It’s bumpy and the car takes off – 12th March 2001

Monday 12th
3 weeks + 3 days to go!

Floyd and Nell are now apparently seeing each other! Sarah said they were deep in conversation in college and then started snogging again! Nobody understands yet! Floyd seems happy though!

Disaster!! They’re resurfacing Hodge Drive! 😦 If you drive down it really fast, there’s a certain point where it’s bumpy and the car takes off. No more fun on the way back from McDonald’s anymore then!

I still don’t feel 100% yet. I had stomach ache today and my back was stiff and so’s my neck. It was this morning anyway but seems to be okay now.

Jake phoned at about 4:40pm today. He didn’t say that much and he explained that was because he was tired and pissed off about his breakfast or something cos he had to wait ages for it. I didn’t really know what he was on about actually!

He said he played some drinking games last night with a few of his mates but he can’t have drunk too much or I doubt he’s have phoned me at a normal time! He told me he still wants to come home even though they’ve got really nice weather there and it’s chucking it down here!

Ooh! I saw the new Westlife video (Uptown Girl, I think it’s called) and the gorgeous Ioan Gruffudd is on it in a suit! Ahh, he’s sooo fit!! I mean, Hornblower was good but him being in it made me make sure I watched it every time! Jake’s just as gorgeous as him though! 🙂


Today’s emails →

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Light-headed and ‘far away’ – 10th March 2001

Saturday 10th
3 weeks + 5 days to go!

I’ve been really tired today cos I couldn’t get to sleep last night and then I had to get up quite early cos I was going to Cheshire Oaks with Sarah today and they picked me up early.

I didn’t really buy much though when we got there. I just got the Wheatus album, a pair or sunglasses from Tog24 and a McDonald’s for lunch. Sarah didn’t find very much either. It was better than staying at home and doing my Geography homework though!

I had to do a Swing Band concert this evening at the Methodist church in the next village. It went quite well but dragged on for ages. It wasn’t just Swing Band, there were extra soloists and stuff in between our tunes. They were good but I was bored. Emma couldn’t go either cos she was working so I was sat on my own.

I kept feeling really funny this evening. It wasn’t a good sort of funny either. It could’ve been just cos I was hot and tired but I felt really light-headed and ‘far away’. Then every so often, I kept feeling like I was sort of drifting (like off to sleep or something) and I kept sort of jumping and snapped out of it. It was weird and I didn’t like it.

I’ve been doing that drifting then jumping thing when I’ve been trying to sleep at night too, along with thinking daft things like I was half awake but dreaming. I don’t like it when that happens cos it’s really strange. I have to totally wake myself up to stop it. Other people say they do that too though.

Unfortunately it’s snowed in Canada. 😦 I’ve not spoken to Jake today or yesterday cos he was doing his avalanche course thing and hasn’t had time to phone me. I don’t think he’ll come back early. It says in his email that he’s still considering it but I reckon he’s just trying to break it to me gently. 😦


Today’s emails →

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Making awkward conversation – 21st February 2001

Wednesday 21st
6 weeks + 1 day to go!

I got my Valentine’s/1st year anniversary presents off Jake today. He posted them ages ago and they finally arrived this morning There was a card and a letter, a dream catcher, 2 heard-shaped candles, a box of smelly bath stuff and a bracelet. It’s all really nice! 🙂

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Sarah stayed at my house last night so when Hayley and Lena wanted us to meet them, we both went. The purpose of the meeting was because an old friend of mine and Hayley’s was coming to visit called Michael Amhurst. We used to know him when we were little but then he moved away and we’ve only recently got back in contact.

He’s visited us once before a few weeks back so it wasn’t too awkward. It’d be easier if he brought a friend with him cos it’s hard not talking to him about our friends and what’s been happening here. We forgot he doesn’t know who anyone is!

He took us to McDonald’s in his car for lunch and then we went to see if we could find the place in Warrington. We did bit decided not to go in cos we probably needed to book. Then we went to LA Bowl but we would have had to wait for a lane for about 3 hours so we have up on that idea too!

We ended up just sat in The Dog pub making awkward conversation.

Sarah and I used the excuse that her dad needed to pick her up so we escaped and came back to mine. Sarah then told me that she quite fancied Michael, as well as his car!


P.S. Jake phoned at around 4:30pm and he was pleased to hear that I got his packages. He started his skiing assessment thing tomorrow.

Today’s emails →

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I was smiling so much I couldn’t eat my Shredded Wheat!! – 25th March 2000

Saturday 25th Went to Warrington with Mum in search of boxing gloves and jeans but we were unsuccessful.

Hayley came round tonight because she wanted my help composing a message to Andy. She didn’t in the end cos I did one from my phone asking why he’d lied and stuff. She might do it later.

I send Jake a message earlier telling him I was considering doing my hair Mel C style [as in the video below] only green at the hairdressers tomorrow!


Later, I sent him an unfinished message by accident so I sent another explaining why it didn’t make sense and that I couldn’t remember what I was going to say but it was probably how much I love him. I got one off him then saying, “YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY : ) IS HAYLEY STILL THERE? HAS SHE SORTED THE ANDY THING OUT?? NIGHT NIGHT! LOTS OF LOVE JAKE xxxxx”. This time it was the beginning of the message I liked. I was smiling so much I couldn’t eat my Shredded Wheat!!

It’s nice to see he’s concerned about my mates too. He’s sooooo lovely!!! The whole Andy thing’s made me realise how lucky I’ve been with Jake so far. I still can’t believe he actually likes me!!



Psycho Bitch, Leather Woman and Nadine – 22nd February 2000

Tuesday 22nd Cat and I skied early with the beginners because Mr L wanted us to go along because we’re “able skiers” so we could pick up people out of the snow and trees and stuff! Hannah L also told us we were good skiers.

The morning lesson was quite good but icy again and I fell and hurt my left knee.

I got Jake a postcard at lunch and then skied again with the group in the afternoon. The bottom slope was really icy again and EVERYONE fell over!

There was a disco in the evening but Cat and I didn’t go. Instead, we sat in our room and bitched about people (Lizzie and Hayley mainly!) and she managed to get a photo of me having a laughing fit. We then both got worried we were getting cold sores cos our lips were tingling but it might just have been because of the sun.

I phoned Sarah and she’s been round at Floyd’s. I’m in shock now because she told me that Hayley had sex with Andy in his car in LA Bowl car park.

We were telling Janine about our ski instructors earlier and what we’d called them and we asked her what hers was called and she told us, “Nadine”. It doesn’t quite fit: – Psycho Bitch, Leather Woman and Nadine!


She gained the name Psycho Bitch – 20th February 2000

Sunday 20th P. [Period.]

I woke up feeling fine but then I suddenly went really hot and dizzy with really bad period pains and I was sick. I was really worried that I wouldn’t be able to ski but I had some paracetamol and O was okay again.

I skied before lessons at 9:00am with the teachers and some lads. The teachers said Cat and I were good. Some of it was really good but some was bleeding scary cos of the ice on the slopes. When I fell over Fit Alex helped me up and checked I was ok. Mmm! Sorry Jake!


My ski boots were a bit tight so I went to change them with Cat and Mr L. This meant we missed most of our ski lesson so we went with the teachers again. It was very scary but good!

We were put in the advanced group for our lessons in the afternoon. Our teacher, Nadege, took us over pure ice, didn’t wait if someone fell and yelled at us so she gained the name Psycho Bitch!

The bottom slope was terrible. There was no snow whatsoever, Cat, Robbie Taylor and I got pissed off so we either walked or slid down. Psycho Bitch then told Cat and Robbie to move down a group but gave me the option of staying in hers. I went.

I was getting on quite well with Robbie but he reminds me a lot of Jake which made me miss him even more. I phoned him in the evening and got through. He’d just arrived in Paris with the Art trip and told me he was sharing a room with Aled Brownlee, Danny Barnes and Ian Robertson. That’s not good! I don’t trust Aled!

I saw Robbie phone home. I think his number’s 01925 ****** but I’m not sure.

Katie fell down a cliff today but she was okay. Mr L and Ivor Ward (who’s quite nice looking with a tan, no glasses and his snowboarding gear!) helped her out.


He skived just for me! – 18th & 19th February 2000

Friday 18th to Saturday 19th Jake sat in the common room with me all morning. He had lessons but he skived just for me! He then came down to the bus turning circle with me and before I left we had a couple of very, very nice snogs. He told me he’d miss me and that I had to avoid any male ski instructors.

When I got on the coach, I found myself infront of Robbie Taylor [Jake’s brother] but it didn’t really matter in the end because he didn’t say much.

Jake and Hayley waved me off and then, as the coach was pulling out of the road by school, I saw Jake run to the other end of the school followed by Hayley so he could wave me off again. That was really sweet!

The journey was very, very long and very, very boring. It took us 29 hours to get to Pra Loup and I only had about an hour of sleep.


There was an extra lad who came on the trip with us. He’s called Alex and is Mrs K’s friend’s son. He’s in my year and came with us because he couldn’t go with his school in Bolton because of exams or something. He’s a rugby players and is extremely nice looking.

Before I crossed the Channel, I got some texts. One was from Hayley saying, “HOPE U R NOT BORED. ME + JAKE HAD A NICE CHAT ABOUT U. HE REALLY REALLY LIKES U. ENJOY YOURSELF, B CAREFUL, C U SOON LUV HAYLEY xx”.


I then got questioned about me and him by Mrs L so I texted him telling him and he sent a reply saying, “TELL MRS L 2 STOP BEING SUCH A BIG BULLY. HAVE U HAD THE HONOUR OF HER KIDS SAT ON YOUR LAP YET? IS MY BRO ANNOYING YOU YET? LOVE JAKE xxx”. Hannah and Jack L came with their mum. They’re really sweet actually. I know them because they want to Austria as well.

I had a phone call from Hugo as well. He wants me, Jake and Sarah to go round to his in March. I also spoke to Hayley. Jake’s told her about his mum and said she had good days and bad days and he sometimes gets depressed about it all. He told her that he’s not told many people at all. I did get a phone call from Jake himself but he didn’t say much. I really started to miss him at that point.

When we finally arrived at the Marmotel we found out that Claire and I were sharing a room with Janine Worsley and Katie Downes. The room itself was crap and so was the food but the rest seemed okay.

Tried to phone Jake using 0044… etc. but I got the BT Cellnet woman. Spoke to Mum to let her know we’d arrived safely.