It smells horribly of damp and mould and stuff – 16th September 2002

Sunday 16th  Jonas brought me home from his house on Monday and ended up staying the night. It was nice being able to cuddle him in my bed. Ooh, I love Jonas! He left at about 1pm the next day because I’d agreed to go back to work at Tor Environmental Consultancy for a few days. It wasn’t too bad because they had lots for me to do. It was only 4 hours too.

Mum told me that’s Abby’s very depressed because she’s got thrush (nice) and her ex-boyfriend Connor is being really horrible. For some reason, she’s decided she likes him again but he’s not all that bothered about her. Mum also said that she liked Jonas’s mum and sister. I hope they liked her. She asked if she’ll be coming to visit me one day in Scotland.

I finished work (again!) on Thursday. Malcolm (the boss guy) said he’s very pleased with all my plans and stuff.

I spent Friday packing up my stuff for moving into the house in Huddersfield. I’m actually quite worried that my room’s crap compared to all the others. Nobody really wanted it as much as the others because it’s long and narrow.

Yesterday, I moved into:

20 Cross Lane
Primrose Hill
Huddersfield
HD4 6DL

I was the first one there. Jen and Archie arrived shortly after but Kevin isn’t coming until later on in the week. My room’s not half as bad as I remember. Kevin’s room is the worst! It’s in the basement and it smells horribly of damp and mould and stuff. He was really smug about getting that room too. Hee hee! 🙂 He now also has a black wardrobe from my room (I have his white one!) and a waterproof mattress from Archie’s room.

Jen didn’t stay the night because she didn’t have all her stuff. Archie and I stayed up really late, mainly taking the piss out of Kevin. We’d best get it out of the way, I suppose!

[It was much quicker to draw it than wait to get my camera film finished and developed.]

We’ve decided to use the spare room to put all our books in but nobody’s computer. They’ve agreed to let me use the wardrobe in there because I’ve got less storage space.

I’m tired today because I was scared last night so I slept (not very well) with the light on. We went to Ikea today and started discussing plans to put a weather map of Great Britain on the living room wall. It’d be cool! I’ve said I wanted to be a weather girl so I could use it to practice on!

Mum, Dad and Abby came again to put some shelves up in my room. I spoke to Jonas and he said he’s been gardening and getting paid for it. He said he’s excited about moving in. I bet his house is really nice. He said he can’t wait to see me tomorrow. I can’t wait to see him either. I’m going to want to stay in the same bed as him but Jen has already commented that she’ll either see loads of Jonas or none of me. I’m a bit worried she’s going to have a problem with it. I really want to see Jonas. I don’t want to miss anything here though.

Bye!

I had a horrible, horrible feeling – 9th September 2002

Sunday 9th  On Monday, Jonas took me to Findhorn beach and then Roseisle beach. Ross came with us and was telling me about his uni course and stuff. He’s training to be a primary school teacher. The beaches were really nice. Ross said the singer in his band has been taking photos round there to put on their album cover.

I like the sea. It sort of scared me at the same time though. I’d hate to fall in because it’s so deep and powerful and you don’t know what’s underneath you. I’d like to live near the sea one day though. I like just watching it, especially when it’s stormy because it’s far more exciting then.

That evening, a small group of us went onto the sand dunes at Findhorn and had a bonfire. There was me and Jonas, Callum, Emma, Flan, Andrew and a couple of others. There’s one lad they call Will (but that’s not his name) and his face really makes me smile. He’s got big curly hair, wide eyes, round face and is always grinning. He said he’s just finished working in Nantwich for a year which is near where I live.

One lad kept disappearing to find wood. We didn’t see him for ages then he turned up with half a tree. Jonas tried to help him move it but walked backwards into a ditch and fell over! It was pretty dark.

On Tuesday, Jonas took me to Wick to see my family. I’ve been there every year of my life but never without Mum, Dad and Abby. The journey wasn’t bad except a bee flew in the car and landed on Jonas’s lap after bouncing off his face!

It was weird being in Wick with Jonas but very nice seeing everyone. Rhian was off school with a cold which was lucky because there was nobody else in. Tom and Minnie eventually came back from school and Auntie S came home from work. She looks really thin because of a thyroid thing but still seemed cheerful.

Jonas wanted to see Sinclair and Girnigoe Castle at Noss Head because he’d seen it on my photos. I showed him the lighthouse there which I stayed in last summer. We took my cousins with us so Jonas leapt round the ruins (scaring me!) and Minnie and I stood and watched rather than go down into the dark bits with Jonas and Rhian. Auntie S said Minnie must like him because she keeps talking about him!

On Wednesday, Jonas and I went up to John o’Groats. We stood at the harbour and watched some seals then looked round some old croft buildings. Jonas said he wants to do them up and sell them. They could be really nice.

[Harbour selfie]

We stayed at Auntie S’s for tea then said goodbye. I didn’t want to go. I would like to have stayed longer but it was better than not seeing them at all. On the way out of Wick, I went to the cemetery to see Grandma L. I managed to find her grave quite easily. I ended up getting all upset because I felt really sad, especially when I read what the headstone said. It was, “To live in hearts we leave behind, is not to die”. That’s a nice thing to say. We also stopped to see seals on the way back and at Tesco. Fun!

On Thursday and Friday, Jonas took me crab fishing at Findhorn. We caught some pretty big ones with just a string and bacon. I really enjoyed it! It’s a shame I can’t do it in Huddersfield.

Fiona (Jonas’s mate) had a sauna party at her house. It was a bit boring until Binny (Stephen) started talking to us. Everyone else kind of ignored me. Jonas said his mum and sister think I’m quiet so his mates probably do too.

Yesterday, Jonas and I had a lie in. I didn’t want a shower with him so we had a talk about me being self-conscious. I can’t help it! I had a horrible, horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach like I got when Jake dumped me. It was an awful sort of splitting-up dread and I went really hot and couldn’t breathe properly. We didn’t fall out or anything, it was just that I realised we’re quite different. I’m shy, he isn’t so I thought that might be a bad thing.

I got over the nasty feeling eventually. I’m very, very, very glad we didn’t split up because I love Jonas sooooo much! 🙂

It was Forres Theme Day or something so we went into town and had a look at all the old cars lining the streets and watched the pipe band with Ross and Murray (I think that’s what he’s called!) in it. We went to the pub with Jonas’s lot that evening. It was good because people spoke to me. Callum said I’m beautiful and Binny said I’m nice! Cool! Binny’s girlfriend’s from Preston and Flan’s girlfriend’s from The Wirral, both near me. That’s quite weird!

There was some creep in the chippy and taxi rank who was saying stuff about me. I don’t know what exactly but he was pointing me out to his mate. I should’ve lamped him!

When we got back to Kinloss, I looked at the sky and saw what I thought was light from the moon coming out from behind a cloud. When I got out of the taxi, I saw it was all over the sky and was greening and moving. I eventually realised what it was….. the aurora borealis! I’ve ALWAYS wanted to see the Northern Lights! I saw them with Jonas as well so I see that as a really nice thing. I’m glad he was there too so I had someone to get all excited at!

Today we travelled back to Gainsborough. The journey seemed to last for ages but we got back in the end. I decided to stay the night so he didn’t have to go all the way to Warrington too. We did stuff. I’m so glad I’m with him!

Bye!

Our mums met! – 2nd September 2002

Sunday 2nd 

Wow! I can’t believe I’m on diary number 26! I’ve been writing them for about 6 years now.

My boyfriend Jonas got back from working at Reading Festival on Monday. He said I’m going with him next time. I think he enjoyed it. So much so he didn’t have time to get me a present apparently! He said he loves me and can’t wait to see me. 🙂

I got to go out on site at work (at Tor Environmental Consultancy) on Wednesday. It was just to an old landfill site to get water samples but it was better than staying in the office. I get to draw plans for it soon.

I phoned up the people whose student house I’m moving into in Huddersfield next year. They said we can move in on 14th Sept. That’s good because it means I can go to Scotland with Jonas.

I was my last day of work on Thursday. WOOHOO!! 🙂 It’s been boring at times but I’ve learnt stuff related to my uni course and I got paid more than working in a pub. It should look good on my CV too. The marketing person, Rosie, was also leaving so we got bought lunch in a pub and got given cards. I had a £10 book token in mine for uni. They asked if I might be able to go back sometime so I probably will.

On Friday, Mum and Abby took me to Jonas’s house in Gainsborough so I could go to Scotland. That meant our mums met! It was pretty weird but my mum talked lots which was good and made it ok.

Yesterday, Jonas drove me, his mum and his sister Laura up to Forres near Inverness. He lived there before he came to uni and his dad’s still at RAF Kinloss. The journey wasn’t bad. We stopped at Jedburgh and had a wander round. Laura got travel sick as the roads got windy but earned herself £10 for keeping everything down!

Forres is very nice. My mum told me my dad played football there once and liked it. That evening we went out to a few pubs with Jonas’s mates. There was a band playing which they knew so we went to see them too. I met all Jonas’s mates who hadn’t been at T in the Park and they all seem nice enough. We stayed in Jonas’s dad’s living room thing on a sofa bed.

Today I went to Inverness with Jonas, Laura and their dad. We intended to see a film but they were on at weird times so we’d missed them. I met Laura’s mate Lindsey (who’s Josh’s mate’s sister) in Tesco car park. She’d lost her voice but still managed to talk lots!

Josh’s dad took us all for a meal at a pub in Findhorn.

We then went bowling with Jonas’s mates in Elgin. That was fun! I beat 3 lads first time round.

Bye!

“There’s something inside that I need to release” – 25th August 2002

Sunday 25th  I didn’t go home from Jonas’s until Monday this week. After my leptospirosis scare, I still wasn’t feeling up to working so I rang in sick. I spoke to Kathleen and she said Darren was also off with something similar. Jonas had to go to Huddersfield for his exam resit so he took me with him and Mum picked me up so I didn’t have to get the train.

On the way home, Mum told me that Auntie S and Uncle G have split up. Weird. I didn’t know what to say because I was very, very shocked. I didn’t expect that at all. Apparently Uncle G was really unhappy for the last few years when Grandma L lived with them. When the internet broke, he was really funny about giving Auntie S his password so they could get it fixed. When she got it, she found emails and stuff from some woman. He promised her he’d stop speaking to the woman but more recently she found more. Apparently he’s also been spending money they haven’t really got, drinking lots and being really nasty to Rhian, e.g. threatening to check her out without much reason.

On Tuesday and Wednesday, I left work early which was good. There wasn’t much for me to do and I still didn’t feel 100%. I did the quiz with my mates on Wednesday night and we came 2nd….. Again! I rang Jonas too. He’s in Reading because he’s working at the festival. He said the girls aren’t minging (when I asked) and that while he was playing cards, one of them “jokingly” said to move in closer so they could abuse him. Grrr!! I trust him but not them. I don’t like the thought of them trying anything. He said he loves me anyway and wished I was there and blew kisses down the phone. He said it’s cute that I don’t like hanging up first.

Thursday’s night out in Manchester was, well, different. We went to a school disco at The Ritz for Archie’s birthday. Quite a few of my mates came so we went to Isaac’s student house in Manchester to get changed. I felt really daft walking all the way to The Ritz and getting on a bus in my school uniform and we got some funny looks and dodgy comments.

[Isaac, Sarah, Michael, me and Archie looking pretty sober. Must’ve been early on…]

Cat and Jerry annoyed me quite a lot after about 10 minutes of getting into The Ritz. They went all snobby, saying it was a shithole and that they wanted to leave. I explained I had to wait for Archie and that it’d liven up later but they kept going on at me. I think Archie got it right when he said Jerry has misjudged the age he needs to act to fit in and had gone for 9 rather than 19. Gimp. Cat’s just become middle aged. They didn’t really socialise much either. They just stood at the edge, whispering and snogging.

I had a good night anyway, dancing with Lizzie, Archie, Denny and Isaac. All was well up until about 2am when the place closed and we couldn’t find Denny. Isaac went off to find him and we all waited outside. A while later, the bouncers carried someone out and dumped them on the pavement. It was Denny and he was totally unconscious and trying to be sick. A nurse guy said he’d found him in the toilers, choking on his own vomit and that he would’ve died had he not been found.

Isaac was also lying on the pavement making very loud throwing up noises. He was also drunk and the exhaustion after carrying Denny out took it all out of him. Denny was put into the recovery position and some large woman was trying to wake him up and had his head rested in her cleavage.

The ambulances turned up for Denny and Isaac so Lizzie and I went with Denny and Sarah and Michael went with Isaac. Some scary scally woman was yelling at me and Lizzie saying we should’ve done something to help and we weren’t very good friends so the paramedics shut the doors in her face. Hah! There was nothing else we really could do for him.

We were in hospital until 7am. During that time, Denny had had 3 saline drips (after the nurse said 1 should bring him round) and then eventually woke up, undoing his trousers, saying, “Explode..… I’m gonna explode….. There’s something inside that I need to release”, meaning he needed a wee. A doctor unhooked him from the drip which made him bleed everywhere, then he spent about half an hour in the loo!

[Sneaky picture for reminding him every birthday etc. Useful.]

Isaac was sick very, very loudly. He was making awful roaring noises and, after he threw up in a bin, the nurses chucked him out.

The whole night was totally surreal but funny at the same time (once we knew Denny wasn’t gonna die). However, I did feel really ashamed and guilty that one of my mates got that drunk and took up a bed and the hospital’s time (it was Manchester Royal Infirmary) when someone seriously ill might have needed it.

I finally got to bed at 8am after Lizzie’s dad picked up and we had to sit in the car with Denny stinking of sick!

Last night we all had a gathering at Cat’s house. Jerry’s laugh goes through me. He really annoyed me again. He tries way too hard to fit in and insults people as though he’s a mate. If he was a good friend he could get away with it but he isn’t so everyone just gets offended instead. They kept whispering and slagged off Lizzie loads. Jerry hardly knows her and is just going off what Cat says. It’s really mean. I like Lizzie.

Rocky said Cat told him Jerry is “the love of my life”. She’s only known him a few months. At least she’s happy anyway. He’s okay really.

Today was pretty boring. I made a paper Celtic pattern thing for Jonas like the one I did for my Art GCSE but that was it. I hope he likes it.

See you in diary number 26!

Bye! 🙂

It was horrible saying bye to Mum just in case I died – 18th August 2002

Sunday 18th  Work was as boring as usual this week, although I did get to do a lot of plans. I got told I was good at doing them and it must be genetic cos my dad does good plans. Malcolm said I “draw mean plans” twice as fast as Dad but I doubt they’re as good cos he knows what he’s doing and I don’t really!

Rosie came back to work this week. She’s who I was replacing for a while. She’s going to do teacher training in Hull but had to come back for 3 weeks which she owes them. She seems nice. I got to go out on site this week too which was quite good. It was dye tracing in drains at a school in Harthill, Cheshire.

Jonas said he might be working at Reading Festival with Paul. He sounded really disappointed when I said I could only “probably” go to Scotland with him. He said I’ve got to go. I do want to but it depends on the house thing. I spoke to Jonas again on Wednesday and I was worrying about our student house, Reading and stuff. I then worried that he’s probably go off me for worrying.

My mates and I did the pub quiz on Wednesday as well. We won 2 bottles of wine.

On Friday, I woke up feeling very ill. I had a temperature and just felt generally rough. This worried me greatly because once we got back to the office after being out on site on Tuesday, Malcolm told me and Darren that he’s seen rats about. He said to be cautious if we felt fluey in about 3 days because we’d been around the drains and sewage works. Shiiiit!!

I went to Jonas’s anyway, hoping it was just a 24 hour bug. It was horrible saying bye to Mum just in case I died of Weil’s disease. I felt like I was going to pass out on the train. I’d taken some Panadol but it just made me feel numb.

Jonas was very worried about me when I explained. He wanted to take me to casualty but I refused because I would’ve felt stupid and wasted people’s time had it been nothing. Instead, I rang NHS Direct. The nurse who rang back said I could have leptospirosis and to see a doctor as soon as I could.

Jonas’s mum was very kind and let us have her bed. They were all being really nice to me and I felt guilty for being a burden. I hope they don’t catch anything!

I felt better yesterday. My temperature had gone but I had a sore throat with white bits on my tonsils to replace it. Jonas still wanted me to see a doctor but I didn’t. We went to Lincoln for the day and it was very hot. I had no energy so we didn’t stay long but it was a nice day. I bought Archie a horse posing pouch that neighs for his birthday from Ann Summers. He said he measures up to ‘stallion’ on a chart we have so I thought it was fitting!

I really wanted a snog from Jonas all day but due to me being ill, I didn’t get one.

I felt better still this morning. I’ve decided to go home tomorrow though. Jonas and I went for a walk along the river and then had a drive. We did some “stuff” when we got back to Jonas’s and I got lots of snogs. 🙂

Jonas is a bit worried about his resit tomorrow.

Bye!

He just has to add something slightly pervy – 11th August 2002

Sunday 11th  I got paid £262.50 for working at Tor on Monday. That was nice because I was bored again for most of the week. Last week I was asked to post brochures to the people who are being interviewed this week. I’d had trouble getting them in the post box cos they were too big so I kind of bent them and shoved them in. I’d been worried they’d got stuck at the top of the post box and nobody would get them.

Well, on Tuesday, Malcolm told me they had arrived but everyone had had to pay £1.50 because they were too heavy for a 1st class stamp. Oops! Nobody told me and I had asked Janet and she said to send them 1st class so I though that’s what she meant!

Some bloke told Malcolm I was a “nice young lady” too because I’d been helpful on the phone. That made me feel less stupid and thick!

Jonas has made me some CD racks at work. I thought I’d better get him stuff from my work so I filled up an envelope full of paperclips and elastic bands and stuff. 🙂

I texted loads of people from uni while I was bored at work but not many people replied. I’d been in touch with Katy already but other than her, only Violet and Sally replied. Vi said she’s passed all her exams and wants to go back to uni and stop working. Sally said, “Helloooo” at the start of hers (maybe she’s not heard from many people!) and told me she’s in Cornwall at the moment. Kevin also replied later on and told me he’s working for his mum and trying to lose his beer belly. Yuck! He repulses me sooo much!!

I missed Jonas all this week really badly and couldn’t wait to see him. He keeps telling me he loves me 🙂 mmm! I went to Gainsborough on Friday but missed my connection in Sheffield by seconds. That meant I had to wait an hour but it was very, very, very nice seeing Jonas when I eventually arrived. We went to bed quite early and did stuff.

Yesterday, Jonas drive us to Huddersfield. We saw our houses again. My room looks so bloody small! When we got back to Jonas’s, we watched Lord of the Rings then went downstairs and sat in the dimmed light and cuddled, listening to Lene Marlin’s album Playing My Game. It was very nice. It was all perfect and lovely and was one of those times I didn’t want to end.

Jonas said he was trying to be romantic and wanted to dance with me. We basically just cuddled standing up instead. He said he wishes he could come home to me after work. 🙂 He then said he wanted to lie naked in a big silky bed. Typical Jonas! He just has to add something slightly pervy! 🙂 I didn’t want to leave and he didn’t want me to go.

Today, Jonas mentioned going up to Forres (and maybe Wick for a bit) in September. I really want to go but I’m worried about it clashing with moving into our house in Huddersfield.

We went to Meadowhall in Sheffield for a bit and Laura was sick. Nice. It’s not as good as the Trafford Centre.

I really hate leaving Jonas and he really didn’t want me to go. I got him to a text from him with “Love u” at the end. 🙂

Bye!

I didn’t want any awkward silences – 4th August 2002

Sunday 4th  Worked this week and it wasn’t too bad. I got to go out on site in Haydock and I got to draw lots of plans. I like doing that.

Jonas got his mobile working so I rang him. We had a long conversation about him not phoning me and he said he’s definitely not going off me.

This week, my friends and I came 2nd in the pub quiz again. We prefer 2nd prize to 1st prize cos we got alcohol and winners get a meal vouchers. We also went to see Men in Black 2 which is good but not as good as the first one.

On Friday, Jonas came to visit me again. We went out in Manchester with Cat, Cat’s boyfriend Jerry Johnson, Archie and Isaac. It was okay but most people we invited didn’t come and Cat just snogged Jerry all night. That meant I couldn’t do the same to Jonas cos Archie and Isaac don’t really know each other and I didn’t want any awkward silences. Jonas did keep grabbing me and saying he loved me which was nice.

We stayed in Jerry’s flat which is a bit small and boring but it saved us a taxi fare. Jonas and I got the spare room and got up to 5 in it.

Yesterday, Jerry brought us home which was nice and Jonas and I went to Chester cos Jonas wanted to see the city walls and stuff. It was a nice day out but we had to leave because a nasty looking black cloud started heading our way. We stopped off to see Oulton Park quickly on the way back.

Jonas stayed in my bed until 7am ish which I liked. It was really nice and cosy.

Today I went to see Men in Black 2 again at the Trafford Centre with Jonas. I saw 2 people who used to be in Swing Band at school. When we got back to mine, we tried to do stuff but it didn’t really work. Neither of us wanted Jonas to leave but unfortunately he had to.

It was also the end of the Commonwealth Games today. That’s a shame cos I’ve enjoyed them. Manchester was very lively when we went out too.

Bye!

Wrapper from a lolly I bought when I went to see MIB2 with my friends. It’s cute!

A dog called Ballsniffer – 28th July 2002

Sunday 28th  I didn’t have a great time at work at the beginning of this week. For a start it was boring and then Malcolm said I should’ve asked about work I had to do the next day earlier on. I couldn’t because they were all busy. Then on Tuesday, I actually cried (not in front of anyone) because Malcolm was using me as a skivvy to make cups of tea and stuff while I was trying to get loads of more important work done for Janet.

Jonas and my friends made me feel better though. I spoke to Jonas on the phone and we were talking about maybe going on holiday together somewhere. I really miss him lots.

On Tuesday, my friends and I went to Heath Farm pub in Congleton for tea because it’s a 2 for 1 pub which is what The Green Dragon is going to be soon. Everyone who works there wanted to see what they were like. We went to Floyd’s afterwards. The lads are really funny sometimes and they make me laugh.

Work improved on Wednesday. I was shown how to draw plans on Corel Draw 8 then I had to do one myself for Janet. I enjoyed it actually, plus I got to sit upstairs on my own so I had no-one watching me if I felt like texting Jonas or something!

I couldn’t get hold of Jonas that evening but I had a missed call while I was doing The Green Dragon pub quiz. I rang Jonas back and he told me he’s had his phone nicked. It was on the kitchen worktop at his dad’s while they were out at the front and someone went in the back door and took it. He said he wants a cuddle and a kiss and a cry. Aww, poor Jonas! He said he loves me and misses me and wants to go back to uni. He told me he’s unhappy when he’s not with me cos I make him happy. 🙂 He said he thinks about me all the time and does try to text me but his phone deletes stuff while he’s thinking about what to say.

Work wasn’t too bad again on Thursday. Janet sent me and Darren out to find hoover bags on our lunch break which Darren was not amused by. He had a bit of a moan about Malcolm and Janet and said he used to go out for hot meals at lunch but nobody does anymore. He said if I ever fancied it then to say so. That was nice and I hope and think it was totally innocent. Just in case it wasn’t, I dropped Jonas and the fact he’s my boyfriend into a conversation.

It was the opening ceremony for the Manchester 2002 Commonwealth Games. It made me feel proud to live near Manchester and I wish I couldn’t been a volunteer.

Jonas phoned me and said his phone was found in a car park so he’s got it back. He told me he loves me. 🙂

On Friday, I went into town with Lizzie and Karen. It was good but pretty uneventful. We played Suck & Blow with beer mats, much to the delight of the lads and bouncers stood near us, Karen fell over and Karen pulled some lad. That was it.

Jonas came to my house yesterday. We did The Run pub crawl with a few people which was funny, e.g. Isaac said he wants a dog called Ballsniffer which will be his own breed called a crotch hound. Ok, it was funny at the time anyway. Neil Kennedy analysed mine and Jonas’s relationship saying (from what he saw that night) Jonas is the daft one and I’m more sensible. I think it alternates to be honest!

Jonas said he likes my mates and we seem to have similar friends to each other. He slept in my bed until 5am ish. I liked having him in there but I didn’t want Mum seeing. He talks in his sleep which is cute!

Before Jonas went home today, we watched the Formula 1 and I drove us (not very well – I got Jonas to park for me!) to the Trafford Centre to see Austin Powers 3 at the cinema. It was very good and very funny. My driving home wasn’t too bad but I could tell Jonas was lying when he said he was impressed and felt relaxed!

I got a bit upset when he was leaving today. I hate not seeing him during the week. He said he loves me and will text and ring me cos he shouldn’t be too busy.

Over the last few nights I’ve been getting a funny feeling when I’ve been falling asleep. I’ve had it before about a year and a half ago when I lost the sensation in my legs. It’s horrible. I get a funny rushing feeling, kind of like when something makes you jump but I don’t actually jump. It stopped me sleeping the other night and I had extra weird dreamy things when I was half asleep. I don’t like it. I hope there’s nothing wrong with me like my heart stops or something.

Bye!

I DO NOT want an office job – 21st July 2002

Sunday 21st  I started work at Tor Environmental Consultancy on Tuesday. It was an okay first day and everyone seems nice enough. There’s Malcolm Michaels (the owner and Head Consultant), Janet Hill (another consultant), Darren Spen (Assistant Consultant) and Kathleen Burley (Office Manager). I just got shown the basics, e.g. how to work the photocopier, and got odd jobs to do like filing stuff and posting letters.

By Wednesday I’d decided I DO NOT want an office job when I finish uni. I don’t mind being in one for a bit but not all day, every day. Malcolm, Janet and Darren are out on site all the time so being an Environmental Consultant might suit me. It was just incredibly boring over the last couple of days. 8 hours doesn’t half drag! People spoke to me a bit on Thursday which was good and I’d been asked to work on Saturday. I’d get £7.50 per hour but I’d already said I’d see Jonas.

We won wine at The Green Dragon pub quiz on Wednesday night. Everyone was impressed by my good-sounding job until I told them how boring it can get.

I watched Graham Norton on TV this weekend and somebody sent in a picture of the sign for the village of Twatt on Orkney. I was going to do that one day!

I went to Gainsborough on Friday. We stayed at Jonas’s mum’s house but went round to his dad’s new and empty house for a bath (once we’d got the spiders out) and other stuff which was nice and fun. It was sooo nice to see him!

We went to Lincoln yesterday with Jonas’s sister. It was thundery and we get very, very wet. When we got back and dried off we got up to 5 in his sofa bed. His room looks quite good now, even though it’s very small. Jonas said he’ll never dump me and he wants to buy me a toe ring. I remembered that at T in the Park he said it could be like a secret engagement ring! 🙂 He also said he loves me sooo much. Yey!

Before I left we did stuff together and then Jonas had to speak to a policewoman about his dad’s house being robbed. I watched the F1 while that went on and Michael Schumacher won the whole damn thing. Boring and predictable.

It was horrible saying goodbye to Jonas at the station today. Neither of us wanted me to go. I hate leaving him cos I love him so much.

Bye!

I was ready to punch the knobhead in the balls – 15th July 2002 – Part 2

Monday 15th continued  On Saturday morning we made our way to the arena and over to the NME Stage. We watched lots of bands such as:

  • Hundred Reasons
  • A
  • Idlewild
  • Less Than Jake
  • Hoobastank

They were all very good. We got pretty near to the front and there was a TV camera pointing at us loads. We wandered round all the stalls and over to the main stage to see The Hives.

We watched Athlete in King Tut’s Wah Wah tent too. They were cool.

Back at the NME Stage we saw a mini whirlwind come across us, pick up some litter and swirl it round really high up. I saw Rhian too. She didn’t take her phone so I couldn’t find her again after that.

I really, really hate portaloos now. I dread going to the toilet because they’re sooo disgusting. I’ve hardly drunk any alcohol so I don’t need to pee as much. It’s certainly a good incentive to remain sober!

The last band we saw was Oasis. I like them a lot but they definitely weren’t as entertaining to us as some of the less well known bands.

We sat around our group of tents after that and Jonas and his mates played guitars and sang. Ross, Fraser, Andrew and Neil are in a band called The Gloria Flaw and they want us to see them do a gig in Forres one day. Apparently Jonas is mentioned on their website cos he was in a band with some of them once.

When we went to bed, Jonas was saying that he wanted to go to Gretna Green to get married. 🙂 He was jokingly saying it but said he meant it.

Sunday was good but not brilliant. Jonas and I missed a band called Biffy Clyro that Jonas’s mates know and really like because we were stood in a queue for the cash machine for 2 and a half hours. It was ridiculous! Cheeky little bastards kept pushing in at the front so they rest of us who’d politely waited were stuck for bloody ages. The security guy at the front must’ve been blind!

I got very, very pissed off when a lanky guy pushed in right in front of me and Jonas. I asked him to get out of the queue and he started trying to deny he’d done it. The woman behind us saw him and was annoyed so he started on Jonas. He couldn’t have hit him very well because he was obviously pissed but I was ready to punch the knobhead in the balls if I’d needed to. I didn’t.

That afternoon we watched Foo Fighters then Green Day who were excellent. It was so good! We just missed out on getting in the mosh pit bit were as close as we could be otherwise. They got people up on stage to play their instruments and the lad with green hair who played the bass had a sister stood right by us.

That evening we sat around singing and stuff again. A couple of other people joined in too. I was a wee bit tipsy but not too bad. When we went to bed, Jonas asked me how long I thought we should’ve been going out before we did stuff without anything. I asked why and he said it’s more personal. I then asked how he knew and he told me he did it without anything the first time he ever had sex. I’m not impressed. He said he’d get checked out for diseases if I wanted. He then got all upset about it and said he’s worried about it before. We made up and he said he still wants to marry me. 🙂 I’m very cautious about it anyway. I’m not sure it’s worth the risks really.

This morning we packed up our tent and stuff, said goodbye to the Forres lot and left Kinross. I didn’t really want to go cos it’s been a good weekend. I had a small go at Jonas for his driving but then felt guilty and apologised. Jonas said it didn’t matter. He stopped at mine for tea and said he didn’t want to leave. I hope I can see him again at the weekend.

I’m a bit nervous about starting my job tomorrow. EEK!

Bye!