Wednesday 21st Jake came round to my house this afternoon. My parents weren’t in and Abby had Connor over so I said it was okay for him to come. We really didn’t do much at all! We went to the chippy at lunch and on the way back we took a detour down Mowley Common Lane to see where the cricketer lives cos Hayley said it’s number 14. If it is then we noticed a creamy coloured Beetle at the back of the garage! Hayley also told me his phone number because it’s only got a one number difference to mine. I think she’s decided it’s some sort of sign cos her “best” friend’s got a similar number! Whatever!
After that, we got back, got bored and so took Rosie for a walk round the field and through the woods. We kissed whenever she stopped to sniff at something, just to pass the time of course. On the way back it started raining so we both got totally soaked. He told me I look funny when I’m wet! Cheers!
We went in my room when we got back but didn’t do much cos we kept getting interrupted by Abby or someone on the phone for me. Once it was Gethin telling me to tell Jake to phone him and he made me really suspicious when he wouldn’t say why!
Kickboxing was good tonight. We were doing the combinations for the grading next week and Dave the instructor came over to me and Abby, told us what we were doing was excellent and then he asked how come we can do it but none of the other girls can?! We were pleased about that!
I got a message as soon as I’d finished kickboxing from Jake saying, “HI!!! : ) I KNOW YOU’RE AT K’BOXING SO I WON’T SEND U MSGS ASKING WHY YOU HAVEN’T REPLIED! : ) I’M SORRY – I AGREED LAST WEEK WITH GETHIN THAT WE’D GO TRAFFORD CENTRE ON OUR OWN TMW! : ( x”.
I was sooo annoyed when I read that cos he’d said earlier that I’d get to see him tomorrow. I think I was annoyed at Gethin for preventing us from being together and annoyed at Jake for agreeing to go! Basically, I was just totally disappointed at the thought of not seeing him cos he’s going away to Europe soon!
I sent him one back asking why they were going and stuff and he said, “I’M SORRY! I ONLY REMEMVERED WHEN I RANG HIM BEFORE! IT WAS COZ HE WAS FEELING DOWN WHEN EVERYONE WAS ANNOYED WITH HIM! DID YOU HEAR WHAT SARAH SENT HAYLEY IN A MSG? xJx”. I think he was trying to change the subject at the end of that message!
I was still so angry after that one! I felt like crying but I just about managed to control myself for fear of turning into Hayley (crying all the time)!! I then told Jake that I wasn’t annoyed with Gethin anymore and asked if it was cos he had more stuff to tell Gethin, which was a bit of a dig about the cruise thing!
He said, “IT’S NOT JUST COS OF THAT – THINK HE JUST LIKES TALKING TO ME! HAVEN’T GO ANYTHING TO TELL HIM! WHAT AND WHY WOULD I TELL HIM? IT’S ONLY LIKE YOU AND SARAH GOING SHOPPING.”
I explained that I’d meant that he always seems to tell Gethin everything but then I thought I was being a bit hard on him cos he’s allowed to have friends! I put after that that it didn’t matter and that I was just being selfish. I pointed out that he always comes with me and Sarah if he can. I then got 3 in reply saying, “: ( DON’T SAY THAT – YOU ALWAYS SAY IT DOESN’T MATTER! IT DOES! DO YOU THINK I LIKE BEING APART? COS I HATE IT! I WANT U TO COME!! BUT I AGREED!…” and then, “(HE TOLD ME YOU HAD AN EXAM) YOU’RE RIGHT – I DO GO WITH YOU AND SARAH! ONLY TOLD GETHIN ABOUT THE HOLIDAY COS I DIDN’T WANT TO UPSET YOU FOR NO REASON! I FEEL AWFUL NOW!…” and lastly, “I DON’T WANT 1 SECOND WITHOUT YOU, NEVER MIND 1 DAY! I LOVE YOU! x”.
If he was trying to make me forgive him with the last message then it worked! I told him that my exam finished at 11:00 am and whinged about him going away in a week and a half! He said, “WELL HE’LL JUST HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THE 2 OF US THEN! I DON’T WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS ALL OF 2MORROW! I DON’T KNOW WHY HE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND…” and then, “BUT THEN MAYBE HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE! – I DO AND I DON’T CARE WHAT HE SAYS ABOUT IS ALWAYS BEING 2GETHER – YOU’RE COMING! LOVE xJx”.
That message pleased me a lot to begin with cos he wants me to go but then I started feeling guilty cos I felt like I’d forced my way into being able to go! I told him pretty much that and he said, “THIS IS SILLY! NOW WE BOTH FEEL AWFUL! NO YOU’VE GOTTA COME! ANYWAY I FORGOT – MY BRO IS COMING – HE CAN TALK TO GETHIN! NEED 2 C U! DON’T NEED TO CHAT – WE’RE NOT GIRLS! x”.
I asked why his brother was going and he told me, “COS HE’S FINISHED HIS EXAMS AND DOESN’T WANT TO BE STUCK AT HOME ALONE! YOU’VE REALLY CHEERED ME UP NOW! : ) CAN’T IMAGINE WHAT LIFE WOULD BE LIKE WITHOUT YOU! xxx”.
I’m not sure how I’d cheered him up but I was certainly happier than after I’d got the 1st message!