I’m a cool girlfriend – 5th & 6th March 2001

Monday 5th
4 weeks + 3 days to go!

Jake phoned at about 4:35pm today and we were having quite a good conversation about things that have been going on here and there (which wasn’t that much really!), when the phone cut off and I got a buzzing noise. I put the phone down and thought he might phone back (cos something similar had happened before) but he didn’t.

Well, the phone did ring but when I picked it up there was just silence. That happened a couple of times so I assume it was him trying to get through again. I did 1471 and the woman said they didn’t have the number to return the call which is what it has said in the past when he was the last person to phone our house. I thought he might ring back at 7pm when he got to Lake Louise but he didn’t. The phone rang loads but none of the calls were from him unfortunately.

I’m not worrying or anything cos at least I got to speak to him for a bit, even though it is very annoying being cut off mid-conversation! Maybe his phone card ran out or it’s snowing somewhere or the phone just isn’t working properly. I just hope he can email me tonight.

Bye!

Tuesday 6th
4 weeks + 2 days to go!

Michael Amhurst met up with me and a few of my mates after college today. He’s had to come to Manchester to pick up some car parts or something so he wanted to see us seeing as he was around here anyway.

It was quite awkward but we managed to fill in the silences somehow. It was especially weird for Sarah cos she’s been texting him for a few weeks now without ever actually speaking to him properly. She came prepared though with some photos which made a good talking point.

People like Hayley and Henry Rockwell had to go home so they didn’t stay in college long. There was then me, Sarah, Cat and Michael left so we moved from college into The Coach and Horses pub down the road.

We just had one drink before making our excuses to go home. Michael dropped Sarah and me off at mine and we’ve decided to try and get up to Kendal to visit him at Easter if we can.

Jake rang at about 7:05pm. He told me that his roommate Rob said I sound like I’ve got my head screwed on. I only spoke to him for a few seconds! Apparently other people reckon I’m a cool girlfriend cos I bought him a Jessie the Cowgirl doll! I thought they’d all think it was really sad and they’d take the piss out of Jake. Obviously not!

He told me that the snow’s melting! 🙂 Yey!!!

Bye!

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Telling “lies” about him and college girls – 26th February 2001

Monday 26th
5 weeks + 3 days to go!

I had to go back to college again today. All the ski trip people were going on about skiing. Declan filled Cat and me in on the whole Mr L thing though!

Jacqueline and Kim had been talking in the toilets about Mr L getting off with college students. Mrs L was in one of the cubicles and even though Jac was telling Kim to shut up, Kim carried on talking. Mrs L came out, called them silly little whores and asked if they got off on gossip and stuff, before going and reporting them to the teachers.

Meanwhile, Jac and Kim had wandered back to their friends (which included my sister) so when Mr L found them, he yelled at them all. He was calling them all sorts of names and even threatened to get them expelled. He kept saying how they could ruin his life and career by telling “lies” about him and college girls.

Later on, he sent Declan to his room (he’d been part of the group he yelled at) but Declan sneaked back into the bar. Mr L caught him drinking tequila slammers and told him to go to Mr C’s (the headteacher) office with his parents on Monday morning. He couldn’t have been serious cos Mr L would’ve had to explain everything to Mr C, so Declan ignored the threat.

Kim was made to apologise to Mr L, even though they both knew full well how true everything Kim said is! Mr L was saying how hurt he was and was apparently nearly crying. Prick!

Even Mr P-K (his mate) has fallen out with him, saying he’s been digging his own grave. He must suspect there’s some truth in it at least. Miss P thinks it’s all a load of “bullshit”, as do most other people.

Mrs L yelled at Mr L. Ha ha ha!!!

This has the potential to get very interesting now everyone’s back in school!

Jake didn’t ring me at 4pm. I started to worry because after last night he promised he wouldn’t do it again. I hate the feeling I get when he doesn’t phone. It’s horrible! I had to revise for my Biology exams tomorrow but I couldn’t concentrate at all.

I worry myself into a total state and it’s so horrible. I couldn’t stop crying like last night. It’s partly worry but partly annoyance for making me feel like that. I also get kind of annoyed with myself for getting like I do but I can’t help it. I do try to think positive and calm down but there’s always that awful feeling of dread in my stomach. I just don’t know what I’d do if something did happen to him but then it’s the not knowing that makes me feel so bad.

Anyway, I decided I couldn’t just sit about worrying cos I’d get no revision done so I phoned the number for his hotel from my mobile cos I had loads of credit. I didn’t think it’d work but it did. I just asked the woman if she could put me through to room 207 and she did. It only rang twice though then went silent then cut off. I tried a second time and the same thing happened.

At about 5:15pm I tried for a 3rd time. This time (to my surprise!) it worked. It was his roommate Rob who answered the phone but I had to ask who it was cos I wasn’t sure! I asked if Jake was there and he called him over. I really wasn’t expecting him to be there cos he said he was skiing. I didn’t want him to think I’d been worrying cos by this time I felt stupid for doing so and getting all worked up. I lied and said I was just ringing on the off-chance he’d be there to tell him not to ring (if he hadn’t already) cos I wasn’t going to be home for another half hour!

He said he had only just got up. He asked if I’d phoned twice before and I said I had and he explained that they tried to answer it but it probably wasn’t working cos during a food fight last night, a drink got spilt on it or something.

By the time I’d put the phone down I felt really stupid for worrying cos him not getting up was one of the things I’d been trying to convince myself of. I was also annoyed with him for putting me through that for a 2nd night running. I mean, I know I can’t expect him to ring me every day but when he stresses he will and wants to then doesn’t, that’s when I worry cos it’s not like him to break his word!

Jake phoned me back at about 6:40pm. He apologised for not phoning when he said and told me he didn’t know no-one was going skiing today. He told me he’ll ring at about 4:45pm tomorrow and that if one day he doesn’t ring at 4:30ish (before he gets the bus), he’ll ring between 7 & 8pm from Lake Louise when he has lunch.

The thing is, now he’s not rung a few times when he said he will, maybe I won’t worry as much if that happens in the future. Hopefully I won’t have to find out though! I don’t like having to worry and I do try hard not to cos Mum and people keep saying I’m pathetic but if someone you care about is so far away, wouldn’t you worry too in the same situation?

Bye!

P.S. I’ve had a slight throbbing feeling in my legs again like I did a while ago and on my left foot some of my toes and the ball of my foot feel a bit numb.

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Another nice surprise! – 24th February 2001

Saturday 24th
5 weeks + 5 days to go!

Jake rang me even earlier today at about 2:40pm. Another nice surprise! 🙂 He said he’d missed the bus and wouldn’t be able to ring me from Lake Louise later because he was going to be late. It was a very short call but I still was pleased to hear from him.

He did end up ringing me again at about 7:45pm thought cos he got a lunch break. It’s his last day of the assessment today and he finds out later whether he’s passed Level 1. He was really worrying on the phone because he’s got to teach his group stuff as part of the test and he’s been given the most difficult but to do. I’m sure he will pass and I kept telling him that but he was much less positive.

Some girl called Charlie shouted, “Hello Tessa!” down the phone while he was speaking to me. Apparently she’s trying to cheer him up too cos she got the easy bit where all she had to do was teach how to put a ski on and easy stuff like that!

I won’t find out if he’s passed until I read his email tomorrow! He should do though.

Bye!

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I could imagine that all the girls were dog-ugly! – 13th February 2001

Tuesday 13th
7 weeks + 2 days to go!

I got the photos that Jake took in Canada back from being developed today. Some of them are of his room, some are of the scenery but most of them are of the people he’s with. There’s one of him on his skis and 2 that he took of himself using a mirror. It doesn’t look like him though 😦 he looks older and chunkier!

I didn’t cry when I got them which I’m quite pleased about cos so far I’ve not got upset in college and I want to keep that up!

There are some photos with girls on them and a weird one of a lad that REALLY looks like Floyd! Even Floyd himself admitted there was a freaky resemblance!

The bottom of one of the slopes really looks like one I took when I was in Pra Loup last year. Cat agrees.

I was studying one of the photos of his room and it’s got a picture above his bed but you can’t really see the painting cos there are lots of photos of me stuck over it! It’s flattering that he’s done that but I had a bit of a go at him on the phone tonight cos a while ago he told me he only had 4 up. There are loads! Plus, before he went I told him which ones I didn’t want anyone to see and he promised he wouldn’t show anyone but they’re up there too!

While he was on the phone I was describing the photos to him and he was telling me where/who they were of. I can actually picture in my head now where he is and who he’s with when I think about him now. I don’t know if that’s better or worse than not knowing actually cos at least before I could imagine that all the girls were dog-ugly! It turns out they’re not though so he’d better be behaving himself!

Bye!

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He’s bloody well learning to snowboard – 5th February 2001

Monday 5th
8 weeks + 3 days to go!

I managed to avoid Robbie today. I did see him but didn’t look him in the eye cos I have no idea how annoyed he is with me.

After college, Jake’s dad turned up at our house. He just dropped off a book for me about Barcelona but he stayed for a drink with Mum, Dad and me in the kitchen, talking about his trip to Peru and stuff. I didn’t know he was going to call round. Maybe he feels guilty and is trying to make up for it or something!

Jake phoned at about 7:40pm. I thought he’d been shadowing an instructor all morning but it turns out he’d been snowboarding instead. He said the people who could snowboard had to teach the people who couldn’t, including him. I am extremely pissed off cos that’s dashed all my hopes of being able to ski OR snowboard with him now he can do both. It’s just not fair!

He promised me he wouldn’t do any boarding so we could both learn together because neither of us could do it. It’s just ruined it now. I love skiing and unless I want to be completely shown up by him then I can’t do that with him (and I can’t afford to go on my own and have no friends who can do it) and now he’s bloody well learning to snowboard too so he’s gonna have a head start in that too.

In fact, his exact words in an email I got on Fri 26th Jan were: “We’ll both learn to snowboard together!!! 😦 I’m not touching a board while I’m here cos the chance of killing myself increases by about 3 times!!!” I’m just so disappointed cos I really did want to do that, especially with him.

Sarah and I (plus a few others) were thinking of going and having boarding lessons at Sheffield and I didn’t tell Jake cos I thought he might get lessons himself to catch up with me. If I go now then he’s going to think I’m just doing it to copy him! 😦 I suppose I should still do it but I liked the thought of being able to do something cool that he couldn’t. Now I can’t.

I’ve been considering sending a 2nd mail to him tonight telling him all this and asking him why he hung up so quickly tonight on the phone without saying he loves me or anything but I don’t know if I should cos last time I told him how I was feeling, he got all funny with me. I think I’ll just leave it and hope he phones tomorrow night then I can tell him then instead.

Bye!

P.S. I just mailed Jake again! I tried to be nice! Hotmail seemed to be playing up a bit so I hope he can read them and send one back alright! 😦

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He took it all completely the wrong way – 25th January 2001

Thursday 25th
10 weeks to go!

I read Jake’s email almost as soon as I got up this morning cos I had an open day at Leeds Uni and so didn’t go to college. It really upset me to think that I upset him cos I really didn’t intend to do that! I just wanted to let him know how I felt last night, that’s all! It obviously backfired and he took it all completely the wrong way.

Leeds Uni isn’t bad at all but they want BCC for my grades and the accommodation’s not a patch on Hudderfield’s. It didn’t have the right feel about it either. Huddersfield did. I think cos it’s a bit smaller. It’s not a sandwich course either but a few students get to study either in Canada or do a year’s work placement. I’ll stick with Huddersfield for now, I think.

It took us ages to get home cos Dad spent an hour and a half looking for a McDonald’s then there were loads of traffic jams and then we stopped to visit Grandma S. She seemed okay! 🙂

When I did get in, some student from Central Lancashire phoned to ask if I had any questions about it. That would’ve been quite handy if I’d wanted to know anything. They must be doing it to everyone who’s applied cos I could hear other people in the background.

At about 7:45pm, I had the nice surprise of Jake phoning. Mum said he’d tried earlier but I wasn’t home. I was sooo pleased he phoned cos I’d been longing to speak to him all day to sort things out but I didn’t think I’d be able to. He said he found a phone where he’s skiing which he says is good for when I’m not in earlier for some reason. I said sorry for everything and he apologised too. It wasn’t a very long call but it was better than nothing and has made me feel a bit happier! 🙂

Bye!

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She’s wasting perfectly good chances with lads – 22nd January 2001

Monday 22nd
10 weeks + 3 days to go!

I saw 2 camels at lunchtime! It was very strange! Karen, Sarah, Lizzie, Freda and I were on our way to McDonald’s when we saw them on a patch of grass outside some offices! There was a big truck on the car park so perhaps their owners had stopped off to feed them or something. We drove past 4 times to check we weren’t seeing things!

My voice went almost completely today! I think it’s partly cos I was coughing and shouting at Sarah to get over Maz! He’s not got in contact with her for over 2 weeks but she reckons he will soon. I don’t! She’s wasting perfectly good chances with lads for someone she’s seen about 3 times!

Jake phoned quite early tonight and my voice was still funny but he said it sounds nice! We were on the phone for ages tonight but didn’t really say much! He kept telling me he’s missing me and he wants to come home but that really is difficult to believe.

I told him about College 1s being the latest fashion accessory and I told him that I want one (I was joking!) to keep me going! He didn’t like that idea! At one particularly depressing moment, we both went quiet and then I heard the words, “I love you” from him out of nowhere. It was sooo nice to hear! I really am missing him now! 😦

Bye!

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