Tuesday 15th Declan told me in college today that Robbie was winding Rory up on MSN last night so maybe he provoked the insults aimed at me. He also told me that Robbie was slagging him off too to Rory and everyone and that he does it to everyone. So he’s a bit of a bitch basically then!
Jake came to visit me during my free periods today. I met him outside school and noticed Rory walking in front of me. It made me giggle to myself a bit cos Jake had threatened to thump Rory (Haha!! Yeah, right!) if he saw him and I could see Rory flapping about and apologising. Ryan walked off ahead very quickly and as Jake and I rounded the corner, Clara (Jake’s sister) was at the bus stop. When she spotted us she started pointing at Rory and telling Jake to go after him! Apparently she thought Rory was shady for calling me a dog too!
I feel really upset tonight but I’m not sure why. I think it’s a combination of knowing people (i.e. Rory) have been slagging me off for no apparent reason, my ever looming exams (and the fact I’ve hardly revised for them yet!) and the subject of Jake’s dad apparently not liking me coming up in conversation between us again earlier.
Jake started asking why I’m “running” and hardly ever go to his house so I had to explain that I don’t feel particularly welcome knowing his bro said that his dad doesn’t like me and knowing his bro doesn’t like me for getting him bollocked for saying that! The conversation wasn’t getting anywhere so I eventually hung up cos I was really upset. I felt immediately guilty and tried to ring him back but he seems to have switched his phone off. I’ve left him an apology message on his answer machine and sent an apology text message too.
Part of my spine between my shoulder blades doesn’t feel quite right. It’s not really painful, just sort of uncomfortable.