Tuesday 11^th I’ve had a really bad day today at college and it’s all because of that bloody confusion last night.

Jake normally comes up to the common room to see me at every possible opportunity but he didn’t at all today. When he didn’t turn up at break I just assumed he was doing his Tech project but I got worried when, by the end of lunch, I still hadn’t seen him so I sent him a text message asking if he was in college. He replied, “I’M SO SORRY : ( I’M IN – I’M SULKING IN A CORNER BECAUSE I’M UPSET + DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO YOU! WHY DID SARAH HAVE TO DO THAT?? LOVE YOU! xxx : ) xxx”.

I felt sick all afternoon because of that. I thought we’d got it all sorted out last night but that message gave me the impression he was annoyed with me. I sent him one back asking why he was upset and he just said that he’d got no sleep last night and he was annoyed because he thought Sarah had been stirring it.

We got it sorted out in the end and he came up to see me after college. I tried to ask him then what was wrong and he just kept starting to say something then stopping then telling me he didn’t want to talk about it. He did say that you can’t tell with texts what’s a joke and what’s not. He’s right.

I was beginning to get annoyed because he wasn’t telling me anything and eventually decided to go home. He then started apologising and held out his hand for mine and looked really pathetic. I just can’t stay mad with him! He’s too sweet! I held his hand but said I had to go (I did too cos my mum was waiting) but he asked if he could have a kiss and made me feel sorry for him again. We snogged and made up anyway!

When I got home, I sent him a text asking if he was okay and apologising for being weird with him after college. He sent me one back saying, “YOU WEREN’T BEING WEIRD BUT U HAD EVERY REASON TO! I’M FINE NOW – HAPPY IT’S SORTED OUT! YEP, I’M AFRAID TO TELL YOU THAT YOU’LL BE SEEING ME TOMORROW : ) LOVE YOU x”.

I sent one back asking again why he’d been upset and sulking in hope of a proper answer. I got one saying, “BECAUSE I GOT THE IMPRESSION U WEREN’T TOO PLEASED WITH MY MSGS LAST NIGHT! I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND + HOLIDAYS – GONNA BE TOP! LOVE YOU LOADS JAKE xxxxx”.

I explained that I wasn’t annoyed by his messages and that I’d just been confused as to whether he wanted to know if I’d sleep with him or if Gethin had pressured him into asking. He replied, “AFTER THIS MSG WE’RE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT IT! I WAS ASKING COS I WANTED TO KNOW – GETHIN JUST KEPT TALKING ABOUT U BEING SO HAPPY! : ) LOVE YOU TO BITS J x”.

I replied to him then by saying, “: ) THAT’D BE COS I AM HAPPY! IF U WERE ASKING COS U WANT TO KNOW THEN SORRY I DIDN’T ANSWER U LAST NIGHT. I DO WANT TO BUT LET’S JUST SEE HOW IT GOES, HEY? LOVE T x”.

I didn’t get a reply to that one. I could’ve meant 2 things by that though. Either I do want to answer the question or I do want to sleep with him. I actually meant the latter but didn’t realise it could mean anything else until I read through it. I don’t really want to just yet though.

I got another message from him later saying he’d been doing Samba Band at Venture Scouts (sad!) and something about not letting him drink too much at the weekend. I asked if I was allowed to get him a bit drunk and he said, “YEH YOU’RE ALLOWED TO GET ME A BIT DRUNK – JUST MAKE SURE I DON’T HAVE 2 MUCH UNLESS YOU’RE WILLING TO NURSE ME TO MY BED! LOVE J x”. I told him that it wasn’t such a bad idea!

Ages ago, this lad called Reevesy went out with Zoe but dumped her because he liked me. I got a message from him this morning saying, “HI REEVSEY ERE! HOW U DOING? I’M IN FRENCH + ITS WANK! I’M NOW WORKING AT PIZZA HUT. C YA”. I have no idea what triggered that but I was too worried about Jake to be bothered finding out!

Bye!