I stuck a piece of ham to his window – 29th September 2002

Sunday 29th  My housemates and I went out to Camel Club on Monday night. It was really good because loads of people were out. Magic (I don’t know his real name) told me I looked sexy and I got a hug and a peck on the cheek from Jake. Jonas was with me so I could flaunt the fact that I couldn’t give a toss about Jake anymore.

[There I am, out in Camel. It’s still there apparently.]

Jonas’s flatmates were being nice to me as well. They used to be a bit funny and off with me sometimes but I think they’ve got used to me now. I got hugs off Dave and Paul and then one off Ben off my course.

Jonas left early but he went back to mine and was in bed waiting for me when I got back. He shaved his head and I can’t quite get used to it. It’s not too bad but I really liked his spiky hair.

Jonas stayed over at mine again on Tuesday because all my mates went out. We talked a lot and did stuff too. Kevin was very miserable when he got back. He was moaning that he wished he was 30 and stuff. Jen and Archie said he’d been depressing all night.

It was our first day back at uni on Wednesday. 3 new lads (Pete, Imran and David) have joined our course. They all seem okay. I’ve got modules which clash on my timetable so I might have to change Microbiology to Noise & Radioactivity. Ugh! It’s got physics in it and I’m not good at that.

It was kind of an introduction to Year 2 this week so we spent most of Thursday in a talk about our Supervised Work Experience (SWE) next year. We got a free lunch though. That night I went into town with Jen, Danny, Alexa and her housemate Gemma. It wasn’t a late night because it was a bit boring. When we got back to our house I was a bit drunk and had a quick dance on Kevin’s car bonnet.

Jen broke his wing mirror deliberately which I thought was a bit out of order. At least I didn’t damage his car. I stuck a piece of ham to his window and a sweet from the bottom of my shoe under his door handle.

This Thursday I’d been going out with Jonas for 10 months! Wow! 🙂

On Friday, we had presentations from the 4th years on their SWE placement they’ve just done. I’ve done a CV but I can’t do the bloody personal statement bit. We went to see that Van Wilder film on Friday night. It was quite good. Kevin didn’t came because he apparently had a date.

Kevin’s being such a dick. He TOLD (not asked) Jen and Archie that I broke his wing mirror. Jen should’ve put him straight. I bet he tells Ben and everyone too.

I talked to Jonas about the SWE when I went round to his. We don’t want to be split up. He sounded disappointed when I said I didn’t want to live with him until after uni. This could be the last chance I get to live with all my mates before we all get jobs though.

I left Jonas’s at about 3pm yesterday but I didn’t want to go. I ignored Kevin when I got back because he’s a knob. I collected some glass from Betty’s broken window for Jonas too.

I made Kevin mop the floor today. He’s done fuck all except lounge about since we moved in so I had a go at him for that.

Mum, Dad and Abby came to bring me some drawers. They brought Mollie with them too. Dad said someone’s wanting to build houses behind our house in the field. I don’t want that. I took them to see Jonas’s house and they were quite impressed.

Jonas had a bbq at his this evening but I didn’t stay long. He told me he was upset when I said I didn’t want to live with him. He said he would like to live with me and marry me. He said that quietly and looking away but grinning like he was embarrassed. Aww! He said he understands but it’s been very intense for the last 10 months so after a year and a half he’ll probably be ready for more. I would like all that eventually.


EVERYTHING was magnolia – 22nd September 2002

Sunday 22nd  Jonas moved into his student house on Monday. His address is:

12 Belmont Street

He came over to our house for a bit. We were painting so it was a bit of a mess. I don’t think he was all that impressed. I’m not surprised after seeing his house.

After painting my room yellow, I decided to go round to Jonas’s. I have to say I’m slightly jealous. It’s more like a hotel than a student house! It’s very, very nice and pretty big. There are 8 bedrooms, 2 showers, 2 toilets, a living room, a basement, a utility room and a very big kitchen with everything in it. It’s all brand new as well because they’re the first lot to live in it since it’s been done up.

I wanted to stay with him that night but we decided we’d better stay with our housemates. I got a message from him when I was in bed though, asking me to tell him to come to my bed. It was a bit too late unfortunately.

I finished painting my room on Tuesday so Archie and I started painting the coving, cupboards and ceiling white in the kitchen and living room. Jen now works at Argos in Leeds so she wasn’t there much to help. She’s been painting her room lilac. We decided to do stuff white because EVERYTHING was magnolia. It got to the point when even the wooden handles on the kitchen cupboards made a nice change! If it’s possible to have magnoliamadness, we had it.

Archie and I went shopping for house stuff and nearly died of exhaustion dragging all the stuff back from town, up the steps on the hill and to our house. We bought things like throws for the dead-looking sofa. It all looks much better now.

We’ve not had heating yet and it’s quite cold. The gasman came on Monday, messed up the carpet with oily stuff (so we’ve named him Gary the Twat), told us he couldn’t find the pressure release valve and he’d come back the next day. One Tuesday 2 of them came and still couldn’t find it. Apparently it’ll be 7-10 days for the part to arrive. Oh joy.

[Attempting to keep warm]

I stayed at Jonas’s on his futon (is that how you spell it?!) bed on Tuesday night. It’s not very comfy. It was nice being with Jonas though.

We went all artistic on Wednesday and started drawing our weather map of the British Isles on the living room wall. Well, I did it actually. I put a grid over an atlas map and Archie and Jonas gridded the wall. Using the map, I then drew it onto the wall. It looks good so far and it’s damn accurate.

Archie and I started painting it the next day. I did the detailed bits round the edges and Archie did the big bits. It was finished by Friday. It looks sooo good! I’m very, very pleased with it. I’ll be gutted if they paint over it next year. It looks like we’ve stuck it on, not drawn and painted it ourselves. All we need now is the weather symbols. Mum said she’ll laminate them so I’ll do some on the computer soon.

I had to talk about stuff with Jonas on Thursday. He stayed at mine. I’ve been a bit paranoid about us being ‘comfortable’ because that’s the point when Jake got bored and I don’t want the same happening. Jonas and I both like it though so that’s good. We don’t have to be nervous or worry about how much we like each other because we know. 🙂 We know each other better and have the ‘friend’ thing at the same time. I think I annoyed him a bit because I’ve been jokingly suspicious of his housemate Vicky who he’s started to call ‘Vic’.

As Jonas was leaving on Friday morning, he was talking to Jen about how it’s difficult to nick Ford cards because she said she couldn’t see Jonas’s. He explained it was behind the wall but when he went to get in Betty (the car), she had gone and there was glass everywhere. He was very upset. Jen has a Ford Fiesta too but hers is alarmed and Betty wasn’t. Poor Jonas.

Kevin moved in yesterday. Woohoo. Jonas had a bbq at his so we all went round there. It was quite good. I spoke to Katy that night too. She moved into her house this weekend. We all went to Milton Hall Student Union after the bbq. Jonas’s mate Pierced Sam has his latest piercing in the back of his neck.

We stayed in bed until 1pm-ish today, just talking and cuddling. Jonas said he can imagine being with me for a long time. He said he’ll try not to let us split up next year when he gets a job and I do my work placement.

Jonas said he’s told Pierced Sam and his other housemate, Uriel, that we’ve never really fallen our and they were shocked. We think it’s good and nice. We don’t even annoy each other. Even my mates annoy me sometimes. 🙂


It smells horribly of damp and mould and stuff – 16th September 2002

Sunday 16th  Jonas brought me home from his house on Monday and ended up staying the night. It was nice being able to cuddle him in my bed. Ooh, I love Jonas! He left at about 1pm the next day because I’d agreed to go back to work at Tor Environmental Consultancy for a few days. It wasn’t too bad because they had lots for me to do. It was only 4 hours too.

Mum told me that’s Abby’s very depressed because she’s got thrush (nice) and her ex-boyfriend Connor is being really horrible. For some reason, she’s decided she likes him again but he’s not all that bothered about her. Mum also said that she liked Jonas’s mum and sister. I hope they liked her. She asked if she’ll be coming to visit me one day in Scotland.

I finished work (again!) on Thursday. Malcolm (the boss guy) said he’s very pleased with all my plans and stuff.

I spent Friday packing up my stuff for moving into the house in Huddersfield. I’m actually quite worried that my room’s crap compared to all the others. Nobody really wanted it as much as the others because it’s long and narrow.

Yesterday, I moved into:

20 Cross Lane
Primrose Hill

I was the first one there. Jen and Archie arrived shortly after but Kevin isn’t coming until later on in the week. My room’s not half as bad as I remember. Kevin’s room is the worst! It’s in the basement and it smells horribly of damp and mould and stuff. He was really smug about getting that room too. Hee hee! 🙂 He now also has a black wardrobe from my room (I have his white one!) and a waterproof mattress from Archie’s room.

Jen didn’t stay the night because she didn’t have all her stuff. Archie and I stayed up really late, mainly taking the piss out of Kevin. We’d best get it out of the way, I suppose!

[It was much quicker to draw it than wait to get my camera film finished and developed.]

We’ve decided to use the spare room to put all our books in but nobody’s computer. They’ve agreed to let me use the wardrobe in there because I’ve got less storage space.

I’m tired today because I was scared last night so I slept (not very well) with the light on. We went to Ikea today and started discussing plans to put a weather map of Great Britain on the living room wall. It’d be cool! I’ve said I wanted to be a weather girl so I could use it to practice on!

Mum, Dad and Abby came again to put some shelves up in my room. I spoke to Jonas and he said he’s been gardening and getting paid for it. He said he’s excited about moving in. I bet his house is really nice. He said he can’t wait to see me tomorrow. I can’t wait to see him either. I’m going to want to stay in the same bed as him but Jen has already commented that she’ll either see loads of Jonas or none of me. I’m a bit worried she’s going to have a problem with it. I really want to see Jonas. I don’t want to miss anything here though.


I had a horrible, horrible feeling – 9th September 2002

Sunday 9th  On Monday, Jonas took me to Findhorn beach and then Roseisle beach. Ross came with us and was telling me about his uni course and stuff. He’s training to be a primary school teacher. The beaches were really nice. Ross said the singer in his band has been taking photos round there to put on their album cover.

I like the sea. It sort of scared me at the same time though. I’d hate to fall in because it’s so deep and powerful and you don’t know what’s underneath you. I’d like to live near the sea one day though. I like just watching it, especially when it’s stormy because it’s far more exciting then.

That evening, a small group of us went onto the sand dunes at Findhorn and had a bonfire. There was me and Jonas, Callum, Emma, Flan, Andrew and a couple of others. There’s one lad they call Will (but that’s not his name) and his face really makes me smile. He’s got big curly hair, wide eyes, round face and is always grinning. He said he’s just finished working in Nantwich for a year which is near where I live.

One lad kept disappearing to find wood. We didn’t see him for ages then he turned up with half a tree. Jonas tried to help him move it but walked backwards into a ditch and fell over! It was pretty dark.

On Tuesday, Jonas took me to Wick to see my family. I’ve been there every year of my life but never without Mum, Dad and Abby. The journey wasn’t bad except a bee flew in the car and landed on Jonas’s lap after bouncing off his face!

It was weird being in Wick with Jonas but very nice seeing everyone. Rhian was off school with a cold which was lucky because there was nobody else in. Tom and Minnie eventually came back from school and Auntie S came home from work. She looks really thin because of a thyroid thing but still seemed cheerful.

Jonas wanted to see Sinclair and Girnigoe Castle at Noss Head because he’d seen it on my photos. I showed him the lighthouse there which I stayed in last summer. We took my cousins with us so Jonas leapt round the ruins (scaring me!) and Minnie and I stood and watched rather than go down into the dark bits with Jonas and Rhian. Auntie S said Minnie must like him because she keeps talking about him!

On Wednesday, Jonas and I went up to John o’Groats. We stood at the harbour and watched some seals then looked round some old croft buildings. Jonas said he wants to do them up and sell them. They could be really nice.

[Harbour selfie]

We stayed at Auntie S’s for tea then said goodbye. I didn’t want to go. I would like to have stayed longer but it was better than not seeing them at all. On the way out of Wick, I went to the cemetery to see Grandma L. I managed to find her grave quite easily. I ended up getting all upset because I felt really sad, especially when I read what the headstone said. It was, “To live in hearts we leave behind, is not to die”. That’s a nice thing to say. We also stopped to see seals on the way back and at Tesco. Fun!

On Thursday and Friday, Jonas took me crab fishing at Findhorn. We caught some pretty big ones with just a string and bacon. I really enjoyed it! It’s a shame I can’t do it in Huddersfield.

Fiona (Jonas’s mate) had a sauna party at her house. It was a bit boring until Binny (Stephen) started talking to us. Everyone else kind of ignored me. Jonas said his mum and sister think I’m quiet so his mates probably do too.

Yesterday, Jonas and I had a lie in. I didn’t want a shower with him so we had a talk about me being self-conscious. I can’t help it! I had a horrible, horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach like I got when Jake dumped me. It was an awful sort of splitting-up dread and I went really hot and couldn’t breathe properly. We didn’t fall out or anything, it was just that I realised we’re quite different. I’m shy, he isn’t so I thought that might be a bad thing.

I got over the nasty feeling eventually. I’m very, very, very glad we didn’t split up because I love Jonas sooooo much! 🙂

It was Forres Theme Day or something so we went into town and had a look at all the old cars lining the streets and watched the pipe band with Ross and Murray (I think that’s what he’s called!) in it. We went to the pub with Jonas’s lot that evening. It was good because people spoke to me. Callum said I’m beautiful and Binny said I’m nice! Cool! Binny’s girlfriend’s from Preston and Flan’s girlfriend’s from The Wirral, both near me. That’s quite weird!

There was some creep in the chippy and taxi rank who was saying stuff about me. I don’t know what exactly but he was pointing me out to his mate. I should’ve lamped him!

When we got back to Kinloss, I looked at the sky and saw what I thought was light from the moon coming out from behind a cloud. When I got out of the taxi, I saw it was all over the sky and was greening and moving. I eventually realised what it was….. the aurora borealis! I’ve ALWAYS wanted to see the Northern Lights! I saw them with Jonas as well so I see that as a really nice thing. I’m glad he was there too so I had someone to get all excited at!

Today we travelled back to Gainsborough. The journey seemed to last for ages but we got back in the end. I decided to stay the night so he didn’t have to go all the way to Warrington too. We did stuff. I’m so glad I’m with him!


Our mums met! – 2nd September 2002

Sunday 2nd 

Wow! I can’t believe I’m on diary number 26! I’ve been writing them for about 6 years now.

My boyfriend Jonas got back from working at Reading Festival on Monday. He said I’m going with him next time. I think he enjoyed it. So much so he didn’t have time to get me a present apparently! He said he loves me and can’t wait to see me. 🙂

I got to go out on site at work (at Tor Environmental Consultancy) on Wednesday. It was just to an old landfill site to get water samples but it was better than staying in the office. I get to draw plans for it soon.

I phoned up the people whose student house I’m moving into in Huddersfield next year. They said we can move in on 14th Sept. That’s good because it means I can go to Scotland with Jonas.

I was my last day of work on Thursday. WOOHOO!! 🙂 It’s been boring at times but I’ve learnt stuff related to my uni course and I got paid more than working in a pub. It should look good on my CV too. The marketing person, Rosie, was also leaving so we got bought lunch in a pub and got given cards. I had a £10 book token in mine for uni. They asked if I might be able to go back sometime so I probably will.

On Friday, Mum and Abby took me to Jonas’s house in Gainsborough so I could go to Scotland. That meant our mums met! It was pretty weird but my mum talked lots which was good and made it ok.

Yesterday, Jonas drove me, his mum and his sister Laura up to Forres near Inverness. He lived there before he came to uni and his dad’s still at RAF Kinloss. The journey wasn’t bad. We stopped at Jedburgh and had a wander round. Laura got travel sick as the roads got windy but earned herself £10 for keeping everything down!

Forres is very nice. My mum told me my dad played football there once and liked it. That evening we went out to a few pubs with Jonas’s mates. There was a band playing which they knew so we went to see them too. I met all Jonas’s mates who hadn’t been at T in the Park and they all seem nice enough. We stayed in Jonas’s dad’s living room thing on a sofa bed.

Today I went to Inverness with Jonas, Laura and their dad. We intended to see a film but they were on at weird times so we’d missed them. I met Laura’s mate Lindsey (who’s Josh’s mate’s sister) in Tesco car park. She’d lost her voice but still managed to talk lots!

Josh’s dad took us all for a meal at a pub in Findhorn.

We then went bowling with Jonas’s mates in Elgin. That was fun! I beat 3 lads first time round.


“There’s something inside that I need to release” – 25th August 2002

Sunday 25th  I didn’t go home from Jonas’s until Monday this week. After my leptospirosis scare, I still wasn’t feeling up to working so I rang in sick. I spoke to Kathleen and she said Darren was also off with something similar. Jonas had to go to Huddersfield for his exam resit so he took me with him and Mum picked me up so I didn’t have to get the train.

On the way home, Mum told me that Auntie S and Uncle G have split up. Weird. I didn’t know what to say because I was very, very shocked. I didn’t expect that at all. Apparently Uncle G was really unhappy for the last few years when Grandma L lived with them. When the internet broke, he was really funny about giving Auntie S his password so they could get it fixed. When she got it, she found emails and stuff from some woman. He promised her he’d stop speaking to the woman but more recently she found more. Apparently he’s also been spending money they haven’t really got, drinking lots and being really nasty to Rhian, e.g. threatening to check her out without much reason.

On Tuesday and Wednesday, I left work early which was good. There wasn’t much for me to do and I still didn’t feel 100%. I did the quiz with my mates on Wednesday night and we came 2nd….. Again! I rang Jonas too. He’s in Reading because he’s working at the festival. He said the girls aren’t minging (when I asked) and that while he was playing cards, one of them “jokingly” said to move in closer so they could abuse him. Grrr!! I trust him but not them. I don’t like the thought of them trying anything. He said he loves me anyway and wished I was there and blew kisses down the phone. He said it’s cute that I don’t like hanging up first.

Thursday’s night out in Manchester was, well, different. We went to a school disco at The Ritz for Archie’s birthday. Quite a few of my mates came so we went to Isaac’s student house in Manchester to get changed. I felt really daft walking all the way to The Ritz and getting on a bus in my school uniform and we got some funny looks and dodgy comments.

[Isaac, Sarah, Michael, me and Archie looking pretty sober. Must’ve been early on…]

Cat and Jerry annoyed me quite a lot after about 10 minutes of getting into The Ritz. They went all snobby, saying it was a shithole and that they wanted to leave. I explained I had to wait for Archie and that it’d liven up later but they kept going on at me. I think Archie got it right when he said Jerry has misjudged the age he needs to act to fit in and had gone for 9 rather than 19. Gimp. Cat’s just become middle aged. They didn’t really socialise much either. They just stood at the edge, whispering and snogging.

I had a good night anyway, dancing with Lizzie, Archie, Denny and Isaac. All was well up until about 2am when the place closed and we couldn’t find Denny. Isaac went off to find him and we all waited outside. A while later, the bouncers carried someone out and dumped them on the pavement. It was Denny and he was totally unconscious and trying to be sick. A nurse guy said he’d found him in the toilers, choking on his own vomit and that he would’ve died had he not been found.

Isaac was also lying on the pavement making very loud throwing up noises. He was also drunk and the exhaustion after carrying Denny out took it all out of him. Denny was put into the recovery position and some large woman was trying to wake him up and had his head rested in her cleavage.

The ambulances turned up for Denny and Isaac so Lizzie and I went with Denny and Sarah and Michael went with Isaac. Some scary scally woman was yelling at me and Lizzie saying we should’ve done something to help and we weren’t very good friends so the paramedics shut the doors in her face. Hah! There was nothing else we really could do for him.

We were in hospital until 7am. During that time, Denny had had 3 saline drips (after the nurse said 1 should bring him round) and then eventually woke up, undoing his trousers, saying, “Explode..… I’m gonna explode….. There’s something inside that I need to release”, meaning he needed a wee. A doctor unhooked him from the drip which made him bleed everywhere, then he spent about half an hour in the loo!

[Sneaky picture for reminding him every birthday etc. Useful.]

Isaac was sick very, very loudly. He was making awful roaring noises and, after he threw up in a bin, the nurses chucked him out.

The whole night was totally surreal but funny at the same time (once we knew Denny wasn’t gonna die). However, I did feel really ashamed and guilty that one of my mates got that drunk and took up a bed and the hospital’s time (it was Manchester Royal Infirmary) when someone seriously ill might have needed it.

I finally got to bed at 8am after Lizzie’s dad picked up and we had to sit in the car with Denny stinking of sick!

Last night we all had a gathering at Cat’s house. Jerry’s laugh goes through me. He really annoyed me again. He tries way too hard to fit in and insults people as though he’s a mate. If he was a good friend he could get away with it but he isn’t so everyone just gets offended instead. They kept whispering and slagged off Lizzie loads. Jerry hardly knows her and is just going off what Cat says. It’s really mean. I like Lizzie.

Rocky said Cat told him Jerry is “the love of my life”. She’s only known him a few months. At least she’s happy anyway. He’s okay really.

Today was pretty boring. I made a paper Celtic pattern thing for Jonas like the one I did for my Art GCSE but that was it. I hope he likes it.

See you in diary number 26!

Bye! 🙂

It was horrible saying bye to Mum just in case I died – 18th August 2002

Sunday 18th  Work was as boring as usual this week, although I did get to do a lot of plans. I got told I was good at doing them and it must be genetic cos my dad does good plans. Malcolm said I “draw mean plans” twice as fast as Dad but I doubt they’re as good cos he knows what he’s doing and I don’t really!

Rosie came back to work this week. She’s who I was replacing for a while. She’s going to do teacher training in Hull but had to come back for 3 weeks which she owes them. She seems nice. I got to go out on site this week too which was quite good. It was dye tracing in drains at a school in Harthill, Cheshire.

Jonas said he might be working at Reading Festival with Paul. He sounded really disappointed when I said I could only “probably” go to Scotland with him. He said I’ve got to go. I do want to but it depends on the house thing. I spoke to Jonas again on Wednesday and I was worrying about our student house, Reading and stuff. I then worried that he’s probably go off me for worrying.

My mates and I did the pub quiz on Wednesday as well. We won 2 bottles of wine.

On Friday, I woke up feeling very ill. I had a temperature and just felt generally rough. This worried me greatly because once we got back to the office after being out on site on Tuesday, Malcolm told me and Darren that he’s seen rats about. He said to be cautious if we felt fluey in about 3 days because we’d been around the drains and sewage works. Shiiiit!!

I went to Jonas’s anyway, hoping it was just a 24 hour bug. It was horrible saying bye to Mum just in case I died of Weil’s disease. I felt like I was going to pass out on the train. I’d taken some Panadol but it just made me feel numb.

Jonas was very worried about me when I explained. He wanted to take me to casualty but I refused because I would’ve felt stupid and wasted people’s time had it been nothing. Instead, I rang NHS Direct. The nurse who rang back said I could have leptospirosis and to see a doctor as soon as I could.

Jonas’s mum was very kind and let us have her bed. They were all being really nice to me and I felt guilty for being a burden. I hope they don’t catch anything!

I felt better yesterday. My temperature had gone but I had a sore throat with white bits on my tonsils to replace it. Jonas still wanted me to see a doctor but I didn’t. We went to Lincoln for the day and it was very hot. I had no energy so we didn’t stay long but it was a nice day. I bought Archie a horse posing pouch that neighs for his birthday from Ann Summers. He said he measures up to ‘stallion’ on a chart we have so I thought it was fitting!

I really wanted a snog from Jonas all day but due to me being ill, I didn’t get one.

I felt better still this morning. I’ve decided to go home tomorrow though. Jonas and I went for a walk along the river and then had a drive. We did some “stuff” when we got back to Jonas’s and I got lots of snogs. 🙂

Jonas is a bit worried about his resit tomorrow.


He just has to add something slightly pervy – 11th August 2002

Sunday 11th  I got paid £262.50 for working at Tor on Monday. That was nice because I was bored again for most of the week. Last week I was asked to post brochures to the people who are being interviewed this week. I’d had trouble getting them in the post box cos they were too big so I kind of bent them and shoved them in. I’d been worried they’d got stuck at the top of the post box and nobody would get them.

Well, on Tuesday, Malcolm told me they had arrived but everyone had had to pay £1.50 because they were too heavy for a 1st class stamp. Oops! Nobody told me and I had asked Janet and she said to send them 1st class so I though that’s what she meant!

Some bloke told Malcolm I was a “nice young lady” too because I’d been helpful on the phone. That made me feel less stupid and thick!

Jonas has made me some CD racks at work. I thought I’d better get him stuff from my work so I filled up an envelope full of paperclips and elastic bands and stuff. 🙂

I texted loads of people from uni while I was bored at work but not many people replied. I’d been in touch with Katy already but other than her, only Violet and Sally replied. Vi said she’s passed all her exams and wants to go back to uni and stop working. Sally said, “Helloooo” at the start of hers (maybe she’s not heard from many people!) and told me she’s in Cornwall at the moment. Kevin also replied later on and told me he’s working for his mum and trying to lose his beer belly. Yuck! He repulses me sooo much!!

I missed Jonas all this week really badly and couldn’t wait to see him. He keeps telling me he loves me 🙂 mmm! I went to Gainsborough on Friday but missed my connection in Sheffield by seconds. That meant I had to wait an hour but it was very, very, very nice seeing Jonas when I eventually arrived. We went to bed quite early and did stuff.

Yesterday, Jonas drive us to Huddersfield. We saw our houses again. My room looks so bloody small! When we got back to Jonas’s, we watched Lord of the Rings then went downstairs and sat in the dimmed light and cuddled, listening to Lene Marlin’s album Playing My Game. It was very nice. It was all perfect and lovely and was one of those times I didn’t want to end.

Jonas said he was trying to be romantic and wanted to dance with me. We basically just cuddled standing up instead. He said he wishes he could come home to me after work. 🙂 He then said he wanted to lie naked in a big silky bed. Typical Jonas! He just has to add something slightly pervy! 🙂 I didn’t want to leave and he didn’t want me to go.

Today, Jonas mentioned going up to Forres (and maybe Wick for a bit) in September. I really want to go but I’m worried about it clashing with moving into our house in Huddersfield.

We went to Meadowhall in Sheffield for a bit and Laura was sick. Nice. It’s not as good as the Trafford Centre.

I really hate leaving Jonas and he really didn’t want me to go. I got him to a text from him with “Love u” at the end. 🙂


I didn’t want any awkward silences – 4th August 2002

Sunday 4th  Worked this week and it wasn’t too bad. I got to go out on site in Haydock and I got to draw lots of plans. I like doing that.

Jonas got his mobile working so I rang him. We had a long conversation about him not phoning me and he said he’s definitely not going off me.

This week, my friends and I came 2nd in the pub quiz again. We prefer 2nd prize to 1st prize cos we got alcohol and winners get a meal vouchers. We also went to see Men in Black 2 which is good but not as good as the first one.

On Friday, Jonas came to visit me again. We went out in Manchester with Cat, Cat’s boyfriend Jerry Johnson, Archie and Isaac. It was okay but most people we invited didn’t come and Cat just snogged Jerry all night. That meant I couldn’t do the same to Jonas cos Archie and Isaac don’t really know each other and I didn’t want any awkward silences. Jonas did keep grabbing me and saying he loved me which was nice.

We stayed in Jerry’s flat which is a bit small and boring but it saved us a taxi fare. Jonas and I got the spare room and got up to 5 in it.

Yesterday, Jerry brought us home which was nice and Jonas and I went to Chester cos Jonas wanted to see the city walls and stuff. It was a nice day out but we had to leave because a nasty looking black cloud started heading our way. We stopped off to see Oulton Park quickly on the way back.

Jonas stayed in my bed until 7am ish which I liked. It was really nice and cosy.

Today I went to see Men in Black 2 again at the Trafford Centre with Jonas. I saw 2 people who used to be in Swing Band at school. When we got back to mine, we tried to do stuff but it didn’t really work. Neither of us wanted Jonas to leave but unfortunately he had to.

It was also the end of the Commonwealth Games today. That’s a shame cos I’ve enjoyed them. Manchester was very lively when we went out too.


Wrapper from a lolly I bought when I went to see MIB2 with my friends. It’s cute!

A dog called Ballsniffer – 28th July 2002

Sunday 28th  I didn’t have a great time at work at the beginning of this week. For a start it was boring and then Malcolm said I should’ve asked about work I had to do the next day earlier on. I couldn’t because they were all busy. Then on Tuesday, I actually cried (not in front of anyone) because Malcolm was using me as a skivvy to make cups of tea and stuff while I was trying to get loads of more important work done for Janet.

Jonas and my friends made me feel better though. I spoke to Jonas on the phone and we were talking about maybe going on holiday together somewhere. I really miss him lots.

On Tuesday, my friends and I went to Heath Farm pub in Congleton for tea because it’s a 2 for 1 pub which is what The Green Dragon is going to be soon. Everyone who works there wanted to see what they were like. We went to Floyd’s afterwards. The lads are really funny sometimes and they make me laugh.

Work improved on Wednesday. I was shown how to draw plans on Corel Draw 8 then I had to do one myself for Janet. I enjoyed it actually, plus I got to sit upstairs on my own so I had no-one watching me if I felt like texting Jonas or something!

I couldn’t get hold of Jonas that evening but I had a missed call while I was doing The Green Dragon pub quiz. I rang Jonas back and he told me he’s had his phone nicked. It was on the kitchen worktop at his dad’s while they were out at the front and someone went in the back door and took it. He said he wants a cuddle and a kiss and a cry. Aww, poor Jonas! He said he loves me and misses me and wants to go back to uni. He told me he’s unhappy when he’s not with me cos I make him happy. 🙂 He said he thinks about me all the time and does try to text me but his phone deletes stuff while he’s thinking about what to say.

Work wasn’t too bad again on Thursday. Janet sent me and Darren out to find hoover bags on our lunch break which Darren was not amused by. He had a bit of a moan about Malcolm and Janet and said he used to go out for hot meals at lunch but nobody does anymore. He said if I ever fancied it then to say so. That was nice and I hope and think it was totally innocent. Just in case it wasn’t, I dropped Jonas and the fact he’s my boyfriend into a conversation.

It was the opening ceremony for the Manchester 2002 Commonwealth Games. It made me feel proud to live near Manchester and I wish I couldn’t been a volunteer.

Jonas phoned me and said his phone was found in a car park so he’s got it back. He told me he loves me. 🙂

On Friday, I went into town with Lizzie and Karen. It was good but pretty uneventful. We played Suck & Blow with beer mats, much to the delight of the lads and bouncers stood near us, Karen fell over and Karen pulled some lad. That was it.

Jonas came to my house yesterday. We did The Run pub crawl with a few people which was funny, e.g. Isaac said he wants a dog called Ballsniffer which will be his own breed called a crotch hound. Ok, it was funny at the time anyway. Neil Kennedy analysed mine and Jonas’s relationship saying (from what he saw that night) Jonas is the daft one and I’m more sensible. I think it alternates to be honest!

Jonas said he likes my mates and we seem to have similar friends to each other. He slept in my bed until 5am ish. I liked having him in there but I didn’t want Mum seeing. He talks in his sleep which is cute!

Before Jonas went home today, we watched the Formula 1 and I drove us (not very well – I got Jonas to park for me!) to the Trafford Centre to see Austin Powers 3 at the cinema. It was very good and very funny. My driving home wasn’t too bad but I could tell Jonas was lying when he said he was impressed and felt relaxed!

I got a bit upset when he was leaving today. I hate not seeing him during the week. He said he loves me and will text and ring me cos he shouldn’t be too busy.

Over the last few nights I’ve been getting a funny feeling when I’ve been falling asleep. I’ve had it before about a year and a half ago when I lost the sensation in my legs. It’s horrible. I get a funny rushing feeling, kind of like when something makes you jump but I don’t actually jump. It stopped me sleeping the other night and I had extra weird dreamy things when I was half asleep. I don’t like it. I hope there’s nothing wrong with me like my heart stops or something.