He just has to add something slightly pervy – 11th August 2002

Sunday 11th  I got paid £262.50 for working at Tor on Monday. That was nice because I was bored again for most of the week. Last week I was asked to post brochures to the people who are being interviewed this week. I’d had trouble getting them in the post box cos they were too big so I kind of bent them and shoved them in. I’d been worried they’d got stuck at the top of the post box and nobody would get them.

Well, on Tuesday, Malcolm told me they had arrived but everyone had had to pay £1.50 because they were too heavy for a 1st class stamp. Oops! Nobody told me and I had asked Janet and she said to send them 1st class so I though that’s what she meant!

Some bloke told Malcolm I was a “nice young lady” too because I’d been helpful on the phone. That made me feel less stupid and thick!

Jonas has made me some CD racks at work. I thought I’d better get him stuff from my work so I filled up an envelope full of paperclips and elastic bands and stuff. 🙂

I texted loads of people from uni while I was bored at work but not many people replied. I’d been in touch with Katy already but other than her, only Violet and Sally replied. Vi said she’s passed all her exams and wants to go back to uni and stop working. Sally said, “Helloooo” at the start of hers (maybe she’s not heard from many people!) and told me she’s in Cornwall at the moment. Kevin also replied later on and told me he’s working for his mum and trying to lose his beer belly. Yuck! He repulses me sooo much!!

I missed Jonas all this week really badly and couldn’t wait to see him. He keeps telling me he loves me 🙂 mmm! I went to Gainsborough on Friday but missed my connection in Sheffield by seconds. That meant I had to wait an hour but it was very, very, very nice seeing Jonas when I eventually arrived. We went to bed quite early and did stuff.

Yesterday, Jonas drive us to Huddersfield. We saw our houses again. My room looks so bloody small! When we got back to Jonas’s, we watched Lord of the Rings then went downstairs and sat in the dimmed light and cuddled, listening to Lene Marlin’s album Playing My Game. It was very nice. It was all perfect and lovely and was one of those times I didn’t want to end.

Jonas said he was trying to be romantic and wanted to dance with me. We basically just cuddled standing up instead. He said he wishes he could come home to me after work. 🙂 He then said he wanted to lie naked in a big silky bed. Typical Jonas! He just has to add something slightly pervy! 🙂 I didn’t want to leave and he didn’t want me to go.

Today, Jonas mentioned going up to Forres (and maybe Wick for a bit) in September. I really want to go but I’m worried about it clashing with moving into our house in Huddersfield.

We went to Meadowhall in Sheffield for a bit and Laura was sick. Nice. It’s not as good as the Trafford Centre.

I really hate leaving Jonas and he really didn’t want me to go. I got him to a text from him with “Love u” at the end. 🙂


A dog called Ballsniffer – 28th July 2002

Sunday 28th  I didn’t have a great time at work at the beginning of this week. For a start it was boring and then Malcolm said I should’ve asked about work I had to do the next day earlier on. I couldn’t because they were all busy. Then on Tuesday, I actually cried (not in front of anyone) because Malcolm was using me as a skivvy to make cups of tea and stuff while I was trying to get loads of more important work done for Janet.

Jonas and my friends made me feel better though. I spoke to Jonas on the phone and we were talking about maybe going on holiday together somewhere. I really miss him lots.

On Tuesday, my friends and I went to Heath Farm pub in Congleton for tea because it’s a 2 for 1 pub which is what The Green Dragon is going to be soon. Everyone who works there wanted to see what they were like. We went to Floyd’s afterwards. The lads are really funny sometimes and they make me laugh.

Work improved on Wednesday. I was shown how to draw plans on Corel Draw 8 then I had to do one myself for Janet. I enjoyed it actually, plus I got to sit upstairs on my own so I had no-one watching me if I felt like texting Jonas or something!

I couldn’t get hold of Jonas that evening but I had a missed call while I was doing The Green Dragon pub quiz. I rang Jonas back and he told me he’s had his phone nicked. It was on the kitchen worktop at his dad’s while they were out at the front and someone went in the back door and took it. He said he wants a cuddle and a kiss and a cry. Aww, poor Jonas! He said he loves me and misses me and wants to go back to uni. He told me he’s unhappy when he’s not with me cos I make him happy. 🙂 He said he thinks about me all the time and does try to text me but his phone deletes stuff while he’s thinking about what to say.

Work wasn’t too bad again on Thursday. Janet sent me and Darren out to find hoover bags on our lunch break which Darren was not amused by. He had a bit of a moan about Malcolm and Janet and said he used to go out for hot meals at lunch but nobody does anymore. He said if I ever fancied it then to say so. That was nice and I hope and think it was totally innocent. Just in case it wasn’t, I dropped Jonas and the fact he’s my boyfriend into a conversation.

It was the opening ceremony for the Manchester 2002 Commonwealth Games. It made me feel proud to live near Manchester and I wish I couldn’t been a volunteer.

Jonas phoned me and said his phone was found in a car park so he’s got it back. He told me he loves me. 🙂

On Friday, I went into town with Lizzie and Karen. It was good but pretty uneventful. We played Suck & Blow with beer mats, much to the delight of the lads and bouncers stood near us, Karen fell over and Karen pulled some lad. That was it.

Jonas came to my house yesterday. We did The Run pub crawl with a few people which was funny, e.g. Isaac said he wants a dog called Ballsniffer which will be his own breed called a crotch hound. Ok, it was funny at the time anyway. Neil Kennedy analysed mine and Jonas’s relationship saying (from what he saw that night) Jonas is the daft one and I’m more sensible. I think it alternates to be honest!

Jonas said he likes my mates and we seem to have similar friends to each other. He slept in my bed until 5am ish. I liked having him in there but I didn’t want Mum seeing. He talks in his sleep which is cute!

Before Jonas went home today, we watched the Formula 1 and I drove us (not very well – I got Jonas to park for me!) to the Trafford Centre to see Austin Powers 3 at the cinema. It was very good and very funny. My driving home wasn’t too bad but I could tell Jonas was lying when he said he was impressed and felt relaxed!

I got a bit upset when he was leaving today. I hate not seeing him during the week. He said he loves me and will text and ring me cos he shouldn’t be too busy.

Over the last few nights I’ve been getting a funny feeling when I’ve been falling asleep. I’ve had it before about a year and a half ago when I lost the sensation in my legs. It’s horrible. I get a funny rushing feeling, kind of like when something makes you jump but I don’t actually jump. It stopped me sleeping the other night and I had extra weird dreamy things when I was half asleep. I don’t like it. I hope there’s nothing wrong with me like my heart stops or something.


I DO NOT want an office job – 21st July 2002

Sunday 21st  I started work at Tor Environmental Consultancy on Tuesday. It was an okay first day and everyone seems nice enough. There’s Malcolm Michaels (the owner and Head Consultant), Janet Hill (another consultant), Darren Spen (Assistant Consultant) and Kathleen Burley (Office Manager). I just got shown the basics, e.g. how to work the photocopier, and got odd jobs to do like filing stuff and posting letters.

By Wednesday I’d decided I DO NOT want an office job when I finish uni. I don’t mind being in one for a bit but not all day, every day. Malcolm, Janet and Darren are out on site all the time so being an Environmental Consultant might suit me. It was just incredibly boring over the last couple of days. 8 hours doesn’t half drag! People spoke to me a bit on Thursday which was good and I’d been asked to work on Saturday. I’d get £7.50 per hour but I’d already said I’d see Jonas.

We won wine at The Green Dragon pub quiz on Wednesday night. Everyone was impressed by my good-sounding job until I told them how boring it can get.

I watched Graham Norton on TV this weekend and somebody sent in a picture of the sign for the village of Twatt on Orkney. I was going to do that one day!

I went to Gainsborough on Friday. We stayed at Jonas’s mum’s house but went round to his dad’s new and empty house for a bath (once we’d got the spiders out) and other stuff which was nice and fun. It was sooo nice to see him!

We went to Lincoln yesterday with Jonas’s sister. It was thundery and we get very, very wet. When we got back and dried off we got up to 5 in his sofa bed. His room looks quite good now, even though it’s very small. Jonas said he’ll never dump me and he wants to buy me a toe ring. I remembered that at T in the Park he said it could be like a secret engagement ring! 🙂 He also said he loves me sooo much. Yey!

Before I left we did stuff together and then Jonas had to speak to a policewoman about his dad’s house being robbed. I watched the F1 while that went on and Michael Schumacher won the whole damn thing. Boring and predictable.

It was horrible saying goodbye to Jonas at the station today. Neither of us wanted me to go. I hate leaving him cos I love him so much.


Customers kept whinging at me – 27th August 2000

Sunday 27th I started work at 2pm today. I was absolutely wetting myself about it all morning! I went in and Gethin spotted me and took me to a manager type person called Sandra. She took me upstairs and gave me a shirt that’s about 5 sizes too big which she found on the floor in a cupboard-style room.

I then had to follow some woman round so I could get the hang of it. I did quite quickly but once she left me to it, I couldn’t get the cutlery right! The children’s knives and forks are almost exactly the same as the adult ones! I don’t think any customers would’ve noticed though. Some food doesn’t need any but she didn’t tell me that.

I spent most of the day either folding napkins (I think that was the best bit!) or cleaning away people’s mess. Then there was ages when I had nothing to do (cos I wasn’t serving food) so I was wandering round feeling like a spare part really cos I had no idea what to do with myself!

The main problem I had though was when customers asked me questions and I couldn’t answer them cos I had no idea of the answer! Luckily there was usually another member of staff about at the time. Customers kept whinging at me that the food took ages or asking when it’d be ready. I know it’s part of that job but I didn’t like it!

Gethin was working today too. He was a right pain! He thinks he knows everything already and kept trying to help but it either confused me or made me feel stupid. Everyone also kept telling me how quickly Gethin’s picked it up and how well he fits in. I think they’re expecting me to be the same but I’m not half as forward as he is so I don’t think it’s going to happen somehow.

The only thing that made me feel a bit better was when one of the girls told me she hated her first day! Let’s hope it gets better!

I was sooo glad to finish and I really don’t want to go back tomorrow. I’m on from 5pm ‘til it closes but I’m not sure what time that is.

Jake phoned me tonight after we’d exchanged these e-mails. →

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He still had a signal cos he was still near land. He’s asked me to ask if there are still any jobs going at the pub cos he wants another one to fill the time between now and Canada.