Saturday 23^rd It was sooo nice waking up with Jake this morning. We didn’t get up for quite a while cos it was nice just lying there. When we were all finally out of bed, we attempted to make breakfast. I did scrambled eggs, Michael did pancakes and Sarah did toast and bacon. Jake served it all up.

We were at Sarah’s nearly all day before going home and then meeting all our other friends in The Dog to do The Run. Cat really pissed me off at one point by having a go at me for asking her very loudly if she was going to “shag” Floyd. I didn’t say that at all. I know because I wouldn’t have phrased it like that. She must’ve just misheard something else but she wouldn’t listen to me when I said I hadn’t said that.

Everyone went back to Sarah’s tonight. We all sat about for a bit before going to bed. We all got out of bed again though to look at the dodgy books Cat and Gethin found in Sarah’s parents’ room. There was one that explained about threesomes and foursomes and incest and stuff. Weird!

Jake and I did stuff but he didn’t ask if I wanted to this time, he just assumed. He assumed right though. We talked for ages and I know we’re being doubly careful as I’m on the pill for my skin but it was still in the back of my mind about that there could be a tiny chance of an accident somehow. So I asked Jake what he’d do if that happened, just as a matter of interest. He said he definitely wouldn’t dump me and would support me in whatever I wanted to do but seemed in favour of abortion if anything happened at our age because we haven’t got any money etc.

He said ideally he’d want to have kids in his early 30s and would want 2 of them (a boy first then a girl). He said he’d rather have 2 girls than 2 boys cos he reckons they’d be easier. He also told me he wants to marry me again but said after uni cos he want to travel round the world first. When I asked him who with, I was hoping he’d say me but instead he said Charlie Wilson and a couple of other mates cos they all said they would. I wasn’t even mentioned! 😦

I then got pissed off (cos when he got back from Canada he said he wouldn’t go anywhere without me again) then I got upset and then tried to get a moth out of the room and managed to break the curtains. Jake then apologised and cuddled me but then said something about Wick which upset me even more cos it doesn’t look like we’re going this year cos Auntie S isn’t coping very well with looking after Grandma L cos she’s old and has lots wrong with her.

Jake then got upset too because I was upset and said he never wants to go anywhere without me again but just didn’t think when I asked cos he didn’t think I’d want to go with the lads. It’d still have been nice if he’d wanted to go with me though.

Bye!