He’d probably end up regretting it – 3rd September 2000

Sunday 3rd I went round to Jake’s house today. There was no-one else in so we just sat and watched MTV and cuddled and kissed etc. Some other stuff too. We didn’t have that long cos I was working tonight.

It was actually alright at work tonight. There’s this girl called Gemma who’s my age who was working tonight and she seems really nice. I just talked to her when there wasn’t much to do. She only works in the holidays though cos she goes to stage school in London.

I’ve had a few messages from Jake tonight. He said something like he doesn’t want uni to split us up so I asked him if he wants me to go to Huddersfield too. He said, “WHEN I’M ALONE I START THINKING ABOUT STUFF LIKE THAT! YOU KNOW I’M PARANOID! I WOULD LIKE IT IF YOU WERE AT HUDDERSFIELD TOO! WHEN I’M AWAY FROM YOU I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU SO I WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO CONCENTRATE! I JUST DON’T WANT US TO DRIFT APART THROUGH BEING BUSY WITH WORK ETC! THAT WOULD BE HORRIBLE! LOVE xJx”.

I told him that we shouldn’t drift apart and he said, “I HOPE THAT’S THE CASE! I KNOW WE’VE GOT LIVES TO LEAD BUT YOU’VE GOTTA BE HAPPY – AND I’M NOT GONNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! I MAY SOUND SOFT BUT I LOVE YOU AND I DON’T WANT THAT TO CHANGE! IT’S STUPID BUT I’M BEGINNING TO NOT WANT TO GO TO UNI AT ALL! ALL I CARE ABOUT IS YOU! xJx”.

That’s really flattering but I hate to think I’d change his mind about going to uni. I’d feel so guilty cos he’d probably end up regretting it. He’s probably just tired or something!

Bye!

 

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