“There’s something inside that I need to release” – 25th August 2002

Sunday 25th  I didn’t go home from Jonas’s until Monday this week. After my leptospirosis scare, I still wasn’t feeling up to working so I rang in sick. I spoke to Kathleen and she said Darren was also off with something similar. Jonas had to go to Huddersfield for his exam resit so he took me with him and Mum picked me up so I didn’t have to get the train.

On the way home, Mum told me that Auntie S and Uncle G have split up. Weird. I didn’t know what to say because I was very, very shocked. I didn’t expect that at all. Apparently Uncle G was really unhappy for the last few years when Grandma L lived with them. When the internet broke, he was really funny about giving Auntie S his password so they could get it fixed. When she got it, she found emails and stuff from some woman. He promised her he’d stop speaking to the woman but more recently she found more. Apparently he’s also been spending money they haven’t really got, drinking lots and being really nasty to Rhian, e.g. threatening to check her out without much reason.

On Tuesday and Wednesday, I left work early which was good. There wasn’t much for me to do and I still didn’t feel 100%. I did the quiz with my mates on Wednesday night and we came 2nd….. Again! I rang Jonas too. He’s in Reading because he’s working at the festival. He said the girls aren’t minging (when I asked) and that while he was playing cards, one of them “jokingly” said to move in closer so they could abuse him. Grrr!! I trust him but not them. I don’t like the thought of them trying anything. He said he loves me anyway and wished I was there and blew kisses down the phone. He said it’s cute that I don’t like hanging up first.

Thursday’s night out in Manchester was, well, different. We went to a school disco at The Ritz for Archie’s birthday. Quite a few of my mates came so we went to Isaac’s student house in Manchester to get changed. I felt really daft walking all the way to The Ritz and getting on a bus in my school uniform and we got some funny looks and dodgy comments.

[Isaac, Sarah, Michael, me and Archie looking pretty sober. Must’ve been early on…]

Cat and Jerry annoyed me quite a lot after about 10 minutes of getting into The Ritz. They went all snobby, saying it was a shithole and that they wanted to leave. I explained I had to wait for Archie and that it’d liven up later but they kept going on at me. I think Archie got it right when he said Jerry has misjudged the age he needs to act to fit in and had gone for 9 rather than 19. Gimp. Cat’s just become middle aged. They didn’t really socialise much either. They just stood at the edge, whispering and snogging.

I had a good night anyway, dancing with Lizzie, Archie, Denny and Isaac. All was well up until about 2am when the place closed and we couldn’t find Denny. Isaac went off to find him and we all waited outside. A while later, the bouncers carried someone out and dumped them on the pavement. It was Denny and he was totally unconscious and trying to be sick. A nurse guy said he’d found him in the toilers, choking on his own vomit and that he would’ve died had he not been found.

Isaac was also lying on the pavement making very loud throwing up noises. He was also drunk and the exhaustion after carrying Denny out took it all out of him. Denny was put into the recovery position and some large woman was trying to wake him up and had his head rested in her cleavage.

The ambulances turned up for Denny and Isaac so Lizzie and I went with Denny and Sarah and Michael went with Isaac. Some scary scally woman was yelling at me and Lizzie saying we should’ve done something to help and we weren’t very good friends so the paramedics shut the doors in her face. Hah! There was nothing else we really could do for him.

We were in hospital until 7am. During that time, Denny had had 3 saline drips (after the nurse said 1 should bring him round) and then eventually woke up, undoing his trousers, saying, “Explode..… I’m gonna explode….. There’s something inside that I need to release”, meaning he needed a wee. A doctor unhooked him from the drip which made him bleed everywhere, then he spent about half an hour in the loo!

[Sneaky picture for reminding him every birthday etc. Useful.]

Isaac was sick very, very loudly. He was making awful roaring noises and, after he threw up in a bin, the nurses chucked him out.

The whole night was totally surreal but funny at the same time (once we knew Denny wasn’t gonna die). However, I did feel really ashamed and guilty that one of my mates got that drunk and took up a bed and the hospital’s time (it was Manchester Royal Infirmary) when someone seriously ill might have needed it.

I finally got to bed at 8am after Lizzie’s dad picked up and we had to sit in the car with Denny stinking of sick!

Last night we all had a gathering at Cat’s house. Jerry’s laugh goes through me. He really annoyed me again. He tries way too hard to fit in and insults people as though he’s a mate. If he was a good friend he could get away with it but he isn’t so everyone just gets offended instead. They kept whispering and slagged off Lizzie loads. Jerry hardly knows her and is just going off what Cat says. It’s really mean. I like Lizzie.

Rocky said Cat told him Jerry is “the love of my life”. She’s only known him a few months. At least she’s happy anyway. He’s okay really.

Today was pretty boring. I made a paper Celtic pattern thing for Jonas like the one I did for my Art GCSE but that was it. I hope he likes it.

See you in diary number 26!

Bye! 🙂

It was horrible saying bye to Mum just in case I died – 18th August 2002

Sunday 18th  Work was as boring as usual this week, although I did get to do a lot of plans. I got told I was good at doing them and it must be genetic cos my dad does good plans. Malcolm said I “draw mean plans” twice as fast as Dad but I doubt they’re as good cos he knows what he’s doing and I don’t really!

Rosie came back to work this week. She’s who I was replacing for a while. She’s going to do teacher training in Hull but had to come back for 3 weeks which she owes them. She seems nice. I got to go out on site this week too which was quite good. It was dye tracing in drains at a school in Harthill, Cheshire.

Jonas said he might be working at Reading Festival with Paul. He sounded really disappointed when I said I could only “probably” go to Scotland with him. He said I’ve got to go. I do want to but it depends on the house thing. I spoke to Jonas again on Wednesday and I was worrying about our student house, Reading and stuff. I then worried that he’s probably go off me for worrying.

My mates and I did the pub quiz on Wednesday as well. We won 2 bottles of wine.

On Friday, I woke up feeling very ill. I had a temperature and just felt generally rough. This worried me greatly because once we got back to the office after being out on site on Tuesday, Malcolm told me and Darren that he’s seen rats about. He said to be cautious if we felt fluey in about 3 days because we’d been around the drains and sewage works. Shiiiit!!

I went to Jonas’s anyway, hoping it was just a 24 hour bug. It was horrible saying bye to Mum just in case I died of Weil’s disease. I felt like I was going to pass out on the train. I’d taken some Panadol but it just made me feel numb.

Jonas was very worried about me when I explained. He wanted to take me to casualty but I refused because I would’ve felt stupid and wasted people’s time had it been nothing. Instead, I rang NHS Direct. The nurse who rang back said I could have leptospirosis and to see a doctor as soon as I could.

Jonas’s mum was very kind and let us have her bed. They were all being really nice to me and I felt guilty for being a burden. I hope they don’t catch anything!

I felt better yesterday. My temperature had gone but I had a sore throat with white bits on my tonsils to replace it. Jonas still wanted me to see a doctor but I didn’t. We went to Lincoln for the day and it was very hot. I had no energy so we didn’t stay long but it was a nice day. I bought Archie a horse posing pouch that neighs for his birthday from Ann Summers. He said he measures up to ‘stallion’ on a chart we have so I thought it was fitting!

I really wanted a snog from Jonas all day but due to me being ill, I didn’t get one.

I felt better still this morning. I’ve decided to go home tomorrow though. Jonas and I went for a walk along the river and then had a drive. We did some “stuff” when we got back to Jonas’s and I got lots of snogs. 🙂

Jonas is a bit worried about his resit tomorrow.


I didn’t want any awkward silences – 4th August 2002

Sunday 4th  Worked this week and it wasn’t too bad. I got to go out on site in Haydock and I got to draw lots of plans. I like doing that.

Jonas got his mobile working so I rang him. We had a long conversation about him not phoning me and he said he’s definitely not going off me.

This week, my friends and I came 2nd in the pub quiz again. We prefer 2nd prize to 1st prize cos we got alcohol and winners get a meal vouchers. We also went to see Men in Black 2 which is good but not as good as the first one.

On Friday, Jonas came to visit me again. We went out in Manchester with Cat, Cat’s boyfriend Jerry Johnson, Archie and Isaac. It was okay but most people we invited didn’t come and Cat just snogged Jerry all night. That meant I couldn’t do the same to Jonas cos Archie and Isaac don’t really know each other and I didn’t want any awkward silences. Jonas did keep grabbing me and saying he loved me which was nice.

We stayed in Jerry’s flat which is a bit small and boring but it saved us a taxi fare. Jonas and I got the spare room and got up to 5 in it.

Yesterday, Jerry brought us home which was nice and Jonas and I went to Chester cos Jonas wanted to see the city walls and stuff. It was a nice day out but we had to leave because a nasty looking black cloud started heading our way. We stopped off to see Oulton Park quickly on the way back.

Jonas stayed in my bed until 7am ish which I liked. It was really nice and cosy.

Today I went to see Men in Black 2 again at the Trafford Centre with Jonas. I saw 2 people who used to be in Swing Band at school. When we got back to mine, we tried to do stuff but it didn’t really work. Neither of us wanted Jonas to leave but unfortunately he had to.

It was also the end of the Commonwealth Games today. That’s a shame cos I’ve enjoyed them. Manchester was very lively when we went out too.


Wrapper from a lolly I bought when I went to see MIB2 with my friends. It’s cute!

A dog called Ballsniffer – 28th July 2002

Sunday 28th  I didn’t have a great time at work at the beginning of this week. For a start it was boring and then Malcolm said I should’ve asked about work I had to do the next day earlier on. I couldn’t because they were all busy. Then on Tuesday, I actually cried (not in front of anyone) because Malcolm was using me as a skivvy to make cups of tea and stuff while I was trying to get loads of more important work done for Janet.

Jonas and my friends made me feel better though. I spoke to Jonas on the phone and we were talking about maybe going on holiday together somewhere. I really miss him lots.

On Tuesday, my friends and I went to Heath Farm pub in Congleton for tea because it’s a 2 for 1 pub which is what The Green Dragon is going to be soon. Everyone who works there wanted to see what they were like. We went to Floyd’s afterwards. The lads are really funny sometimes and they make me laugh.

Work improved on Wednesday. I was shown how to draw plans on Corel Draw 8 then I had to do one myself for Janet. I enjoyed it actually, plus I got to sit upstairs on my own so I had no-one watching me if I felt like texting Jonas or something!

I couldn’t get hold of Jonas that evening but I had a missed call while I was doing The Green Dragon pub quiz. I rang Jonas back and he told me he’s had his phone nicked. It was on the kitchen worktop at his dad’s while they were out at the front and someone went in the back door and took it. He said he wants a cuddle and a kiss and a cry. Aww, poor Jonas! He said he loves me and misses me and wants to go back to uni. He told me he’s unhappy when he’s not with me cos I make him happy. 🙂 He said he thinks about me all the time and does try to text me but his phone deletes stuff while he’s thinking about what to say.

Work wasn’t too bad again on Thursday. Janet sent me and Darren out to find hoover bags on our lunch break which Darren was not amused by. He had a bit of a moan about Malcolm and Janet and said he used to go out for hot meals at lunch but nobody does anymore. He said if I ever fancied it then to say so. That was nice and I hope and think it was totally innocent. Just in case it wasn’t, I dropped Jonas and the fact he’s my boyfriend into a conversation.

It was the opening ceremony for the Manchester 2002 Commonwealth Games. It made me feel proud to live near Manchester and I wish I couldn’t been a volunteer.

Jonas phoned me and said his phone was found in a car park so he’s got it back. He told me he loves me. 🙂

On Friday, I went into town with Lizzie and Karen. It was good but pretty uneventful. We played Suck & Blow with beer mats, much to the delight of the lads and bouncers stood near us, Karen fell over and Karen pulled some lad. That was it.

Jonas came to my house yesterday. We did The Run pub crawl with a few people which was funny, e.g. Isaac said he wants a dog called Ballsniffer which will be his own breed called a crotch hound. Ok, it was funny at the time anyway. Neil Kennedy analysed mine and Jonas’s relationship saying (from what he saw that night) Jonas is the daft one and I’m more sensible. I think it alternates to be honest!

Jonas said he likes my mates and we seem to have similar friends to each other. He slept in my bed until 5am ish. I liked having him in there but I didn’t want Mum seeing. He talks in his sleep which is cute!

Before Jonas went home today, we watched the Formula 1 and I drove us (not very well – I got Jonas to park for me!) to the Trafford Centre to see Austin Powers 3 at the cinema. It was very good and very funny. My driving home wasn’t too bad but I could tell Jonas was lying when he said he was impressed and felt relaxed!

I got a bit upset when he was leaving today. I hate not seeing him during the week. He said he loves me and will text and ring me cos he shouldn’t be too busy.

Over the last few nights I’ve been getting a funny feeling when I’ve been falling asleep. I’ve had it before about a year and a half ago when I lost the sensation in my legs. It’s horrible. I get a funny rushing feeling, kind of like when something makes you jump but I don’t actually jump. It stopped me sleeping the other night and I had extra weird dreamy things when I was half asleep. I don’t like it. I hope there’s nothing wrong with me like my heart stops or something.


I DO NOT want an office job – 21st July 2002

Sunday 21st  I started work at Tor Environmental Consultancy on Tuesday. It was an okay first day and everyone seems nice enough. There’s Malcolm Michaels (the owner and Head Consultant), Janet Hill (another consultant), Darren Spen (Assistant Consultant) and Kathleen Burley (Office Manager). I just got shown the basics, e.g. how to work the photocopier, and got odd jobs to do like filing stuff and posting letters.

By Wednesday I’d decided I DO NOT want an office job when I finish uni. I don’t mind being in one for a bit but not all day, every day. Malcolm, Janet and Darren are out on site all the time so being an Environmental Consultant might suit me. It was just incredibly boring over the last couple of days. 8 hours doesn’t half drag! People spoke to me a bit on Thursday which was good and I’d been asked to work on Saturday. I’d get £7.50 per hour but I’d already said I’d see Jonas.

We won wine at The Green Dragon pub quiz on Wednesday night. Everyone was impressed by my good-sounding job until I told them how boring it can get.

I watched Graham Norton on TV this weekend and somebody sent in a picture of the sign for the village of Twatt on Orkney. I was going to do that one day!

I went to Gainsborough on Friday. We stayed at Jonas’s mum’s house but went round to his dad’s new and empty house for a bath (once we’d got the spiders out) and other stuff which was nice and fun. It was sooo nice to see him!

We went to Lincoln yesterday with Jonas’s sister. It was thundery and we get very, very wet. When we got back and dried off we got up to 5 in his sofa bed. His room looks quite good now, even though it’s very small. Jonas said he’ll never dump me and he wants to buy me a toe ring. I remembered that at T in the Park he said it could be like a secret engagement ring! 🙂 He also said he loves me sooo much. Yey!

Before I left we did stuff together and then Jonas had to speak to a policewoman about his dad’s house being robbed. I watched the F1 while that went on and Michael Schumacher won the whole damn thing. Boring and predictable.

It was horrible saying goodbye to Jonas at the station today. Neither of us wanted me to go. I hate leaving him cos I love him so much.


He said it was just hormones – 7th July 2002

Sunday 7th  I went to Mum’s primary school this week to help her with the visits from the children going to into her class next year. That’s about all I’ve done actually.

On Friday I got the train to Lincoln to see Jonas again. I avoided the Huddersfield route but ended up getting stuck in Sheffield for an hour after a train there made toilet stops at each station because the train loos were broken. I got to Gainsborough eventually and Jonas was waiting on the platform. He gave me a kiss and asked for a hug and was very smiley. I’d been pissed off when I spoke to him on the phone because of the trains but he didn’t seem to care.

When we arrived at his auntie’s house, we watched the film Road Trip and got up to level 5. Yesterday we walked into Gainsborough but there’s not much to do. We went to sleep for a bit and then Jonas asked me if I had any secretary-style clothes. Jonas sighed (nicely) and when I asked why, he said it was because he’s “content like this”. It was very nice. 🙂 He bleached his hair yesterday as well but it didn’t go too blonde which I’m quite glad about!

Jonas’s cousin Emma came round with baby Joseph and Jonas was really sweet with him He’s really cute.

Jonas told me lots that he loves me and missed me when I wasn’t with him.

We went to Jonas’s mum’s for Sunday lunch today. We then went back to his auntie’s to check the train times and dye Jonas’s hair red. I’ve ended up with red streaks in mine too cos Jonas persuaded me to let him put some in. He said he loves me and didn’t want me to go.

I got in a slight strop/panic cos I thought I was going to miss my train (I didn’t) but he said it didn’t matter. He’s really good when it comes to putting up with any moods I get into! He said last week’s huff didn’t matter either cos it was just hormones. At least he realised why it was. Most lads probably wouldn’t. He’s very understanding.

I do enjoy being with Jonas on my own in a whole house. It’s really nice. 🙂 When I got home, I had an email from him and I phoned him to say night night.


Practising kissing on his hand – 30th June 2002

Sunday 30th  Jonas turned up at Storthes earlier than expected on Monday which was a very nice surprise. It was sooooo nice to see him and we cuddled lots. We talked and kissed lots as well which was nice. He said he’d been practising kissing on his hand cos he couldn’t remember what it was like! I got a bit upset because I didn’t want him to leave again.

We talked about my work placement and him starting work and he said if we can get through that then who knows what could happen! He said 80% of students marry people they met at uni 🙂 I went to uni with him on Tuesday. He had a presentation of his work or something so I wandered round and met him after it. He’s a bit of a swot really! He’s the only one who turned up.

We cuddled and did stuff again and he helped me pack my stuff to go home. He went and then I went. I haven’t handed my key in yet but I will soon. I’m not that fussed about leaving Storthes cos there’s nobody there and it’s boring.

I went to the Trafford Centre on Wednesday then town on Thursday night for Lizzie’s birthday. It was good because Warrington’s improved since I left. Mr Smith’s has been done up too. Some dancy-crap singer called Kelly Llorenna or something came down on a stage from the ceiling so we did the YMCA to her. We also met Cat’s 32 year old ‘boy’friend that she found on the internet. He seems ok and looks a bit like Cat! Lizzie and I pretended to pole dance round Sarah and Isaac and I took the piss out of scallies by imitating their dancing. That’s always fun!

On Friday, Abby drove me to Warrington Central station so I could go to Gainsborough but there were train strikes so none were direct to Huddersfield where I wanted to change. My phone battery had died so it was just by chance I spotted Abby. While deciding what to do, I saw Cat and Lizzie so Cat let me charge my phone in Dawsons where she works.

I decided to go to Jonas’s anyway and had to change trains at Manchester Piccadilly. I got completely lost but eventually found the right platform but had to wait for ages. There was another guy trying to get to Hull but couldn’t find his train. I tried to help but couldn’t and I felt really sorry for him.

I eventually got to Huddersfield but only to find there were no trains going to Lincoln. They’d all been cancelled. I was pretty pissed off and didn’t know what to do so I went to Storthes. I manages to get hold of Jonas and he very kindly offered to pick me up. I did make it to Gainsborough in the end!

Jonas told me his auntie’s house is haunted (thanks, Jonas!) so I was glad when I wasn’t on my own. They’ve got lots of cats so I blamed noises on them to make me feel better! We were very pleased to see each other and had a nice snuggle up on the sofa watching TV. It was very nice having the whole house to ourselves and a double bed.

Jonas was at work til 2pm on Saturday so I was scared all morning! We went to Cleethorpes to the beach but the sea was really far out. We walked along the sand anyway. That evening we had a BBQ at his mum’s and I met her boyfriend Mike. Laura gave me a belt too which was nice of her cos she doesn’t wear it anymore. We went to see his dad briefly too.

After Gainsborough, Jonas drove me to Huddersfield and we said goodbye. Mum and Dad then came and cleared out my room. I handed my key in so I’ve officially left Storthes. EEK! I don’t want anyone else to have my room but I am looking forward to living in a house. I’ve left my 1st year accommodation and it only seems 2 minutes since I moved in!

Goodbye Room 5, Flat 5, Block D, Boothroyd Court!


I went without a shower for 3 days – 22nd June 2002

Saturday 22nd  The fieldtrip was hell. Last year they went to Malta, the Geography lot went to Switzerland and we get dumped in South Wales. Woohoo.

The place we stayed in was awful. From the outside it looked okay but once inside, ugh! It was freezing cold, the rooms were tiny and full of midges and it was just generally crap. I shared a room with Jen and Sally which we were very pleased about cos we could’ve been with the old people. However, we couldn’t actually get into our room at first due to the door handle being knackered. Once we did get in, the stuff we put on the floor (mainly clothes) ended up damp because of a wet patch across half the room.

After a particularly unpleasant tea on the 1st night, Sally, Jen and I decided to have a shower. We found some in the block that were pretty nasty looking with brown patches on the walls and hair clogging up the plug, but we were told they were for staff and ours were across the car park. The ones for us were 10 times worse. They were cold with muddy puddles full of grass on the floor, a vast collection of dead insects scattered around, cobwebs in the windows and brown/yellow stains everywhere. They looked like they hadn’t been cleaned for years. The showers themselves were pathetic trickles that took about 10 minutes to warm up and we later found out the water came from a stream (probably full of dead sheep).

If being traumatised by having daddy long legs flying round in the shower wasn’t enough, on my way out I spotted it. The biggest fucking moth I have EVER seen was sat on the door to get out. It was kind of sparrow-sized and I was sooo scared of it flying at me. It stayed there all week too and even the lads were scared to shift the thing. At one point I went without a shower for 3 days just cos of the moth!

We were out doing fieldtrips every day. Some were awful, e.g. when Dr V took 2 hours to explain something that could’ve taken 5 minutes while we were being eaten alive by midges and missing our dinner. Some, like the trips to the beach and rock pools, I quite enjoyed. We visited Port Talbot steelworks (Corus), sand dunes and rock pools at the Gower Peninsula, mud, beaches and a pub.

The fieldtrips would’ve been much more bearable had we not had Dr V rambling on and on and on. Just as you thought he’d stopped talking, he started again, usually due to an old person or Ben asking a question. Even the other lecturers got bored!

Another annoying thing about the damn trip was that we missed most of the World Cup. Just before we had to do our presentations on the last day (ours was on the rock pools – me, Jen and Sally did it) we got to watch England lose to Brazil on a tiny fuzzy black and white TV. Oh joy.

The whole trip just got to the point when it was so bad it was funny. On nights, we were working til 11:30pm and watched Archie trying to force down a shepherd’s pie, which he hates. Poor Julie even had to have her birthday there.

I got to know people I’d never really spoken to before and I found I got on really well with Sally. We talked loads and I found out she knows Pierced Sam who’s living with Jonas next year. We’ve got the same taste in lads, clothes, music and hate talking to our parents about lad stuff. She’s been going out with her boyfriend Harvey for a long time too. It’s just weird how I’ve never really bothered with her before because we’ve mainly stuck with people we met in Freshers Week.

Kevin managed to not only piss me off this week but piss off just about everyone else there too. Most people got to know and like each other more but Kevin just annoyed everyone. Here is a list of examples:

  • Jen was telling us how her Scalextric has trucks on it and we were all quite impressed. Kevin then felt the need to better her and reeled of loads of cars he’s got on his.
  • When we had a quiz, Kevin was so determined that his team beat me, Jen, Archie and Sally that he even pissed Ben off who was a member of his team. Ben later told me (on one of his many night time rants in our room about Kevin) that he was actually hoping we’d beat them because of Kevin!
  • Jen put the tiniest bit of vodka in Archie’s pint and Kevin said very loudly how immature it was, I think in the hope Archie might be grateful.
  • Kevin basically said people from council estates are scum. Jen lives on a council estate.

There were many more incidences of Kevin being a prick but I’d be here forever if I wrote them all down.

Ooh, I’ve just remembered another… During our presentation of our project, Kevin said to Archie, “I bet that’s all she’s gonna do” about me when I was changing slides. He was wrong. Grrr! However, Rick and Ben called Kevin “Shit” all week. It started cos they’d called him “Tidy Ida” for folding his underwear and stuff. He didn’t like that so Rick pointed out they could call him much worse, e.g. Shit. Ha ha!

Ben also commented on the fact that Kevin always goes on about the size of his speakers. Ben started saying stuff like, “Which speakers are those then? I don’t think I’ve ever heard you mention them.” Hee hee!

I spoke to Jonas twice when I was in Wales. He said he loves me and misses me but wasn’t doing much but working in a wood yard. He said I could stay at his auntie’s house with him while he looks after it. I did get a bit upset once cos I missed him a lot. I can’t wait to see him.


Jake can bloody well piss off – 2nd June 2002

Sunday 2nd  I had my Atmospheric Science exam to start this week off and it wasn’t too good at all. I was expecting to have to write an essay at some point in the exam but the entire exam was 3 essays. I don’t think I did too well unless some of my waffling happened purely by chance to be correct. Jonas came round later to cheer me up.

Jonas was happy on Wednesday cos he got some good comments for his work. I actually have no idea how well I’m doing in some subjects. I would quite like to know then I can either not stress or decide to work harder.

On Thursday, there was the school disco that I’m on the flyer for. It was pretty good actually, even though I’ve been to loads. Jonas looked really good in the jeans he cut the bottoms off, a cap and some freckles for eyeliner. He said I looked good too. Rick off my course also told me I was looking good, Fit Phil (Jen named him that – I disagree) from Ben’s flat pinched my arse and so did some others. Dave told Jonas he’s really lucky cos I’m great. That was nice of him. Jonas said he definitely agreed 🙂 I’m lucky to have Jonas too.

When we were in Rock Café, Aletta from Ben’s flat spoke to me. I was surprised cos Archie told me she didn’t like me for some reason and she usually blanks me. I think it’s from the start cos they said we spied on them from our flat and I told Ben that they were being a bit pathetic.

Back at Storthes, Jonas started talking about houses together again. It makes me happy to think we might be together for that long and he’s thinking about it. He did scare me when he said there was a 1% chance I’d meet someone else over the summer. I don’t want him to think that cos he might meet someone as well. I want him to know I don’t want anyone else too.

On Friday, I went home with Jonas and Archie for Abby’s 18th birthday party. It was also a school disco!

[Birthday girls]

All my mates from home were there too so it was good fun. Archie got very, very drunk and snogged Karen. He then got upset cos she then went off and snogged Cat and Jake (at the same time!). He was then sick all over Floyd’s sofa cos we went there afterwards. He kept telling me how I’m his best mate, “Not just at uni, best mate ever!” Aww!! I have to day, I think he’s one of my best mates too.

[Jonas, Archie & me]

I saw Freddie Bevan at the party. I used to be really good mates with him when he went out with Emma T but he’s getting married now! That’ll be weird when my mates start getting married.

Jake said Cat and Karen are a pair of nymphomaniacs. He kept talking to my dad too which I didn’t like cos Jonas is my boyfriend now so he should be the one speaking to my dad. Jake can bloody well piss off. Mind you, he did spend most of his time sat in the corner with Connor. Hah!

[Gethin teaching us one of his dances.]

Yesterday, Archie wasn’t feeling very well at all. I can’t say I was surprised! He got the train home okay though. Jonas walked Mollie round the fields with me. It was really nice. We saw some ducklings and they sat incredibly still and well camouflaged in the pond when they saw us. I didn’t know ducks did that. We came back to Huddersfield last night and Jonas stayed at mine all today.


2 hours slagging off Kevin – 19th May 2002

Sunday 19th  Ooh, I really don’t like being without Jonas now, even for a few hours. I didn’t like it anyway but the more time I spend with him the worse it is being apart.

I only went out once this week. On Monday I went to Camel and saw quite a few people there including Jill Baines from my college who I spoke to for quite a while. I stayed at Jonas’s after.

Unlike most people, I made it into uni on Tuesday morning. There was only Ben and me there. Ben spent most of the 2 hours slagging off Kevin (I wasn’t going to stop him!), saying how he’s annoying and acts like his girlfriend, whinging when Ben goes out without him!

What really started up my hatred of Kevin again was when Ben told me how Kevin had wanted to delay sorting out our rooms for next year because he wanted to fix it so he got the basement. AAARRGGHH!!! He bloody well got it anyway! Bastard! He apparently wants it because he’s got the biggest speakers. Biggest head more like.

On Thursday I sat on the grass at Storthes Hall all day with Jonas and Dave because it was really nice and warm and sunny so we decided to have a BBQ. Jonas brought his guitar too. We were later joined by Archie, Jen, Alexa and a few others so it was quite a good afternoon. I got pretty sunburnt though.

I had a fieldtrip to Castleton in Derbyshire on Friday which wasn’t actually too bad. It was a nice day and we got to go in Peak Cavern and look at all the limestone landforms. Jen and I spoke to more of the Geography people and we got drenched by ducks flying over us.

Jonas went to Gainsborough this weekend for a christening and someone’s birthday. I really, really missed him. I could’ve gone but I only had 3 days to research and do coursework from the fieldtrip, plus it seems like a family thing.

Jonas did text me saying he missed me all night and he’d come and pick me up but I had to say no, even though I was very tempted cos I really wanted to see him. He rang me too and said he was really disappointed I couldn’t go. He said he’d be bored at the christening and stuff without me and said “I love you” before he went. He tried loads to persuade me and said he was looking forward to seeing me a lot so I felt really guilty for not going. I got my work done though.

That evening I went up to the Arb with Archie and Hazel. Archie was being evil about the study room in our house but did say Kevin doesn’t deserve the basement. He also said that Jen’s always trying to start arguments.

Today there was a bike race one and I’ve just had a big yellow Yorkshire Air Ambulance helicopter land outside my room.