He’d still like me if I ate too many Yorkie bars – 8th & 9th April 2001

Sunday 8th I had a driving lesson this afternoon. It was okay I suppose. I had to do a lot of reversing which was a bit boring after a while actually! My instructor did say that I’ve made good progress with everything so far which I’m pleased about.

Jake came round at about 4:30pm but we didn’t really do much. We just lay about and cuddled a lot and watched TV. He kept telling me how much he loves me again. 🙂

Bye!

Monday 9th Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre today. It was really nice being back there with him cos that’s where we spent our last evening together before he went. We found me some new pyjamas with Miffy on them in La Senza. Jake helped me choose. We then went for a drink in Starbucks before going to watch Traffic at the cinema. The film was a bit crap so we kept each other occupied instead!

Jake informed me that he’d still like me if I ate too many Yorkie bars and got fat but wouldn’t like me quite as much as he does now! He said he likes the way I look now which is why he’s always staring at me! 🙂

We came back to my house afterwards and we just cuddled and talked. Jake ended up getting upset when I told him how I sometimes feel left out when he goes on about his skiing friends. We made up again though with a big hug!

Bye!

A 17 year old fuckwit like Hugo – 7th April 2001

Saturday 7th Jake came round at about 2pm today. We didn’t really do much, we just lay about on my bed pretty much all day. We were looking at holiday brochures and stuff and he said we’ve got to go to loads of nice places together. He was constantly telling me he loves me again 🙂 (I don’t mind!) and he couldn’t stop touching me and kissing me which was really nice.

Tess & Jake reunited

[Reunion selfie in my room.]

His mate, Hugo, rang at one point. He really is a pain in the arse! He never shuts up and drones on about really boring things like the plug sockets in his room! He slagged me off really badly before Jake went away so I’ve taken quite a dislike to the sad twat! Hugo’s obviously madly obsessed with Jake cos he just won’t leave him alone and we reckon it’s a jealousy thing that made him not like me cos they used to see quite a lot of each other before I came along, I think.

Anyway, I don’t know whether he’s had a bang on the head or what but Hugo suggested to Jake that he and I go out for dinner with him and his girlfriend, Katie. She must be a desperate cow cos she’s in her 20s and is going out with a 17 year old fuckwit like Hugo. He met her on a cruise last summer and they’re both loaded but both a bit thick, I think. He had to go to some special boarding school and she’s a beauty therapist or something.

When Jake told me what Hugo suggested, my first reaction was to yell, “Yeh right!!” and laugh hysterically but then when I thought about it, I realised that dinner with Hugo and his girlfriend would be the perfect opportunity to give Hugo his present. Ha ha!! (Evil laughter!) The present is a book entitled, “How Did I Begin?” and it all starts with a “special cuddle” between a mummy and daddy… blah blah… etc.! I’m sure you get the picture! Sarah and bought Hugo that cos he once asked Jake, “Where d’you put it, Jake?” when they were talking about “stuff” one night! Jake’s refused to even go to dinner, never mind let me present Hugo with his book!

Jake told me that in Canada, he and his mates were talking about people sleeping with each other and he jokingly used the term “special cuddle”. All the others found it really funny and apparently it got used quite a lot afterwards!

He gave me my present today. It’s a necklace thing with a few beads on it. He says you can only get them in Banff. It’s quite nice actually.

I did 3 to him and he kept undoing my bra and kissing me everywhere. He says I’ve got a really nice back! He brushed my hair too which nearly sent me to sleep! He kept saying I was cute and calling me ‘Miss Tessa Jane Simpson’! I don’t know why but it makes me smile cos it’s sweet!

He wants me to get my tummy button pierced. He said he really likes it cos it looks nice and even said he’ll pay for me to do it. I do want to, I have done for a while, but I don’t like pain or infection so I’m not too sure if I actually will!

Every time the phone rang today I expected it to be Jake for a split second, even when I was with him! It was weird!

Bye!

We had a bit of a passionate session! – 6th April 2001

Friday 6th

HE’S BACK!!!!! 🙂

I woke up to a message on my phone from Jake this morning. He sent it at 11:49pm last night (just after I’d gone to bed) from Calgary airport saying that he’d missed his phone, that he’s missed me more and that he loves me. 🙂

I accidentally left my phone at home when I went to college but I needed it cos Mum was going to ring to tell me when she could pick me up so I skived 2nd lesson (Maths General Studies) and walked home to get it. I got a bit of Biology coursework done and then checked Teletext for Jake’s flight. It was meant to land at 10:35am but Teletext said it had landed at 10:47am. I was just pleased to see it had landed!

I went back to college, went to Biology and then helped Cat sort out people’s passports for the History trip to Russia. I saw Mr P-K’s and he looked so different but still quite fit! I saw Miss P’s too. She looked a bit more female than she does now cos she had longer hair!

Jake texted me again at about 2:30pm to say he was on his way home in the car. I was pleased to read that too.

All day I’d been getting little waves of excitement when I’d remembered I could see him tonight. The day really dragged though. He said he’d come to my house at about 6:30pm so I went home from college early cos I had a free period last thing and started to get ready cos I didn’t want to still be in the shower or anything when he arrived!

I was just in the middle of watching The Simpsons on TV when I saw his dad’s car pull up at the end of our drive. I saw Jake in the passenger seat and couldn’t stop grinning! I wasn’t sure whether I should rush to the front door or wait until he knocked.

I saw him run up the drive (it was raining) so I ran to the front door. He knocked twice just as I got there and I let him in. I’d been running through in my head all day what I’d do when I first saw him but anything I came up with I forgot when I was actually with him.

We just stood in the hall and hugged each other really hard. He said he loved me so I said I loved him too and we carried on hugging. It was weird (but nice!) kissing him for the first time too cos I couldn’t stop smiling!

It was all really weird actually! I kept having to poke him and stuff to check he was really here! He looks pretty much exactly the same as he did before he went. He was even wearing his jeans and sheep fleece like he did before.

Any daft little worries I’d had before completely disappeared once I was actually with him. He kept saying, “I love you” and I believe him cos of the way he kept touching me everywhere and kept kissing me and stuff cos I was exactly the same with him and I do love him.

We eventually moved from the hall into the front room cos he wanted to see Mollie. She seemed pleased to see him but I still got more attention from him that she did. I was sat on the sofa and he was behind it, still hugging and kissing me so I moved Mollie so he could sit down. We sat cuddling on the sofa for a bit before we went into my room so I could sort my bag out and stuff. It’s sooo good having him back! 🙂

Connor gave us a lift to The Dog, stopping off at the Chinese for Jake to get chips and then we sat in the car eating them. We saw Cat and everyone going out of The Dog so we got out of the car. Jake gave Cat a big hug and then they went on to The Woodman. Jake wanted to go in The Dog so we went in for one drink before catching the others up.

We didn’t stay there long cos all the College 1s were being annoying so we moved to The Cosy Jack. I don’t think Jake let go of me once in there! He was talking to the other people but hugging me. 🙂 He was telling Cat about skiing Dan and how he always smiles and he was known as Radiant Dan cos once someone asked how he was and he said he was “radiant”! Cat likes the sound of him! So do I actually but not in a fanciable way cos I’ve got Jake back now! 🙂 🙂 🙂

We moved to The Grey Hen when we finished out drinks and Jake and I stopped off for a nice long kiss on the way. Mmm! We had to sit on the floor in there cos there weren’t enough chairs but I didn’t mind cos we were sort of hidden. By then, Jake had told me I was beautiful and was constantly whispering or mouthing “I love you” at me so I said it back cos it’s true. It’s nice to keep hearing it from him. 🙂

 

Tess & Jake

[Here we are, reunited on the floor of the pub.]

He told me that everyone had been asking if I’d be at Heathrow airport cos they wanted to see me, and Charlie and Abbi wanted to say hi. He said me and Cat can go to Alton Towers with them all so we can see them cos I kind of want to and she definitely does!

We went in The Mossland next but went when they stopped serving so we weren’t there long. Everyone else headed into the next village but Jake and I went back to my house instead. We were just sat in the kitchen and I was asking if there was anything he hadn’t told me about Canada (jokingly!) and he went all quiet.

I eventually got it out of him that there was some Canadian instructor called Sarah who took a liking to him. He said he didn’t know about it until Rob (who’d warned her off him) told him the next day that she’s been asking after him. He said it upset him and scared him at the time cos he didn’t like the thought of it all happening behind his back cos he though he’s made it clear to everyone that he wasn’t available.

He said he wanted to tell me but didn’t know how to say it and didn’t want to worry me. He’s right, I would’ve been worried and he said it happened recently so I’ll forgive him for not saying anything. He said nothing happened but I was annoyed and active like I didn’t believe him and he ended up getting upset about it. I had to calm down cos I felt really guilty for not believing him (I sort of did really) and getting him upset.

We made up and he made me lie on the floor in the dining room where we had a bit of a passionate session! We didn’t really do much other than kiss though.

He told me that it’s not just one thing that he likes about me and he said I’m just sexy! Hah!! He also said we’ll have to have a whole night together during these holidays. I agree!

I’m really, really glad he’s back now! 🙂 No more waiting for phone calls or worrying about cougars and stuff! 🙂

Bye!

See you tomorrow – 5th April 2001

Thursday 5th
0 days to go!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

Yey!!! The 12 weeks since Jake left is up! He’s due home tomorrow!!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 I can’t wait to see him!

He told me that he’d phone at about 5pm today so when he hadn’t rung by 6:15pm, I decided to phone him instead cos I was bored of waiting round for a call. The bloke on the other end put me through to his room but then came back on the line saying that the phone in that room was being used. I decided to leave it cos Jake might have been on to his Dad or something. It got to about 6:55pm and he still hadn’t phoned so I rang his hotel again. This time, a woman put me through to his room, let it ring for a while then told me all the rooms were empty so they could be cleaned. She asked if I wanted to leave a message just in case Jake walked by but I didn’t.

Jake finally phoned me at about 7:10pm. He said he’d had to rush about and get out of the room so it could be cleaned. He doesn’t know why the phone was engaged though. I asked if we could go to Alton Towers at some point in the summer and he said I could go when he meets up with ski people if I want. That’s what I wanted him to say really! 🙂 He said he might go back to Banff after uni one day but not without me. He said I could get a job at the resort cos there’s loads of stuff to do. He said we’ll both have to do something when we finish uni. I hope we’re still together then! He told me he wasn’t interested in the cowgirls he mentioned in his email! I’m very glad to head that!

He kept getting all squeaky and excited when we talked about him coming home. He said he really wants a hug. So do I!

He said he can’t remember what he’s said to Rob about me. He said they just talked when they were reading emails and stuff. Rob sounds really sweet! Jake said he puts his girlfriend’s perfume on his pillow every night and that she’s sent him a bottle of homemade bubblebath but Jake broke it accidentally. Ahh!

Jake also said that his mate Dan would be a good match for Cat cos he’s sort of quiet and intelligent. That’s handy cos I intended to matchmake then if they were ever together anyway! He said he will teach me and Cat to improve our skiing if we want. We’ll see!

He said he’ll be sitting with Tom, James and Rob on the plane if he gets a choice and they’re going to play drinking games with water to pass the time!

Ahh, he said he’s actually missed Gethin! He reckons it’s cos there was nobody even a bit like him in Banff. They were all too masculine! Gethin just isn’t!

We both said, “See you tomorrow” like we’ve been wanting to do for ages! That sounds really good!

Jake said he’d text me when his phone worked at the airport but he hasn’t done yet. I hope he gets back home alright. I really can’t wait to see him!

Bye!

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Please not sandals! Nooooo! Yuk! – 26th March 2001

Monday 26th
1 week + 3 days to go!

Sarah told us today that she no longer thinks it’s a myth! It took us a while to get her to tell us whether she’d tried anything since Saturday but eventually she nodded that she had! Cat said Mr L was willing to help prove that it’s no myth to Sarah but I don’t think Sarah would really want her to let him!

The others said they weren’t sure what to believe from what I said on Saturday! I did embellish the night at the Trafford Centre a bit by saying it all happened in the management suite opposite Starbucks and stuff like that though! I think I’d rather just leave them guessing actually!

Jake phoned at about 7:50pm. He said he tried to ring about 30 minutes before but got the BT answer service thing. I think Mum might have been on the phone then though so that’s probably what happens when it’s engaged. He phoned earlier cos there weren’t enough instructors to go round everyone who wanted to shadow a lesson.

He said he did some shopping yesterday and bought 4 pairs of shorts, shoes for the beach (please not sandals! Nooooo! Yuk!), a shirt and some presents for people. He got clothes for Robbie and Clara and surprise(s) for me. Yay!

He likes the sound of “See you next week!” and so do I! We can actually say that now cos he really is coming back next week!! That sounds good! 🙂

He said (when I asked) that he’s never discussed anything like I did on Saturday with anyone and that he probably won’t either.

The phone cut off twice again today. It’s so annoying! Actually, the 1st time was my fault cos I put the phone down in the hall to get the one upstairs instead. He said he’ll ring at about 8:30pm tomorrow.

Bye!

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He should so get sacked! – 22nd March 2001

Thursday 22nd
2 weeks to go!

Cat filled us in on what happened yesterday after college with Mr L. She went and helped him put up a wall display or something and then as things progressed, he locked them in the History store cupboard. She said he was just all cuddly towards her and gave her a massage and stuff. He should so get sacked! He’s already looking for another job and I bet it’s not really cos he wants a higher position. Somehow I think it’s more likely that he’s getting out before he gets found out, chucked out and ends up having to work in Tesco or something!

Jake phoned me at about 7:30pm. He said he didn’t shadow anyone this morning, he just skied on his own. He said his group’s being filmed for a promotional video this afternoon. They’ve been picked cos they’re the biggest group.

I told him I needed a hug to keep me going while I’m doing my Sports Studies coursework but he said he wouldn’t just want a quick hug so it wouldn’t help cos I’d get nothing done!

He sounded a bit more cheerful than he did yesterday. He wants to come home but he said he is going to miss certain people like Rob, James and Danny (whoever they are!) and the others he hangs round with. He did say he won’t miss the girls in the room next to him though cos one’s always with James and the other always goes on about that Hollywood lad.

Bye!

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He is a complete and utter bastard! – 21st March 2001

Wednesday 21st
2 weeks + 1 days to go!

I went back to college today. I felt better but I was a bit tired cos my left leg and foot went a bit tingly for no apparent reason while I was trying to sleep so I lay awake worrying for a while!

Uhh, Cat’s been brainwashed by Mr L into thinking he’s God again. They were chatting on the internet last night and have decided to be “friends”. Silly cow! It’ll all end in tears again cos he is a complete and utter bastard! She arranged to meet him after college in the History department and the words “store” and “cupboard” were mentioned. That was the scene for the action last time. I suppose we’ll find out what happened tomorrow.

Jake phoned at about 7:20pm tonight. He phoned me later cos he wanted the morning to decide whether to do Level 2 or not. He is going to do it. He says he’ll only be able to phone me at his lunchtime for the rest of the week now cos he’s going to be shadowing some instructor which means getting up early. He says he’ll only be able to phone me later, if at all, sometime next week as well when he’s doing the Level 2 thing.

It was a really bad line tonight. I could hardly hear him most of the time cos he just sounded really quiet and muffled and kept breaking up.

Red phone

He gets home on Friday 6th April. That’s okay thought cos if he’d have come back on the 5th, I probably wouldn’t be haven able to see him anyway and it’d be frustrating knowing he was just down the road but I couldn’t see him. He said he definitely wants to see me on the day he gets back.

Bye!

P.S. Lou in Neighbours has done something to a nerve in his back and he complained his legs were tingling (as well as pain though). I know it’s not really but still, it kind of reassures me in a way about my legs.

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