I leave for Holland. I’m getting really excited now but I know the coach journey’s going to seem to take forever and I won’t get much sleep (if any!) so I’ll look a complete state when I get off at the other end! I hope Jake will be there though.

He’s asked me to bring my nail varnish cos he’s only got a bit left on his nail and also my Poppy body spray cos the smell of it on his watch strap’s wearing off. I think I’d better take my nail varnish remover and all cos if he gets drunk, he’ll let me put it on and then regret it the next morning!

He was telling me before that he’s going into Amsterdam tonight because it’s Charlie’s and Ali’s last chance to pull and Charlie reckons he’s feeling lucky! He also told me that he can’t stay in our hotel cos there’s no room so he’s booked into a hostel or something in Maastricht which he said is only 10 minutes away on the train.

He sent me 2 messages after that saying, “I GET TO SEE YOU TOMORROW! : ) : ) : ) SORRY – IT LOOKS BETTER WHEN I WRITE IT IN A MSG! : ) CAN YOU TELL HOW HAPPY N VERY EXCITED I AM BY THE NUMBER OF SMILEY FACES??…” and then, “COS I’M SOOO EXCITED!!! LOVE YOU TO BITS!!! : ) : ) : ) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx J xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx : ) : ) : )”. Do you think he put enough kisses?!

I then told him (jokingly) that it’s his last night to pull too but he said, “CHEEK – YOU KNOW I’M NOT OUT TO PULL AND I DON’T WANT TO EITHER! : ) WAY TOO HAPPY TO EVEN LOOK AT ANYONE ELSE! : ) I THOUGHT IT WAS AT LEAST 7PM BEFORE – THEN I LOOKED AT MY WATCH AND IT’S ONLY 4PM! CAN’T BELIEVE HOW SLOW IT’S GOING! 24 HOURS AND WE’LL BE TOGETHER! : ) LOVE YOU! : ) xxx J xxx”.

I’ve decided that from now on, when I get a continuing message, I’ll just write it down as if it’s one.

A bit later on he said, “REALLY REALLY REALLY CAN’T WAIT! YOU WILL TEXT ME WHEN YOU’RE ALL ON THE COACH WON’T YOU?! I’M JUST WALKING ROUND – THEY’RE LOOKING FOR SOME DODGY COFFEE HOUSES! WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?? I’M SOOO EXCITED! – THIS HAS BEEN SO HORRIBLE! AND TOMORROW IT’LL ALL BE OVER – CAN’T WAIT! REALLY DO LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! xJx”.

I agreed that it’s been horrible and stuff and then he said, “UURRGGHH! JUST WANT TO GET ON THAT TRAIN NOW! AT THEY VERY LEAST I SHOULD SEE YOU IN THE EVENINGS… SHOULDN’T I?? GONNA WANT TO BE WITH YOU ALL THE TIME! CAN’T PUT IN THIS OR ANY OTHER MSG HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!!! COS I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS! : ) YOU MAKE ME SOOO HAPPY! : ) STILL CAN’T WAIT! – HOPE YOU’VE GOT LOTS OF CREDIT FOR THIS COACH JOURNEY (WELL UNTIL YOU GET ON THE FERRY)! LEAST YOU SHOULDN’T FALL ASLEEP TONIGHT… SHOULD YOU! LOVE YOU LOTS!!! : ) xxx J xxx”,

I really can’t wait to see him! I just want to get there!

Bye!

Advising Cat on how she could repel Floyd – 18th & 19th July 2000

Tuesday 18th I’ve not really got much to tell today other than Jake’s location is now Liechtenstein.

We had our Au Revoir concert for Swing Band at the British Legion in the village tonight so now I really feel like I should be going to Holland soon! 🙂

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[My eyes were glowing with all that enthusiasm.]

Bye!

Wednesday 19th Only a couple of days and I’ll see Jake again hopefully! Nothing much happened again today but in Biology, Jake and I were exchanging messages as usual and he told me that he’d just seen a shop called Tess! Then I’d just been advising Cat on how she could repel Floyd and one of my suggestions had been snogging Charlie Wilson in Holland! I asked Jake’s opinion and he suggested exactly the same thing! Anyway, he told me that he’d been cycling in Zurich and he’s going to Amsterdam tonight.

I had my blood test results back and it turns out that I did just have tonsillitis so I let Jake know. He said it was good and then, “YOU KNOW I CAN’T RESIST YOU! I’D BE ALL OVER YOU EVEN IF YOU HAD SOME DEADLY VIRUS! : ) WE SHOULD GO AS A PAIR TO FREDA’S FANCY DRESS PARTY SO WE KINDA MATCH! : ) : ) : ) GET TO SEE YOU SOON! x”.

I told him it’d make it more difficult to decide what to go as to the party if we did that, when in actual fact I just don’t want to do that cos it’s a bit sad! I pointed out that we only have about one day to go and he said, “OK IT WOULD MAKE IT A BIT HARDER! YEH – 1 DAY! : ) SOUNDS SOOO GOOD! SEEMS SO LONG AGO SINCE I LAST SAW YOU! JUST CAN’T BELIEVE I’M GONNA SEE YOU…” and then, “WE’VE HAD TO MSG EACH OTHER AND TALK ON THE PHONE FOR 3 WEEKS! FROM FRI I CAN PUT MY PHONE AWAY AND GET MY LONG OVERDUE HUGS/CUDDLES/KISSES! LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! x”.

I warned him that my phone doesn’t work abroad so I won’t be able to text him for most of my journey but he said, “NOT TEXTING ME IS A SMALL PRICE TO PAY SEEING AS WE’RE GONNA SEE EACH OTHER! : ) I CAN’T CONCENTRATE EITHER – BUT I DON’T HAVE MUCH TO THINK ABOUT…” and, “WHICH LEAVES ME LOTS OF TIME TO THINK ABOUT YOU! : ) I’M ON A TRAIN NOW UNTIL 9 AM TOMORROW – IT’S GONNA GO SOOO SLOWLY! I’M GONNA HAVE THE BIGGEST SMILE…” and lastly, “IN THE WORLD WHEN I SEE YOU GET OFF THAT COACH! I’M GONNA BE SOOO HAPPY! I’M LIKE A LITTLE KID WHO CAN’T WAIT TO OPEN HIS XMAS PRESENTS! WANT YOU NOW – CAN’T WAIT! Jx”.

When I got back from kickboxing (which was horrible and hard tonight!), I had a message from Jake saying, “UH! WON’T BE ABLE TO SLEEP TONIGHT! CAN’T STOP REMEMBERING THEN THINKING! SOOO EXCITED! IN FACT I WON’T BE ABLE TO SLEEP FOR THE NEXT WEEK – WON’T WANT TO LEAVE YOU! x”.

I told him I’ll just have to escape if I’m made to stay in my room and he said, “YEH YOU WILL – ESPECIALLY IF YOU’RE MADE TO GO TO BED REALLY EARLY! I’LL STAY THERE IF THEY’VE GOT A ROOM – IF NOT I DON’T KNOW! HOPE THERE IS COS I WANT TO BE WITH…” and, “YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE! KNOWING MY LUCK YOU’LL BE STAYING IN A TINY HOTEL MILES FROM ANYWHERE! CAN YOU SEND ME THE NUMBER OF THE HOTEL TOMORROW?! LOVE Jx”.

Then my last message from him said, “AT LEAST IT LOOKS LIKE I’VE GOT A SEAT ON THE COACH – THAT’S THE MAIN THING! JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU – ALL THE TIME! I’M SOOO HAPPY THAT I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU! xxx JAKE xxx”.

I’m happy that he is too!

Bye!

Hayley’s suddenly decided to speak to us all again – 12th July 2000

Wednesday 12th Back to college today. Hayley’s suddenly decided to speak to us all again now Georgia Dean’s gone off to join the police. She says she’ll never be able to trust Sarah again apparently but I think that it should be the other way round.

I got told by the IT teacher that I passed my INIT exam [I have no idea what this was.] with distinction so I either got 98%, 99% or 100%! It wasn’t exactly difficult though really!

Jake was in Venice at lunchtime and had a 16 hour train journey to Budapest ahead of him. I texted him to tell him that Cat reckons he’s really lucky and his reply to me was, “I AM LUCKY THAT I’M ON THIS TRIP – I’M ALSO LUCKY THAT I’M GOING ON THE CRUISE BUT I’M EVEN MORE LUCKY HAVING YOU! THE CRUISE IS ONLY 10 NIGHTS – THAT’S NOTHING…” and then, “COMPARED TO THIS! ALTHOUGH I’M MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY, THE THOUGHT OF SEEING YOU AND THERE BEING 1 LESS DAY EVERY DAY MAKES IT A BIT BETTER! : )”.

Well, we’ve only got about a week left to go now hopefully!

Bye!

Jacking off in his cupboard – 22nd June 2000

Thursday 22nd Today turned out to be quite good in the end. I was beginning to doubt I wanted to go this morning cos I didn’t want to be getting the way of any lad chats! Sarah ended up coming too which I was quite pleased about, otherwise I’d have been stuck with Jake, Gethin and Robbie Taylor (who I will call MiniTaylor in this diary from now on due to there being too many Roberts and Jake gets called ‘Taylor’ by most people!). It was just quite funny cos Gethin was being a prick so MiniTaylor was taking the piss out of him but Sarah was still worshipping the ground Gethin walked on!

We spent most of our time in Starbucks as usual but trekked round the shops for a bit. Jake went in River Island (the bloke bit of course!) to look at some bandanas! He’d better not get one! Both Taylor lads wear Quiksilver stuff (sad!) so we kept losing them both to it this time!

I got left on a bench with Jake for a while cos we couldn’t be bothered moving. The others wandered off and came back talking about MiniTaylor jacking off in his cupboard or something?! I didn’t want to know!

We then saw Ewan Swann (prat!) and Maisie Jones and then decided to go home!

I had a message before saying, “HELLO! DID YOU JUST HEAR THE THUNDER? IT’S FINALLY ARRIVED! HOW’S THE REVISION GOING? I’M SO GLAD YOU CAME TODAY! I’M MISSING YOU NOW THOUGH! LOVE YOU!!! : ) xxx”. That pleased me in the middle of my Geography revision! I’ve got my last external exam tomorrow!

Found out from MiniTaylor that their sister’s read Jake’s text messages! I’m going to have to get his phone off him and read them cos I can’t remember what I put!

Bye!