Big eyes and doesn’t speak – 20th & 21st November 1999

Saturday 20th I’ve felt really happy again today. I hope this lasts. It doesn’t normally which is what I’m worried about. I just don’t want this to end.

Hayley put a stop to my good mood for a while when I spoke to her on the phone. I was telling her how it was quite good last night but she didn’t really miss much and I told her that Ste didn’t go either because he was a bit nervous about seeing Hayley according to the lads. Hayley then started calling him soft and a wimp and saying that he was really pathetic not going because of her.

That pissed me off so much! The reason for her not going was because she thought he was. I can’t believe she can turn round and call him a soft, pathetic wimp when she’s no better herself.

I told her how I really liked Leon then immediately wished I hadn’t bothered because then she began to say how they were all a bit soft and gave me her opinion of each of them. These are Hayley’s opinions:

Reevesy – Big + stupid.
Brett – Just stands there all hunched over + stares.
Leon – Just stares at you with his big eyes + doesn’t speak.

Little cow! Why can’t she just be pleased? Even if she can’t help but be jealous or whatever’s wrong with her, she could at least keep her opinions to herself.

That’s really annoyed me. I had to try really hard to control myself from saying something to her when she came out with that bollocks!

Lizzie’s got a mobile. Her number’s 07*** ***405. She’s on the Orange network and so’s Leon and I’m with Vodafone like Brett so we’ve decided to swap phones when we want to speak to them then it’s cheaper!

God I like Leon so much!! I hope he likes me as much as I like him but I’m not convinced he does. I’ll be so gutted if we stop seeing each other which is why I’m worried behind being pleased. The more I see him, the more I like him and I’m scared I’m going to end up miserable.

I’ve had enough bad luck with friends and stuff in the past, I know what it’s like to get my hopes up and then be thoroughly disappointed. It’s happened too many times and it’s not nice. I just don’t want it to happen again.


Sunday 21st Now Lizzie’s got a mobile, it’s been her turn to be slightly freaked out by messages. She text messaged me to say that Brett had sent her one telling her that Zoe and Reevesy split up today and then he said something about wanting to ask her something but that he didn’t want it to change anything between them.

I sent one to Lizzie saying that he probably wants to take their relationship a stage further. I wasn’t being totally serious but it looks as if that’s where things might be heading. You see, Brett sent a message back to her asking if she’d lost her virginity yet. Now I’m sure we can all take a good guess as to where he’s heading with this one.

As for the Zoe and Reevesy break up, well, it wasn’t so long ago that she was seriously considering sleeping with him after he’d asked her to do so at Freda’s party. I suspect she was the one that broke up with him though now she’s got a thing for Brett.

I hope Lizzie and Brett don’t split up any time soon. For a start I think they make a nice couple but on the selfish side of things, it’d make seeing Leon all the more difficult.

I hope Lizzie doesn’t end up going all the way with Brett. She could well end up regretting it. I doubt she’d be that stupid but then a lot of people have been doing things I wouldn’t expect of them recently e.g. Cat Elliot!

I still really, really, really like Leon!!!


2 thoughts on “Big eyes and doesn’t speak – 20th & 21st November 1999

  1. “I’ve felt really happy again today. I hope this lasts. It doesn’t normally which is what I’m worried about. I just don’t want this to end.”

    Have you been reading my teenage diaries??Literally every page is littered with ‘I FEEL HAPPY TODAY OH GOD THIS MEANS I’M GOING TO FEEL SAD ANY SECOND’.

    This is just so frighteningly accurate and relatable.

    And “Brett – Just stands there all hunched over + stares” – Brett sounds like a weirdo. I bet Brett is now a police chief or something.

    Thank you for sharing these, they are pure gold! 🙂


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