Wednesday 19th What a day! [I predict that I’m about to make a mountain out of a molehill.] I’ll start from the beginning.
I woke up this morning and remembered I had an assembly. It was the 1st time for a while I have actually felt awake in the morning. It was a horrible feeling, the thought of everyone in my year looking at me. I really felt sick. I tried not to think about it and kept reminding myself that we had a practice 1st but it didn’t work. I still felt absolutely awful! I was going to ask Mum if I could have a day off but I knew it wouldn’t work coz I’d already asked her the night before.
I got to school and forgot about the assembly for a while coz I was trying to make Emma break her sponsored silence. That was until the bell went and it was panic time again. We went into our tutor room and had a sort of run through and everyone got changed and Oasis got their sidies drawn on with eyeliner.
Mr M then came in and told us the Drama Studio was free so we (Aarghhh!!! ‘You Sexy Thing’ has just come on the radio! That’s the song Ralph keeps singing!) could go in there and rehearse. I felt slightly better after that until we had to go behind the curtain and the rest of the year walked in. Mr M took ages giving notices and stuff and we were all getting really nervous.
Eventually we started and our turn to go on came pretty quickly. I wanted to see where Dougie was but I didn’t want to look coz I knew he’d be looking at me!
My turn to speak came and I bloody well forgot what I had to say. I think I managed something along the lines of what I was meant to say. I just wanted to get off stage!
It seemed to be over pretty quickly, you know, once it was done with! I stood by the edge of the curtain so I could see who was sitting where. I saw Ralph, Freddie and Dougie all sitting together and at one point they were all looking over and grinning at me.
It wasn’t all over coz at the end we had to go on and wave our arms about at the Oasis song (‘Supersonic’) so then the three of ‘em just laughed at me!
Nothing else happened until Geography. We were just discussing the cinema and stuff then Dougie sort of put his hand to his mouth and said to Neil K (whilst looking at me), “Guess who Ralph fancies”. I immediately tuned in and then I knew what was about to come. Neil went, “Who, Emma?” Dougie told him no and pointed discretely at me. Neil guessed and went, “What, Tess?” I turned round and went, “WHAT?” Dougie said, “Ralph really fancies you”.
I wanted to ask him what Ralph had been saying but I had to turn around coz I couldn’t stop smiling to myself!
I actually thought that, now the assembly was done with, I didn’t have much else to worry about. Then I got this from Poppy (after Dougie and Neil read it):
Well, I think that’s it for today and for this diary except Dougie sarcastically (I think) said I was “stunning” in assembly this morning! [That was most definitely sarcasm.]
[Who are these fans? I never wanted anyone to read this, EVER!]