He’s bound to have stalkers cos he’s so niiiiice – 23rd & 24th December 2001

Sunday 23rd  My family and I travelled up to Stirling today. It started snowing at home just before we left but there was none at all in Scotland.

I sent Jonas a text when I was a bit drunk. I think I said I wanted a cuddle cos he replied, “What’s with all the big and little letters? Here’s a big HUGGLE. x” I had a few more messages from him too saying he was at his auntie’s and then, “U only sent 2 txts when u were drunk. Ur picture is above my bed for all to see + say how bonne you are! : ) dogs through the window? Cool! x” The bit about dogs was in reply to me telling him we had to sneak Mollie into the Travelodge through the window. When he said ‘bonne’, does he mean ‘bonnie’? Hope so! 🙂


Monday 24th  I was right, I think. I had a message off Jonas today saying, “Bonne – pretty in Scottish: my mum uses it a lot. Xmas 2mw. Oh r u excited? Still up 4 New Year yep; have to give me details and stuff! : ) x”

I say a sign for Forres where Jonas used to live. It’s 22 miles from where I was sat in Tesco car park in Inverness. I had more texts from Jonas saying he was getting pissed with the cousin he’s going to snog. I’d be joking before he went about not snogging his cousins so I’m assuming he was joking too! I’m a bit worried anyway. He could get pissed and go out and do stuff with people. He’s bound to have stalkers cos he’s so niiiiice and I don’t know what he’s really doing. Ugh, got to stop thinking!

We finally got to Wick this evening. Abby and I went with our cousin Rhian to deliver Christmas presents to her mates. We then went to Midnight Mass with Auntie S, Uncle G and our little cousin Tom. Other little cousin, Minnie, stayed at home. I wasn’t in the best of moods cos Abby and Rhian were being all chummy and going on about how they want to go to Glasgow Uni together and excluding me. Then when I was in church, I found myself really close to tears cos it reminded me of Grandma L’s funeral. That was the last time I’d been there.

After Midnight Mass, we all went round to the minister’s house. It was full of old people so we went and watched Mission Impossible 2 in his son Matthew’s room.


“Are you gonna do a spit roast?” – 20th to 22nd December 2001

Thursday 20th to Friday 21st  I finally got my Maths coursework done today with help from Jen and Vicky’s work. I’m so pleased to get it out of the way.

I went round to Jonas’s this evening. We watched TV and then went to bed. It was absolutely freezing in his house so we had to keep each other warm. Stuff happened.

We had fights with cold stuff like keys and deodorant cans and Jonas said he wanted to stay in his bed with me forever. 🙂 He also asked if I get “grotty” when I’m on my period totally out of the blue. I said I don’t really and he explained his mum and sister get really moody.

Jonas also said, “Ooh, there’s a naked girly in my bed!” and asked if I wanted to join him in the shower. I didn’t. While I was getting dressed in bed (it was still freezing this morning), Jonas played his guitar at me. He’s pretty good.



Friday 21st to Saturday 22nd  Jonas stayed over at mine. We lay and watched TV on my bed for most of the evening. Jonas said something to me like “Are you gonna do a spit roast?” I wasn’t entirely sure what he meant and he wouldn’t tell me. He then asked me if I fancied “the sexy girl on the pic” and pointed to a photo of me. 🙂

He decided he wanted to take a photo off my wall of me so he would remember what I looked like over Christmas and so he could show his mum and sister. I reluctantly gave him one of me, Marc and Layla in school uniform. Jonas said he’s got a “big hairy conscience” so he wouldn’t snog anyone else at Christmas even if they pinned him up against a wall.

Jonas had to get the bus fairly early this morning so he could catch his train. We said not to snog anyone to each other and he told me to keep in touch. He said he’ll hopefully see me at New Year too. 🙂 I hope so! We had a really nice snog and then he went. He told me he’s going to put my photo above his bed. Arrghh!!

Mum and Dad came to get me and I went home this afternoon. I did The Run [a pub crawl] with a few people this evening which was good. I gained a “No smoking area” sign from The Green Dragon. I think I was in view of the security camera but I’m going to Scotland tomorrow so they’ll have to wait if they want it back.


I hope Jonas never reads this! – 19th December 2001

Wednesday 19th (continued)  Jonas came to visit me AGAIN tonight but I don’t mind cos it’s cold at his house and I like seeing him. We were just lying on my bed and I said something daft while watching TV and he started laughing. I told him to stop laughing at me and he said, “I’m not laughing at you, I love ya!”

I didn’t know what to say so I just giggled at him. I don’t think he meant it cos it was just casually dropped in but it was sweet and I couldn’t stop smiling anyway.

Things progressed properly tonight and I ended up sleeping with him (as in sex – I don’t know why people say ‘sleeping with’ cos that’s hardly what you do). We just started tickling each other and then snogging and he sat up and took my trousers off, then my top, then my knickers and socks, then his top and jeans, then my bra then his boxers all in a fairly short space of time. It was dark which would explain why he said “very nice” when looking at my body.

It wasn’t very nice at all. He was way too fast and I very nearly told him to calm down but I thought he might get offended or annoyed or something. I wasn’t particularly enjoying myself for I stopped him. He asked if I was tired and I just agreed. He then went to have a shower and I found myself bursting into tears.

It was partly out of disappointment cos it was a bit crap (I hope Jonas never reads this!), partly cos I thought the reason it was crap was cos we’d rushed into it, but mainly cos I’m worried he’ll go off me now if he thinks it was crap as well.

When he got out of the shower I was okay again and we just cuddled. He said, “Well that was a first. No-ones ever done that to me before.” I thought, “Done what?” He asked me again how many lads I’d slept with but I still wouldn’t tell him. I asked how many girls he’d slept with (just to see if he gave the same answer) and he said, “It’s irrelevant anyway. No girl’s every made me ‘go’ or whatever you call it.” He then said, “You’re magic”. Yey!! 🙂 He then wanted to know how privileged he is to have such a “sought after” girl. I didn’t really think I was! I thought I was the lucky one getting him.

Anyway, all that made me feel much better and I don’t mind what we did quite so much anymore.


I looked all “thinky” – 18th to 19th December 2001

Tuesday 18th to Wednesday 19th  Jonas came round to mine again tonight and stopped over. He’s not very well and overdosed on Lemsip I think! He saw my lab coat and asked if it was a doctor’s uniform which then made him ask immediately if I had a nurse’s uniform. School uniform’s the best I can do I’m afraid!

Things progressed ever so slightly tonight. He had his hand in my bra. We started kissing and then Jonas kind of leapt up onto his knees and kissed me more. I think he wanted to go all the way, or that’s the impression I got, so I stopped it mainly cos I had to be up in 3 hours but also because it seems to be too soon and a big jump from doing nothing to doing it all in one go. I did kind of want to do it though at the same time cos it feels like I’ve known him a lot longer than 3 weeks.

I apologised anyway and he said, “What for?” and he was the one that pointed out I had to get up early anyway just as he seemed to be getting going. I told him I hated Chemistry (my early lecture tomorrow) and he agreed he did too!

Later on we banged heads and I said it nearly knocked me out. Jonas then said he could’ve had his “wicked way” with me if I had been!

I didn’t end up going to Chemistry after all in the morning. Jonas said I looked all “thinky” when I woke up. I was. I do want stuff to happen but is it too soon? I waited nearly a year with Jake and we stayed together for ages. I suppose everyone’s different though and it’s not like me and Jake are still together.

Jonas then sneezed on a photo of Jake so maybe that’s a sign that I shouldn’t worry about it all so much!

I apologised to Jake about calling him gay in a text and he forgave me and said to have a nice Christmas. I don’t feel as mean about it now

Jonas texted me too saying he wanted to eat, sleep, get better and then come and “ravage” me. Ok!


We snogged LOADS – 17th December 2001

Monday 17th  It was my A Level presentation evening at school today but, cos I’ve not broken up for Christmas yet, I couldn’t go. I did feel a bit left out cos all my friends will have been there and the lovely Mr P-K might have gone wearing a suit. Phwoar!!

I went out with everyone here anyway so I forgot about it pretty quickly. Jonas met me in Revolution. We snogged LOADS tonight 🙂 and he said I was gorgeous and sexy and I have nice boobs (he then put his face against them!). Archie agreed with him. Cool!

Jonas told me his balding mate Dave said I’m good looking. I don’t know why people keep saying nice stuff about me cos they never used to before Jake and I don’t think I’ve changed that much. But hey, I don’t mind the compliments!

Jonas said he doesn’t cheat when I mentioned avoiding girls over Christmas. He isn’t going to Scotland now, he’s going to his mum’s but he said he’s going to come and visit me when I get home from Scotland.

Earlier on in the night, I forgot Jonas was with me and agreed with Jen that some lad with a pierced eyebrow was quite nice looking (but not half as nice as Jonas!). He brought it up later saying he was jealous of me fancying the lad so I had to reassure him that I really didn’t. Jonas lost his eyebrow ring somewhere.


Great, my boyfriend’s a cannibal! – 14th to 16th December 2001

Friday 14th  Jonas came round tonight cos I was on my own. We snogged a few times and he tickled me (nicely) again but that was it. He kind of ventured down my top but not properly. I discovered he’s really ticklish down his sides which was quite funny.


Saturday 15th to Sunday 16th Jonas came round again with a supply of Lambrini and Doritos. Mum and Dad came to visit me during the day but went home in the afternoon.

Jonas wanted a photo of me but I didn’t let him cos it’d turn out horrible. [Looks like he managed to get a couple…]

He also tried to eat me and said I’d be with him forever so it wouldn’t be his loss as I said it’d be. Great, my boyfriend’s a cannibal!

Jonas told me my belly’s gorgeous (hmm) and he kept tickling me. He wrote on a post-it note for me with a picture of Chris Moose on it with a pierced lip.

We fell asleep but woke up at about 6am and livened up a bit. He wanted to blow on my tummy but that really would’ve tickled so I had to fight him off. He managed to get me in the end and then pinned my arms above my head on my pillow and kissed me. Finally! I didn’t have to go for it and it wasn’t a joint effort….. HE kissed ME!! 🙂 Ugh, he’s sooo niiice!

Well, he is now anyway. He said he used to have long hair and his head shaved too. Hmm, that could explain the lack of girlfriend, although he’s really nice now so I don’t get why he was single before he met me.

He asked me for a cuddle before he left this morning which was nice. Mmmmmm! 🙂


He’s only got one….. me! – 13th December 2001

Thursday 13th  I was so tired all day today at uni but I was awake enough to go out tonight. I went with Jen, and Violet, Marc, Ronan and a few others were out too so I met up with them in the Rock Café. We’d been to Milton first cos Jen thought her flatmates were there but they weren’t and it was crap so we left. Jonas also met us in the Rock Café and I introduced him to Marc etc. who he hasn’t seen before. We didn’t stay there long and made our way to Bar Non instead.

I got quite a lot of snogs from Jonas in there but they all involved me making a move first, not him. It was still very nice though. We ventured downstairs tonight into the Club Non bit which I don’t normally do cos I don’t like the music as much. I was glad I went though cos they were blasting out polystyrene balls from somewhere so it was like snow.

Jonas and I were sat in a corner chatting while Jen chatted up Jake and various friends of his. Jonas kept tying bows in the ribbons on my top and saying I was sexy. I asked him (joking) how many girlfriends he’d got and he said I’m his girlfriend and he’s only got one….. me! 🙂 He said he really likes my eyes and said I’m sexy and grinned when I glared at him. Ooh, he’s sooooo nice!!

He told me he was getting jealous when I mentioned Jake and Kevin (even though I was probably slagging them off) and pointed out that some of the photos of my groups of friends on my wall include me and Jake being couple-y. I’ll take them down and put other ones up instead. I also found out for sure that he was born in Norfolk.

When I got back to Storthes I sent Jonas a message saying “MMM, I LIKE U” at the end. He replied saying, “NO! IT HURT! [He walked into a lamppost] I WAS TYPING U THAT TXT AS I DID IT BUT I WON’T LEARN TO WATCH WHERE I’M GOING! MMM I LIKE U 2 : ) TIME 4 FOOD + I JUST WALKED PAST MY HOUSE. X”

Jen told Jake earlier that I’ve been saying that I reckon he’s gay and he’s not very pleased about it! That’s fair enough, I suppose. Jen said he complained to her that I never called him J like everyone else and always Jake, but that was how he signed cards and stuff to me so what did he expect? He also told Jen that he was surprised we’re friends cos she doesn’t seem like the type of person I’d be friends with. What’s that supposed to mean? She is! I do feel a bit guilty about what she said to him though.

I’ve just remembered more Jonas stuff. He said he doesn’t want anyone else (as in Cat or Jen) cos he likes me and he doesn’t mind me snoring cos he knows I’m there. Aww! 🙂 He also gave me his last Polo mint and referred to the Rolo adverts, the “Do you love someone enough to give them your last Rolo?” ones, but he didn’t say that.


Fit and lovely and has piercings and…. mmm! – 11th & 12th December 2001

Tuesday 11th  I had a message from someone today saying, “TESS, STOP TEXTING MY BOYFRIEND JONAS! HE’S UNSURE OF HIS SEXUALITY AT THE MOMENT AND UR PUTTIN HIM OFF MEN. PAUL.” Sid perhaps?

This evening, I stayed and did work in my room while Jonas moshed in the Arb. He did ask me to join him but I was knackered and I could see them moshing from my room and it looked scary!

He came round at about 11:30pm after trying (and failing) to hit my window with stones. He was very pissed (he also said something about drugs I think but I’m not sure if he meant him) and was talking complete crap. He kept saying my glaring look was gorgeous and kept making me do it. He went to meet some drummer for this band he’s now in with some of his mates but whoever it was wasn’t interested. I think he said it was a girl actually. He said when he is in a band I might see him and he said I can go, “I love Jonas!” He then talked more crap and fell asleep and snored.

I’ve got to be in uni for 9:15am!!


Wednesday 12th  Due to a lack of sleep from Jonas staying over (only cos he kept snoring and moving about), I ended up missing Chemistry. I made it to my computer lab thing though and Jonas went into another computer room and mailed me on the uni e-mail thing. I asked what he wanted to do tonight and he said he wanted to “ravage you from head to toe”. Ok!!

He also sent me this one:

After my computer thing, Jonas and I went to the canteen to get a caffeine-filled drink each. I’m surprised he wasn’t majorly hungover. Maybe he was though and just disguising it very well!

On my way back to Storthes I saw Ben on the bus. I suddenly found myself wondering what might have happened with me and him had I not met Jonas. I then realised I didn’t really care cos Jonas is fit and lovely and has piercings and…. mmm!

I ended up seeing The 51st State with Jonas at the cinema tonight. It was a really good film so I didn’t mind that we didn’t snog during it cos I would’ve missed stuff.

I went back to Jonas’s afterwards cos I had a long wait for the bus. On the way he asked me if I’d ever done anything majorly illegal. I said I didn’t think so and I asked him the same question. He said he hadn’t either cos he’s a good boy.

He also told me that when geeky Sid sets him up with someone he usually runs away. He said Sid called him a bastard for getting with me too. Erm… if it wasn’t for Sid it would never have happened.

On my way out of Jonas’s house, 2 of his girl housemates were hanging round in a doorway. Jonas said it was cos they wanted to “stare” at me. Weird!


I look sexy when I glare – 10th December 2001

Monday 10th  I went out to Camel tonight as usual. Jonas came too. We snogged quite a lot 🙂 and danced too. He said I was gorgeous and he really does like me and I look sexy when I glare at him when he sticks his tongue out.

We exchanged a few texts when we got home too. He told me he had work so he couldn’t go out except tomorrow and Thursday but that was when I was working or going to Visage with my flatmates. I told him it looked like we’d have to wait til next week and he said, “OH! THAT’S A BIT OF A WAIT. HOW ABOUT U GO TO THE ARB BEFORE VISAGE TOMORROW FOR A PINT, I’LL SEE IF WE CAN GO THERE EARLY? X”. So he does want to see me. Yey! He’s going for a mosh at the Arb tomorrow with is mates but I was going to Visage so I won’t see him. I might not go though. I’d rather see Jonas.

I then sent him a text asking if we were kind of a couple and explained people keep asking me and I don’t know what to say. I know he said I was his girlfriend before but he’s never officially asked me out or whatever. Anyway, he texted back saying, “I WOULD LIKE TO SAY YES GIRLFRIEND! JUST BEEN TO TESCOS + GOT SOME SPRING ROLLS. MMM TASTY! X” Cool! So I can now tell people we are a couple without being unsure about it.

I asked him if he was sure and also asked if he minded me being forced on him by Sid. He’d said earlier that he didn’t mind us being pushed together but I just thought I’d check. Jonas replied, “YEH I’M SURE! SID CAN’T FORCE ME 2 DO OWT I DON’T WANT 2! : ) X” Good good!

I think I then asked if I could now tell people I’ve got a boyfriend cos he replied, “IS THIS TO THE BLOKES YOU MIGHT MEET IN SCOTLAND? U BETTER TELL ‘EM TO BOG OFF OR ELSE : ) SAME ERE LIKE. xJx” Yey! He doesn’t want anyone else to have me!


He asked me what my “tally” is – 8th & 9th December 2001

Saturday 8th to Sunday 9th  Jonas ended up staying last night and not going home til 3pm today :). Nothing happened except him tickling me (gently) and I think he started to undo my trousers but then I moved. We didn’t kiss much but had a nice snog before he left to get on the bus.

I went to Milton with Jonas and his mates this evening. I drank a small bottle of Lambrini before I went cos I didn’t want to be the only sober one when I got there and come across as quiet and boring. I was pretty scared of going actually but it turned out ok.

Jonas met me at the bus stop and we went into Milton. They were all sat downstairs so Jonas bought me a drink and introduced me to everyone. There was only one other girl there (Helen, I think) plus Simon with blue hair and 16 facial piercings (not like Storecard Simon), someone that looked like the greasy, long-haired ginger lad that moshes in the Arb, Paul, someone a bit bald-looking called Dave and a couple of others that I can’t remember.

Some girl called Louise came to the bar at one point and Paul told me she’s known for giving everyone blow jobs or something. Apparently she got with Jonas once but Jonas said she took advantage of him when he was drunk but didn’t get that far with him. I’d rather not have known anyway really. I hope he doesn’t tell people I took advantage of him when he was pissed or anything.

When Milton shut we went and stood outside to wait for my bus and cuddled and talked. He asked me what my “tally” is (meaning how many people I’ve slept with) but I wouldn’t tell him. He narrowed it down to being less than 5 but I wouldn’t say any more. He told me he’s slept with 3 people, including that girl from Crewe. I was hoping he’d just say 1 or 2 but I s’pose 3’s not too bad.

Maybe he’s doing the American Pie 2 thing where when lads gives you their tally, it’s really that number divided by 3. With girls it’s the number they give you times 3. I could see that applying to quite a few people.

I also found out that the longest he’s had a girlfriend for is 3 months but he split up with her when he came here to Huddersfield.

My bus didn’t arrive so, without much persuasion, I went back to Jonas’s. He didn’t kiss me much until we were in bed, and even then I had to make the 1st move. I noticed he smelled a bit funny (as in B.O.) but that’s not a problem as long as he decides to use deodorant. I didn’t care anyway cos I really like him and it was probably just a one off.

Apparently geeky Sid told Jonas I asked him to introduce me to Jonas on his birthday. I did no such thing and I made sure Jonas knew that.

All we did was sleep at night. Jonas felt my arse but that was as far as it went!

In the morning it was freezing so we made a tent by sitting under the bed covers to keep warm. It was nice and cosy but, again, nothing happened, not even snogging.

I got a quick snog in the bus stop before I went back to Storthes but that was it. I really like Jonas but I’m not sure if he really likes me back. He must like me a bit cos he keeps seeing me but he never tries to kiss me. Maybe he’s just shy like geeky Sid said. He did say he’s sure he doesn’t want Jen or Cat (they fancied him) cos he wants me. 🙂 He also said I snored loudly last night though!