Sunday 1st Just after I woke up this morning, Jake sent me a message saying, “HI! : ) ARE YOU AWAKE? I’VE JUST WOKEN UP! ARE YOU OK?… FEELING LESS TIRED? CAN WE PUT FRI NIGHT BEHIND US?… I DON’T WANT YOU TO FEEL AWFUL/GUILTY! IT’S MY FAULT ANYWAY! IF I’D NOT BEEN SO SLOW IN LETTING YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LIKED YOU WE’D PROBABLY HAVE BEEN TOGETHER LONGER THAN WE HAVE NOW!… THAT’S IF YOU WOULDN’T HAVE GOT BORED OF ME BY NOW! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I NEVER WANT THAT TO CHANGE! LOTS OF HUGS N CUDDLES! : ) xxx JAKE xxx”.
This evening, Jake and I went and sat down that lane again. At one point, the man with the dogs went past us again!
Jake was being a bit quiet so when I got in, I texted him to see if he was okay and he said, “NO I’M NOT SLEEPY TIRED… JUST FEELING LAZY! THINKING ABOUT LOTS OF STUFF – DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY AFTER THOSE MESSAGES LAST NIGHT – DIDN’T REALLY WANNA TALK ABOUT DERBY BUT I KNEW YOU WERE THINKING ABOUT IT! DON’T WANT YOU TO… JUST FORGET ABOUT IT! YEH IT WAS A WASTED OPPORTUNITY – BUT IF YOU DIDN’T WANT TO COS OF THE CIRCUMSTANCES THEN YOU WOULDN’T HAVE ENJOYED IT AND YOU’D HAVE REGRETTED IT COS OF SARAH AND MAZ! xJx”.
Bye!
Tuesday 3rd It’s Jake’s birthday today so I sent him a message just after midnight and he said, “AAAAHH THANKS! : ) LOVE YOU LOTS + LOTS + LOTS + LOTS + LOTS TOO! I’M GLAD YOU’RE THE 1ST PERSON TO WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY! YOU’RE THE ONE WHO MEANS THE MOST TO ME!”
He came into college this morning so people could give him cards and then he brought me home so I could give him his present. He really does like it actually and he’s called it Preston cos it reminds him of the dog off Wallace and Gromit!
We then went to McDonald’s at lunch and he stopped off on the way home too at his house. Their cleaner was there and she saw Preston and seemed to like it too! Later on, Jake texted me to tell me his brother though Preston was top and that his dad couldn’t stop laughing when he saw it!
This evening, Jake and I went to the cinema to see Me, Myself and Irene which was pretty good. We had a good time and stopped off down the lane on the way home but not for long cos I had to get home. He told me he’s had a really good birthday 🙂 I’m glad!
Bye!
Wednesday 4th During college, Jake and I texted each other and the Derby subject came up (again). This time he said, “YOU WOULDN’T REALLY HAVE WANTED TO SO YOU WOULD ONLY BE DOING IT FOR ME?!? IF I WASN’T GOING ANYWHERE IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT BUT I CAN’T GO TO CANADA WITHOUT DOING IT!” He could!
The he sent a slightly cringe message which said, “I FEEL AWFUL AS IT IS! I WANNA LEAVE KNOWING I’VE GIVEN YOU ALL THE LOVE I HAVE TO GIVE! IT MEANS A LOT TO ME AND I WANNA LOVE YOU FOREVER!” Hmm, if we hadn’t been going out for so long, I’d think he was sleazing his way into getting what he wanted but I know him and I think he’s being truthfully actually!
I went round to his for a bit after college but then I had to go kickboxing. It was the grading tonight and I am now a green belt! 🙂
Bye!
SEE YOU IN THE NEXT DIARY!!!
Tessa x 🙂
If Destroyed Still True 