Kevin smells funny – 27th & 28th October 2001

Saturday 27th Kevin ended up sleeping in my bed with me last night but nothing whatsoever happened. I suppose it is quite nice that he’s not pressuring me into doing stuff but it’s not half frustrating sometimes!

I didn’t get much sleep but only because the level of comfort was pretty low. The little sleep I did get was interrupted by Kevin moving or telling me I was snoring or nicking the duvet. I’ve decided not to let him stay again so I had to refuse when he asked if he could stay again tonight. I was tempted to let him but I didn’t want to give in just in case he mithers me in future cos he thinks I’ll let him if he does.

Kevin also told me more about his previous girlfriends. The 1 month one dumped him cos she got back with her old boyfriend and the 6 month one lived in Suffolk so they split up cos of the distance, I think.


Sunday 28th Not much happened today. I went to Sainsbury’s with Kevin, he said I’d look cute with shorter hair, he went all cuddly when we were in my room, and he called me “gorgeous” again.

This is going to sound really immature but Kevin smells funny. I think it’s his breath. It’s not bad, just funny. I think I’d like him better if he wore nice smelly stuff actually. If he does, it isn’t obvious.


The urge to slap her was so strong – 25th & 26th October 2001

Thursday 25th I was still really pissed this morning! I managed to get through lectures though and then get some sleep before getting ready to go to the Jason Donovan concert.

Violet booked the tickets a few days ago cos, while we were all slightly drunk, my flatmates and I decided we really wanted to go. A few extra people came too such as Layla’s mate Claire and Violet’s boyfriend.

The concert was surprisingly good and it was pretty packed. Jason only sang about 4 songs but then we got 2 Blues Brothers blokes. I thought they were better to be honest and Claire agreed!

[Here’s my terrible photo of the man himself.]

After the concert, we all made our way to Bar Non. Kevin was there and said he was going to surprise me but he’d told me earlier on just in case I missed him. I spoke to Jake in there too. He hugged me when he first saw me and claimed he’s bit after Bronwen anymore. He told me that he might have to leave Huddersfield because he won’t be able to do the full course here cos it’s not good enough or something. He’ll have to take a year out and go to Sheffield Hallam instead.

I later saw Jake snogging that girl again but then I was doing the same thing with Kevin so I didn’t really care.


Friday 26th Layla’s friend Michelle came out with us all tonight. This was fine until she got pissed and became one of the most annoying, loud, in-your-face stupid cows I’ve ever seen! Kevin kept having to restrain me cos the urge to slap her was so strong! I just avoided Michelle as much as possible and I stuck with Kevin all night. We went to Milton, Revolution and then Camel Club and they were all pretty crap actually.

[Here we are prior to wanting to slap Michelle. It’s Marc, Ronan, Claire, Kevin and me at the back and Layla and Michelle at the front.]

I rang Jake when I got in to ask him if Vinnie Jones dies in the film Snatch cos I know he’s seen it and thought he might settle the debate between me and Kevin. He did actually sound quite pleased to hear from me and we ended up having a really long conversation which was nice.

Kevin decided to confess to me about his “psycho” past as well tonight. He used the word “psycho” (which worried me a bit at first) but it turned out that he’d just been in a couple of fights and went a bit over the top. It doesn’t particularly please me to know that (I’m used to lads like Jake!) but I’m really not that bothered as long as he doesn’t turn on me or anyone I like.


“Don’t take samples now, we just pissed in the stream” – 24th October 2001

Wednesday 24th Our course had to go on another field trip today, only this time it wasn’t too bad. It was nice and sunny and we were in some woodland somewhere (Stonycliffe Woods, maybe?) taking water samples and stuff. We just had to work in small groups so I was with the Environmental Science with Geography people (my exact course) who are Jen, Jonathan and a woman called Gina.

Kevin was upstream with the Environmental Science lot which includes Vicky who very obviously fancies him! She’s a bit odd though so I don’t think her feelings are returned. She just laughs at everything he says and he wrote “Don’t take samples now, we just pissed in the stream” on a plastic duck which he was going to float down to us, and she thought it was hilarious and kept going on about it. Then she sat in the seat I’d been sat on (next to Kevin) on the coach on the way back. I don’t mind really. It’s pretty funny and I’m used to people being after my lad after going out with Jake for so long!

I went out with just Kevin tonight into town. He wouldn’t queue up for anywhere so we ended up in Warehouse which was a bit crap to begin with. It got better though, once I discovered they’d serve pints of diesel :)! I got pretty pissed actually.

Kevin’s flatmate Nico (I think that’s what he’s called) was there too. He gives the impression that he’s a bit sleazy and there’s something I don’t like about him but I’m not sure what. He hit some girl too. He’s a bit if a shortarse so I’m surprised no-one smacked him back. I’ve got into the habit of calling him The Tooth Fairy though cos he’s got a shark’s tooth round his neck with little white shells that also look like teeth.

After Warehouse we went to Camel Club. It looks a bit like an igloo in there and I found a toy plastic gun on the floor. I also saw Jill Baines from my college.

I pointed out the Vicky thing to Kevin and he couldn’t disagree with me so he obviously thinks she likes him too. I couldn’t help but tease him about it so when we saw her, I dragged him over to sit with her. Hee hee!!

Kevin came into my room for a bit when we got back and I managed to fall asleep until he turned the light off. I was snoring apparently but he said I looked cute when I was asleep! He wanted to stay but I wouldn’t let him cos I’ve got lectures first thing tomorrow.

He referred to himself as my boyfriend, said that “Brown Eyed Girl” song could be for me (cringe!!) and grabbed me and kissed me. I liked the last part! 🙂


Plucking their eyebrows at the kitchen table – 23rd October 2001

Tuesday 23rd I had a pretty short day at uni today so I just went back to Storthes and slept for ages until it was time to go round to Kevin’s to be cooked for.

It was a bit scary being in his flat cos I’ve never really seen anyone from it. Nobody really spoke to me though. The lads weren’t there and the girls were either cooking (actual veg and stuff!) or plucking their eyebrows at the kitchen table and getting ready to go out.

Kevin and I ate then he got his TV out of hiding (no licence) and we watched that before going up to the Arbar.

I spoke to Violet at one point tonight and she informed me that Marc feels like a twat after what went on last night. There wasn’t really much I could say to make him feel better though cos he was a twat.

The Arbar was boring so we went back to watch TV again and cuddled. He seemed to kiss me a bit more tonight and said I’ve got a nice smile and that I can go in his car when we go on the Wales field trip. Yey!


He never shuts up about his damn hernia – 22nd October 2001

Monday 22nd I went to Rock Night at the Arbar this evening with Marc, his mate Chris (one with gingery hair) and Kevin. Marc and Kevin was definitely a bad combination and I’m going to avoid mixing the 2 of them in future!

I was messing about doing the “which would you rather?” game and asking the lads at the table about girls in the room. It wasn’t like I singled Marc out cos I was asking them all the same thing and no-one took offence to it. Actually, I don’t even know if that’s what set him off cos he played along. Then a few minutes later he started telling me, or rather yelling and swearing at me, to “fucking get outside now”. Kevin had gone to the bar so maybe he’d picked his moment carefully cos the way he was speaking to me wasn’t particularly pleasant and if some girl had yelled at Kevin like that, I wouldn’t have been best pleased.

“Best pleased” would definitely not be the words to describe the way I was feeling towards Marc at that point. My level of aggressiveness rose extremely high and I had to grip the seat to stop myself leaping up and lamping him. I don’t know what Marc thinks I’m like but there is no way I was going to obey his commands and follow him outside. I basically reacted with “fuck off ” and a few more evil comments and he stormed off back to the flat. I was absolutely fuming!

When I got back to the flat with Kevin, I found this letter pushed under my door along with various text and voicemail messages on my phone apologising over and over and basically saying what’s in the letter lots of times.

He must’ve thought I was ignoring his calls but I just didn’t take my phone out with me.

Marc obviously feels really guilty and is regretting yelling at me like that so, seeing as I’ve calmed down myself now, I might just forgive him. He’ll be regretting it a lot more though if he ever pisses me off like that again!

Kevin looked really nice tonight actually and I’ve decided I really like him again. His hair was all spiky and he was looking a bit scruffy to fit in with the moshers but then I quite like that look. 🙂

He is a bit slow though. It took him ages before he kissed me. I discovered he’s really ticklish on his back and likes having his hair messed with. He called me “gorgeous” too. 🙂 He said he never knew what to say to me before last Friday when we got together. I also found out he’s had 2 girlfriends before. One for a month and the other for 6 months.

I’ve discovered another small problem with him and it’s that he never shuts up about his damn hernia and all the injuries/operations he’s had. It wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn’t so squeamish!


Some gimp with a blue knob – 21st October 2001

Sunday 21st I was at home all day today (+ bored out of my mind!) and only came back to Huddersfield this evening.

I went into Marc’s room for a bit cos he’d been stuck on his own all weekend and was just about ready to go mad. He actually looked quite nice but I can’t decide what it was about him that made me think that.

Kevin came round tonight as well and said he’d missed me this weekend but didn’t realise quite how much until he was actually back with me. He also managed to scare me a bit again by saying that we don’t need anyone else cos we’ve got each other when I mentioned most of my flatmates disappear at weekends. Oh yeah, he also mentioned us “going out” again and said he’s going to cook me Chinese stuff in his flat tomorrow. Nooo!! Back off!!

Ugh, what’s wrong with me?! I really liked him before I got with him and now I seem to be changing my mind. It was the same with Marc until he told me he fancied me and then I ran a mile.

Maybe I’m just not ready for another boyfriend yet cos Jake and I were madly in love at one point and it’s not been that long since we split up yet. It was different with him too. I couldn’t wait to see him all the time whereas I keep putting off ringing Kevin to say he can come round.

I keep comparing me and Kevin to me and Jake as well, which is never good. Bloody Jake has gone and made me really fussy, I’m sure, cos he is so nice looking and was so nice and sweet to me. If I’d gone out with someone really minging and evil first then I probably wouldn’t be like this now!

With any luck it’ll all sort out. I’ll just see what happens. I remember when Sarah and Michael 1st got together, he was really keen but she was still pining over Maz (some gimp with a blue knob [trapped blood vessel or something] who she lost her virginity to) so she wasn’t that sure about Michael. They seem to be fine though now, even though she does occasionally go with [snog] random lads on nights out in Liverpool.

However, I am not “pining” over Jake because I refuse to let an ex ruin my life and cry constantly and just generally piss people off with constant whinging about a lost bloke. BUT if I reeeally liked Kevin (e.g. as much as I reeeally liked Jake) there would be no way I’d have snogged Colm for fear of losing a boyfriend over it.

Ah, fuck it! I’ll just have to take things as they come and stop tying my brain in knots thinking about it.


Lizzie’s bad influence must’ve rubbed off on me – 19th & 20th October 2001

Friday 19th I somehow managed to stay awake in today’s lectures but I’ve no idea how the hell I did it! I said a quick goodbye to Kevin and then Michael picked me up from Storthes on his “way past” from Hertfordshire Uni to take me home.

We stopped off at Sarah’s on the way so he could pick up his birthday present (a VW Beetle Scalextric thing). It was really good to see her actually cos I miss her, Cat and Lizzie (my main girly friends) a bit sometimes.

I then came home and was informed that my sister, Abby, has had her belly button pierced but I’m not allowed to mention it to Dad.


Saturday 20th I went out to Manchester tonight with a load of my college friends for Michael’s birthday and Floyd’s birthday. It was also a lad called Ian’s birthday who used to work with Michael during the summer so he came too.

Out of my friends, a few were missing but Sarah, Lizzie, Denny, Isaac, Floyd and Michael were there. It was really nice to see them as well. Lizzie was being a bit annoying to start with cos she kept going on and on about how she’s cheated on her latest boyfriend, AJ, while he was stood in the same room. We also had to keep hearing about her having had sex 9 times and for the 1st time indoors rather than on a beach in Cyprus. She eventually shut up though and I hung round with her for most of the night.

We started off in Soft but it was really quiet so we made our way to Teasers instead. Denny was filling us in on life at Aberystwyth Uni and how Gethin (our gay friend) has managed to get himself a boyfriend.

Lizzie’s bad influence must’ve rubbed off on me because towards the end of the night I ended up snogging a lad who’d been talking to us all night. He was really nice, both looking and personality-wise and he was a really good kisser. Mmm! He also held my hand when we were walking round and came with me to get my coat back. We just kissed loads! He’s called Colm and his number is 0161 *** **** and he was wearing a nice stripy pyjama-style shirt.

Colm may have been very nice but I do feel pretty guilty now cos of Kevin so I won’t be ringing Colm tomorrow afternoon like he asked me to. He didn’t have a mobile phone either so the fact that his mum or someone could answer also puts me off a bit!

I was also talking to Colm’s mate at one point and I discovered that he went to Huddersfield Uni too. Not only that but he lived at Storthes in Boothroyd Court in Block C. I’m in Boothroyd Block D! Weird!

Kevin texted me tonight as well saying he wished he was here and put a “x” at the end for the 1st time ever. Oops! I feel really shady now. At the time though, everyone was convincing me that Kevin and I aren’t really that official and I also told myself that I’ve not known him long so for all I know he could be at home getting off with random girls. I also did kind of want to snog Colm too so I didn’t really need much persuading!


What if I’ve missed a really good chance? – 17th & 18th October 2001

Wednesday 17th Kevin helped me with my chemistry in our Molecular Sciences lecture this morning. It’s a good job he did cos I didn’t have a clue what I was doing!

This evening, all my flatmates decided to go to the cinema to see Fast + Furious but I didn’t feel like it so Kevin came round instead to watch TV cos his is hidden in a store cupboard just in case the TV Licence people pick on his flat! We only kissed twice (slightly frustratingly) and it tends to be me that starts it off. He said I’m really cute when I’m sleepy though.

Ok, this is not a good thing….. I’m now kind of wondering what it’d be like being with Marc now. What if I’ve missed a really good chance? His parents do have a Jacuzzi in their bedroom! I’m not going to go messing people about though. I’ll stick with Kevin for now.


Thursday 18th We had a short field trip to some greenhouse or other this afternoon. It was unbearably hot and Jen fainted. That got us both out of doing any work 🙂 cos she had to sit down and I had to make sure she stayed sat down cos she kept trying to do stuff!

I had a pretty good night out tonight. I started off in the Arbar with Kevin and then we got the bus to Bar Club Non with Ben and his flatmates. I snogged Kevin loads which made a nice change but I also had to witness Jake snogging some girl. That was weird cos I haven’t seen him with anyone else before but I wasn’t really that bothered. So much for my theory about him being gay! She was pretty minging! 🙂 Hee hee!!

I did speak to Jake at one point about Bronwen. I asked if he’d got anywhere with her yet and he jokingly told me “shut up” and said his flatmates keep taking the piss about it too. That’s because it’s so damn obvious!

Sally Tiernan and Rick Dobson off my course got together tonight as well. She went with [snogged] Kevin the other week but apparently Rick’s been after her since the start.

Kevin told me he’ll miss me when I go home this weekend. I think I’ll miss him too actually. Apparently I’ve got the same middle name as his sister, Laura, and he said he’s got no problem with me going all cuddly when I’m drunk/tired. Kevin’s middle name is Derek.


I’m not bitter, honest!! – 16th October 2001

Tuesday 16th Kevin was holding my hand and stuff in lectures today. It’s quite nice but makes me feel really uncomfortable when people notice cos they point it out to the person next to them!

I spoke to Lewis (another of my flatmates) when I got in and he was in the Arbar yesterday too and said Marc’s really gutted about me and Kevin. Apparently Marc kept calling Kevin “the one she chose over me”. I felt even more guilty after hearing that but Kevin said he likes the sound of “The One” part. Fuck off! That’s way too creepy. He shouldn’t be saying that when we’ve only been together a few days. He’s beginning to scare me off. Plus I don’t fancy him as much in the day when his hair’s all fluffy and ungelled.

Oh yeah, Kevin also mentioned the words “going out” when talking about us today.

I went to Ben Sandler’s birthday party in Flat 3 this evening but I didn’t stay long cos it was crap. Instead I went to Milton Hall Student Union bar with Vi, Marc, Layla and Lewis out of my flat. I saw Jake (my ex-boyfriend) in there. I spoke to him briefly but then some girls came over and hugged him and the lad he was sat with. Then he went off to Visage with them. I’ve no idea who they were and I wasn’t really that bothered actually. It’s obvious he fancies this girl called Bronwen anyway. Actually, when I tied my hair up tonight, I bared a scary resemblance to her just for a moment. That’s probably not why he likes her though. It’s more likely to be because her brother runs the ski club. Oh and I suppose she’s quite pretty too if you ignore the fact she slightly slouches. I’m not bitter, honest!!

Vi told me that Marc said if Kevin likes me as much as he does then it’s all okay. That’s really sweet! I feel even worse now! I told Kevin that and he said, “I LIKE YOU MORE”.

A lad called Rob who’s here (I made contact with him on before I arrived) rang me tonight. He wanted to meet up in Visage but I didn’t end up going. If he’s fit I’m going to be pissed off!!


I’m sure she’ll work it out – 15th October 2001

Monday 15th Jen (a girl off my course) mentioned to me today that she thought Kevin fancied me. For some reason I didn’t tell her about what happened over the weekend but I’m sure she’ll work it out sooner or later.

I saw Kevin when I got back to Storthes and we just watched TV in my room for ages until we decided to go to the cinema instead. We got a taxi from the bus stop by uni after getting the bus down to Huddersfield and sat in the bar for ages before the film started.

While we were in the bar he mentioned that when he first saw me he thought I was shy but I don’t think he sees me as shy anymore! He also mentioned my birthday and said he wants to get me something “really special”. Ooh good!

We saw American Pie 2 and it was so funny. I liked the 1st one too but I’m not sure which was better. Some of it was totally sick but then that’s what I was expected after seeing the 1st one!

Kevin didn’t snog me until we were outside afterwards waiting for the taxi. When we got back, we went up to the Arbar and Marc was there with his “posse” (his coursemates). Normally, that wouldn’t have been a problem but Marc recently told me he really, really likes me so I felt really awful being with Kevin in front of him. I suppose I should really just confront Marc about it but I really don’t know what to say so I’ll continue avoiding him for the time being!


P.S. Kevin also told me the girls in his flat want to meet me. Aarrghh!! I hate meeting people properly and being introduced etc.!