I was thinking about Finn. Babe! – 8th & 9th July 1998

Wednesday 8th I had an even better day at work today. We were doing the mosaic thing again but it was mostly finishing off in the morning. I thought that Finn and Adam weren’t coming coz every time I heard the door open it wasn’t them. Eventually they arrived but they went up the other end.

After break, I went up and helped them with the caterpillar and so did Bella. We were just sticking on loose tiles, cleaning them and painting the grout black. They looked good when they were finished. We were all just talking and messing about a bit.

We went home for lunch and Adam walked with me and Bella. They were talking. I was thinking about Finn. Babe!

It was even better in the afternoon coz Adam didn’t come back coz he had to go to school but Finn came back and was there when we arrived, although I didn’t expect he would be. We carried on with the caterpillar and then a photographer came from the Warrington Guardian came. We had to carry out all the flagstones and lay them on the grass then all the kids lay on their stomachs behind them. Then when we went back inside it was all tidying up. We had to sweep our area, put the tiles in a storeroom, chip the tiles off the ones that didn’t get finished and then we had a game of rounders at the end of it all.

All day Finn was being nice to me. He and Bella kept having water and cement fights and he kept taking the piss out of her saying ‘wicked’ all the time and her injuring kids. At the start of the afternoon, Bella went off to help sort summit with a woman who was tidying stuff and Finn and I were left. He just brushed stuff into a pile for me to get in the dustpan. Then he went off to store spare tiles and I had nowt to do.

I wandered up to where he was and he beckoned me over to help carry boxes and stuff. We then decided to go out and see what Bella was up to. She was chipping off bits of tile so we helped. A bit. Bella slapped his arm for some reason and he had a hand mark and kept showing me. She then shoved a kid against a wall accidentally and he cut his finger and Finn kept getting me to agree with him that she was snidey. I did, of course.

We all went in again and started tidying around the sink area. I was mopping up water with paper towels and Finn got a paint brush (one of those big, soft ones) and started tickling my nose with it gently. I told him to get off (nicely) and he did it on my cheek instead.

He also put some black paint on my arm gently and looked at me. I tried to do it back but there was none left in the bottle.

All day he was stood really close to me and was usually touching me. He’s so gorgeous I just didn’t mind. I could also see him looking at me out of the corner of my eye and smiling to himself a bit.

When we were playing rounders, he got picked before Bella and I did and then then he said summit to the kid and I got picked. The kid wouldn’t have known my name. Bella was on the other team and I think he thinks she’s soft anyway coz she was moaning about a broken nail, being wet and coz I wasn’t on her team.

Anyway, we were fielding 1st. I went to 3rd base, he went to 1st base but moved to field over my side and he came closer and closer in towards me. I wasn’t complaining! It was our turn to bat and he stood by me in the queue. I missed 1st time then I got a rounder (yeah!) but then he got 2 more for our team.

Some little girl threw the bat as she ran and it came spinning and hurtling towards Finn’s head. He just ducked out of the way as it skimmed his head. I nearly swore extremely loudly but remembered there were kids about so changed it to flipping heck. It was so bloody close though!

Finn kept saying he had to go coz he had to get food from Marks + Spencer for a camping trip. He didn’t go, he came back in with us, said bye and left just before we did. I’ll probably never see him again now. I tried to get a photo but I think he put his hand in front of the camera or walked off it.

He wears like a gold chain round his neck and a cygnet ring but it sort of looks nice on him. I really liked him as well. You see, you never know where you could meet someone.

I got loads of info about him as well today. I found out:

  • He’s 17.
  • He’s called Finn Ashworth which I found out when he was signing a tile for a girl.
  • He’s lived near there all his life and I heard some girl said, “You live in Duckson Grove, don’t you?” to him.

So, when I got in tonight, I got the phone book and looked him up. He’s under J Ashworth and his address is 45 Duckson Grove and his phone number’s (01925) ******.

I also found out he played cricket at the Sports Club but he’s not in the club. He likes cricket and rugby but not football.

Then I started thinking about one of the reasons why I wouldn’t go out with Ralph. It was because of the fit lads in the Sports Club whilst the World Cup was on. There was one particular lad that Hayley mentioned who played cricket there who she’d seen a couple of times. She said she’d seen him on a bus which was going or coming from the direction of where he lives. Funnily enough, the description she gave me fits Finn. I think it’s him you know.

There’s also an explanation as to why he wasn’t watching the World Cup there – he doesn’t like football. Also, he’s not there every time the club is as Finn’s not actually in the club. It’s gotta be him.

I phoned Hayley up and told her. She said the same thing. Maybe I will see him again. The only thing is that if I did I bet he’ll have forgotten me or he’ll be with his mates and won’t say hi. It’s unlikely we’d be there at the same time though. There’s a chance it might not be him too. I hope it is and he recognises me and talks to me.

I’m so worried that the photo didn’t come out and I’ll never see him again.


[We were so deprived. Teenagers now can gaze at their beloveds all they like with some simple social media stalking. What luxury! Even if Facebook etc had existed in the ’90s, at the speed our dial-up internet chugged along at, there was no way I could’ve had a successful internet stalking mission in my allotted time (half an hour from 7 pm) anyway.]

Thursday 9th I want Finn.

I’ve been pretty miserable all day and Miss C made me feel worse. All you have to do is look at her face and you’re suicidal! No, maybe she doesn’t have a very good life but it’s still no need to take it out on the kids.

I still want Finn. He’s not gonna come back.


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