His mate Jonny says I look horny – 15th February 2001

Thursday 15th
7 weeks to go!

I was just about to check my email in college this morning when all the computers went off. It turned out there was a power cut in the village and we were told that we might get sent home cos it was a potential fire hazard. However, the fire alarms were working unfortunately so we had to go to lessons.

At break I tried to read my email again but the internet was down all over school! I eventually got onto Hotmail at lunch but then it cut off my email halfway down for some reason! I then had to wait until I got home before I could read it properly.

Jake had attached lots of photos he’d scanned in to the email of him and his friends. He does look different but I’m not sure why.

He phoned me tonight at about 4:40pm. He said nothing much has happened there except he’s really pleased with himself cos he taught some people to ski properly. He also told me that the girl who they thought broke her neck was on the front page of the local paper and that she’s still in hospital and it was her helmet that saved her.

He also told me not to worry about one of the girls on one of the photos cos it looks like she’s close to him but she wasn’t apparently and she’s a slag and sleeps with all the Canadian blokes and has got pneumonia. Jake said they all reckon it’s cos of all the “stuff” she’s swallowed! Surely she’d have to inhale, not swallow!

We got talking about diaries and he reckons it’s dead cute that I keep one and he wished he did! He also said that he wouldn’t want to read it cos he’d get jealous! He said he even got jealous when he found out I stuck a sweet packet in my diary that Dougie gave me when I was about 13! I’m quite flattered really!

I went to The Coach and Horses with a few people tonight cos not everyone can go out tomorrow night. I sent Michael Amhurst a text message to find out if he got the photo I sent him that I took when he was here. His reply said, “I’M FINE + U? NO PHOTO BUT I’VE NOT BEEN HOME! IT’LL BE WAITING! I’VE GOT THE OTHER PIC ON MY WALL + THE PERSON ON THE RIGHT HAS BEEN GETTING A LOT OF ATTENTION!”

The picture he meant was the one of me, Hayley and Isaac that we sent in a Xmas card to him. I couldn’t remember who was on the right so I asked him and he told me that it was me and that he meant that his mate Jonny says I look horny apparently!

Michael’s probably going to meet up with us sometime next week cos we’re all on school holidays.


Today’s emails →

15-02-01 Jake email15-02-01 Tess email


It’s Valentine’s Day and I’m all alone – 14th February 2001


It’s Valentine’s Day and I’m all alone 😦 Well, I might as well be anyway!

I had an open day at Sheffield Uni today so Mum came with me and we went on the train. It was okay but a bit boring as usual. That’s the last one I’m going to now. I’m not going to Hull cos you have to sort a tour out yourself and I’m not that bothered about seeing it anyway.

Some nice student lads took us round the department but I wasn’t really paying much attention cos I could see the dry ski slope out of the windows and I really want to go skiing!

Jake didn’t ring me tonight cos I wouldn’t have been back in time and he was shadowing a lesson anyway.


Today’s emails →

14-02-01 Jake email 1

14-02-01 Tess email14-02-01 Jake email 2

I could imagine that all the girls were dog-ugly! – 13th February 2001

Tuesday 13th
7 weeks + 2 days to go!

I got the photos that Jake took in Canada back from being developed today. Some of them are of his room, some are of the scenery but most of them are of the people he’s with. There’s one of him on his skis and 2 that he took of himself using a mirror. It doesn’t look like him though 😦 he looks older and chunkier!

I didn’t cry when I got them which I’m quite pleased about cos so far I’ve not got upset in college and I want to keep that up!

There are some photos with girls on them and a weird one of a lad that REALLY looks like Floyd! Even Floyd himself admitted there was a freaky resemblance!

The bottom of one of the slopes really looks like one I took when I was in Pra Loup last year. Cat agrees.

I was studying one of the photos of his room and it’s got a picture above his bed but you can’t really see the painting cos there are lots of photos of me stuck over it! It’s flattering that he’s done that but I had a bit of a go at him on the phone tonight cos a while ago he told me he only had 4 up. There are loads! Plus, before he went I told him which ones I didn’t want anyone to see and he promised he wouldn’t show anyone but they’re up there too!

While he was on the phone I was describing the photos to him and he was telling me where/who they were of. I can actually picture in my head now where he is and who he’s with when I think about him now. I don’t know if that’s better or worse than not knowing actually cos at least before I could imagine that all the girls were dog-ugly! It turns out they’re not though so he’d better be behaving himself!


Today’s emails →

13-02-01 Jake email13-02-01 Tess email

God knows what it is! – 12th February 2001

Monday 12th
7 weeks + 3 days to go!

Not a lot happened in college today. We’ve been growing bacteria on agar plates in Biology and today we looked at the results. However, the bacteria growing should have been a harmless purple one but there was a clear slimy one growing instead! God knows what it is! If all our Biology class becomes ill then we know why! The plates must have got contaminated with another bacteria somehow. Yuk!

I took the film Jake sent me to the chemist today to get it developed. I can get it back tomorrow morning so I hope it doesn’t make me cry in college when I look at the photos!

I ended up crying on the phone to him again tonight but then so did he! I’d been joking about running off with Mr C the cute Maths teacher if Jake didn’t come back but he seemed to take me seriously, told me he didn’t like me anymore and that I annoy him. Not surprisingly, that upset me!

He said he was only joking too (and I think he was but it didn’t sound like that!) and then he ended up getting upset too cos he said he misses me and doesn’t like the thought of me with other men/lads and he’s really protective of me.

Well, I miss his too… lots! I just want a hug from him, right now!


Today’s emails →

12-02-01 Jake email12-02-01 Tess email

I only stalled it twice – 11th February 2001

Sunday 11th
7 weeks + 4 days to go!

I’ve been with Jake for ONE WHOLE YEAR!!!

I can’t believe we’ve been together that long. I mean, we met first a week ago today but he only asked me out properly this time last year. I wish he was here 😦 I need a hug!

We’ve been together for a year and I still don’t know what to call him! It seems right to put “Jake” on cards and things cos that’s always how he signs things to me but when I’m speaking to him, I don’t know what he wants to be called!

Ooh, I had my 1st driving lesson this morning! I wasn’t really nervous until I woke up this morning. My lesson was from 10:30 am to 12:30 pm and my instructor’s called Charles. He was a bit miserable and talked really slowly but he was alright. I understood what he was saying and he seemed very calm which is good, I suppose! He also teaches Colin McKay who’s in the year below me in college.

The 1st thing I did was sit in the driver’s seat on Hall Drive and he went through what everything inside the car did. Then he let me drive it round the roundabout at the top (where Declan lives) before stopping again to explain the mirrors. I only stalled it twice and he said it was cos I was wearing trainers and the soles were wet and therefore slipping off the clutch cos it was raining.

He let me drive again and I thought he was going to tell me to turn down Hodge Drive where it was quiet but instead I had to go onto Wellington Road! I wasn’t as scared as I thought I might be actually cos I did feel in control! He then made me drive up Crofters Lane and then stop going up the motorway bridge to do a hill start. I managed it quite well so I did a downhill start too!

At the end of the lesson, I parked up Oak Lane and he told me that I’d done well. He said he goes at different paces with different people and that he’d got through a lot with me. I have to say, I felt quite pleased with myself and I did enjoy it!

I wasn’t expecting to go on any main roads though cos everyone else I spoke to said the either did it round quiet housing estates or on car parks.

I spoke to Jake this evening. He was having a day off today cos it’s Sunday. He told me he’s glad I enjoyed my driving lesson and he sounded surprised I’d done so much. We got onto the subject of skiing and I ended up crying a bit cos I really miss him and really want to go skiing. He said he really does want to go skiing with me one day and that I don’t have to worry about him being better than me cos he reckons I’m probably better than a few people on his course.

Hmm, why are they doing it then?!

I mean, I can ski and I’m not bad at it considering I’ve only been twice. I was better than him when I was in Austria anyway! I still think he’d show off and try and tell me what to do if I went skiing with him but I really do want to go again!


Today’s emails →

11-02-01 Jake email11-02-01 Tess email

She sounded like a right cocky little slapper!  – 10th February 2001

Saturday 10th
7 weeks + 5 days to go!

I went to an open day at the Uni of Central Lancashire today. It was really, really disorganised! Nobody who was doing environmental stuff or geography had been sent a letter to say what was going on.

We were taken on a tour firth by a lad from Transylvania. He couldn’t speak much English and kept getting lost. I felt really sorry for him actually cos it was the 1st time he’d done a tour.

Everyone Mum and I spoke to seemed to be doing Forensic Science except one girl from Barnsley. Eventually we were told where we had to go and we were introduced to other people doing Geography and stuff who were a bit lost too.

One person was a lad called Christopher who was with his mum too so my mum and his started chatting. He was nice and smiley and kept looking at me. I could have fancied him, had I been single! He was from down south somewhere and wants to go to uni in Manchester. He reminded me a bit of Niall Cafferty in Jake’s year – I think it was his eyes.

There was only me there who was wanting to do Environmental Science! This bloke showed Mum and me round the department and told us about the course. I have to say, the field trips sound better than Huddersfield cos they go abroad (including Vancouver!) but I still want to go to Hudds cos overall it seems much better.

Mum and I had a quick look round Preston and she bought me some jeans from New Look. We were home by about 4:30pm so I got to speak to Jake at about 6:30. It was quite a bad line and I couldn’t hear him all that well actually. I told him about today but he didn’t have much to tell me.

His mate Ali is going over to visit him soon. That doesn’t seem fair! 😦 Jake said some other lad’s girlfriend is going over to visit and he’s really jealous! I wish I could go! His roommate even said that if I did visit, he’d sleep in someone else’s room so we could have it to ourselves. That’s really nice!

Some girl walked past the phone and shouted, “Hi Jacob’s girlfriend!” I don’t know why but that really pissed me off! I think he said it was that one called Abbie. It was just the way she said it, I think… she sounded like a right cocky little slapper! I think it’s the way she called him “Jacob” too (in that annoying whiney voice!) that annoyed me – she sounded familiar somehow.

I think it’s cos the only people I hear call him Jacob are his family and Hugo. I never call him anything to his face cos I don’t know what to call him. She did and that doesn’t seem right. I’ve always known him as Jake and he always writes “J” on everything but then other people call him Jacob. I’m just going to have to stick with “Oi!” until I’m told otherwise!


Today’s emails →

10-02-01 Jake email10-02-01 Tess email

There was much lesbianism occurring! – 9th February 2001

Friday 9th
7 weeks + 6 days to go!

I was really disappointed this morning cos when I checked my email in college, I did have one from Jake but it didn’t say anything. I didn’t worry though because he’d obviously tried to send me one and must have accidentally deleted whatever he’d written before sending it.

I spoke to him on the phone at about 6:30pm before I went out. He was really annoyed about me not getting an email because he says he spent ages typing one out. He doesn’t know what happened to it but it could be because he replied to mine and then accidentally deleted his part as well as my part that he was replying to. I can’t really remember what else we talked about but it wasn’t a long conversation anyway.

As predicted by everyone today, tonight did turn out to be quite eventful! We all did The Run [a pub crawl] (again!) because Declan wanted to do it for his 17th birthday (which is actually next Thursday) and so there were quite a lot of people there. The college 1 girls were being very loud and VERY annoying so we did our best to keep out of their way.

I spoke to Robbie quite a bit, even though we’ve both been told not to talk to each other! He was drinking straight Coke cos his dad says he’s not allowed out if he gets into the state he did last week again! We do get on alright actually!

Gethin confessed a few things to me tonight. He finally admitted to trying it on with Jake when they had to share a bed once at Sarah’s house! He said he hadn’t told me before cos he thought I might kill him! Gethin also admitted that he had once fancied him too!

Later on, on the walk to The Coach and Horses, Gethin told me and Sarah that he was going to explode if he didn’t snog Rory by the end of the night! He did actually launch himself at Rory when we were back at Declan’s!

Meanwhile, there was much lesbianism occurring! Lizzie had befriended Nell the lesbian cos they had Declan and Kim who they could slag off together. Apparently, Nell then tried to go with [snog] Lizzie in The Green Dragon toilets but Karen was in there so nothing happened. That is until they were at the bar! Nell lunged again and they ended up snogging in front of everyone!

However, soon after, Nell was in tears cos she wants Kim but Kim wants Declan or some girl called Leanne! Kim wouldn’t even speak to Nell even to calm her down so loads of people ended up having a go at Kim.

Also at The Dragon, Emma managed to steal the totem pole that WAS in one of the windows! It’s quite big and she’s been saying for ages that she wanted it and this week she got it! All she did was unscrew it using a Swiss army knife and then smuggle it out under her coat!

Sarah told me she still fancies Gethin so a few of us spent a lot of time telling her it was pointless cos he’s gay! I don’t think we changed her mind though.

I’m sure other stuff happened but I can’t think what it was right now!


P.S. Jake told me on the phone that if I haven’t got an email on Sunday it’s cos there’s a “customer appreciation day” at the internet café and he thinks it might be busy so he might not get to a computer.

The mail I sent Jake when I got home! →

09-02-01 Tess email