Got annoyed and went to sulk in my room – 23rd to 25th December 2000

Saturday 23rd This evening, Jake, Sarah, a few others and I all went round to Hayley’s house and were forced to sit down and watch her bloody N-Sync video. Jake got really pissed off cos it wasn’t exactly fun and he sat in another room. We then had a minor falling out cos I didn’t follow him and he was annoyed that I hadn’t warned him beforehand.

He took me home and we sat in the car crying until he got so upset he got out and ran off! It scared me for a while but we made up when he eventually came back.

Bye!

Sunday 24th Jake and I stayed at my house today and watched Clueless on video. We just chatted as well and he said he’s going to find out if we can have a night together at a Travel Inn or somewhere on New Year’s Eve. I sort of hope we can but I’m also a bit worried about what might happen.

Bye!

Monday 25th

Christmas

Yeah!! It’s CHRISTMAS!!! I’ve got lots of cool presents including a TV, make-up and the other usual things. Grandma S and Auntie G came round and we had a really nice Christmas dinner. Mmm!

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[Auntie G, Mum and Grandma]

Jake and Connor came round this evening and Connor brought his Playstation with him and a Colin McRae game go Jake sat doing that for ages and then told me I pissed him off when I tried to make him stop. So, I got annoyed and went to sulk in my room.

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[Jake and I before I got annoyed and went to sulk in my room.]

I was still pissed off with him when he went home but then I think I’ll forgive him after he sent me a message saying, “IT’S TOO LATE + PROBABLY NO USE BUT I’M SO SORRY! : ( I’VE REALLY MADE YOU MISERABLE AND IT’S ALL MY FAULT! I HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME! JAN 11TH [when he was leaving to go to Canada for 3 months] IS STRESSING ME OUT + IT’S OBVIOUS I’M TAKING IT OUT ON YOU! I’M SAYING HOW SORRY I AM! I’M GUESSING I WON’T SEE YOU TOMORROW IF YOU’VE GOT WORK TO DO! I LOVE YOU! NIGHT NIGHT! xJx THANK YOU FOR MY BEAR! AND OTHER THINGS! SORRY IF I HIT YOU IN THE EYE THEN TOO! xxx”.

Yeah, I’ll forgive him!

Bye!

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She started being dead loud and shouting abuse at the DJ – 21st and 22nd December 2000

Thursday 21st It was our common room’s Christmas party at the Sports Club tonight. Jake wore his suit thing and looked really, really fit!!

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[Jake in his suit that night.]

Quite a few people went in fancy dress including Hayley who went as Britney Spears. She pissed everyone off again because she started asking if her stomach looked fat (it did!) and then she started being dead loud and shouting abuse at the DJ and people dancing when Limp Bizkit came on. She then forced someone to put N-Sync and Britney on which cleared the dancefloor (apart from her)! There were so many people that had to be restrained from hitting her, one of them being me!

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[Here she is.]

Jake then sulked cos I said Sarah and Maz were sweet. I didn’t understand why at first but then he told me why they annoyed him. It’s cos he thinks they contributed to nothing happening between us in Derby. He told me it was also a kind of jealousy cos they hardly knew each other before sleeping together and we’ve been going out for ages and have hardly got anywhere.

Then he said he was annoyed that I take more of an interest in other people’s sex live than ours, until I pointed out that we haven’t got one!

We made up eventually and got on with the party before walking back to my village. He stayed in the spare room again and so did I for most of the night! I just like being able to cuddle in a nice warm bed. I mean, we didn’t just cuddle.

Bye!

Friday 22nd I went and got back in bed with Jake when I woke up this morning. We stayed there for ages and he told me that if he lived with me he wouldn’t ever want to get out of bed in the morning! I don’t think I would either!

Jake was given some tickets to an indoor fairground thing tonight at the G-Mex in Manchester so he, I, Lizzie and Cat all went. It was a bit small and crap so we ended up in The Dog instead!

Bye!

What the hell is wrong with me?!? – 17th to 20th December 2000

Sunday 17th I am sooo worried!! If anything, my legs have got worse cos from my feet to my tummy button is all sort of numb. I can’t stop getting upset about it. What the hell is wrong with me?!?

Jake took me to see The Family Man at the cinema tonight. It was a really good film and took my mind off my legs a bit.

Bye!

Monday 18th Mum took me to the doctor’s today about my legs. He did lots of little tests to me but said that he really doesn’t know what it is. He did say not to worry seeing as my hand’s better but when you lose the feeling in your legs, it’s a bit difficult not to!

A few of us went round to Isaac’s tonight cos we had nothing else to do. We started a ransom note style letter to Hugo to go with the book we got him and it looks really good!

Sarah told me that the last time she was at work, some woman had paid by credit card and Sarah noticed her name was T. J. Taylor! Weird! Then, Sarah (being Sarah!) asked her if that was her real name!

Bye!

Tuesday 19th A group of us went to the Sports Club tonight and, other than Hayley being her usual loud, annoying self it was quite good!

Later on, we moved to The Beech Tree where Jake was with him fellow Venture Scouts. Ahh, how cute!

Bye!

Wednesday 20th It was the last day of school today before Christmas! Rather than go to Mr H’s sad college assembly where you’re forced to sing stuff like Old McDonald, play charades and eat biscuits, Cat and I went to church. That was quite good and it made me feel much more Christmassy!

The Swing Band played in the big school assembly which’ll be the last Xmas assembly for me at school 😦 Oh well!!

Then a few of us progressed on to The Coach and Horses. Mr P-K, Mr L and Mr B were all there too so that kept Cat happy!

It was the grading for our blue belts at kickboxing tonight and I’m really upset I’ve had to miss out cos of my legs. So, Jake took me to the cinema again to see Meet The Parents which is really funny!

Bye!

 

I’m worried that she might be in a mood with me – 25th December 1999

Saturday 25th (Christmas Day! Duh!)

I woke up at 8:30am, forgot what day it is and went back to sleep. I woke up again at about 10am and went downstairs to open my presents but Abby was still fast asleep so I couldn’t. By 10:30am I was sick of waiting so I woke her up. My presents were just pyjamas, chocolates, hair stuff, make up, the usual stuff. As always, I got bored once I’d opened all my presents but the time went quickly before Auntie G and Grandma S arrived.

Grandma S has not stopped eating all day. Mum and Auntie G are pleased because they’ve been worried that she’s not eating as well as she should. We had all the turkey and stuff and then Grandma went through about 3 bowlfuls of ice cream.

I’ve spent all evening in front of the TV. There’s been loads of good stuff on and I didn’t really have much else to do.

Rhian’s a bit fed up stuck on the Orkneys still. I spoke to her on the phone and she sounded very unimpressed. She wants us to go up for the Millennium celebrations in Wick because her mum’d let her go out and party if she was with someone older but we’ve got to stay here. We probably won’t see everyone in Scotland until the summer now. I really miss them all. Auntie S said she sent our Christmas presents 2 weeks ago but we haven’t got them.

I want Lizzie to send me a text message. I sent her one to see if she had a good day but I’ve not got one back. I’m worried that she might be in a mood with me for being horrible to Gethin and hinting to him that she wasn’t telling him everything about the last party just to make him paranoid. Sarah and Lizzie are meant to be staying here at New Year because they can’t get home too easily so if she still wants to stay, she’ll have to get in contact with me soon.

BYE!

I think he’s in lurve – 25th-28th December 1998

[Merry Christmas 1998, everyone!]

Friday 25th Yeah, Christmas Day. I didn’t sleep until about 2:00am and I got woken up pretty early by Tom jumping on me. I got lots of pressies but that was over too soon.

[I look full of Christmas cheer.]

[I look full of Christmas cheer.]

All the family  have been here at some point. Most have gone now and there’s only Uncle J and my big cousin Ifan that are left. I don’t think they’ll be going very far either coz they’re totally pissed. Ifan keeps staggering into doors and stuff and he’s been on the phone to his girlfriend about 3 times. I think he’s in lurve and everyone keeps teasing him.

Then we locked him outside. It was funny. He went for a fag and Rhian, Abby and I locked the door. We let him in eventually but couldn’t stop giggling coz we’d had a bit too much to drink by then.

He kept eating chocolate mousses. He then phoned his girlfriend back – again!

BYE!

Saturday 26th Ifan and Uncle J have gone. I dunno when I’m going to see Ifan again coz he’s travelling round the world on his year out of university where he’s wanting to be an architect.

We’ve got to go home tomorrow so I’d better pack.

BYE!

Sunday 27th I’m back in Dunkeld. I don’t really want to be. I’d rather be back in Wick. This week’s gone so fast and going home means getting back into the normal routine and I’m going to have to do revision and homework.

I’m really missing my cousins and Grandma L. I hate saying goodbye to them coz I don’t know how long it’ll be until I see them next.

I’ve also go the New Year’s Eve decision to make at some point coz I’m still not sure.

BYE!

Monday 28th I’m at home now. I’ve spoken to Emma and Hayley and they said I haven’t missed much. The only think I am missing are my people in Wick but there’s not much I can do about it now, is there?

BYE!

I’ve got mock exams on the first day back. AARRGH! – 16th & 19th December 1998

Friday 18th P. [Period]

I was sick this morning on the pavement just after Mum had dropped me off for school so Abby and Jacqueline took me to Sadie’s and her mum phoned my mum so I got the day off. I’d rather have gone in coz I won’t see a lot of people for a while now but I was being sick loads so it’s a good job I didn’t.

Emma and Hayley told me on the phone that I didn’t miss much. Emma’s got my flute, one of her spare presents and a Xmas card from Ewan for me so I’ll get them tomorrow.

I went to the Sports Club with Hayley and Johnny Doherty and Jack Eddison were there. Jack said he and Naveen are going to the New Year’s Eve do there so we’ll probably see them.

BYE!

Saturday 19th First day of the Xmas hols. I’d rather be in school. No I wouldn’t. Oh, I dunno. I can’t be bothered with lessons but I like the social side of things and I’m not going to see Ewan for at least two weeks and I’ve got to revise coz I’ve got mock exams on the first day back. AARRGH! That’s not good.

At least I don’t have to get up early for a while and I’m going to Wick for about a week tomorrow.

I saw Emma today. She didn’t have a lot to tell me coz I didn’t miss a lot yesterday. She gave me Ewan’s card though. I’ve stuck it on the next page.

I’d better go and pack anyway, so…

BYE!

[I'm shocked I didn't make more of the fact that he used the word 'love'.]

[I’m shocked I didn’t make more of the fact that he used the word ‘love’.]