Monday 2^nd
3 days to go!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

I’m sort of getting a bit worried about Jake coming home now. It was triggered by his email this morning. I mean, I really want him to come home but I’m scared that him being away for so long will have changed things between us.

In his email, he said how he prefers the bars and clubs there, and in other mails he’s gone on about how great everyone is there. I’m just worried that we’re all going to be too boring for him when he gets back after he’s met all these different people.

I feel sort of left out in a way cos I don’t know the people he’s spent the past 3 months with. Plus he’s been doing something he enjoys so coming back here is probably going to be crap in comparison. He also said in his email that the next few days are going to be good, basically cos he’ll be out getting pissed and I don’t like the thought of that! Surely if they’re as good as he thinks they’ll be then he’s going to not want to leave.

Oh, I don’t know what’s up with me really. I want everything to be like it was before he went (only without having to worry about him leaving) but I’m not sure it will be. I can just see him getting bored really easily but I don’t want him to get bored with me.

The other thing is that I don’t know whether I can handle him going on about it all cos I hate to admit it but I am really jealous cos I’ve not really got anything that even nearly matches that to say that I’ve done.

Oh dear, I very nearly got upset then but I’m okay now. I hope all that is just be being daft and I hope it’s even better when he gets back than it was before he went. We’ve got things like Barcelona to look forward to as well. The thing is that I really don’t know what’s going to happen so I’m just going to have to take things as they come.

It’s Denny’s birthday today so he bought a big meal think for a group of us at The Coach at lunch which I thought was really nice of him. Hardly anyone realised it was his birthday cos he’s having a party for it in May so we all just assumed that it was nearer the end of April!

Karen was back in college today. She says she spent a lot of last week worrying cos she was sick in the mornings with the bug she had. She says that she’s okay no but is still a bit worried about what she did with Big Paul cos it was only about 2 months ago at the end of January. She says she keeps checking her weight and she’s not gained any but she’s considering getting a pregnancy test just to put her mind at rest!

After college today there was me, Emma and a few of the College 1 lads hanging about so Emma took the opportunity to ask them if Robbie had mentioned the message she sent him on Friday. They said that he’d mentioned getting a message from her but he said it only said that she was bored and in a pub in town! Emma said it definitely sent so it’s a bit of a mystery as to where it went! Someone’s going to try and get hold of his phone tomorrow to see if he did get it or not. He could’ve thought it was one of his mates messing about and so didn’t want to react to it. Maybe we’ll find out tomorrow.

Jake rang at about 9:45pm. He said the assessment thing went okay for him but some people messed up. He says that he really does want to come home but the bars and stuff there are better than Warrington and other places round here. He says he’ll miss Banff and the people there a bit but he does want to come back.  He asked why I don’t believe him but I couldn’t answer cos I sort of do but I’m a bit unsure. He said he’ll try and email me tonight and will ring at about 5pm tomorrow.

Bye!

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