It seemed to last forever! – 23rd to 25th September 2000

Saturday 23rd I worked today (boring!) but went and sat down the lane with Jake tonight and we saw a shooting star! It was sooo cool!! We were cuddling up and both happened to be looking out of the window at the same time and we saw it! 🙂

There were fireworks round town too!

We just talked until we fell asleep and then he took me home. He said he didn’t want to wake me up cos I looked really sweet!

Bye!

Sunday 24th I worked for 6 hours today and it seemed to last forever! I’m getting so sick of that job again! They’ve not even paid me for this month yet.

I saw Jake again tonight and we went and sat down that lane again! It was a bit boring so we ended up going home quite early.

Bye!

Monday 25th I saw Jake in my frees today and he took me, Sarah and Hayley to McDonald’s for lunch.

It’s his birthday on the 3rd October and I didn’t have a clue what to buy him but then Mum told me that some lad at her school brought one of those remote control dogs in and it looked a bit like Mollie. So seeing as Jake seems to quite like Mollie and keeps saying he wants one like her, Mum took me to Toys R Us tonight to get one. They’re like a cheap version of those Sony ones but it’s still good. I hope he likes it!

Bye!

WE ARE ONE WITH THE GODDESS – 21st & 22nd September 2000

Thursday 21st I saw Jake in my free periods today and we forgave each other for sulking! He did point out that the same minor argument’s likely to come up again before he goes to Canada and he’s probably right!

I had to work tonight but it wasn’t too bad cos I was finished by 9pm. Tired now though.

Bye!

Friday 22nd Hayley made us go to LA Bowl tonight so, to try and liven the evening up a bit, Sarah and I drank a lot of Hayley’s Taboo that she got for her birthday! It still managed to be boring though!

Jake told me that he does want me to go to Huddersfield too. Good! Now I just hope I don’t end up getting disappointed by not being able to go there.

Jake got caught by a speed camera on the way to McDonald’s so he spent the rest of the night worrying about that and what his dad will say if he finds out.

When he dropped Hayley and Sarah home, we went down our lane and sat in the car for a while. I did 3 to him but that was it cos I kept nearly falling asleep.

When I got home, I looked at my phone and I had a message from a number I didn’t know which was 07979 ****** and it said, “WE ARE ONE WITH THE GODDESS”. Weird! I texted Hayley to see if she knew the number and she said, “HOWDY DOOLE. U OK? THAT MSG YOU GOT IS A QUOTE FROM BIG BROTHERSADA USED TO SAY IT. WEIRD. IT IS DEFINITELY FIT PAUL’S NUMBER THOUGH! HAYLEY x”.

Paul is one of Andy’s mates but I don’t know him so I don’t know why he sent it to me. Jake wants to know though!

Bye!

It reminded me a lot of something off a problem page! – 19th & 20th September 2000

Tuesday 19th I must have fallen asleep before Jake had finished sending me messages cos when I got up this morning, I had one saying, “I DON’T LIKE PLANNING THINGS BUT IF WE DO GET TO DECEMBER AND NO-ONE’S HAD A PARTY… WELL! : ) I DO WANT TO! COULD GO TO AN OPEN DAY… A LONG WAY AWAY AND STAY OVER! x”.

I replied telling him I couldn’t really see that happening and he said, “I KNOW! IT’S ALREADY GOING VERY QUICKLY! WISH WE WERE RICH THEN WE WOULDN’T HAVE TO MAKE DO WITH A YOUTH HOSTEL! DON’T TELL ME I’VE BEEN TOO SLOW AGAIN! : ) LOVE YOU! x”.

I told him that he’d been too slow in asking me out after I found out how long he’d liked me which is what the last bit was about!

Later he said, “I SPOSE IT’S A VERY BIG STEP TO TAKE AND YOU WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU WANT TO! SOME PEOPLE’S RELATIONSHIPS ARE JUST SEXUAL SO FOR US TO BE THIS CLOSE NOW JUST SHOWS HOW GOOD WE ARE TOGETHER AND HOW STRONG OUR RELATIONSHIP IS… DOESN’T IT? : ) LOVE YOU LOADS!!! xJx”.

That was a very nice message but it reminded me a lot of something off a problem page!

I saw Jake briefly today in my free lessons but then I saw him later cos he came round to my house. Nothing happened cos my family kept wandering about and we got worried about them coming in.

Bye!

Wednesday 20th I went to the Environmental Sciences talk thing at Huddersfield University today so Sarah, Hayley, Jake and I all went along. I really, really like it there! We went to the talk thing with this Robert Allen bloke and there was only one other lad there. It was more helpful than I thought it’d be though cos he told us what needs to go on our personal statements and stuff.

For the rest of the day, we just wandered round the uni and the town. Jake showed me which block he’s going to be in and then got stopped by some bloke asking for money and he gave him £2 cos he’s nice! He also saw a lad called Chris (I think) that used to be in his year at school.

Sarah and Hayley spent most of the day lad watching and when Hayley tried to involve me in it, Jake (quite rightly, I suppose) got ready to sulk!

On our way home, Jake dropped me off before Hayley so I was a bit annoyed cos I couldn’t even give him a hug while she was in the car cos she’d have made some comment. I sulked for a bit through text messages and then it came out that he’s worried about Hayley’s influence over me when he’s in Canada. He thinks I’ll be hanging round with her ex Andy and his mates again. I corrected him that, if I can help it, I won’t be!

Bye!

It must have looked dodgy! – 16th to 18th September 2000

Saturday 16th I had the day off work today but I didn’t do much cos Jake was working. This evening I saw him though and we ended up back down the lane behind the school. We put the seats down all the way so we could lie on them and we just did what we normally do – nothing very interesting anymore. It was still quite good though cos at least we got to be alone.

Bye!

Sunday 17th I had to work today but Jake came to pick me up afterwards and we went to get a Chinese again. We went back down the lane… again to eat it and do other stuff too (of course!) but nothing much worth writing about.

It was a bit embarrassing at one point cos we’d been lying down in the car and Jake suddenly sat up and said, “There’s a man there!” I didn’t believe him so I looked but there was someone walking his dogs. Whoever it was avoided the car really obviously so it must have looked dodgy! Hope it wasn’t anyone we know!!

When I got in I texted Jake, whinging about having to come home and he texted me back saying, “IT’S JUST SOOO ANNOYING! AND WHAT’S EVEN MORE ANNOYING IS THAT WHEN WE GO TO UNI – WE’LL HAVE A BED AND WE COULD BE ALONE… BUT WE’LL PROBABLY BE HUNDREDS OF MILES APART. x”

I hope we aren’t!

Bye!

Monday 18th I didn’t see Jake today because he went to Alton Towers with some of his mates but I got some messages from him this evening. We got onto the dark lane subject and I asked if he didn’t like dark lanes cos he doesn’t want us to go any further in the back of a car (cos he did say that in a message a while ago).

He said, “I ONLY SAID THAT COS I WANT IT TO BE SPECIAL! NOT IN THE BACK OF A CAR! YOU DESERVE BETTER THAN THAT! IT’S NOT THAT I DON’T WANT TO! I DO… A LOT!!! JUST WHEN WE MANAGE TO BE ALONE AND PREFERABLY IN A BED! I LOVE YOU TOO!!! : ) xxx JAKE xxx”.

Then later he said, “WELL IF IT DOESN’T HAPPEN SOON WE’LL JUST HAVE TO HAVE OUR OWN LITTLE PARTY… IN A HOTEL ROOM! OR WE COULD GO CAMPING! : ) LOVE YOU TOO!”

I didn’t know what to make of those messages. I don’t want him getting his hopes up that it’ll happen before he goes away. I do want to but it’s more the problem of when and where. I really can’t see us getting the chance and, even if we did, I’m not entirely convinced we’d take it.

Bye!

 

Poor, working, tired or staying in to watch the last Big Brother – 15th September 2000

Friday 15th My Grandma S has come to stay at our house for a bit until the petrol shortage ends cos her house is quite far away and Mum wouldn’t be able to go and see her as often. So, Mum asked me to come home in my free lessons to check she was okay. Jake came with me and Grandma was still in bed but at least I got to see him for a couple of hours and we booked our flights to London.

Nobody was going out tonight cos they were either poor, working, tired or staying in to watch the last Big Brother (sad!) so Jake and I didn’t have much to do. We didn’t really want to sit in a pub on our own so we went and got a Chinese and he parked his car down the track up the back of the school field so we could eat it. That’s where we ended up staying though cos we had nothing else to do.

We pushed the front seats forward and sat in the back so we had more room. We talked for ages and at one point he started going on about people who had fancied him/he fancied before me/he’d snogged. Not good!

He then told me:

  • He’d been really pissed off when he liked me cos he couldn’t go to one of Freda’s parties and he knew I was going.
  • That he’d been really jealous of his brother cos I was on the ski trip.
  • That after he’d had assembly, he used to try and get out fast so he could see me (we sat in the common room cos his assembly was held where we usually sat).

I had his sheep-like Quiksilver fleece on in the back of the car at one point cos I was cold and he said I looked really cute in it!

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[Jake’s sheep fleece.]

Then we started kissing and the usual 2 things happened (3). I thought he was going to try and take it further at one point cos he sort of pressed himself up against me but I ignored it.

I think I fell asleep for a few minutes at one point so he took me home after that. I got a message from him saying, “I LOVE YOU LOADS TOO! YOU MAKE ME SOOO HAPPY! : ) I’M SOOO GLAD THAT I WENT AND FOUND YOU THAT MONDAY MORNING AFTER THE PARTY! YOU’RE THE BEST THING TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME! I LOVE YOU!!! : ) xxx JAKE xxx”. Aahhh! 🙂

Bye!

Could’ve been embarrassing if he’d have walked straight in! – 13th & 14th September 2000

Wednesday 13th Gethin attempted to speak to me today but I pretty much ignored him cos I’m still pissed off. I went to Jake’s during the day in my frees to get out of the way before I hit Gethin and so we could sort out stuff for London.

We went to McDonald’s for lunch (again!) and Hayley was in there with Georgia. She told me that in their RE lesson, Sarah had been saying that she agrees with me in the argument but wants to stick with Gethin cos she doesn’t want to get on the wrong side of him (or something). Pathetic! I do feel a bit guilty about not seeing Sarah in college as much but if I didn’t see Jake, that’d be just as bad, if not worse.

Gethin sent me some apology messages after college and even followed me into the toilets but he kept asking if he could still come to the Trafford Centre tomorrow night so I think that’s all he’s really bothered about – getting some shopping!! I didn’t forgive him but I might soon. It depends how much he annoys me!

I went back to Jake’s tonight and we sat in his room and the usual happened but his dad came home and wanted to speak to him! Could’ve been embarrassing if he’d have walked straight in!

Bye!

Thursday 14th I was still really annoyed with Gethin for most of today but then I went home before lunch cos I felt really ill cos I’ve got a bad cold and cough. We still went to the Trafford Centre though so I sort of had to get on with Gethin and I’m gradually beginning to get over it!

I didn’t buy much, just a belly chain thing to go round the top of my trousers for when I go out and a pair of fleecy pants from Eisenegger. Nothing much interesting happened at all. Jake just dropped me straight off at home after.

I did get a few nice messages this evening though. He said, “YOU HAVE A TENDENCY TO FALL ASLEEP AND I CAN’T SLEEP COS I’M WAITING FOR YOU TO SEND ME A MSG BACK! : ) GLAD FLOYD’S COMING TO LONDON TOO! YOU SHOULD BE IN MY BED NOW. IT’S NOT FAIR! UUH! I LOVE YOU TOO… FAR TOO MUCH TO ONLY SEE YOU FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS A DAY! NIGHT TIMES ARE A WASTE – I COULD BE WITH YOU! WELL… I CAN DREAM! x”.

Then later, we were still on the subject of London and he said, “WELL BEING IN THE SAME BUILDING AS YOU IS A LITTLE BIT BETTER THAN THIS! I’M SLEEPING ON MY BLANKET THINGY AND IT’S V. WEIRD COS WHERE YOU SEWED OUR INITIALS IN, THE HEART IS RIGHT WHERE MY HEAD IS! : ) OHH I WANT YOU HERE NOW! IT’S NOT THE SAME LYING HERE WITHOUT YOU! LOVE YOU LOADS! xJx”.

(I found a sewing kit that he’d got free on the cruise shop so when I was round at his house the other night, I sewed a button and TS+JT onto his blanket cos I got bored!)

Later still, he sent me a message saying, “NO – YOU’VE ENTERED COLLEGE 2 NOW – WHERE NOBODY HAS A SOCIAL LIFE… WHICH MEANS NO PARTIES! : ( WE’LL HAVE TO WAIT AT LEAST 4 YEARS BEFORE I GET TO SHARE A BED WITH YOU! : ( OR WE COULD JUST LIVE IN MY TENT AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER! LOVE xJx”.

Bye!

 

He was slagging me off no end. Bastard! – 11th & 12th September 2000

Monday 11th Jake and I went to the Trafford Centre tonight after college cos I handed my biology coursework in so I’ve not got as much work. We went to the cinema to see Scary Movie which was pretty good.

Afterwards, we just came straight home which disappointed me slightly but then he parked the car on the church car park next door where we stayed for quite a while. We talked mostly (he did begin 3 but stopped) about stuff.

He said he wants to skip a couple of years so we can live together. He also said he wouldn’t mind living in a tent if we had to! I mentioned the post office here in my village then he said we should put our pennies together and buy a post office in Scotland! Hmmm!

Bye!

Tuesday 12th Gethin is such a twat!!! I went out of college at 3rd lesson with Jake cos I was free but we came back at lunch to see if anyone wanted a trip to McDonald’s. Gethin, Sarah and Hayley came with us. Hayley’s fine at the moment and isn’t annoying me as much, Sarah seems a bit off with me but I think it might be cos I’ve not been around as much and she’s been left with Hayley, and Gethin’s just being a right moody little bastard!

He didn’t eat anything (and neither did Sarah actually) when we got there so I asked why he’d bothered coming when someone else could’ve done instead. Hayley and Sarah told me later that, when he’d got out of the car afterwards, he was slagging me off no end. Bastard!

Then this evening, I got a message from Sarah that was meant for Gethin and it included the words, “I dunno what’s wrong with Tess – maybe she’s stressed about London” (Jake and I are trying to organise a trip to London at half term and I can’t get straight answers out of anyone!) so they were obviously talking about me.

Then, I got a message from Jake saying Gethin had been slagging us both off to his brother, saying how we’re going to end up with no mates if we’re together all the time. This is very reminiscent of what he said to me over the phone a while back and what he said to Hugo. I told Gethin then that I wasn’t going to put up with it again so I sent him a few messages. They’re on this bit of paper cos I wrote it down before I sent anything so I could get everything in that I wanted to say. →

(The last message on the back is one Jake sent on Monday. I forget to write it in here!)

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Gethin sent me a few messages back saying that it was an “over exaggerated insult” and that he’d “put it down to stress and gossip” and then that “in the unlikely event of you ever needing me, you know where I am”. He is sooo cheesy! He should write cheesy soap opera scripts!!

He then asked if our friendship was over but I ignored him! Ha ha!!!

Jake’s far from pleased with Gethin either but I don’t think he’ll do much about it.

Bye!