What the hell is going on?!?? – 4th October 2001

Thursday 4th Oh my God!! What a weird night I’ve just had. I had a field trip today but that consisted of nothing more than throwing quadrats about on a hill.

Anyway, I went out to Bar Club Non tonight with Violet, Marc, Ian (Vi’s man) and Layla. I’d had a message from Marc the other night saying he knew someone who likes me other than Storecard so I asked him “Who?” tonight and he just said, “Have you not worked it out yet?” and carried on walking. I got the feeling he meant he likes me but I didn’t know what to say so I pretended I didn’t get it.

However, that was a waste of time cos as soon as we got in Bar Non, Vi dragged me into the toilets and told me Marc really likes me and was going to make a move tonight. She also said he doesn’t really like soup that much. Even though I wasn’t totally surprised by it all, I totally freaked out. Marc looked thoroughly miserable but I didn’t know what to do or say about it.

I did really like Marc but as soon as I found out he liked me too, I don’t know what I feel. I don’t intend to do anything with him cos it’s bad enough having an ex in a nearby building, I don’t want to end up with one in the same flat!

I’m sooo confused and I can’t stop thinking about it. I don’t know what I want to do. The thing is, that’s not all I found out tonight. Some girl dragged me over to her and told me Ben Sandler off my course (and in Flat 3 below us) fancies me too. Then Jonathan off my course told me he definitely thinks Kevin Mould (also off my course) fancies me cos he’s always sitting next to me and helping me out and stuff. Storecard was in Bar Non too.

I really can’t believe any of this. It’s very rare that one lad likes me, never mind 4 of ‘em! What the hell is going on?!?? I should be flattered, which I am I suppose, but I’m more confused than anything else because I really don’t know what I want.

I got split up from my flatmates, hung round with Kevin for a bit, got a taxi home on my own and then got really upset when I got in my room. It’s going to be awkward with Marc now.

I don’t know why but I rang Jake. I think I just needed to hear someone I knew. He could tell I was upset so I ended up telling him the problem. I found out he fancies that Bronwen girl but she’s got a boyfriend. Ah well!


P.S. I got a message from Marc before saying “I don’t know what Vi said but I’m over the moon for you. I can’t stop thinking about you.” Ahh!

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