Monday 25^th I went to the Trafford Centre with Jake. We got the bus there and Robbie’s girlfriend Amy got on it too. Jake seem to like her and get on with her but she completely ignored me. I wish Robbie liked and got on with me.

When we got there, we also saw loads of people from Jake’s year. Earlier we saw some of them drive past and then we saw a couple of others and then his ex-girlfriend on the way home. The lad (Alex) was the only one who acknowledged my existence and asked me if I’m going to the college leaving do on Wednesday cos he is seeing as he stayed back at college a year.

They all asked Jake about Canada (grr!) and he informed some of them that he’ll go back at some point to renew his qualification thing. He said I could go with him but it involved money which I don’t have and I’d be stuck on my own while he pissed off and skied.

Ugh, he also said Jodie Nichols is going to Huddersfield too. This is not particularly good news as she really gets on my nerves. She used to be my best mate at primary school but then she started ignoring me and now she’s really false when she smiles or says hi and stuff. Plus she was openly flirting with Jake once when she thought I wasn’t there.

Grandma’s still in hospital. If something happens to her and everyone goes up to Scotland, I won’t want to go to Barcelona. I don’t know what to do if the worst happens.

Jake’s not got a job in that architect’s office cos there was nowt for him to do. He’s now decided he wants a job in the Quiksilver shop in Manchester.

Bye!

Tuesday 26^th Gethin asked Jake round to his house this morning and I have to say that I was quite a bit pissed off. It was mainly because I felt left out cos he’s meant to be friends with both of us but he’d chosen Jake over me and could’ve asked us both. Also, I know Gethin used to fancy Jake and, even though I know Jake’s not gay, I still don’t like the thought of Gethin being alone with him cos that’s what Gethin would want.

So, I decided to send Gethin a short text message, just to let him know I wasn’t entirely happy, saying, “Why is it that you never ask anyone else round to your on their own? Hmm, I wonder.”

Then about 5 minutes later, the phone rang. It was Gethin asking what the message was in aid of. I told him basically what the problem was and then ended the conversation and thought that was the end of it.

However, when Jake came to mine afterwards, we fell out over it cos he couldn’t see why I felt left out. He started saying stuff about uni too and how we’ll have to have our own friends then. I pointed out that this was different cos we’re both friends with Gethin and I don’t have a problem with him going out without me with his mates that I don’t know as well.

I couldn’t stop crying but then I was also upset about Grandma at the same time cos Mum rang me from work and said she’s really ill.

We eventually made up and he went to Venture Scouts.

Bye!