Friday 27^th A fairly big group of us went with Sarah’s family to a Chinese restaurant in Manchester tonight. It’s for her 18^th birthday tomorrow so that was the excuse! The food was very nice! After we’d eaten, we all got let loose in Manchester. We started off in Soft. We knew it was quite good fun from last time so that’s where the serious drinking commenced!

After that we went to some cocktail bar in the Printworks. That’s when Sarah, Lizzie, Karen and Gethin decided they wanted lads so they split up from us and went to Infinity. Me, Jake, Floyd and Cat weren’t too keen on going cos we knew we’d end up looking after bags and trying to keep everyone else from going home with strangers!

The 4 of us went to Norwegian Blue which was really cool and Jake bought me a big blue cocktail! Most of us liked it in there but Cat said there weren’t enough men and convinced us to leave. That was when the night became crap!

We spent ages wandering round in the cold and rain trying to find somewhere we all wanted to go in but we couldn’t agree. I didn’t like wandering round Manchester at night, I didn’t feel safe so we all ended up back in Soft.

We were all pissed off with the others for leaving us behind and were in no way drunk and so got very bored. Actually, Cat was pissed and started crying cos she wanted Mr L and said Radiant Dan looked like a monkey on the photos we showed her. She then started making me feel guilty for being happy with Jake. She was also crying cos she didn’t want to snog Floyd but felt like she had to cos he bought her a drink! She was talking crap and snogged him anyway!

After sitting in complete boredom for 2 hours or so, we were very glad when the taxi arrived! It dropped me and Jake off at my house first so we were very relieved cos he was a dodgy driver! We sat in the kitchen for a bit and moaned about how crap it’d been before getting ready for bed.

Jake got in my bed and ended up staying there until about 5:30am! We kissed and cuddled a lot and some other stuff happened. I felt slightly under pressure to do things, although I know he wouldn’t force me. He did keep sort of hinting but I didn’t quite have the nerve to go for it! Then he was just about to go to the spare room but I stopped him. I felt like I was in a now or never situation but then he went in the spare room anyway. I’m confused! What did I do wrong?!

He then kept saying he loved me more than usual as if he said it to make me feel better but it didn’t work. Ugh! I’m confused! I wanted to ask what was wrong but felt stupid cos maybe I should know!

Bye!