Monday 26^th
5 weeks + 3 days to go!

I had to go back to college again today. All the ski trip people were going on about skiing. Declan filled Cat and me in on the whole Mr L thing though!

Jacqueline and Kim had been talking in the toilets about Mr L getting off with college students. Mrs L was in one of the cubicles and even though Jac was telling Kim to shut up, Kim carried on talking. Mrs L came out, called them silly little whores and asked if they got off on gossip and stuff, before going and reporting them to the teachers.

Meanwhile, Jac and Kim had wandered back to their friends (which included my sister) so when Mr L found them, he yelled at them all. He was calling them all sorts of names and even threatened to get them expelled. He kept saying how they could ruin his life and career by telling “lies” about him and college girls.

Later on, he sent Declan to his room (he’d been part of the group he yelled at) but Declan sneaked back into the bar. Mr L caught him drinking tequila slammers and told him to go to Mr C’s (the headteacher) office with his parents on Monday morning. He couldn’t have been serious cos Mr L would’ve had to explain everything to Mr C, so Declan ignored the threat.

Kim was made to apologise to Mr L, even though they both knew full well how true everything Kim said is! Mr L was saying how hurt he was and was apparently nearly crying. Prick!

Even Mr P-K (his mate) has fallen out with him, saying he’s been digging his own grave. He must suspect there’s some truth in it at least. Miss P thinks it’s all a load of “bullshit”, as do most other people.

Mrs L yelled at Mr L. Ha ha ha!!!

This has the potential to get very interesting now everyone’s back in school!

Jake didn’t ring me at 4pm. I started to worry because after last night he promised he wouldn’t do it again. I hate the feeling I get when he doesn’t phone. It’s horrible! I had to revise for my Biology exams tomorrow but I couldn’t concentrate at all.

I worry myself into a total state and it’s so horrible. I couldn’t stop crying like last night. It’s partly worry but partly annoyance for making me feel like that. I also get kind of annoyed with myself for getting like I do but I can’t help it. I do try to think positive and calm down but there’s always that awful feeling of dread in my stomach. I just don’t know what I’d do if something did happen to him but then it’s the not knowing that makes me feel so bad.

Anyway, I decided I couldn’t just sit about worrying cos I’d get no revision done so I phoned the number for his hotel from my mobile cos I had loads of credit. I didn’t think it’d work but it did. I just asked the woman if she could put me through to room 207 and she did. It only rang twice though then went silent then cut off. I tried a second time and the same thing happened.

At about 5:15pm I tried for a 3^rd time. This time (to my surprise!) it worked. It was his roommate Rob who answered the phone but I had to ask who it was cos I wasn’t sure! I asked if Jake was there and he called him over. I really wasn’t expecting him to be there cos he said he was skiing. I didn’t want him to think I’d been worrying cos by this time I felt stupid for doing so and getting all worked up. I lied and said I was just ringing on the off-chance he’d be there to tell him not to ring (if he hadn’t already) cos I wasn’t going to be home for another half hour!

He said he had only just got up. He asked if I’d phoned twice before and I said I had and he explained that they tried to answer it but it probably wasn’t working cos during a food fight last night, a drink got spilt on it or something.

By the time I’d put the phone down I felt really stupid for worrying cos him not getting up was one of the things I’d been trying to convince myself of. I was also annoyed with him for putting me through that for a 2^nd night running. I mean, I know I can’t expect him to ring me every day but when he stresses he will and wants to then doesn’t, that’s when I worry cos it’s not like him to break his word!

Jake phoned me back at about 6:40pm. He apologised for not phoning when he said and told me he didn’t know no-one was going skiing today. He told me he’ll ring at about 4:45pm tomorrow and that if one day he doesn’t ring at 4:30ish (before he gets the bus), he’ll ring between 7 & 8pm from Lake Louise when he has lunch.

The thing is, now he’s not rung a few times when he said he will, maybe I won’t worry as much if that happens in the future. Hopefully I won’t have to find out though! I don’t like having to worry and I do try hard not to cos Mum and people keep saying I’m pathetic but if someone you care about is so far away, wouldn’t you worry too in the same situation?

Bye!

P.S. I’ve had a slight throbbing feeling in my legs again like I did a while ago and on my left foot some of my toes and the ball of my foot feel a bit numb.

Today’s emails →