A-Level Art isn’t about boosting egos or fulfilling sexual desires – 12th May 1999

Wednesday 12th Went up to start my Art exhibition at lunch. Ewan was there. I spoke to him but nothing interesting was said. Hayley showed him some photos of me when I was about 3 yrs old and I think summit along the lines of ‘cute’ was said.

Some of his work is really good but, as with everyone’s, some is crap! It’s all really big though. One thing he hung up was 2 A4 pictures he’d done. One was a naked man and one was a naked woman. They were quite good actually.

When we went to the Art talk for the 6th Form College open afternoon, they’d been taken down and Mrs S started going on about how A-Level Art isn’t about boosting egos or fulfilling sexual desires and she said that someone doing GCSE (Ewan) had been doing that. Poor lad! He went so red. He laughed it off at first but told everyone just to leave him alone after a while. I felt so sorry for him.

The afternoon was okay. I went to talks for Art, Geography, Biology, English Lit. and Sports Studies. Ewan was saying that he either wants to be an architect or a doctor and he’s not sure which A-Levels to take out of Art, Maths, Physics, Chemistry and Biology,

I had 2 nice surprises tonight. One was a letter from Adam which was sat on the drawers when I got in. I think the hole through it is off the dog!

10th May 1999


Hi ya! How are you?? Eventually I’ve managed to find some time to write to ya!! So, what’s new?? Any hot gossip I should hear about?!

I’m currently listening to ABBA Gold, have you got it? It’s mint! OK, it may be a bit cheesy but you must agree that ABBA are perhaps THE gods of music… ok, maybe not, but they’re in that catagory!!

I’ve just been to the hospital for an X-ray. It’s amazing how many millions of bones there are in your foot!! I’ve got to go and see the specialist, he’ll be able to make more of the X-ray than I can!

Sorry… I haven’t been able to find any photos, no doubt there’ll be some taken around school during the next few weeks – I’ll try and nick some for you. I did send you that one via email remember?!

I’ve made myself some postcards and put them in the newsagents…. BABYSITTER AVAILABLE!! I need the money! I’ve got a never ending list of things I want and the money is rapidly running out. Never mind eh?!

Not much else to say really… we need photos of people you are coming to the Towers with. Ronan needs to prepare himself, unlike me, I’m already sorted!! J xx

What do you thing to Bryan Adams’ new song? Cloud no. 9. I think it’s ace. (Cheesy word!) I’m gonna buy it I think, I’ll find the funds from somewhere!!

Did I ever give you my mobile no.? If not it’s 07xxx xxxxxx.

What else to say… apart from I’d best dash, try and get some revision done – yeah right!

I sit in anticipation of meeting you, I have so many plans in my mind! – Have you?!

Be good, take care, stay safe and most of all remember… I LOVE YOU


The other thing was an unexpected phone call from Adam at about 9:00pm. As usual we talked about school and exams and stuff. I can’t always make out what he’s saying properly coz he slurs his words a bit but he’s still got a nice voice. He was telling me about a teacher getting punched, Barney being weird and how Ronan was shy and didn’t talk much unless he knows you.

Surprise, surprise… Hayley’s interested in Ronan now I’ve told her he’s sent me a photo. Typical!

French oral at 3:00pm tomorrow. Dreading it! The next time I’ll write in here, it’ll be all over with….. unless I have a panic attack or summit and die!

However weird that Barney is, he’s a good little info source. I printed off an e-mail he sent. P.T.O.


[Barney’s email…]

Subj: Adam!
Date: 12/05/99 19:09:26 GMT Daylight Time
From: barney@the-greers.freeserve.co.uk (Barney Greer)
To: TJSimps@aol.com (Tessa (Ad’s bird))

Hi Tessa, its Barney, the bloke you spoke to last night. I writing to tell you what you want to know!!!!!!

Ad, a good mate of mine, is happy – to say the least! In fact, I think he’s besotted. We were playing “squares” in biology today – like you do, and it got taken off us by dopey Owen – wanker. Owen (the teacher) was in a right mard so we didn’t get chance to talk about you then. But, in games this afternoon, he told me some stuff about you and him. Stuff like how you met over the net about 2 years ago, went through a year of silence and then he found you again.

He can’t speak highly enough of you. He seems to think you’re intelligent even though you deny it! He reckons you are very good looking – you’ve got to be better than his last woman – dog! (don’t tell him I said that) That’s all there is really apart from how much he is looking forward to seducing you in an Alton Towers bush. Have you ever been to the Towers?

Ad said, I think, that you were from somewhere around Manchester. Correct me if I’m wrong! I once fancied a girl from Manchester. In fact last Christmas/new year, when I went to Israel. I never actually spoke to her, she was on the same plane as me both there and back. We exchanged a few nice glances but thats it.

If its alright with you I think I’ll come along to the Towers after the exams. I’ll bring my girlfriends, you’ll like her! However Ad seems to think we wont see much of you! Are you bring a friend down for Ronan? If so whats her name and whats she like?

Can I ask you a question? Why the fuck are you with AOL where you have to pay for the service when you could be with someone like Tesco or Freeserve where you only have to pay for calls? Also can you download the AOL messenger so you can join a chatroom for a communal talk with us lot!

Finally my opinion of Ad. Adam Cunliffe is a nice kinda guy. As I said he is tres intelligent and he works very hard. He has a great family, they are loaded!!!! His mum, Pat is sound – she makes perfect pizza. His dad Derek is a top bloke – he is a sixties king! His brother is only in year 8 but he is bigger than most of us. If you stay at his house you will be made to feel very welcome.

Look, got to go, I’ve got tennis training. Mail me back if you want.

Bye for now


Oh, can you tell Ad that I can’t IM tonight – sorry! If I can get on I’ll look for the both of you

If I told Mum the truth, she’d freak! – 16th April 1999

Friday 16th I got my letter off Adam this morning. Mum had hold of it and gave it to me. She mustn’t have seen the back of the envelope with his address and name on coz she asked if it was from Rachael Hollins. I told her it was but I also said that there was this girl, Angela, who I thought it could’ve been off who left a while back but came back recently and said she’d write.

If I told Mum the truth, she’d freak! Here it is with a school photo in there somewhere too. I hope he looks better in real life but when have I ever gone for looks?!

[I wasn’t sure whether to include a letter that I don’t have permission to share but sod it. He’s never going to see it (please reassure me that he’s never going to see it!) and it’s about time I included something written by 90s teenage boy on here.

I can’t get a clear photo of it because it’s a bit crumpled so I’ll type it out. I promise I’m not skipping anything.]

14th April 1999

Dear Tessa,
                    Hi ya! Here’s the letter that I’ve been promising you for ages! I’ve just finished preparing my French oral – although it still needs modification! I can’t wait to drop French though, it’s so boring!!

I’ve just phoned the local radio station – and my request has just come on the radio – Bohemian Rapsady (if that’s how you spell it!!) so that’s the highlight of my day – what’s yours been like? I suppose you’re already back at school – worst luck! Never mind, not many weeks left now! And after that it’s not gonna be many weeks before we meet is it?

When + where are we gonna meet? Of course Hayley and Ronan’ll both have to come along to keep each other company – as we’ve already discussed, we’ll be more involved in other things….. let your mind wander again! 🙂 he he he!

What else have you got planned for after your exams – apart from parties? Speaking of which I might be having one; if I do then you’re definately invited!… but that’s only IF I have one!! Are you going anywhere on holiday? We should be but Dad hasn’t booked it yet… I keep on reminding him but nothing seems to happen.

I’ve included a photo – it ain’t very good my head is sqewed to the side… o well! You’ll have to make do with that until I get some more done! You’d best send me one (or more if you can find them) back. I want a passport one to keep in my wallet… it doesn’t have to be the school one but I want a small one amongst the load that you send me!!

When we meet then we’ll get some taken together – which’ll be pretty cool!

I apologise if my handwriting is messy – it’s the pen I’m afraid, I couldn’t find a decent one anywhere… not that I’m that bothered of course… if I can’t find my pencil case for school I don’t really mind.

Thanks again for the Valentines card. It was really sweet of you… I’ll make it up to you some time soon – if you get what I mean??

Well, I suppose that I had best get back to bloody revision! Only a little bit of biology left to go – I’d enjoy biology if it was practical – genetics and reproduction and all that!! he he (aren’t I rude!)

Phone me sometime soon – I like speaking to you on the phone!

I had this wierd dream last night that you came over to my house after school. You’d walked over for some reason. But it was only a dream! DOH!!

Don’t forget to send all the photo’s that you can spare (so I can show you off to all my mates!).

Best dash – and post this – you should receive this by Friday with any luck – otherwise it’ll be Saturday. Let me know when it arrives!

                                       Be good – Take care and remember that I love ya LOADS
                                                             All my love

Crap photo which makes me look like a spastic included!


I wrote a letter back to him this evening. I’ll probably post it tomorrow. [I wish I could read that!]

Ferny’s asked Lena to the prom. Not good!


He is nice. Really, REALLY nice! – 24th-31st July 1997

July 1997 - Fit list

Thursday 24th I spent most of today at Grandma S’s but this evening my cousin Rhian came with ther dad down to stay for a bit. She’ll go back up to Caithness with us when we go.


Saturday 26th We’ve not really done much today but I dumped Chris B on the computer. I emailed him and said it was pointless!

We were on it a bit today and I’ve been talking to another Chris in Lincolnshire.

Rhian, Abby and I have been making loads of cards this evening. They’re dead good we think and we’re gonna try and sell them in Caithness.


Sunday 27th Rhian, Abby and I went to see The Lost World at the cinema. It was nowhere near as good as Jurassic Park.

On the way home, we saw 3 people riding their bikes. The last one was Dougie’s middle sister and I turned round and Dougie and his mum were with her too!


Tuesday 29th We went to WaterWorld today. Hayley was going to come but she couldn’t coz it’s her period.

It was a long journey [An hour and a half at the most. I’m not sure that even warrants the use of ‘journey’.] but it was dead good when we got there. There were all sorts of flumes and stuff and there was a wave machine.

I’ve been packing all afternoon ready to go to Caithness so I’d better get on with it and pack this diary. [Quite a risk to take it when I was going to be surrounded by little cousins.]


Wednesday 30th I’m in the Atholl Palace Hotel now. Rhian, Abby and I are in a room of our own and Mum, Dad and the dog are in another. We have just travelled from 11:30am to about 5:00pm to Pitlochry where we are stopping overnight. [THAT counts as a journey.]

There is this gorgeous boy in the hotel. I’ve only seen him from a distance but I can just tell. [I’d developed a bat-like ability to detect fit boy prey that I couldn’t even see clearly.]


Thursday 31st Our journey has ended and we’re in Wick now at Auntie S’s house.

I saw that boy this morning in the hotel at breakfast. He is nice. Really, REALLY nice! He has blonde hair and a good tan. I was going out of the dining room and I glanced up at him and he was staring at me! […In disbelief at my head-to-toe sportswear in the dining room of a nice hotel, perhaps.] There is no “I’m sure” coz he definitely was!

I could hear music (pop) coming from across the road to Auntie S’s where this lad Alex used to live. He’s moved to Shetland now but his dad’s still there coz he can’t get a transfer so I thought Alex might be visiting.