Every so often he’d keep saying, “Hey man!” – 23rd June 2000

Friday 23rd Other than the Geography exam which I didn’t finish (ran out of time), today was pretty good!

I saw Jake for most of the morning because he and his mates were sorting stuff out for their Europe trip in college. I realised that we really don’t talk much to each other but the silences aren’t awkward anymore! That’s good, I suppose! All we really did was sit in the common room and cuddle or hold hands.

I saw him again after college for quite a while when our exams were over (he’d had a practical one for Physics). Then we just sat on a table and cuddled! I just don’t want to let go of him at the moment cos I know he’s going away in about a week. We got chance to kiss properly too cos college was so quiet due to most people being on exam leave.

Tonight, Hayley, Sarah, Gethin, Jake and I all went out to The Dog. We were joined by the Appleton lot because Sarah’s been keeping in contact with Maz. He turned up along with Nathan Holmes, Gavin Bilson and his girlfriend Laura, some lad called Milo and another lad whose name I don’t know.

Sarah and Maz just snogged all night and Gethin and Hayley got bored so ended up walking home earlier than the rest of us.

Jake and I just cuddled again and talked. I asked him why the hell he first liked me cos I don’t exactly stand out and he told me that, ages ago, Emma had told him that I had one of the nicest figures she knew of and he’d noticed and agreed! He was also saying how he’s so glad I’m a nice person too (hmm!) cos he didn’t really know me and I couldn’t turned out to be a right bitch! He also said that he doesn’t understand why I first liked him either!

Later I was just sat there and I caught him just staring at me and grinning! I asked him why he was doing it and he told me I’m just nice to look at!

All night at various points he’d just groan to himself (but still smiling!) and snuggle up more or squeeze me tighter! When I asked why, he just kept saying that it was cos he didn’t want to be split up from me and stuff! I agreed and started moaning too and he said he thought he was going to cry! He said he couldn’t squeeze me as hard as he wants to cos he’d crush me and he wouldn’t want that!

To anyone else, hearing him say stuff like that would probably make them want to puke but I think he is soooo sweet and really don’t want him to go anywhere. He told me that if he could go back in time he wouldn’t go to Canada either.

Sarah left with the Appleton lot so Jake and I walked to the Chinese and then back to mine on our own. We ate and then went and lay on the sofa in the back room and kissed and cuddled again. I was very jumpy cos I knew my Dad could get back from the pub at any time. Abby and Connor got in first but when they went to bed (Connor stopped in the spare room), Jake and I got back on the sofa.

Then my dad did get in so we went and sat in the kitchen instead. I thought Dad was just drunk cos he staggered in, grinning and slurring his words whilst making a coffee. Then he said, “I was alright until I had that… erm…” then he stopped to look for something and Jake and I were expecting him to name some drink. But then he said, “I only had a couple of drags but it doesn’t half work quickly!”

We were both sat in shock as Dad went on about these spliffs being passed round in The Mossland pub and how he thought he might as well try it!! Then every so often he’d keep saying, “Hey man!” or something! It was soooo funny (although slightly embarrassing!) and when he’d gone we just burst out laughing and Jake said, “You’ve got a top dad!!”

Unfortunately, Jake had to leave eventually to get his taxi home but I got a couple of messages off him. One just said that the taxi driver was getting lost and the other said, “WELL WORTH STAYING AT YOURS – GOT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH YOU AND SEE YOUR TOP DAD – MELLOW YELLOW MAN! : ) LOVE YOU TO BITS!!! xxx JAKE xxx”.

I love him sooooooo much!!!


There’s a field full of elephants – 27th September 1997

Saturday 27th There’s a field full of elephants up the road! No joke. [This happened. I wasn’t delirious from whatever bug I’d had in the week.] It makes a change from cows anyway! There’s a circus on actually with animals and they’re keeping 3 elephants outside. I’m not going coz I don’t like the circus. I hate clowns and it’s cruel to the animals.

Dad took Abby and I into Bolton today. He wanted to get a Bolton Wanderers top from a Reebok shop. On the way, he took us past the new Reebok Stadium. It’s brilliant! I hate to say it but, from the outside, it’s actually (just slightly) more impressive than Old Trafford.

Dad didn’t actually buy any Reebok gear but he got a catalogue so he can order stuff from home which is easier coz he’s not sure what he wants yet. He spent £80 on me and Abby though and wouldn’t let me pay half for me. He bought us both a Manchester Utd white away shirt. They’re brill! He must have been feeling generous! It looks a bit like this:-

September 1997 - MUFC shirt then

[It looked exactly like that. I know because I found it stuffed in the back of a drawer 18 years on…]

September 1997 - MUFC shirt now.JPG

All my friends have gone to the cinema this evening. They went to see The Full Monty which is meant to be really funny but my mum wouldn’t let me go coz she says it’s about male strippers. Emma said Cat wasn’t allowed either. I don’t mind but I would’ve liked to have gone too.


On the internet for half an hour – 1st September 1997

Monday 1st [I’d started a new notebook that was covered in leopard print fur.] Hi! I love this diary. It’s so cool! It’s awful but good. You know what I mean?!

General - Diary cover

I’ve had a pretty boring day today so far. I didn’t wake up ‘til late and I went to Emma’s house this afternoon. We didn’t do much. We went to the garage [petrol station] to get some sweets and stuff then went back to her house and sat in the field with her horses. I used to be a bit nervous of them but I’m not so bad now.

Mum picked me up at about 4:10pm and we went straight to the doctors. I went coz of my skin. I have mild acne and the stuff I used to put on my skin wasn’t really helping very much so we went back to see what else I could use.

He’s a new doctor that none of our family has been to see before. The last one retired but we didn’t really like him much so no-one’s too bothered! The new doctor is Irish and he seems to be alright so far! We went to talk to him and he put me back on these tablets called Minocyn (or something). I’ve used them before and they seemed to work. They are a bit annoying though because you have to take them 12 hours apart.

This evening I had to scan a load of art for my Art homework and then I went on the chat-lines on the internet for half an hour. [God. Half an hour on the internet a day. I lived that.]

I’ve been talking to one particular boy called Adam who’s 14 and lives in Stoke. I phoned him on Saturday night which means we’ve been talking even more. I’m probably going to phone him again on Wednesday evening coz he goes back to school tomorrow and he’s playing football in the evening. He sounded quite nice last time.

I’ve also been watching the football on Sky since 8:00pm. It was Bolton v Everton at Bolton’s new Reebok Stadium. I don’t normally watch Bolton play coz I’m a big Manchester United fan but Dad supports them and their 1st game in their new stadium so I thought I’d cheer them on. Plus I hate Everton. It was 0-0 but it was confirmed that Bolton did actually score but it only just crossed the line and neither the ref nor the linesmen (sorry, assistant referees) saw it!

Anyway, even if it wasn’t a winning match, we know the home team scored the first goal in their new grounds.